true love waits

Delilah Baker | 15 | Lover of Christ, Cats and Ballet | "I've always known that in another life, I could fly. That's why, in this life, I dance."

[delilahsbaker]

text to lilah.

Brie: sorry, i guess i just don't understand it? like, i dunno i've been agnostic for as long as i can remember. having a brother born in the wrong body will do that to you...but i get it. like, the decision you made is also a you thing. your parents should accept that should it ever get out. and i don't think your parents would disown you...like, at all. they love you, lilah.

Brie: then what are you gonna say if they keep questioning you??

Brie: you know, if you say you left it at jonahs that's not a lie either...like maybe you took it off to wash your hands or something?

Brie: op. sorry, fam.

Lilah: i think God has a plan for adam and being trans is a part of that plan... they won't. and i dunno maybe not disown me and like i get that they love me but i feel like i can already hear my dad's voice telling me that he doesnt even know who i am anymore.

Lilah: that i lost it and it could be anywhere, which for the record, it could be, technically.

Lilah: yeah but saying i left it at jonahs would like raise more questions. and they'd ask why i couldn't get it back from jonahs.

Lilah: he's more experienced than i am so theres that

[delilahsbaker]

text to lilah.

Brie: i mean, my mom tried to get me to do that whole purity pledge thing when we were regularly going to church and i signed the form but i guess that was like...not that important to us and considering i lost my virginity at 15, that wasn't that important to me either. idk. it's a personal thing, but it's still okay that you had sex as long as you don't regret it.

Brie: that's technically not a lie! say you wore it to dance, took it off, and now you can't find it.

Brie: sooooo

Brie: was it good? was jonah good? -suggestive emoji-

Lilah: yeah but that wasn't a you thing and this was a me thing. and i mean i dont regret it cause i love jonah and i mean, it's fine cause the whole idea is that you're supposed to be committed to one person and jonahs my person and there won't be anyone else so its nbd. but like, my parents don't see it that way, and i know its not easy for any parents to watch their kids grow up but like your brother has a baby and your parents didnt like murder him and i think if that happened to me my parents would like... send me away or disown me or something.

Lilah: that would be a lie cause i can find it. and i can't say that i don't know where i left it either cause i know that too.

Lilah: that's kinda personal.

[delilahsbaker]

text to lilah.

Brie: how so?

Brie: well, are you?

Brie: i mean i guess you can just physically actually sleep together...I mean, i've literally slept with zig, and he bolded that on mine, so...sorry. :c

Lilah: your whole life hasn't been built on being morally opposed to sex before marriage. plus, i mean, i never would have met jonah if it weren't for the whole christian thing

Lilah: .................................................

Lilah: okay fine well lyings a sin too and i guess you'd figure it out anyway since i'm currently ringless

Lilah: WHICH BY THE WAY my parents have been on me about and i had to tell them i lost it which isn't technically a lie, right?

[delilahsbaker]

text to lilah.

Brie: li, there's nothing to be ashamed of. lol.

Brie: i've had sex with three different guys and am currently having sex with my boyfriend

Brie: well i mean not at this moment but you know what i meant.

Brie: but yeah, like, it's fine. sex is good. kc and i have really good moments before, during, and after you know when we're not fucking laughing at each other. it's cool.

Lilah: that's different though. and i never said i was having sex with jonah you're jumping to conclusions.

[delilahsbaker]

text to lilah.

Brie: what are you hiding from me????

Brie: -thinking emojis-

Brie: -angel emoji, bed emoji, two hearts emoji, that david bowie looking rockstar emoji-

Lilah: -gritted teeth emojis-

[delilahsbaker]

★ - jonah

I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

[delilahsbaker]

★

I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

[bunchofrpmemes]

Send my character a ★ and I’ll bold everything they feel toward your character.

I like you // I love you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’d kill you if I got the chance // I want you to like me // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I pity you // I respect you // I trust you // I feel protective of you // I’d invite you with me to parties // I’d lend you my money // I’d borrow your money // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // I’m upset with you // You’re nice // You’re mean // I’m envious of you // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I look up to you // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

[delilahsbaker]

@jonahminusthewhale: best christmas ever. lead worship for two days, spent time with the most beautiful girl and my family, and ate a ridiculous amount of cupcakes.

@delilahsbaker: @jonahminusthewhale ❤❤❤

[delilahsbaker]

text to brie

Brie: Oh god.

Brie: Of course he is. That's what he does.

Brie: Do you think he's going to leave her once he fucks her or?

Brie: I'm sorry that sounded super harsh.

Brie: Omg.

Brie: https://images-na.ssl-images-amazon.com/images/I/51VK6gzvNqL.jpg

Brie: This is available on Amazon and I can hack into Drew's prime account. lol.

Lilah: of course

Lilah: it does sound harsh because he's harsh and thats what hes gonna do

Lilah: i think ellies a sweet girl but i doubt bryce cares about her heart and he's probably only interested for the challenge. she doesnt deserve this.

Lilah: brie, i can't physically harm him. i'm pretty sure assault is a sin.

[delilahsbaker]

text to brie

Brie: OH!

Brie: Forget what I said. lol.

Brie: I mean, you can, but I don't know what good it's going to do. He's pretty good at keeping a girl sucked in. So, it's up to you.

Brie: How bad do you think his intentions are?

Brie: lol who am I kidding? They're bad.

Lilah: really bad, i'm sure

Lilah: like, he's definitely gonna try to get her to sleep with him. which is bad. really bad.

Lilah: and as much as i'd like to believe she's smarter than that i'm sure he's very persuasive....

Lilah: the things i'm thinking about him are bad. a different kind of bad. i need to repent.

[delilahsbaker]

text to brie

Brie: What????

Brie: I'm so confused.

Brie: If you want to do something right, bring me and KC food. lol.

Lilah: that was a question like do you agree with me that i have to do something

Lilah: about bryce and ellie

Lilah: like this cant be good

[delilahsbaker]

text to brie

Lilah: i dont.............. know what to do

Lilah: i have to do something right

[delilahsbaker]

text to jonah

Jonah: oh haha that's rough

Jonah: okay cool, i'll be over in a few

Jonah: chances are if i lay down with you i'll probably end up going to sleep.

Lilah: i'll be tired enough after dance tomorrow it'll fix my sleep schedule so its nbd i just might be kinda dead during school

Lilah: cool :)

Lilah: me too. i'll set an alarm earlier than my dads to remind me to kick you out before he wakes up

[delilahsbaker]

text to jonah

Jonah: why aren't you sleeping?

Jonah: but yeah, i could do that.

Jonah: i should do that.

Jonah: are your parents awake? i don't want to really die tonight. i was really just being over dramatic.

Lilah: i got starbucks twice today because im DUMB and also cause i always get it before church and then i went again with phe a few hours ago so im like wired

Lilah: you should

Lilah: nope. they're completely passed out. i checked in on them like ten minutes ago.

[delilahsbaker]

text to jonah

Lilah: you could come over and cuddle with me

Lilah: just not sleep here instead of not sleeping there

Lilah: since i'm not sleeping either

[delilahsbaker]

@jonahminusthewhale: sleep is rejected. i want to fucking die please. i'm so damn tired. a haiku by jonah haak.

@delilahsbaker: @jonahminusthewhale babe :(((