Aileen

♡ Daughter of an angel ♡

[devastateddaughter]

I'm exhausted all the time

I'm sad all the time

I miss you ALL THE TIME

[devastateddaughter]

I've been so damn angry lately. I miss my mom. Why did she have to die? I can't believe this is my reality.

[devastateddaughter]

I'm cold because my tolerance for bullshit is low

[devastateddaughter]

Don't fuck with me, I'll happily walk away and never look back. I've already lost who I thought I couldn't live without. And the truth is, I was reborn that day she died.

[devastateddaughter]

Loss & death taught me so many things that I'm grateful to know. Although I wish this wasn't the way I had to learn them.

[devastateddaughter]

My friends conversation with her 4 year old daughter-

4 y/o "Where's her mom?"

My friend: "Remember we talked about her mom being sick, well her mom went to heaven."

4 y/o: "oh ok. But does she still want her mom?"

My friend: "yes, she probably does still want her mom".

Oh sweet girl, I'll always want my mom. A kid never stops wanting their mom 💔

[thenotesfromthevoid]

It's crazy to think that one day I'll probably be older than you.

You're stuck in time while I grow up.

I miss you.

[devastateddaughter]

Nothing quite like being annoyed/upset around everyone because they don't know loss like I do. The looks of pity I get, the walking on eggshells around me, the not acknowledging my loss or bringing her up.

[devastateddaughter]

"I miss you," used to do nicely. But it doesn't now. I don't think any words can describe the way I ache for my mom, who isn't alive. The way I long, bargain, deny, accept. The way I grieve her. I miss you, but it's so much more than that.

[devastateddaughter]

I'm SO angry. I'm furious. Why did the universe have to take her from me? I need her. I'll always need her.

[maesetrova]

you died and i desperately need to tell you how it feels. i need you to hold me upright while i show you this hole that exists now in my heart and the emptiness that swallows my soul. i need you to hold me while i cry out for you, and scream at god and ask him why. you died and you are the only one who can get me through this.

-Mae S. // letter to everyone i've ever lost.

[devastateddaughter]

I can't believe you're gone, yet I am reminded 100x a day... 💔

[devastateddaughter]

I feel like I'm screaming for help, but no one can hear me

[devastateddaughter]

I want my mom 💔💔💔💔

[devastateddaughter]

The hardest thing was losing you. The next hardest was the walk out of the hospital after our final goodbye.

[midnightinthemagicmicagarden]

The worst kind of loneliness is born of wanting a particular someone who can't return. Other companionship feels like being stuck in shoes that caused blisters.

[devastateddaughter]

"You saw me into this world, and I will see you out" 💔❤️💔