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I kinda want to go back to india, but I kinda don't want to because I can't attend A's sisters' wedding. Mom's not allowing, and I'll regret not going more when I'm in India. Now, these exam dates have also arrived, I got so confused, I don't know what to miss and how to attend the wedding

I'm in love. But I've never met him. Long distance suck. He asks me why we never fight. To that I have no answer. I really love him, but does he love me as much as I do? I'm also having doubts about my loyalty,too. Because of W. But i really really don't want to lose him, ever. I want to meet him, I miss him so much. Even though we've never met.

What is happeniing? Massive hairfall, Mum not happy, always lazy. God, help me.'

#books and libraries #new

Feeling kinda stuck, kinda bored.I don't know what's missing. Friends? A friend? who? or what?

We lost. we lost big time. ICC world cup 023 will be forever remembered. Those 11 people who don't even know 99% of indians made us hapy and proud for whole 2 months. I'm not mad, or angry, i'm just very very sad that they tried so hard and got so far, but at last.... It's been 2 days and i'm still crying, imagine what is happening to them. I just hope the next world cup they play and win big time so that Virat can retire peacefully and I Can be a proud fan of him for eternity hehe.WE ARE PROUD just a little hurt, but that's okay, because we know you guys did your best. PROUD TO BE A CRICKET fAN.

Not again, not again. Not again waiting for someone hours to talk foe just a few minutes. No no no no no please don't do this to yourself, Shivangi. Please don't Please please please

Hellooooo. wow long time no see again, his was reall a long time. Alot of thiings had happened and alot of things are happening. I moved to UK, its been almost 3 months now. My course started and I am already behind. The uni is great, the professors are awesome, too. I'm sharing an apartment with 2 other girls and 2 boys. I do not talk alot with the boys, they're barely home anyways.

The girls (D & V) are the closest one here. I cook with them, go to uni with them, like do almost everything together. I met a guy, too. He's D's friend first, but now is my close friend, too.

W, we met in my apartment, but we never spoke for days after that. Then we went to a party in early October, since then we started talking and day y'day we came closer, not romantically though. We became drinking friends and then things took turn sexually.

yyeeaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh.

So we're fwb now. It's a good ride till now, because both of us do not want anything serious. After senpai, i don't think i'll be able to believe that anybody can love me. Anyway, we're having fun, and that's that. I met his friends and he already knew my flatmates. Nobody knows about our relationship, because he thinks people will not understand, and I agree. I mean what happened in Russia, after that I couldn't agree more with this.

I have settled here, The only thing that I wanted which is not happening is i didn't get any part-time job, yet. I tried, really, but i guess that was not enough. I am still trying hopefully I'll get it sooner or later. Life here is a little boring as of now. Mainly because i've got no friends like the ones i had in russia? Also, except uni, there are not a lot of things. I'm just happy that i'm independent here, not like Russia. Hopefully I'll write more from now on, because, I got a keyboard for my tab. It's not very good, but it was cheaper and I don't have a lot of money to spend. I haven't got a lot of friends tbh, only a bunch of okay-ish friends, let's hope they become my good friends in time or i find others.

Hello

Long time no see 😅

It's because nothing has happened. Except that I went on a trip to TamilNadu with my family, which was - let's just say, not the best one 😅

Another news - I got my visa, YAAAAAYYYYY 🥳🥳🥳

I'm so excited and worried at the same time. Idk how I'm gonna manage traveling, settling, and cooking all by myself. Hope UK will be good to me.

Now that I've crossed the last hurdle between me and the UK, it's time to go for SHOOPPPIINNGG.

It's been 10 days since Charlie's gone, and still, I'm unable to stop my tears. I cry alone, usually in the bathroom, under the blanket, where nobody can see me, I dont them to feel bad too. His scream is just stuck in my head. I was holding him when he tried to lose the grip and screamed when the pain was unbearable. They told me the IV drip will heal him, I never knew I was holding him against his will just to know later that he was slowly dying. I feel like I made him suffer, but how could I know this? The IV drip was supposed to heal him, and he only had a mere gas problem, right? It was not in my hand to save him. We tried everything that was in our hands. I know that, but still, I hate that we couldn't do anything to help him.

We're all set to go for a trip next week, but seriously, I'm not in a mood. Me, who is always ready to travel to a new place, does not want to go anywhere. I'm not at all excited. In fact, although we found a nice clean house for him to stay, I still don't want to leave Cheeku, too, even for 2 weeks.

Every time I look at puppy videos or videos of dogs who are suffering from any illness, I cry non-stop. I don't know when it'll end. What will help me.

I have no idea.

I can't, I just can't. I'm so sorry, Charlie, again.

I'm sorry meethi

We love you, and we'll miss you both equally ❤️

Got my final CAS, my loan was sanctioned, and I'm only one TB test away to apply for the visaaaaaaaaa 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

I'm on top of the world. Everything's going perfectly. Please let it be like for as long as possible 😅

I better start buying stuff thar I'm gonna need there 😊😊

My CAS letter is taking longer than it should. I am getting anxious as to why they are not sending me that damn letter so that I can start my visa process. I don't like my fate. It can play some dirty tricks to not make my dream come true. I don't know what I'm gonna do if I somehow didn't end up in the UK by September this year.

I did everything I could to know why this was delayed. I get no answers. They just told me to wait. I can't wait, I hate waiting.

I've made a lot of promises to myself and my mom. I can't stand this feeling. I hate this feeling. But the problem is I can't do anything about it, I just have to wait because its in their hands to send me the letter.

I have no backup plans. Hell, THIS ISS MY BACKUP PLAN

What am I gonna do if the letter never comes?

Welcome, the newest member of the family. Hope we can fill your whole life with happiness and health, which you deserve ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Welcome Home, Charlie ❤️✨️

You are missed. Every. Single. Day. Please forgive us and come back. 🙏 😔

What if I say I miss homeworks?

I miss the discipline, the pending works and time pressures. I know I can pick up a book and start studying today itself, but without time limit or when I know that there is no exam anytime soon, I always delay it. I hate myself procrastinating.

I can't study when there's no pressure. Even if I want to do it. 🙄

I feel like my desires in my wish list will be on the list only. It'll never be fulfilled until I start to earn money and be independent.

No IPL stadium matches this time, too 😒

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