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i'll be here...for as long as it takes. 

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i haven't eaten anything sweet in a while and i can confidently say that i'm not triggered to binge

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fuck chocolate. i hate it. it's so damn triggering.

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i've binged. and then cut myself. great. i thought i was finally over this, but i guess i never will

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all i need is a flat tummy for fuck's shake

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the amount of food i've consumed these past few days is insane. fuck family gatherings

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i'm so tired of having to face the same problems over and over again. like seriously i've been struggling with my body image and relationship with food for 3.5 fucking years. i'm actually starting to believe that i will never escape this. fuck

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i need to stop making up excuses to eat all the time... like fuck. how will i ever lose that weight, if i just keep stuffing my face??

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what if i was skinnier?? you'd like me better then, wouldn't you?

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i feel so ashamed of myself right now and the only thing that can comfort me is starving

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where's my morning skinny??!!

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i am bloated af. thanks, period.

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my face is all puffy and massive and i fucking hate it

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I NEED TO KEEP ON LOSING WEIGHT!!!

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after all this time i've started feeling dizzy again. that means i'm doing fine, right?

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my scale doesn't work. like seriously why does everything go downhill? fuck

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Today's calories : 1389

will i ever escape the 4 digits? 🙄

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why do i make everything so complicated? like why can't i just eat a fucking meal and move on with my life or eat when i'm hungry and stop when i'm full? why can't i just be normal??