set your mind free

whispered words in a jumbled up mess

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Things that I know to be true: 1. My hands almost always shake. Sometimes I struggle to write, but It mostly just makes it hard to do simple things like take a nice photo. I can’t stop going through my camera roll Just so I can see you smile again. My hand never shook when it was in yours. My hand fit so perfectly in yours. 2. My heart often beats so fast I can hear it resound throughout my body. I need somewhere to put all of this heartbreak down. I need somewhere to rest, somewhere to let go. 3. Our bodies intertwined so perfectly. My thoughts sat in your hand so quietly. I stopped overthinking when I was around you. Such a rarity that I took for granted. 4. I believed you when you said you loved me. I believed you when we would talk about our future together. I believed you and I trusted you, But now all I am left with Are broken promises and a gut wrenching weight That sits so consumingly in my chest. 5. I will be okay again. I will find a way to curl my tongue around your name Without feeling the need to throw up All of my thoughts and emotions. I feel physically ill when I think of you And what we had, But I will be okay again. I will heal. 6. My hands may shake and my heart may beat too fast. I may not have mastered the ability to stop my thoughts from overflowing, And I may wear my heart on my sleeve with a sense of naivety you wouldn’t expect. But despite all of this, I love. I love and I give and I care. It is not my fault I am not what you wanted. I am not at fault for you not knowing what you wanted. I am my own person, I am whole and I am true. 7. It hurts. I gave you everything I had. I believed you and it hurts.

I Still Don't Know If All You Said Was a Lie // C.D.

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they’ll tell you to never fall in love with a poet.  they’ll say that if you do, your life will forever live in the pages,  never to be forgotten, mistakes never forgiven.  don’t fall for someone who stares at your face when you’re lost in thought,  someone who finds you so adorable when you’re completely confused.  don’t fall for a poet, they’ll capture the way your eyes sparkle in the sun, how they shine like they understand the whole world, and how they appear to hold knowledge beyond your years.  they’ll tell you, you will regret it,  you will regret allowing them to capture heartbreak fixed with love,  and love ending in heartbreak.  they’ll say you’ll never be the only one, a poet always remembers.  they’ll say you shouldn’t want your smile to be the only thing  hidden behind the words of the one you love.  but i’m telling you, its worth it.  worth all the pain and the worry and the anger.  loving a poet will teach you so much,  how to handle words with care, and how to turn phrases into weapons.  don’t listen to what others tell you, follow your heart.  fall in love with a poet and sit with them while they write.  while they write about you, about themselves, about the world.  we may never forget, but we can forgive.  we will always tell you how much we care,  how your happiness is the only thing that matters.  it may take time, but a poet will love you  like you only see in your dreams.  a poet will accept your flaws, and see them only as  more reasons to love you.  i’m telling you now, fall in love with a poet,  because what’s better than being loved endlessly?

C.D. // A Poet's Love