They just love you too much, need you too much, they couldn't help themselves. They tried so hard, with every fiber in their body, not to do it. They'd never want to hurt you, not in a million years, but they can't control their urges. Their mind was screaming at them to take you, and they've just never been very good at refusing themselves. Them pinning you down and raping you without mercy, their grip tightening every time you try to kick your legs and squirm free, all while they have tears streaming down their face and apologies are spilling out of their mouth incoherently. They hate themselves for what they're doing to you, they love you so much and they can't believe they'd do something so horrible as violating you this way, but they just can't pull themselves together enough to stop. As they say sorry over and over, as they reassure you that you're completely right to hate them, to send them to jail, to get a restraining order, they just fuck you harder and harder. You'd start to think they were just as much of a victim to their urges as yourself if they got any more hysterical. Them cleaning you up and holding you tight once they're done, sobbing out more apologies and self-hating nonsense about what they'd done. Gentle, sweet rapists who you can watch suffer while they force themselves on you. <3
