Wanna Be Good Enough

My life is hell and I don't think I can escape

[alieneight-deactivated20140825]

[kittyteethz]

[funkenmoment]

“Mehr Narben am Arm als Freunde.”

—

[cacophoneofcalamity]

Why are beads of blood so beautiful?

[obesophobic]

if only I had the guts to push that razor just a bit deeper

[duhtrinity]

the education system

(these are my poems, my dms and ask are always open to anyone)

[obsessed-stressed-depressed]

I'm that much of a failure that I can't even fucking kill myself

[400oddyearsago]

self harm: trigger warning

the first time I let the blade touch my skin

i couldn’t do it. my hands trembled and when i made the smallest cut

i cried

not because of the pain but

because of the enormity of

what i did.

the next time it was easier. and it got easier. 

and it got easier.

i cut deeper and deeper until i could see the blood well up on my skin,

sobbing silently to myself in my room and tasting my tears,

feeling so suffocated and drowning in mucus.

the blood stained my sheets and it felt so good

i was in control

i was in control

i was in control.

and now my legs are lined with scars and

i feel disgusting.

the relief when i see the blades

makes me feel disgusting.

the euphoric high after cutting

disgusting.

pathetic.

i’m tired of wearing my pain on my skin

but even after I watch the blood well up

i feel better

in some depraved way.

[ptsdying]

[the-narcissist]

I want a new tattoo, anyone wanna be my sugar daddy?

[written-on-polaroids]

“They broke you, didn’t they? They shattered your entire being. They cut you down with their words. They ruined you.”

— they are not worth your tears darling

[the-narcissist]

do meth not math

[depression-with-legs]

Haven’t done meth in a long time somebody come over and “do it” with me!!!!!!

[bpd-secrets]

That feeling when you know you told someone too much.

[the-narcissist]

I miss missing you

[the-narcissist]

The blade slips in barely noticed, the pain and the apology delivered at the same time.

-anonymous

[depression-with-legs]

“The urge to cut is stronger than the urge to live…”

— (via depression-with-legs)

[depression-with-legs]

I am super horny today ugh (still wanna die tho, fuck me to death daddy)