Tired And Bored

Vent space :) uk| Trigger warning-sensitive subjects are discussed. Please don’t follow if not an ED account. 22 Minors DNI.

[devilinarmour]

Looking for a job is killing me. Nowhere wants ne and if i cant find a job in like the next week im not gonna be able to move into the new flat and ill be kicked out of this one. Its a nightmare fr. Just wanna lay in a ditch and cry

[devilinarmour]

My degree show is today!!!! Im so excited but also panicking so bad. So much could go wrong but i cant believe i actually finished uni! Im gonna have a degree!!

[devilinarmour]

It went so well!!! I even sold work!! So elated i feel on top of the moon

[devilinarmour]

My degree show is today!!!! Im so excited but also panicking so bad. So much could go wrong but i cant believe i actually finished uni! Im gonna have a degree!!

[devilinarmour]

Trying to find an outfit for my degree show and i feel disgusting

[devilinarmour]

I hate everything

I hate that my mind is so fucked up

I hate that my body will never feel like mine

I hate that the boy i like is the sweetest gentlest person i know and i know i would hurt them

I hate that i cant get past these thoughts

I hate myself completely.

[devilinarmour]

I kissed my best friend last night. It was so nice. We had been drinking and i just went for it. We had expressed some feeling before (basically planning our lives together but platonically) but i just couldn't not. Could have kissed them for hours. Feeling so messed up this morning

[devilinarmour]

I just wish i felt good enough

[feeling-likeastranger]

sometimes i look in the mirror and don’t even recognize myself. like i’m trapped inside a stranger who just happens to have my face.

[devilinarmour]

The urge to send cryptic mysterious messages to my professor while drunk in the middle of the night

[devilinarmour]

How do other function without 3@ting? Like i always feel so lethargic and can barely move.

[devilinarmour]

Trying to write my dissertation and my brain is so fried. I have two weeks left and i just cant. Honestly rethinking everything as i try and do this. Not sure im made for this guys

[devilinarmour]

This Christmas season has really messed me up. So scared to see what the scales say when i get back to uni. I haven't taken my meds all month (took them today yay) and just feel so hopeless. I have to imagine when my meds kick back in it will not feel this bad but at the moment everything just feels too much and i just don't think I'm good enough to even try

[devilinarmour]

Life is truly draining me at the moment. Even my friends are too much for me. I just want to crawl into a little burrow and sleep forever

[devilinarmour]

22 today. Both feel 80 and 12 at the time. Is that normal?

[devilinarmour]

Truly feel like im falling apart right now, but at least its good material for my art project

[devilinarmour]

The nuances of friendship are so stressfull sometimes. I love my friends dearly but sometimes it makes me want to just crawl into a hole and hide forever

[devilinarmour]

Why does my favourite season have to also be flu season i feel like im (very dramatically) dying