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Do you maybe wanna,,,,,,,,touch me?🖤🥺

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rainydaygranolagirl-deactivated

Tears are a good thing. I like it when he causes them. A nice caning session brings such release. Much needed release. I haven't had one in a while. I need one. But chronic illness doesn't play well with others and mine have been very active this year.

They brought their own tears last night. Nonconsensual pain is so tough to get through. I had run out of meds and missed a night which caused extra pain. But my joints were also really loose and, even though I have been bracing them for about a week, my right ankle and knee were really in a mood. I could see the muscle spasming on the top of my foot. I probably would have felt better soaking in the tub with epsom salts, but I was in too much pain for that. I think I am going to have to break down and visit my dr, but I really don't want to go there yet. Especially with the state just starting to open up.

So I had tears to help me get through last night. They weren't as nice as the ones the cane causes. But they helped me sleep. At one point he asked if I was ok and I couldn't even answer him. We were listening to Dresden Files so he couldn't hear me cry. And he hurt himself yesterday and was in his own pain. But he gave me space, which is what I needed more. Weirdly, if he had tried to comfort me I probably would have felt worse. Even a hand resting on me was too much, thanks to my fibromyalgia which causes my skin to feel like it is on fire.

I could use a good caning session. I am holding tension all over my body. But with my pain levels already high I can not tolerate one, even a nice gentle one. This morning, I can not even tolerate an orgasm. And that is the other things he really likes to do- bring me to orgasm after orgasm until I am a boneless quivering mess of goo.

We will get back to those. The caning and the orgasms. Eventually. And we will have to take the caning slowly; it is just like starting all over again. That usually means that it takes a few sessions before I can handle what I really need and he really wants.

But I have my meds again and am getting ready to have that soak in the tub. I slept decently last night thanks to the tears. And he is feeling a bit better himself, thankfully. I worry over him as much as he does over me. Maybe tonight we will both feel good enough for sex. And maybe orgasms too.

instructor144

For those folks out there who struggle with chronic pain and illness.

ephemeralnymphs

viewingvee

ʙʀᴜɪꜱᴇ /ʙʀᴏ͞ᴏᴢ/ ɴᴏᴜɴ

-ᴀɴ ɪɴᴊᴜʀʏ ᴀᴘᴘᴇᴀʀɪɴɢ ᴀꜱ ᴀɴ ᴀʀᴇᴀ ᴏꜰ ᴅɪꜱᴄᴏʟᴏʀᴇᴅ ꜱᴋɪɴ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴏᴅʏ, ᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇᴅ ʙʏ ᴀ ʙʟᴏᴡ ᴏʀ ɪᴍᴘᴀᴄᴛ ʀᴜᴘᴛᴜʀɪɴɢ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀʟʏɪɴɢ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ ᴠᴇꜱꜱᴇʟꜱ

-ᴛʜᴇ ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀᴇꜰꜰᴇᴄᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ ꜱʜᴇᴅ

-ᴀɴ ᴇᴠᴇʀ-ᴄʜᴀɴɢɪɴɢ ᴍᴜʀᴀʟ ᴅᴀɴᴄɪɴɢ ᴀᴄʀᴏꜱꜱ ꜱᴋɪɴ

-ᴛʜᴇ ᴠɪꜱᴄᴇʀᴀʟ ʀᴇᴍɪɴᴅᴇʀ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴀɪɴ ᴇɴᴅᴜʀᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜꜱᴛᴏᴏᴅ

-ᴀ ꜱᴜɴꜱᴇᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴜʀᴘʟᴇꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴘʟᴜᴍꜱ, ᴅᴜɢ ᴅᴇᴇᴘ ɪɴᴛᴏ ꜰʟᴇꜱʜ

-ᴛʜᴇ ꜱʟᴏᴡʟʏ ʜᴇᴀʟɪɴɢ ᴋɪꜱꜱ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ɪᴍᴘʟᴇᴍᴇɴᴛꜱ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇᴅ ɪᴛ

-ᴀ ꜱᴀᴅɪꜱᴛꜱ ɪᴍᴘʀɪɴᴛ

-ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀꜱ ʙʀᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴏɴ ʙʏ ᴄᴀᴛʜᴀʀꜱɪꜱ

-ᴀ ʙᴀᴅɢᴇ ᴇᴀʀɴᴇᴅ ʙʏ ꜱᴜꜰꜰᴇʀɪɴɢ (ᴀɴᴅ ꜰɪɴᴅɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴊᴏʏ ᴡɪᴛʜɪɴ ɪᴛ)

viewingvee

g r o w

mrgoodnight23

sinisterdenial

Hey all, it’s been a while.

No idea if anyone will be able to see this, given the mess the site is now, but worth a shot. I’ve been quiet for some time. But just want to let everyone know about exciting new projects - if you liked what I used to post, you’ll love these.

Myself and Imaginatrix - the lovely lass in the picture above - have started up a porn company, Mesmerotic. We’re making hypnosis-themed videos, aiming to produce content that’s genuine. Real kink, real hypnosis, with real people who are really into it. We’ve produced a few videos now - some light and fun, some a little darker and sexier. Some freely available, the rest for a pretty reasonable rate. And we plan to make much more!

On top of which, I’ve started making some free hypno files, and both ‘Trix and I do custom files, live sessions, and teaching both in person (once that’s possible) and online.

So if any of that sounds appealing, or you just want to keep on top of what’s happening, check us out. I’m at https://twitter.com/SinisterDenial, or I’ll be posting more to my BDSMLR under the same name as here. ‘Trix is at https://twitter.com/HypnoHedonist. And you can find all of our content at https://mesmerotic.net, or at https://www.pornhub.com/users/mesmerotic/videos.

Hope some of you find it interesting! We always love to hear what people want to see. Enjoy!

pleasurewhore-deactivated201802

Power Exchange

It’s making the doctor’s appointment I don’t think I need, because he told me to.

It’s taking a bath, or a nap, when there are a million things waiting, because he takes better care of me than I do.

It’s making a healthy choice at lunch, when a cheeseburger sounds awfully good.

It’s turning out the lights at midnight, even when I don’t feel tired.

There is power to be exchanged through sex, but power exchange isn’t only about kneeling and cock sucking. Like reducing the universe to the stars you can see, there is so much more to it than that. Power exchange is about surrendering your will to the will of another. It’s the little decisions… the ones that aren’t fun, or pleasurable. It’s knowing that you’re capable of making the decision yourself, and allowing him to make it anyway. Every concession is a piece of power pushed over the line, and your clothes never need to come off for you to be left standing naked.

instructor144

I miss @pleasurewhore. She was a wise lady, and a friend.