AN OVERDRAMATIC ASSHOLE'S RAMBLINGS

[soulsighs]

aesthetic themed ask list

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

fin.

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

it’s late

sometimes i wish that each 

unrequited love 

could be paired with someone 

who had also fallen short of 

someone’s expectations; 

on the other hand, 

we would all still miss them 

wouldn’t we? 

[someonehasfart]

Even when I want to be alone, I want to be alone with you.

unrequited haikis (via someonehasfart)

[sadboyhours]

I wish you hadn’t Given up on us that day. Now what do I do?

(via sadboyhours)

[poems-of-madness]

She said, men want brutally beautiful women.  They want innocently hips, and honey lips.  They want honour, they want snow-white paradise they can cry into.  They want sensual summers and godly bodies.  They want sugar mysteries.  They want cinnamon in their food. They want bite-less teeth, and cry-less voices. They want Turkish tea, and coconut oil on their bodies. And I want to be adored to the point of madness.

To Be A Daughter In Law by Royla Asghar  (via poems-of-madness)

[nicholasbrowne]

Would you give me it A chance to redo it all A chance to be yours

Nicholas A Browne, Haiku 454 (via nicholasbrowne)

[thesheolofabaddon]

Always There

You invade my thoughts And I can’t quite figure out What was before you.

[threesixxtyfive]

Day Five Hundred Seventy.

buried under books are the handwritten love notes i forgot you wrote

[hardcockforhitchcock]

“Why is poetry the only way to describe my missing pieces?”

-Haiku of the Day: April 16th, 2017

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

last one

kindness makes me melt 

in ways i never expect 

raindrops can drown me

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

4/17/18

not sure what i feel 

but maybe it’s finally 

something worth feeling

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

procrastination

my essays fueled by 

leftover easter candy 

they’re pretty shitty

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

4/14/17

today was really shitty until he called me pretty. that shouldn't melt everything away but it does. and that's okay for today.

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

goals for newly achieved adulthood

1) express more. embarrassing and sad and painful and all. 

2) listen to more music. 

3) create more. 

4) take pride in my work. 

5) love my body. 

6) keep towing the line between kind and strong. 

7) keep defining yourself, but don’t limit yourself. 

8) read and write more poetry. 

9) drink lots of water. eat things that make your body happy. 

10) learn for knowledge, not for numbers. 

11) take care of the planet. 

12) keep up with the happenings of the world. 

13) don’t be consumed by the happenings of the world. 

14) be more carefree.

15) keep your living space and your mind free of clutter.

16) take more pictures. 

17) don’t worry about finding yourself; make yourself. 

18) enjoy being alive. 

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

her name is cheyenne, and she’s lovely

“she’s really pretty”

of course she’s really pretty

she’s stunning

she’s soft and small and kind

she is waves where i am storms

she is all the things i am not, and all the things that i was.

i could be her

but i am not her

i like to think i have a different story

a more important one

but then why is it that all of them are watching hers?

is she the new me?

the one who had all my soft features before i started

taking

up

too

much

space?

i wish i were smaller

i wish i had time to be smaller

i wish i could eat things that make me feel good

and keep my promises

why didn’t you say i was also really pretty?

why didn’t i get that last pity bone

am i that hideous?

am i that large?

am i that undesirable?

not even my work is good enough to make up for my vessel

my anger

my hardness

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

because you like haikus

we used to be on  the same page of the book. now, you’re chapters ahead. 

[depressionandpositivity-blog]

the first 12 minutes of my 18th birthday

so i'm supposed to be turning older

bolder

stronger

a more developed human being

is it possible to grow and shrink all at once?

i have friends who have infinite light

of course they get sad. everyone gets sad.

but they're funny and interesting and magnetic

those people you just want to be near.

i feel like i’m on stage in a play 

and everyone else knows their lines, but i have to blindly improv my way through the storyline

trying not to mess up anyone else's plotlines

trying to support everyone else's plotlines

what is my plotline?

why am i the side character in my own story?

no one wants to talk to me. they need to talk to me.

i am the one who's there when no one else isn't

the blank wall to bounce their feelings on

no one wants to engage with me, absorb those energies

my friends are magnets and i am a mirror

and yet i stay.

how pathetic.