How To Make A Trick A Treat
I won't question this. That is not my desire. Here is my goal:
HOW TO MAKE A TRICK A TREAT.
I love to write. I love to create, basically. I have a few books of poetry that can be purchased (selfish plug) and if I am not creating, I am bored and I just plain out don't like it. But when it comes to my mental, emotional, and spiritual health, one of my favorite forms of alchemic healing and prophetic, prolific soul transformation is writing. So here is a blog for me to discuss how to take something "dark" and make it "light".
Let's face it: we need the sun and moon. We need light and dark. I don't know how they do it in states and countries when it's either more daylight than night or vice versus. I like balance. I need it. So when we discuss, or rather, I discuss "dark" and "light", let's talk the difference between your shadow self and soul and truly malignant and evil beings (since today is All Hallow's Eve, I will basically put on blast negative spirits, beings, entities AND people).
I don't know about you but I like sleeping when it's all dark. To me, where there is darkness there is rest. Peace and restoration. A time to shut down or quiet down enough to be still and travel to places within me and in other spaces of Time, Space, Local. I like that. I'm a Christian Shamaness, which means TO ME that YSHUA of the Hebrew bible also lovingly and sacredly known as Jesus Christ, Jesus of Nazareth, is real and then some along with what GOD, male and female (that means GOD and GODDESS. No detracting or minimizing the Feminine Divine here. That's my Momma and Daddy we're talking about. Deal with it). And all that GOD/GODDESS, to me in Hebrew El Elyon Elohim created - rocks, crystals, energy, elements, words, thoughts and deeds made sacred through purifying intent, spirit, soul and body - has the life of my Heavenly Parentage, who created the Universe for their children to bless in the reaping and to teach as well. What we sow we reap. It's a law that one cannot get away from, and it's present in various thoughts, spiritualities, religions, paradigms and as I study quantum physics (I'm enjoying Pam Grout, Gregg Braden and others) I understand that in dealing with the spiritual and soulful, some things need to be addressed that mainstream or New Thought/New Age believers or workers have as I have read, hear and studied, either ignored or make irrelevant or rather, part of a dying religion or faith.
I love Jesus. In that one name there are many names and in course with believing in Him, I believe as well in the spiritual architecture or framework in hierarchies in this faith of His. I don't do or believe in religion. To me, it has put GOD in a box and has been the primary way I have experienced being in proverbial caskets so therefore I take the Bible, the writers of it lately with a grain of salt because religious man had their way with something sacred and ancient, toying with it as they do in systems and well, I believe in Jesus and His message, principles and character. I also believe that there are demons and diabolical entities, male and female. So many believers in Christ are not aware of demonology or angelology (the study of angels, spelling in question..HA!). I personally due to my own faith structure believe a third of celestials, from seraphim to archangels to elemental angels some call fae, before Time became non-Love, non-Life, non-GOD yet two thirds remained to stand guard, assist, worship GOD and do the will of the ALMIGHTY. I believe what the New Testament says about being "ambassadors of Christ" and in being a shaman worker in the way that I am, I take this very seriously.
To say I have dealt with malignant and downright evil people and things is a small statement. And let's not forget there is a difference between a "demon" (anglicized for fallen celestial) and a "daemon", in Greek for a warrior who has passed who chose or was chosen to be a guardian. I don't know of any churches personally that teach the difference or acknowledge but in "studying to show yourself approved before GOD" and "My people perish for lack of knowledge", I do not want to be one who doesn't have knowledge or isn't studying or searching for the higher consciousness of Christ and of GOD, where the bible says we could "have the mind of Christ". So that means we could know and experience the love that has no height, width, depth or length, the Love that conquers fear perfectly. So on a day and night like this, there is, to me, always battles, confrontations, strategies to be made and as a believer it is my duty to partake of the Love that strategies to conquer evil.
So how does this correlate with "How To Make A Trick A Treat" and mental health?
The picture I posted with this blog is me. The many, perfect me's that make up the imperfectly perfect me. Some are not so perfect. And today, as I have sought to lay down the search for my identity and rest, I find that I am requesting to be a spiritual and soulful gateway not just for the ancients and for the deities who serve Love (to ME, GOD is Love and GOD is the MOST HIGH so the sons and daughters of GOD that the Psalmist writes of and says are heavenly beings are NOT sons and daughters of man and women...get it?). See, I tend to use spirit and Spirit, my soul and the Soul of GOD, my Abba and my Mama, to heal and to rest because sometimes the light is too bright and because of my mental and emotional health and difficulty finding outside treatment for the Dissociative Identity Disorder diagnosis I only received ONCE after a lifetime...and OLD lifetime of hospitalizations and programs and paradigms of old...I have had to reach outside the box of the Christianity I had known and some may even call me a "witch". I have been told "you are a witch and the bible says I should kill you" by a Christian family member who then took back saying it for whatever reasons, but the fact she said it AND believed it is something that has always had me questioning if I was evil or crazy.
And I am neither evil nor crazy. So there!
How to make a trick a treat.
Believe in you. I believe in me. I believe I am a Most High Daughter of the Most High GOD. I also have now chosen as said daughter, to not fight what I could use as a second armor of GOD. That is where medication and treatment come in, even though I'm not in the type of treatment to help me integrate the many of me that are now so silent my memory is gone of substantial past and history but awaken when they desire and it is a...challenging existence. So as I say "believe in you", I actively believe in the What I am because the Who? There are deep questions of who I really am, my age, my name, my birthplace and I don't dislike "Deborah Ramos" because that is one beautiful name but it isn't me. SHE isn't me because once upon my lifetimes I have lived in these years due to the dissociation, I was told and made to be a "Trick", not a "Treat". Labeled a sin and a demoness yet I gotta tell you, I'm neither. And in understanding that, the worlds I survey as a creatrix and as a goddess (daughter of GOD, people) and the truths I have chosen to live by and believe, well, the worlds are beautiful. With shadow and sunlight and fire and earth and water. I belong simply because it is time to "be".
Be beautiful in my skin that doesn't at times feel my own.
Be secure in the knowledge and wisdom and discernment that come with Spirit that my Momma Wisdom who Jesus said knows Her children knows me and I am loved, loved, loved...
So no matter what is done, what is said, burned, blood-let, chanted, tried to tie and bind or kill and destroy or hinder me by men and women who just hate me because of my faith and other reasons I don't really care to try to find the why's to...no matter what they do or sow, I am reaping beauty. I am my own treat and a gift to others and as for my mental health treatment, I ain't fighting the tide anymore. I believe I need a little more help and I don't have to be like the Magdalene with her seven demons or the Gadarene being tied to a rock in a cemetery, chained rather because of her disorders and sensitivities that had made her a toy or puppet because she was NOT loved or UNDERSTOOD or trained up to be a spiritual master or worker or a Graced One. "Grace" I was taught is "the ability of GOD", not this gentle thing all the time and in that Grace, I live.
Therefore, I have turned trick on the Tricksters and have made myself what my Momma and Daddy GOD have designed me to be.
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