A Devils Reject

I’m a veteran with a few screws loose

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I wonder if I’ll ever be normal again , after 10yrs of service & multiple deployments with constant mental & physical “ raping “ . .. it took its toll on me .. i still got my honorable discharge November 11, 2011

Then I had the audacity to get hooked into bull riding , the thrill got me , the thought of being something great after my service .. it’s was a drug to me .. my head has been bashed in too many times , broken bones , long nights just to get stomped out , but I kept coming back

I wanted more .. but flash forward to the present day ! I think my brain is not right ... I think it has to do with the constant concussions.. my head had a love relationship with the back of many bulls heads in my day , I’ll get to those stories in my next post ... but this is me ... ex military veteran on disability with beautiful kids. Looking forward to sharing my story with the y’all .. tune in

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I met the love of my life … she started off as a friend then my best friend then my gf .. I know I’ll never want anyone else .. she’s the one .. she saved my life in so many ways and im so proud of her and her goals she has .. she’s gonna be a rockstar someday but I’ll settle for her being my rockstar

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My friend reconnected with an old warrant officer that we served under

I hate that man, that is one bridge I want to never rebuild , that man can die 48 times over and I’ll be in the front row to watch

The military ain’t always what it seems … we ran our unit like the mafia .. and people got hurt .. like legit we hurt people we had each other’s backs we all hung out with the families we did everything together.. even commit crimes … with that being said . I have a story to tell

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I have these urges … and it scares me

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The line “I got 99 problems but a bitch ain’t one”

One of the most iconic lines ever written

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I like to sit and people watch .. wondering where their lives are taking them .. wondering if they live the same life that I live .. taking it day by day waiting for that one big break

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It sucks going on vacation alone but I’m making the best of it

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Another day waking up

Another day missing my fallen friends

Another day alone with my thoughts

Another day trying to get things done

Another day thinking about other days

But at least im still looking forward to……another day

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If tomorrow never comes , know that I did my best

If tomorrow never comes, I’ll be Jesus’s guest

If tomorrow never comes , I’ll be happy

Because if tomorrow never comes I know I went out as a good daddy

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Haven’t posted in a while , but I’ve been good .. started job gated it soooo I might just walk away .. the VA is still taking their sweet ass time approving my final 10% for my service connection

Elephants are big , rhinos are strong ... and Joe Biden is your president

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People come and go, best friends die off .. yeah you miss them yeah shit was crazy .. but the one thing you hold on to , to help you cope with your dead friends .. that one thing is gonna die soon , so now you’re stuck with an unholy thought which is infinite about anything ... my buddy my therapy cat is gonna die soon and I’m shook , I wish I had weed or something to cure my pain .. I don’t want to drink I just want weed , I hate life and everything that comes with it , I hate death I hate things that form around it , if the person that is named death were in front of me I would kick him or her in the fuckin nuts , I don’t want my best bud to go but I can’t see him suffer like this .... animals are precious... I don’t know what to do anymore

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I would like chopped potatoes with grilled chicken and rice

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When I was riding bulls , there were times I would be sitting on the back of an 1700lb animal & think “ what the fuck am I actually doing “ I realized , it wasn’t the livestock that got me into bull riding, it was the love of the fans , the atmosphere, the smells ... that’s why I chose to ride bulls ... it was just fun .. 10yrs has taken its toll , I’ve broken more bones in my body in a 5yr span than most will in a lifetime haha ... that’s for another post later as well .. My life has been very interesting... but fun .. even though no one follows me , it’s great to just speak what’s on my mind

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The VA called me and said my COVID 19 vaccine is ready for me ... I don’t know how I feel about it still , I got my flu shot .. but I’ve been iffy on the shot ..

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To anyone who sees this , I just want you to know what veterans suffer from by telling you my daily or weekly thoughts ...

We are a different breed , we have our own world we live in , we are not asking for sympathy, we are asking simply for a friend ..

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I think things are finally moving along with my VA Disability Claim , it’s a shame I had to hire a lawyer for my final 10% ...