Dying Inside

I'm losing myself. I'm falling into the void

[depressiveness]

Podemos comprender a los demás aunque no compartamos del todo sus ideas. Sabremos en un nivel emocional profundo, de qué parte del alma proceden. Odiarle es odiarnos a nosotros mismos; amarles el amarnos, el único camino fruto de la cordura es dejar atrás el odio. La empatía cura al individuo y, al mismo tiempo, cura al mundo. Es hermana de la compasión e hija del amor incondicional.

–Brian Weiss [Muchos cuerpos, una misma alma]

[daffy-rimi]

Esperemos que así sea 🙏🏼

[shelter-maki0]

そして明けましておめでとうございます🎍！ 去年はソーシャルネットワークから離れた一年でしたが、不在の間にも嬉しいコメントやメッセージを頂いており感謝感激しておりました。 本当にありがとうございました！

[textolvidado]

[accio-victuuri]

drifting x i’m not here // by akiko-xx

[lovejs777]

[accio-victuuri]

「 I AM NOT HERE 」 clowning post part iv. aka the main candy compilation now that we have the whole song. here’s part one & two & three for reference which are very short ones.

before we dive into the cpns, i wanna congratulate yibo for another exceptional song! the lyrics are so good and his voice??? his voice??? you all know the part i’m talking about— it’s singer yibo!

let’s start with this ⬆️⬆️⬆️ i think the side by side photo is self explanatory. you have xz drawing the mountains and yibo integrating himself into it and became the mountain himself. i like this whole concept of him being in nature, being all around this person even if he is not there physically as himself. this is so special too considering we always clown about them loving camping & hiking — and other outdoorsy stuff. it may be that nature reminds yibo of those happy times they spend together exploring that environment.

now let’s move on to a very yizhan-y interpretation of the song…

1. some fans have pointed out that it’s 2000 days since the 12.28 tencent starlight awards where they were together. it was post-cql and them going into new roles — a start of well, more complicated times, but they had each other. i don’t really believe too much in these anniversary cpns but i will just leave this here.

2. comparing the water theme & mountains from xz’s photoshoot before that had us all going 🥵🥵🥵, it matches the imagery from yibo’s song.

3. the official description of the song provided by music platforms gave a solid perspective of what it is all about & it’s not far off what we think it is when the teaser/s came out.

“I" is rooted in this land, connected by veins, and time and space are close to each other. "I" live in symbiosis with the mountain, breathe with you, and experience the ups and downs of life. We go through the ups and downs with all things, so the green mountains are flat, and "I" is always present.

I am here, a dialogue with the world. I AM NOT HERE, but I will always be there. This is what "I’m here" is all about. So darling, DON'T BE CRYING, Because this song is a symphony between you and me.

Let me just sit and think about this. It’s such a beautiful meaning. Their love goes beyond the romantic and it’s real. You can see it all around you.

4. Time to dissect the first half of the lyrics 🎶

Many years later // Where will I turn back and look? // Holding flowers I've never seen before // Facing toward you

this reminds us of their first meeting in the field of flowers. out of all the things he can start with, why this? also the graphics for xz’s album is an eternal flower. if we look at it further, it’s more than the literal sense too. the flower he hasn’t seen is this new feeling and having this one person that is became so important to him. the first line is also telling, cause it’s like he is looking back at that moment, many years later, out of all his time, that time is what he wants to recall.

Waving my hand // Don't stay on the lonely island // I'll become a small boat to take you to find the oasis

we knew of this line already and it’s still so romantic. it’s this person who is alone but wyb wants to take him away and help him find that oasis. oftentimes, people tend to have that selfish type of love where they want the other to be isolated. but yibo is not like that. he wants to take the person outside, see the world and fins that happiness together. and him being a small boat is too cute! like he knows he is not that strong but he will do his best to make a difference in his (xz) life and give him freedom & happiness.

My heart enters the mountains / My body sinks into the sea / All to reunite with you and return

the integration of himself with nature. how he has to sink into the sea so he can reunite with that person.

5. second part of the lyrics 🙌🏼. just a disclaimer that he had someone working with him to create this song and the lyrics, but that doesn’t mean he had 0 input. we all know how yibo is at this point and something as personal as his year-end song definitely had his approval with every line.

Falling, scattering into dust

And then being reborn

Pointing at the fireworks

in the sky, never fading

Are you there?

You just need not cry

You just need to bloom

And I will never leave

Don't be crying x 3

You don't need to wait

I'm here

I'm here

Don't be crying

i am weak for that first line, the thought of scattering into dust and being reborn. that’s some eternal love right there! we have reincarnation cpn at some point in the fandom so that feeds into that. the idea of yibo believing in that kind of love, never ending, not even in death makes me feel some type of way 🥹🥹🥹

next up is the imagery of fireworks. something he seems to be fond off per that video ybo shared before. also connect that to when xz was watching the fireworks during shooting wrap.

then it moves into him telling the person to not cry, you just need to bloom and he will never leave. I have explained the very real cpn about this whole crying thing before and it’s such a sweet sentiment! it’s a simple and honest promise, i will not make you cry. you just have to do what you want. yibo is there and will support xz as he succeeds (blooms).

and the last part is the nail in the coffin. you don’t need to wait, i’m here.

well who do we know at some point said that waiting is romantic?

hmmmmm. xiao zhan 🥰🥰🥰🥰

waiting. this word is very charming, it encourages people to expect. if you told me, someone is waiting for me, i would feel very moved. whether it’s my parents, or my lover, i feel that “waiting” is a very romantic word; to have something beautiful in the future waiting.

so this is yibo’s answer. you don’t have to. I’m here.

I hope everyone is having a fun weekend right now! listening to this new song, watching ETU and later follow yibo along at an event 🥂

-END

[verosad]

Aun no las entiendo, pero ya causan menos dolor

[arcobaleno-22g]

art by: w0320h

[loo-fish]

🌥️

[duraznillov]

💙五悠🧡

[queenrojpag]

[ilovealonelystar]

Random thought of the day:

I was not so low-key shocked with this flirtatious GG in the early stages of the CQL shooting (supposedly this clip is from May 1st, 2018 - barely 1 week into filming). For context: they are shooting that scene when Lan Zhan brings the Gusu Emperor's Smile to Wei Ying, breaking one of the 3000+ Lan Sect rules (awwwwnnn... <3<3<3), WYB is off camera to the left and XZ ~~jokingly winks at him then after it he tells Haikuan what he did. And he does it again!

Exhibit A:

Exhibit B:

Source

But on a side note, can you blame GG when DD was looking like a whole meal?

[redlipstickresurrected]

Aron Wiesenfeld (American, b. 1972, Washington D.C., USA, based San Diego, CA, USA) - Sacred Night, 2024, Paintings: Oil on Panel

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— via jitterati

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— via jitterati

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