Crimson stained lightning sparks and arc off her body, grounding itself against the floor at her feet, and radiating around the armor coating her body. Even through the thick plating that protects her she feels the cold hateful touch of it, kissing and tormenting her smaller form, numb fingertips only ghost the feeling. They don’t experience it now, but the phantom memory is haunting even still.
Violence had struck out, but when lucidity had fallen away so too had sense, so too had the proficiency with her abilities. An animal, backed into her corner, if only mentally. Hatred, vicious all consuming hatred wants to see wide yellow eyes swing violently. To be done with this– Thing, this aberration in the force, this ghost that did not any longer no the kiss of the light and the only dark it knew was the all consuming void it lived in.
Practically foaming, Syndra’s eyes blown out and fully wide, considers the swing. Of taking this life to be done with this pain and confusion, to take the life that now lingered in her mind as some sort of horrific nightmare.
Body heaves, chest compresses and rises with breath and exhale in rapid succession. “I–” The Force surges through her but it is not the love of life it once had been, it is hateful, it is cold, and she can feel it like acid burning down to her very bones as the sparks climb up her arms.
Trap. Trap, the paranoia and fear whisper lingering in the back of her mind. If she swings, there is a counter. Even if the blade passes through, she thinks, this is a trick.
“Why do you beg for your death?” It made no sense, to one so consumed and tormented by the fear of death, of vacancy in the Force, of ceasing to be. Why would anyone want to join themselves from whence they came? “I can’t– I– I–” Before, when moving like liquid through the air she had no problem dealing potentially killing blows, but now that it was all instinct that drove her, her hands trembled.
There was the Power. Note for note, each step was being approached ritualistically. Similarity. Familiarity. The past stared deep into the eyes of the future, wondering just where the present would lead. It was up to her, the wyrm, to tip the scales. Send this one tumbling over the edge, or find a means to steady her? Wickedness or Weakness?
She should’ve stayed home. She could’ve been in the Core right now, attending a senatorial meeting with Kyra’s parents.
The detached limb is released, the arm that is still whole is lifted to card through her hair, freeing her vision to gaze upon the being opposite. She was so confused, she was so confused. She needed guidance. Focus. Her chains had been shed, but the freedom she claimed was tearing her apart. If the force was a maelstrom, this one wasn’t in the eye. They were trapped in the gale.
“Beg? I don’t beg. I don’t plead. I do not implore. I am telling you to strike. I am DEMANDING that you strike. Because I know what the alternative is.” Weakness. Hesitance. Pain. The notes were different, but the song was the same. Decisively act, or Die in anguish.
Despite the wound she suffered, the fingers on her once-severed appendage curled. Inward. Outward. Flexing and slackening. Life ran through the limb once again, as if it hadn’t been taken once before. “Would it help if I took arms?” Cloak brushed aside with repaired hand, she took an ANCIENT hilt from her waist and held it aloft. The blue blade within remained within. Unignited. Merely the whisper of a potential threat. “Will you act now?”