Nel gave a silent sigh of relief when Grimmjow finally acquiesced. She had planned on doing it regardless of his answer, but having him with her would make the experience easier. At least in some ways. The glint in Urahara’s eye took on an almost malicious tone as he ordered the gigai brought out.
They were odd to behold. She had seen the gigai Rukia used, but that had already been formed to her, and Ichigo didn’t use one, so this was her first time seeing a blank gigai. It looked humanoid in shape, but as if it were lacking skin. The thick chords of musculature were visible in various places and the whole thing was the color of clay. The last odd detail, almost unsettling in a way, was the lack of a face.
Urahara’s voice held a rare serious tone, his fan folded at his side. “Be prepared you two. This is no doubt going to hurt, and not just a physical pain. It is difficult to explain, since something like this has never been done before, but it will not be easy. You must try to hold on to yourself through the process.”
Nel nodded her head in understanding and looked over to Grimmjow. She wasn’t looking for assurance and no doubt he would give none. But seeing him there beside her was enough. Urahara had laid the gigai down on the ground on small mats. She stepped to its feet, her back to it. With one last breath, she closed her eyes and fell backwards into the form that awaited her.
The pain was truly intense. But it wasn’t just physical pain, though there was plenty of it. She felt herself begin to spasm as a solidity she was unfamiliar with took hold of her. As a spirit, there had always been a disconnection to the world around her, even in Hueco Mundo. Now, she felt herself become
Then there was the disconnection. The gigai also seem to limit their power. She felt it almost cut away from her, like a limb being sawed through by a jagged blade. It wasn’t until then that she screamed. It was there, just out of reach; a pedestal that seemed to rise ever higher whenever she sought to touch it. It was similar to when her mask had been cracked by Nnoitra, but the power wasn’t leaking away. It was just cut off.
She didn’t know how long the process took. It seemed to go on forever. The shock of each nerve flaring to life across an endless expanse of skin, the feeling of air in her lungs, and the numberless sensations of existence. She could feel as the gigai changed form to match hers, sprouted hair that grew like grass across the ground. And then it was done. She lay there, sweat dripping from skin alien and familiar to her. The light seemed brighter, causing her to wince away from it.
“Congratulations, Odelschwanck-chan. You did it.”
Her breath was heavy. Her chest seemed tight, almost constricted as her lungs expanded and contracted for the first time. She paused, gathering herself. Then she turned to face Grimmjow.
SHOCK HELD HIS TONGUE OVER LONG SECONDS, nelliel’s weary features fading fast as she switched between blinking rapidly and squinting at the two figures sprawled on the ground. hovering above the blond scientist with both of his hands fisting green fabric, grimmjow’s face pinched into a deep frown before a HORRIBLE noise tore from his throat. ❝why the fuck are you asking me that? you’re the one who started screaming like a goddamned banshee! the gigai, i thought he’d—since he—❞ the visible confusion and concern that crept into nelliel’s expression smothered his lingering outrage until there was nothing left to feel but the acerbic zip of embarrassment.
he had—he had what? thought for one sickeningly long minute that urahara had ultimately BETRAYED them? had he thought that this—this effort to bring together their forces and construct a friendship unseen by history was all one clever trick orchestrated by the gotei 13 to seize the remaining espada? an elaborate scheme to incarcerate them in gigais they could never escape? grimmjow’s mind had come across a myriad of possibilities long before nelliel had begun to wail, and each possibility ignited rage and set fire to harribel’s persistent reminders that this was the beginning of a new era of peace.
FUCK the new era if it meant sacrificing one of their own.
grimmjow found himself snarling down at the shinigami still pinned beneath his weight, wondering if he should rip out his throat for all the trouble he caused. urahara moved first, however; one palm pressed against the former espada’s pectoral and grimmjow squared his shoulders, a visceral response at the resistance from PREY. ❝excuse me, grimmjow-kun, but it appears nel-chan is fully exposed! what kind of gentleman would i be if i allowed her to remain standing in my den while in the nude?❞ grimmjow couldn’t help the offended noise that escaped him at the indignity of his wrath being written off so quickly, but shit, urahara was right. if anybody walked in on them at this exact moment, there was no explanation that would satisfy.
albeit done with great reluctance, grimmjow removed himself from atop urahara, the last dredges of his fury simmering down to tolerable levels. as the shinigami bounced away to retrieve a spare set of clothing, grimmjow crossed his arms and glowered at the exit. was this just a game to him? sure as hell didn’t feel like a game. at least, not a game grimmjow wouldn’t have already ended in cold blood. those screams… it was unlike anything he had heard before. nelliel was all lethal elegance and calculating silence, only ever sparing few words to opponents she encountered on the battlefield. grimmjow had seen her sustain blows that would normally wrench a howl from any formidable warrior, and yet nelliel had displayed no more than a deep but fleeting grimace and inaudible grunts.
when urahara uttered the answer to his question in that quiet, measured voice, nelliel was still a writhing mess on the floor. ❛forgive me, but there is no guarantee my experimental gigai will function properly.❜ as if grimmjow wouldn’t have lunged for his jugular. as if he wouldn’t have disemboweled the piece of shit for his reckless technology. for killing one of his own.
vivid blue eyes slid back to nelliel who—aGH, FUCK. cursing aloud, grimmjow snatched his gaze before sending his scowl up toward the ceiling. ❝shit, nelliel, turn the fuck around or somethin’!❞