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[deprssedemokid]

I miss too many of my ex partners i need a lobotomy legitimately

[deprssedemokid]

This blog is better than a therapist, or at the very least has lasted longer than any I've ever had

[deprssedemokid]

Is biting into your flesh until you bleed self harm or sudo-cannibalism ?

[deprssedemokid]

the term is auto-cannalism !!

[deprssedemokid]

I hate that humans are so hardwired to want empathy and care from those around them it has always fucked me over long-term

[thatonedeadboy]

rip me apart

[heavensghost]

the memory hurts but does me no harm

[bleedingandbroken]

[deprssedemokid]

I hate my family. I hate my mother. I hate my sister. I dont want to be close with them. I dont want them to know i exist at all tbh. They dont support anything i do. They dont appreciate the labor i provide. They dont care about me. How i feel. What i think. What i do. Everything about them irritates me beyond belief. I dont even particularly like them as people. Who they are fundamentally is unimpressive to me. My mom is a cruel drug addict in the midst of a mid-life crisis. My sister is a NEET discord mod with agoraphobia. I dont like these people at the core of who they are.

I dont have any family to speak of aside from them. Any extended family i had is either dead or might as well be. If i dont want to feel completely alone in this world then my mom and sister are all i have, and they seem apathetic about being in my life at the best of times.

I just want people in my life who want to be in my life and care about me, and not just say those things bc they'll look shitty otherwise. Never doing anything tangible to make me feel loved or cared for or even half-way thought about.

[deprssedemokid]

I wish i could get over wanting to feel loved by my family. They do not enjoy being around me, or even particularly like me;

This is made extremely obvious w/ every interaction i have w/ them. Other people get families who love them and its not fucking fair. Why does my family hate me for existing while other people get families that love them unconditionally even if they're literal scum of the earth.

If you have a family that loves and cares for you, go fuck yourself and burn in hell.

[worldclassdisaster]

[reapering]

out in public looking tortured

[omgkawaiirainangel]

trying to get my friends to notice im struggling is like waving a big sign in their face that says HI IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF

[deprssedemokid]

My mom admitted in therapy that she knew she was abusing me for p much my whole life, but just thought i would get used to it eventually. She never thought she needed to change an obviously hurtful behavior. Purposely hurting a child repeatedly in and of itself is just so evil regardless of why ? Like you saw a child, your child, in distress bc of smthin you did and instead of wanting to stop or even feel bad you just kept doing it. On purpose.

[deprssedemokid]

Is biting into your flesh until you bleed self harm or sudo-cannibalism ?

[sunnysoul777]

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[iamfetish66666]