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Life Has Been A Mess

I can’t believe I’m writing here again. My last time I wrote on my tumblr blog was May 4th 2021. It’s March 2022 now. March 12 to be exact. Almost a WHOLE YEAR since I wrote here down. 

There has been so many changes since the last time I was here. I’ve moved into a new apartment again, I have a gap year + a new job at the biggest department store of the entire country. I wouldn’t say life got better since back then cause it didn’t.. but I’m still trying to hold on obivously. I have no choice. Life has always been a mess for me. But since I got older even more. Why? Probably because I started to understand things more and that’s where it all went downhill. I understand situations more but that doesn’t mean I don’t have my own opinion and that’s where the mess begins. 

You treat me like shit and I’ll be the bitchiest person you’ll ever met. You know when they say ‘’The best revenge is no revenge.’’ CAP. Cap for me. I DO take my revenge when needed cause that’s how I am. That how my personality is and will aways be. 

I’ve been dreaming to live a peaceful life with a lovely family, both of my parents not being dickheads. It’s a dream for me and will always be. Hopefully in another life I get to live like that, but not in this life. That’s okay but there is no forgiveness for me to them. I guess this is the part when the ‘’mess’’ in my life began. 

At the moment I have no wish to have childrens in my future. I first had but maybe it changes, who knows. (yes, normalize not wanting kids pls.)

But if it ever happens, if I’ll ever be pregnant, I won’t take it away. I’ll keep it and raise and treat that angel with all my love I have in my body TIL DEATH. NO CHILD EVER DESERVES BAD PARENTS. You get to live a life once and you should be so much loved in this life. That’s all that matters to me.

Now that that has being said, I feel a little relieved.

Whether life is a mess, I should still holding strong for myself. Who says I can’t get my life together for myself? I definitely can but it just all costs patience and time. I’m not in a hurry. Ofcourse I hope it will happen soon but if not, it’s okay. I’m young and have so much time. 

date of writing: March 12, 2022

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New home, new beginning

It’s been a little while since I wrote here. I’ve been busy with moving into our new little apartment over the past week but we finally made it. A new apartment in the west side of Amsterdam. 17th floor, amazing view... we can see the airport from out our window. This is so sick. 

In August I’ll start a new education. What education? I don’t know yet... I thought choosing your future, what you wanna be is a lot easier than it actual is. But no... it’s far from easy. When you finally ON college everything will be harder than you think. It’s nothing like high school anymore to me. It’s basically adulting and choosing all of your own choices. I think the part the choices you make is really hard for me. I’m scraed to choose for the wrong one’s. Mistakes. That’s it. I’m scared to choose and make mistakes. But than my other half in me says mistakes is super normal and you learn from them, which is totally true but still.

Since summer is coming (even though the weather is everything but sunny) I’m in to buy new clothes, accessories, make up etc. good outfits has always been important to me. I mean we all want to leave a good impression wherever you are right? Meeting new people, or when you just go out somewhere. It’s all about how we look. Yes, ofcourse I have my bad days where I look like my trash bin but don’t expect me looking like that all the time. 

Anyways, a new beginning is good. Always. Don’t forget that. A new beginning is like a new chapter in your life. You start it all over again and make mistakes, and that’s where we learn from. Every single day. 

date of writing: May 4th 2021

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Why I haven’t voted for this year’s election

Hi there. Welcome to my second post on my blog already. I’ve had issues with choosing the subject for my next post on here but eventually I chose for the politics election of this year.

I turned 18 last November in 2020 which means I’m official adult now, according to the Dutch law. Do I feel like an adult? no. Not at all. I may live on my own without parents (I’ll talk about that later, that’s another story) but I definitely don’t feel like an adult adult you know? Anyways, at the age of 18 years old we have the right to vote for a new policital campaign, if I say that right.

We vote on a ballot paper and hand it in at a ballot box nearby. Many and Dutch famous people are calling people in to vote. But I didn’t. I haven’t voted on a new campaign even though I had the right. ‘’Demi, why the fuck you haven’t voted? This is also for your future.’’ you may think. Well, the answer is easy. I haven’t voted for this year’s election because I feel like I’m still not fully educated about everything. I have no idea why that campaign is better than the other. I’m in a progress to learn and understand all of that. There were 41 campaigns to be exact that were participating this year’s election. When I vote, I do wanna vote for the right one in my point of view.

I am learning everyday. Which is okay to me. I mean yes... the next election is in 4 years which is a while cause at that time I’ll be 22 years old but better be more educated about politics and campaigns and vote for the right one than voting for a campaign you have no idea what the fuck they’re actually doing. 

Politics definitely have my interests. And will always be because it’s for our futures, for our children’s, grand children’s and more. I’m excited to learn new things about it everyday and hope I know the right campaign to vote on in 2025. 😊

date of writing: April 21th 2021

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First chapter. How’s life atm?

Hello everyone reading. This will be my first post ever on my blog where I will write about my life and more. I’ve never had a blog before so this is all new to me. 

I’m happy I have a platform where I can finally share anything I want. How I’m feeling at the moment? Well, the real answer is: I don’t know. Cause I really don’t know. When people asks you how you are, what answer you? ‘’Good.’’? lie. We always answer that we’re good because it’s a standard quick answer.

Since covid-19 came into the world, we’re not allowed to do so many things. Which is totally understandable cause we don’t wanna have more cases than we already have right? But what about our mental state health? 

The first few months in lockdown is okay.. totally new to what’s happening but also super unexpected since you never experienced a situation like this before. But the longer it gets, adding a curfew to the measures can be really tough. Longer in lockdown, online school etc. (I have a year off of college cause I don’t know what I want to do in the future).

I get bored. Every single day I get bored even more at home. This idea of a blog? Came because I started to realise my mental health went 📉📉 of sitting longer in lockdown. ‘’Why you’re not looking for work?’’ you may think. Tried that to multiple stores, NOT POSSIBLE. Covid-19 is here, we better can ask: What is still possible?

At least the beginning of when corona came to the world is getting further away with every single day that counts. It’s April 2021 now. Vaccines are already here (even though I’m definitely not getting one) they’re here. Maybe than the gouvernment will allow us to do more in the next few weeks. At least that’s what they’re saying on the news in my country (The Netherlands).

Let’s sit back and wait together patiently. Cause patience is the key which solves all problems they say, right?

date of writing: April 19th 2021

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