Just the ghost of an art kid.

Sometimes depression and anxiety are too much. I just need somewhere to let some of it out of my head. While this is a vent blog and I will share my personal struggles, I will not be glorifying or otherwise encouraging unhealthy behaviors.

[demon-depression]

It has been a whole school semester since I pulled the hairs out on my leg.

Are you proud of me?

💖💖💖

[trueocd]

OCD is not wanting tiles to be straight.

OCD is not liking things to be neat on your desk.

OCD is not having an incredibly organized room.

OCD does not equal perfectionism and perfectionism does not equal OCD.

[briarlovesclara]

I know I’ve talked about this before. I don’t care. 

But it sucks that for me to look up stuff about OCD and find a community, I have to look up ‘actual(ly) ocd’ or ‘real ocd’

I should NOT

have to scroll through lies and stigma to find things about me

I should NOT

be treated this way

I should NOT

be seeing this kind of bias

JUST BECAUSE it happens so often doesn’t mean it’s okay

I should NOT 

have to see the ads for ‘ocd quizzes’

I am NOT

a joke or a quirk or a personality trait

I am a HUMAN BEING

who is STRUGGLING with a DEBILITATING DISORDER

and I should NOT have to refine my search just so I can connect on a human level. 

NEVER.

[demon-depression]

Y'all ever scrub your arms raw because there are dark patches on them and when you scrub them it goes away for a while?

No?

Just me...

[demon-depression]

dont you love it when you just ruin everything?

[frogitivity]

Take the time you need!

[demon-depression]

Sometimes a little feels like a lot.

Sometimes self care can feel like a huge task. But taking care of yourself, even in tiny increments, can really help you feel better.

If all you can manage is washing your hair and bits in the sink?

I'm proud of you.

If all you can manage is eating a little bit here and there throughout the day?

I'm proud of you.

If all you can manage is to drink one or two glasses of water today?

I'm proud of you.

If all you can manage is a few minutes out in your yard or on your porch/balcony in the sun and fresh air?

I'm proud of you.

Sometimes the littlest things can make a big difference in your day. Do what you can when you can. It'll be okay.

[demon-depression]

My current life goal is to have a steady enough income by next year to be responsibly able to get a dog.

I want a tiny little chihuahua or a miniature poodle.

Wish me luck.

[kinikxluna]

u did it !!!!

[walkinthepug]

watch this when you’re down

[demon-depression]

If I wasn't so poor and terrified I'd get myself into an inpatient program for depressed and anxious people who aren't a threat to themselves or others.

I just need some professional help with no other things to worry about.

But I'm a student with debt and really terrible insurance...

[demon-depression]

Please don't be too worried about me.

I don't want to die. I just need help keeping myself healthy right now..

[positiveautistic-deactivated202]

You deserve to be happy, yes, you

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Stop thinking so much. You’re breaking your own heart.”

— Unknown

[demon-depression]

Life is really hard right now...

This is literally the worst year of my life. I know I can make it through it. But that doesn't mean it isn't painful.