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literary blog for apex legend's alexander nox

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@holopiloted

you gently grab the other’s chin , holding it in steady hand as you looked upon him — a soft smile upon your features. you always found him captivating / someone to admire for his intellect. you found his little scars cute / his dimples adorable… everything meant so much to you.

you whisper about how much you love him , how beautiful he is — a kiss to seal the words.

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i’m sorry for being gone. life has been very hectic and my attention has been elsewhere.

I will attempt to come back, but be aware that some of my posts will be on mobile as it’s tough to sit at my desk with my back pain.

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SORRY FOR BEING GONE IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH SOME STUFF. I AM BACK NOW

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hey if y’all want to talk about dynamics or plotting, please do! i’m bad about talking to people first because of Ye Olde Anxiety

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Richard Siken, Crush; from ‘Wishbone’

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NSFW PROMPTS

@rekills​ asked: “ are you gonna be good for me? ”

his foot was applying constant pressure     ,     leaving you to struggle to not show any emotion.     he had you on a leash like some MONGREL     —     which...     you happily obliged him. what can you say     ?     the embarrassment felt good.     to be reduced to some plaything for a being as dangerous as revenant had a special burn to it     —     something that left your breathless     &.     eager for more. which you were sure that he would provide plenty more of this. on your knees     ,     a gasp escapes you as you cannot handle anymore silence.     panting like some feral beast     /     you speak. ‘     i     —     i’ll be good.     i promise.     ‘

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nsfw prompts that don’t sound like a bad porno

i’m always tired of seeing the cringiest sentence starters for smut so i’m back at it again kids. feel free to adjust sentences or specify who does the action. 

ACTIONS: 1. for one muse to give the other oral 2. to skinny dip with my muse 3. to shower with my muse 4. to take a hot bath with my muse 5. for sex in public 6. for sex in the car 7. to catch my muse naked 8. to undress my muse 9. for sparring to turn into sex 10. for an argument to turn into sex 11. for make up sex 12. for friends with benefits sex 13. to tie up my muse 14. to blindfold my muse 16. to make one muse watch the other masturbate 17. for a threesome (specify muses) 18. for one muse to wake the other by fingering them/giving a handjob 19. for one muse to deny the other orgasm 20. for angry sex  21. for break up sex 22. for sex after a near death experience  23. for after battle sex 24. for sex to get revenge on an ex 25. for one muse to give the other a lap dance or strip tease  26. to make my muse whimper 27. for one muse to take the other from behind 28. for sex against the wall 29. for sex on a table/counter/desk 30. for sex in a pool/hot tub 31. for one muse to choke the other 32. for rough sex  33. for our muses to try a new position 34. for our muses to try a new kink together 35. for one muse to use a toy on the other 36. for one muse to sit on the other’s face

WORDS:  “touch me.” “kiss me here.” “you have to be quiet if you want to cum.” “say my name.”  “oh fuck-” “i need you so bad.” “i’m so wet right now.”  “i want you to touch yourself for me.”  “let me hear you, baby.”  “come for me.” “i want to hear you cum.” “harder.” “i need to feel you.” “i want you.” “you’re so hot.” “can i come yet?” “please, baby—” “i’m so close.” “i told you to be quiet.” “i told you to stay still.” “are you gonna be good for me?” “i promise i’ll be good.” “i’m not done with you yet.” “i’ve been waiting all day…” “you’re all i want.” “just kiss me, i can’t take this anymore.” “just shut up and fuck me.”  “i’m gonna fuck you until you beg me to stop.”  “say please.” “i could’t stop thinking about you all day.” “your fingers feel so good.” “your mouth feels so good.” “i want your fingers inside me.” “i want it to hurt.” “more—” “i want you to forget everything and everyone else but me.” “make me forget.” “i just want to feel something.”  “make me.” “be quiet.”  “they’re gonna catch us—” “yes— right there.” “that feels so good.” “does that feel good?” 

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morning after starters

“  last night was nice.  ” “  lets do this again some time.  ” “  i’ll leave my number.  ” “  i gotta go, sorry.  ” “  can’t you at least stay for breakfast?  ” “  i’ll make coffee—don’t go anywhere.  ” “  next time, maybe i’ll buy you dinner first.  ” “  if we do this again you better buy me dinner first.  ” “  i don’t think my legs work again yet.  ” “  i don’t wanna get up.  ” “  no don’t move, it’s too cold outside the covers.  ” “  there’s no way i can hide these marks…  ” “  this was probably a mistake.  ” “  this can’t happen again.  ” “  you always say that, and yet we wind up right back here.  ” “  are you watching me sleep?  ” “  you look cute all frazzled like this.  ” “  why are you looking at me like that?  ” “  keep kissing me like that and we’re gonna end up back in bed.  ” “  something wrong? ” “  i’d stay if i could, i promise.  ” “  so if i put my number in your phone, you actually gonna text me? ” “  i made breakfast.  ” “  how do you take your coffee?  ” “  fuck! i’m late—  ” “  did you turn the alarm off?  ” “  if you don’t turn that alarm off i’m gonna throw it out the window.  ” “  i can’t find my shirt.  ” “  babe, we slept in.  ” “  i know you’re awake.  ” “  i’ll stay.  ” “  why don’t you stay?  ” “  i like waking up with you.  ” “  i like having you here at night.  ” “  you know, if you moved in we wouldn’t keep having to say goodbye like this.  ” “  so when are we gonna actually go on a real date?  ” “  do i smell bacon?  ” “  you made pancakes?  ” “  come on, come back to bed.  ” “  you weren’t there when i woke up.  ” “  i thought you left.  ” “  do you want me to go?  ” “  just let me sleep for five more minutes.  ” “  you’re really beautiful/handsome. even if you drool.  ” “  you talk in your sleep, ya know.  ”  

ACTIONS:  1. for one muse to surprise the other with breakfast in bed 2. for our muses to go another round in the morning 3. for your muse to join mine in the shower while getting ready for the day 4. for one muse to stop the other from trying to sneak away 5. for one muse to invite the other to spend the rest of the day with them  6. for one muse to convince the other to stay in bed the rest of the day 7. for our muses to have sex in the kitchen instead of finishing breakfast 8. for our muses to spoon 9. for one muse to wake up with morning wood  10. for one muse to wake the other up with oral  11. for lazy morning sex  12. for one muse to wake the other because they’re having a nightmare  13. for one muse to distract the other from getting ready by kissing/groping them 14. for one muse to kick the other out of their home  15. for our muses to wake with no recollection of the night before  

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It's Sinday! From now, inbox is open for NSFW memes, random stuff or things you wish to know of that kind of my muse.

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Next-door neighbor

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[boybrdr-deactivated20230204]

i LOVE blood. i LOOOOOOOVE violence and killing to death forever. anger hatred

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𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄

@poisonpicked​ asked: [ laugh ] for your muse to laugh at something mine did (Maggie 👀)

a loud cackle escaped you as maggie talked about her exploits     ,     gutting syndicate officers with their own flagpoles.     it sounded beautiful     /     how she used violence to fight for others     (     while you fight for no one     ,     you must respect it     ) you took off your respirator     ,     a rare look at your bare face     —     a big smile on your face as you spoke. ‘     you are absolutely brutal.     how incredible.     ‘

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𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄

@poisonpicked​ asked: [ taste ] for your muse to cook for mine (bloodhound)

‘     this looks quite decadent     ,     bloodhound.     may i ask what it is     ?     ‘ you were used to german     &.     russian food     —     your parents very proud of their cultures.     always warm     &.     appetizing     /     the food from those cultures always reminded you of home.     bloodhound’s cultural foods were foreign     /     unknown to you.     yet     ,     curiosity took over     ,     as the food looked very delicious     &.     homely. ‘     ...     thank you for offering this to me.     ‘

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holopiloted·:

     He finally lets out the breath he’s been subconsciously holding this whole time, a sigh of relief as he grabs a bar spoon to stir the concoction before straining it over ice in an awaiting glass.

     Guess it made sense, really — in a way, mixing drinks was kind of like little science experiments, much like he imagined Caustic did in his free time outside of the games. IMAGINED because…well,

          — he’s never actually taken the time to really talk to the guy outside of the games. Or rather, Caustic never seemed INTERESTED in talking. At least not to Elliott, anyway.

     He busies himself behind the bar, shifting over to the sink where he begins rinsing the glasses and utensils he’s used over the past hour. “I hear that — life’s too short for bargain-basement alcohol.” He’d like to say his reasoning was the same — which, it was, to an EXTENT — but his depression definitely played a much bigger role than that…

     “Still — that’s a pretty easy one to make yourself…” Most people order more complex drinks when at a bar, simply because they’re incapable of making them at home — it varied, whether that was due to ignorance or lack of supplies, which Elliott KNEW neither of those were an issue. So…did he come all this way for — COMPANY?

                    “Is…everything GOOD?”

how does one freely admit that they need something     ?     how does someone speak into the cosmos that they desire change     /     to be given reprieve of one’s own actions     &.     the consequences of them     ?     you feel like a child     /     slinking into your mother’s room because you got scared     &.     wanted company. you bow your head     ,     staring at the drink as you swish it around.     not wishing to drown your head in negative thoughts     —     you take a hearty drink of it. ‘     do you truly want to know     —     or will you recoil if i speak     ?     ‘ you had an emptiness in your chest     ,     you were being a good person    (     for ms.     paquette.     )     yet you could still feel the one ally you had slipping away     ,     leaving you in the dust. it hurt.

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anammxlech​:

FLIPS 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐎𝐋 CARD UP IN YOUR TAROT READ .      – ‘ ‘ Oh . this is a good one , this is interesting … .                y’ see ,  this one means you’re a MORON,                a DUMB BUMBLING IDIOT , an ABSOLUTE FUCKIN’ FOOL .                Fuck you . ‘ ‘

‘     you must be accidentally reading yourself.     rookie mistake.     ‘

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if you tear down caustic’s emotional walls and like. actually get to the point of being friends with him? he is very nice and very caring. he will die for you. he will grow your favorite fruits and vegetables and cook for you.