Have you ever wondered what it feels like to die
Cut your wrists or see if you can fly
You could try hitting yourself with a rock
Or maybe take a long walk or a short dock
You could take some pills and go for a nap
Stick a knife in the toaster your in for a zap
But none of these ways feel fulfilling to me
Regardless it hurts, and I don’t want to be
I desperately yearn for a better life
But the only solution I can find is a knife
Always surrounded but I feel so alone
Like theirs no possible way to atone
For this deep pain I have inside
It’s overwhelming and and hard to hide
But for you, you’ll never know
My feelings inside I will not show
For brief moments you show me light
And help me fall asleep at night
Without you I’d be dead
From all this noise inside my head
But for you I’ll walk forever
No matter the feeling, no matter the weather
My kids are a light in the darkest room
Saving me from eternal doom
So I’ll stay here and hide the pain
And secrets of misery and shame
But sometimes still I roam and wonder
What it feels like to be 6ft under
