papillon noir

no more let life devide what death can join together

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Daily SU file updates from Stefan Hubenov on Vimeo.

HTFDI

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Bootstraps - Can't Get You Out Of My Head from Stefan Hubenov on Vimeo.

Cover version of Kylie Minogue's single by Bootstraps.

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ludovico from Stefan Hubenov on Vimeo.

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Spoon - I Ain't The One from Stefan Hubenov on Vimeo.

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I know

I know

You don’t think of me at all.

Only with the nightmares I can come;

Just to remember that I lost you past recall.

While shelter his embraces become

Nothing to hold on – I fall.

I know

I know

You don’t dream of me at all

I feared, I killed, and now you’re gone

But to the mem’ry of you I am drawn

Like a plague I took your youth

Was it all bad? Tell me the truth!

You know

You know

No one will hurt you anymore.

Someone else now keeps you warm;

He will never do you harm.

Nor a single tear you’ll ever shed;

Even when they tell you I am dead.

You don’t know

You don’t know

How it hurts to let you go

Knowing soon enough I’ll fade

Your word is cold as blade

But forever I shall wish for thee

With the only dream that you’ll be free

You know

My little prince you’ll always stay

You know

I’ll wait you till the end of day

You know...

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cute

the fog came in the morning today it stayed awhile then went away i opened my window to let it in but it took it as invitation to sin and backed far off with nervous grin while i beckoned to the offing fog like a large rabbit, or else a dog.

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late night romance

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHdylh210Ho)

a beautiful return <3 

it sounds epic and dark, however there is a glimpse of hope at the end

where religion meets its creator

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Today is The National Coming Out Day but I feel I would rather come in ... and wait for better days.

Feeling the need to advocate one's preferences and shouting them out to others is just as oppressing as forcing left-handed child to use its right hand because it is “normal”. Yeah – it will work on some but at what cost. You don't have to defend yourself. Ignorance does not tollerate perfect argumentation. The need for day like this should be offending to people of all races, religions, beliefs, and gender identities. Self-identity should not be an object of appraisal by anyone outside us. There is just a certain crowd of individuals who desperately feels the need to distinguish themselves - religion fanatics, sexists, homophobes, racists - ignorant people in general. Honestly – I don’t think anyone should care who are you sleeping with, how do you dress, how do you call yourself, or if you believe in God, or eat meat. This is not what makes you bad; this is what differentiates you from the rest. If it doesn’t cause damage, is not bad. And it is ironic how one of the most repressed parts of our society – the LGBTQ community – is probably the most prejudiced and judgmental. Here’s a short excerpt from an article by Amrou Al-Kadhi for the web platform i-D - “...And here are some things I've bumped into on my virtual meanderings - "White Guys Only. No Terrorists, Chinks, Currys. No Fems" (taken from a Grindr Profile), and, "Only into: FIT BLOKES, smooth, muscled arses & quads…NO: TWINKS, Chests like "toast racks in wet paper bags, & NO HAIR" (taken from a Grindr Profile)...”* I believe this would be applicable for all the rest of the LGBTQ communities. Sexualizing our differences to such extent and idealising sex for me just proves that aggressively coming out is a way of showing how provocative one could be. We should work towards a society in which everyone could be whoever they want to be without having to exclusively proclaim it in order to draw attention. This however will not happen by conducting a gay orgy in the centre of Baghdad. This will be effective like building Democracy by bombings. It is through education and guidance. Setting an example. No one should need to come out. We are all out. And fiercely declaring our uniqueness, queerness and desire to defy, we end up even more estranged from the world we accuse of casting us aside. There is nothing to come out of – it is all in our heads.

*https://i-d.vice.com/en_gb/article/the-death-of-spontaneity-in-the-gay-community

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhBewKu80Mg)

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Breakthrough

You have put your heart in a lair

It wants to breathe but no air

And each flame I try to start

Ends up with me torn apart

 Let me undo the pain

That from others still remains

You made your mind that this is only for a while

But I do want forever your smile.

SH

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dW6aNAZGTM)

Six feet deep is the inscision

In my heart, that barless prison

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From lechery we’re bred.

May this grave be our bed!

No satin linen for the sinner

To the worms we’ll be dinner

In your light I’m ever drawn.

This moth, depravity, shall only spawn.

Thy pale skin will be the gown

Of thorns I’ll make you a crown.

As darkness always tries to cover light,

Oblivion will marry us tonight!

Once again innocence failed -

Within carnality we’re truly unveiled.

I’ll feast on your body but I came for your soul;

And maybe with you I’d finally be whole.

The taste your nectar keeps me alive,

My pestilent bites cause you to thrive.

This dance is macabre yet is so sweet;

For evermore thy heart shall lost its beat.

Death follows dead, and thus we’re reborn;

But never again should we see the morn.

SH

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Once you go black you never go back! #black #chocolate #dark #lindt (at Ampersand on Crown Cafe Bar & Bookstore)

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When your korean chef makes you Tarator because of the heat! Preach! #tarator #fighttheheat (at Ampersand on Crown Cafe Bar & Bookstore)

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Shit got real! #hot #melt #sun #heatstroke #help #no (at Ampersand on Crown Cafe Bar & Bookstore)

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Да се надяваме, че остарявам като вино - отиваме към оцет :D #wine #самсиговзехсамщесигопия

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speaks for itself