damn who I used to be is embarrassing af. But spoiler alert I’m better and hotter now and life did get drastically better. Pro tip- dump ur toxic bf, move out of state, dump your toxic best friend, fall in love with someone who shows you everyday how much they love you back. Spend many days finding yourself and healing and then get lost again and chase your own tail until you trip over something and are forced to stare into the sky and it stares back at you. Get better then get worse just so you can get better again. Dedicate every day to something you believe in. Believe in yourself. Believe that life can be magical and it will be. Lay on the couch and don’t hate yourself for it. Let other people hate you all they want, and enjoy yourself more for it. Feel mad and sad and downright hopeless until you’re done feeling it. Grow your hair out and cut it all off because you can and it’ll grow back anyways. If you’re doing something only because you have to, find a way to hate it a little less. Quit your retail job. Quit everyone who doesn’t see you for who you are. Become the person you always wanted to be, one article of clothing at a time. Learn something new. Keep looking for something you like doing and don’t stop doing it. Don’t run from yourself, you’re not fast enough anyways. Don’t leave yourself alone. Ever. Love someone who loves you. Don’t neglect who and what you care for. Go somewhere you’ve never been. Read a book you read years ago. Some days you can rest, otherwise do anything before nothing. Know that you will fulfill your purpose whether you try to or not, so focus on fulfilling yourself. Being happy and loving and caring are more important than anything else. Fall down and get back up, unless you need to just lay there for a minute that’s okay too. Do something for the last time consciously. Do something you wished you would’ve done when you were a teenager or child. Know you can never overuse the word “love”, that’s the beauty of it. There is never too much love. Be optimistic- if it can go wrong, it can go right too. What you intentionally think and speak can easily become your reality. Use this power wisely. If you can see it, you can get to it. If you can’t see it, keep moving forward. Life can and does change overnight. Appreciate everything, because one day you will miss it. Everytime. Now is more important than the future and the future is more important than the past. Be like a child- curious, excited, unknowing but never limited. Believe what you see and believe in what you don’t. Failure is just a way to learn what doesn’t work, and will lead you closer to what will. You can’t ever truly give up if you’re still alive. You will always have what you need to get to the next step, but there will be more steps than you think. Don’t get discouraged for more than a minute. Write down your dreams. Make your food with love. Drink water. Sleep plenty. Don’t carry the weight of hate. Laugh as much as you can. Get in water. Put your feet in the grass and the dirt. Talk to a creature. Talk to yourself. Be kind to others. Be kind to yourself. Sing and dance. Kiss your pet. Watch the clouds. Take life as it comes and smile through it all.
