Details In The Fabric

just me being emo and posting my writing and whatever else I want

[detailsofme]

[detailsofme]

“I would always be like this, always have this within me. There was no beating it. I would never slay the dragon, because the dragon was also me. Myself and the disease were knotted together for life.”

- John Green, Turtles All The Way Down

[detailsofme]

The world would be such a better place if more people practiced empathy. Really tried to think about what it would be like to walk in someone else’s shoes. And believed that just because something is not their own reality that doesn’t mean it isn’t someone else’s. Listening to others and empathizing is one of the greatest gifts we can give to humanity.

[thepersonalwords]

“I’ve got this tiny pang of regret when I think of how much I have probably missed out on in the last few years because I was too scared to take a risk, or too shy to speak up, or too worried to be bold. It is my one wild and precious life, after all.” - Jessi Kirby

[dimpledthings]

starting is hard as it is, so don't try to do it in a perfect way. it’s better to start poorly and work your way up from there than to struggle to start at all.

[thepersonalwords]

“It takes a huge effort to free yourself from memory.” - Paulo Coelho

[detailsofme]

It’s strange how one of the best years can also be the most challenging. This year, I was brave and started living the life I want to live. I had phenomenal, new experiences. I watched Orca Whales and stared up in awe at the aurora borealis. I dyed the ends of my hair pink and got my second ear lobe piercing.

While I experienced wonderful things, I can’t help that the emotions that stick out to me from 2022 are sadness, loneliness, shame, anxiety, and uncertainty. I’m trying to not let the pain override the joy but it’s hard when I don’t feel like anything I do is enough. I’m working towards being who I want to be but the journey will be long and hard. And honestly, I don’t really believe yet that I can do it. But I know it’ll be worth it.

I’m proud of the glimpses I saw of myself in 2022. I’m trying to take time to let my accomplishments really sink in because I deserve that. Here’s to 2023. To being brave, working towards a fulfilling life, and remembering to stop and celebrate every win from small to big.

[theywerenobody]

“Books, she has found, are a way to live a thousand lives--or to find strength in a very long one.”

The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue

[detailsofme]

I feel so incredibly empty. It’s a dull ache that I don’t know how to get away from.

[vangoghcore]

by matalalta

[fleur-aesthetic]

instagram | fairynuffflowers

[stay-close]

“I feel like I’m waiting for something that isn’t going to happen.”

— Unknown

[thepersonalwords]

“You’re not boring. You’ve got to stop saying that, or people will start believing you.” - John Green

[stay-close]

“I became good at pretending. I became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. And sometimes, when I did a really good job of pretending, I even fooled myself.”

— Ruta Sepetys, Salt to the Sea

[leahberman]

seasoned; antelope valley, california

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[virtuallyinsane]

Photo by eberhard 🖐 grossgasteiger

[hwhwgwhnwnwbwbwg-deactivated202]

“I swear to you that to think too much is a disease, a real, actual disease.”

-Fyoder Dostoyevsky