la vie est belle

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[dessyrendipity]

I’m tired.

[escafeism]

“Do not beg for him to stay. Don’t do that to yourself anymore, you have done enough already. If he really wants to keep you, then there should be no problem at all. It was his own choice let go of you and that decision had nothing to do with you. It wasn’t because of your imperfections or idiosyncrasies. You are far more precious and real than he gave you credit for. It’s his loss, not yours.”

— d.r.n

[tastefullyoffensive]

(via striderepiphany)

[akeelahandthetea]

this one is never not funny

[asoftwrongness]

It’s okay that you’re not who you thought you would be

[fala7ablues-blog]

wow this is one of the softest things I have read on here.

[dessyrendipity]

God is really good.

It’s already 9:00 in the evening and here I am katatapos lang mag-aral. Yup. Walang katapusang pag-aaral na naman. Actually, I am already a SH teacher. Paano? Eh Elementary Educ graduate ako. So here’s the story...

Last June 05,2018

I went to school kasi magre-request ako ng TOR. I went there early para hindi masyadong marami yung tao. Nung dumating ako, sakto dumating na rin yung friend ko so sabay kami nag fill up ng form. Nag decide ako na mag open ng messenger. Biglang may nag wave sa akin si maam Richie pala yung principal ng Senior High Department namin. Sinabi niya if pwede ba ako maka akyat sa office kasi may sasabihin siya. Sakto andun na ako so umakyat na ako sa taas not knowing na trabaho na pala ang bubungad sa akin. Yup she offered me to teach english subjects pero part time lang. Hindi ko alam pero um-oo ako sa kanya. Pero after ko mag yes, doon na ako kinabahan. Kasi diba SH yun tapos Elementary nakasanayan ko. So she gave me my schedule and then yung syllabus. As in sobrang kaba ko like “Is this for real?” Tapos I joined na with the other English Teachers for their meeting that day.

Fastforward ....

Ayun, nag start na ako mag turo. As in sobrang nangangatog yung tuhod ko, pinagpapawisan ako tapos feeling ko maiihi ako sa harapan. Hindi ko nga alam kung sakto pa yung grammar ko sa sobrang kaba. Pero okay naman siya. Nakaka pressure pero kailangan lang talaga na mag-aral para alam mo kung ano ang ituturo sa kanila. Tapos kahapon lang, Maam Richie decided na gawin akong part time kasi kailangan nila pumunta ng Silliman University and walang maiiwan sa advisory class ni sir Ferrater. So nataranta na naman ako kasi diba, okay na ako sa part time tapos meron na namang bagong blessing. Ang bait talaga ni Lord! So ayun, kanina pinagtake ako ng exam kasi kailangan yun para maging regular. Grabeng exam yun naalog talaga utak ko sa dami at hirap. Pero nakayanan ko naman ma answer lahat. Sana nga ma guide pa ako ni Lord para naman mas mapabuti pa yung pagtuturo ko sa mga students ko.

What I realized is that, God will always provide you. Maghintay ka lang talaga ng timing. Unang apply ko na reject ako, sa pangalawa ayun wala rin. Tapos biglang dumating tung malaking blessing. Super blessed talaga ako. Sobrang bait ni Lord. Sana tulungan at i-guide nya pa rin ako especially sa pag take ko ng LET this coming September.

[dessyrendipity]

So my eyes are so puffy and may interview pa ako mamaya. What a great morning!

[dessyrendipity]

Lami na gyud kaayo ihilak anang wa kay ma share-an. Maayo na lang gani na open ra balik akong tumblr. Mao ra gyud akong kapagawsan sa tanan. Sakit kaayo sa dughan wtf. Ga tulo akong luha while nag type. Shit jud! Ngano naabot kog sitwasyon nga in-ani oy.

[books-n-quotes]

“I am both worse and better than you thought.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals Of Sylvia Plath

[imsoofuckingsad-deactivated2018]

if my 13 year old self could see me now she’s be like i can’t believe you’re still alive

[zxczaivbnm]

“Free yourself from the pain. Free yourself from what is hurting you. You don’t deserve that. You are more than enough. You are worth it. You deserve to be loved and you don’t deserve to be judged by the people around you.”

—

[zxczaivbnm]

“Here’s to the people who’s sacrificing their own happiness for other people, It’s hard to admit that it isn’t easy to give up our own happiness just to make others happy. It isn’t easy to pretend that we’re actually doing okay even if we’re not. It isn’t easy to wake up knowing that we lost ourselves just to fix other people’s systems. It’s okay, it’s okay to cry. It’s okay to shout out the anger you’re feeling inside. It’s okay to vent your feelings out. It’s okay to write your thoughts on your diary or on your blog. But you know what’s not okay? It’s not okay to keep that pain within yourself. It’s not okay to keep quiet just because you don’t want people to blab things and humiliate you by using harsh words that could eventually bring you down. Dear, learn to put yourself first. Learn to prioritize yourself first. Learn to love yourself first instead of putting other people first in your priority list. Before you put everything else in line, prepare yourself. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. Make sure you can handle any thing on your journey. You’re worth it, okay? You deserve to be happy. You deserve to smile without hesitating. You deserve to laugh because you can and you have the reason to laugh. Take a deep breath while you close your eyes and tell yourself that not everybody deserves your sacrifices in life. It may sound selfish but it is one of the ways on how to value yourself. How to take good care of yourself because you only have yourself when everyone in your life decided to leave you behind.”

—

[theanimalmemes]

“i owe myself a FAT ass apology for allowing people with cruel intentions continuously take advantage of me just bc i thought they would be different”

— @thesexualquotes (via thesexualquotes)

[pluvilis]

I love flowers wow

[dessyrendipity]

I don’t know if angay pa ba ipa dayon ni nga relationship. Feeling nako wala nay pulos ang tanan. Feeling nako dili na angay ipadayon kay toxic na kaayo.

Dili pod ko ganahan na ipush nako akong self para lang maganahan ang uban nako para sa iyaha.

Wala ko kabalo if nag stay lang ba mi tungod kay dugay nami? Or unsa ba. Kay ako sige nakog wonder if worth it pa ba ning tanan?

[dessyrendipity]

Worst feeling? Kanang gi judge naka and wala man lng ka gi tagaan og chance na ma prove ang imohang self.

[dessyrendipity]

I wanna change my hair color. Hindi kasi halata na brown siya. Wth.

[xphoeb-ibig]

“…the silence is more terrible because there is nothing but insanity around me, the insanity of things pulling, pulling within oneself,…”

— Anaïs Nin, from “House of Incest,” (via violentwavesofemotion)