your new life will cost you your old one

26 | she/her | i hope ur okay

[lmm-43]

Sometimes i sit back & think to myself, how i let that all happen to me

[feelingsoftheday]

I wish I hugged you tighter the last time I saw you.

[devils-lover-always]

When you can physically feel your heart breaking dropping into a bottomless hole that's what true heartbreak is and it fucking hurts so much

[perrfectly]

La belle personne (2008)

[megregorro]

blade on my wrist how i’ve missed your kiss

[abnormall]

[apriljinxed]

Archive

I always seem to forget

About the nights

I spent crying silently in the kitchen

My tears only ever arriving

Under the comfortable cover of shadows

As to ensure you wouldn’t be burdened by my pain

The pain inflicted

By how diligently you kept me at arms length

.

I wish I could have been the one to end it

I thought about it all the time

I wrote about it all the time

I could feel it

The way you smothered me

My every spark of joy

A threat to your carefully curated addictions

.

I’ve been putting away

Every picture and trinket

An archive to before

Artefacts of a previous life

A prior version of my heart

Shouldn’t this hurt?

I expected it to hurt

Except, it feels right

Boxing you up into the past

A past I look back on with so much love

& I know for sure

That your indecisiveness saved me

From a life of deep unending loneliness.

[yms1]

tumblr has been the longest relationship I’ve ever had

[ruhlare-deactivated20220822]

Someone who not only looks at you, but sees you, and appreciates your soul, and adores your mind.

[honigimohr]

“Wenn man mit dem falschen Menschen zusammen ist, ist man einsamer, als wenn man allein ist. Oder genauso einsam, nur auf eine andere Art und Weise.”

— Wir in drei Worten, Mhairi McFarlane

[peepline]

“Sleeping is nice until you wake up and realize that you are still in pain.”

[sadallthedamntime-blog]

[momagiccartel]

Actually

[vanish]

[saying]

[anxietyproblem]

[oak23]

We forgot about it

[dickheaddutch]

[valilihapiirakka]

I once signed up to participate in a study on how depression affects memory, forgot I was meant to go do it, and when I emailed to apologise to the PhD student running it she basically told me that a) she was very used to this happening and b) the weird irony of her theories’ correctness making it very difficult to arrange proving them had by now gone from infuriating to hysterical

[plain-flavoured-english]

I went to the Grand Canyon when I was depressed and I literally forgot the whole thing. Like, the only reason I even know I was there is that I have photographs of myself standing in front of the Grand Canyon with dead eyes but i have absolutely no memory of it

People talk about depression like it’s just being sad all the time but straight up your brain stops working and sadness is just one of the many, many consequences of that

[destroymylife]

[quotefeeling]

“Life biggest tragedy is that we get old too soon and wise too late.”

— Benjamin Franklin