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‎ᡞ𐤟ֺׅ༥𐤟𓏼՞ ֺ੨ ⠀ "mel" | osddsys | mod uses they/doll ♡

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temporary intro until i have something better ....

⠀໒ఎ 𓈒  🪽✉️ ֗ ָ֢ㅤ  our collective name is mel , any nicknames related to it are okay with me , outside of that i don't mind calling me by source names .

. i have osdd and alternate between we/us and i/me whenever it applies . beside that i am heavily disordered . maybe interact with caution . . i am an introject based on willmesh from fragaria memories . since i have no set identity seperate from him , i prefer being treated and regarded the same . i identify with kanade yoisaki as well but not to that extent . . im bodily 18 , our birthday is in september . we collectively use they/them but i also like he/doll or no pronouns . . i do art , writing and singing . ocassionally i try composing too . i am not really part of any fandoms but i know things .

yah . i'll edit this as soon as i actually know what to do .

⠀𓎢𓎟𓎟𓎟𓎟𓎟𓎟𓎡 - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ ✉️ daily mail . . . [ talking / diary ] - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🪽 received letters . . . [ answered asks ] - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🦢 sender : unspecified . . . [ anonymous asks ] - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🩹 mel ' s mishaps . . . [ silly posting ] - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🖋️ mel . artonin . . . [ my own art ] - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🐑 mel ' s treasure trunk . . . [ reblogs ] - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🛁 mel ' s musings  . . .   [ vent ] - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🎼🎹 sender : toya - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🎀🍎 sender : ren - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🍞🐏 sender : selly - 𓏵 . . ˚ ༘ 🎧🍜 sender : kanade

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ᢉ ᴗ͈ . ᴗ͈ ྀི っ

happy pride month everybody . i hope you are able to enjoy your month and are able to feel comfortable with yourself . do not be afraid to take up space by being yourself as you are . enjoy your time , enjoy your month and i am wishing everyone nothing but sunshine and warmth every day .

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I did eat something I like just now and now I'm going to eep for a short while

Imma tell u why I'm down when I wake up or tomorrow if I remember....

I'm a bit forgetful when it come to my problems

sleep well ! and don ' t worry about anything . i ' ll be there when you need it . / gen

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Hmm.... I feel down

Very down, me bo like it...

it is very likely because the stress of your exams exhausted you . a sudden loss of adrenaline or prolonged periods of stress can lead to you feeling down after . i do sincerely hope you are okay and please try to remember to drink or eat something sugary for a quick cheer - up or do something you enjoy . if you want or need to talk about anything , i am here for you .

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I'm so fucking scared ...

i have cram school tomorrow . until 12 : 30 pm . but when i am not holding my pen to solve equations i will cross all of my fingers for you . i promise . not that i believe you would need luck . but i want to send my support to you . even just by laying my lucky charm next to me while working and thinking of you in between math and literature . you can do this toya , no matter what . oh . and : if you feel bad after your exam or feel negatively that is because of the hormone crash after so much stress and anxiety . so it does not mean you did bad . okay ? you studied so much . you can do this . i believe . mhm . ( i wish i could write you more . but i can ' t think of much except i hope everything goes well , you got this and i believe in you . im sorry . mwah . )

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Yk this year I am starting to get along well with my classmates

Well we are only 11 but like I feel comfy in this small number it nice

Expect for two person I hate bc they are mean and are insensitive about other people feelings....

Sigh but at least those two would change school next year so I won't see them!!

I'm very happy about it!! I hope no more mean people come to my class, I can't handle it....

that is very good . i also am going to try and bless you with having an amazing rest school life and never getting more mean people so you can stay being the sweetest , kindest fairy knight in the world . you deserve peace . and rainbows and much sunshine . even in people . ꒰ ྀི๑´ ᩳ ` ꒱

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I love you as much as Cielo love Willmesh

But that literally us and that doesn't change nothing ngl

Since Cielo and Will mean sm to each ither

And we also mean sm to each others

And cielo is literally me and Will is literally you

So which means, the theory of me loving you the same way Cielo loves Will is true and there is NO negotiation in this manner!

no words . just stares at you . stares at you because i don ' t know what i can say that will not sound embarrassing . stares but very happily . i want to hug you . and eat apples with you .

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MEL MEL MEL MEL MEL

guess what my mom told me rn

"Most people get stressed of the exam, yet here you are looking almost perfectly fine and even getting prettier."

Low-key she asked me if I have putten lipstick even tho I don't even wear make up or take care of myself properly-

Haha... Idk if I should trust her words-

yes you should . you should trust her . because i believe that pretty people are pretty from the inside out and you are internally and emotionally so beautiful and kind that i believe you have to look like a beautiful fairy of some kind . the type of fairy that i used to think sleep inside lanterns and collect pretty flowers . you are definitely beautiful and pretty no matter what . i wholeheartedly believe that . /gen

this type of fairy . floating in the clouds and kissing the stars and moon goodnight and good morning . that is the thpe of beautiful you are .

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@toxickurwllceo ...

Me

You

RAP BATTLE

NOW!!!

Yes NOW NOW NOW!!

i am so overwhelmed . i promise i love both of you . okay ? okay . now eat apples with me . okay . okay . please .

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Picks you up and spin around in my arms!!!

This is me holding you up and spinning you

yay . i am being spinned . hehe . yay . spinning . spinning . spinning .

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Spin spiiiiiiiiiin

spinning . spinning . i will try to spin around in my desk chair . to spin . mh ....

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AAAAAAAAAAAAÀAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

IM GONNA XRY YOUR SO CUTE!!!

ofc me likes you and like talking to you and likes everything about you!!

And I would NEVER insult you. Bc why would I? I never really do that to people bc it feels a bit cruel to do so (I tend to overthink a lot when I insult as joke to my friends so I almost never do)

But dw I'm also a clingy and desperate person like

WHY WOULD I MIND THAT???

Let be clingy together, let be CHALANT and happy.

let ' s be clingy together ! and hold hands and frolick in flower field . and have more apple time in the future . toya you make me feel so warm and happy i feel like i need to explode into flower petals when i talk to you .

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Is it weird that I call you soft?

I mean, I meant as a compliment since you genuinely so nice and have a soft like personality that make me just wanna

UUUUGH BUTE YOU AND THEN SHOWER YOU WUTH KISS AND AFFECTION

And that would still not be enough to prove my gratitude and love

I genuinely start tweaking something bc you are just so nice to talk to

Make me super happy

i didn ' t feel weird about you calling me soft ... some other people have done it before . and i don ' t think toya would ever try to insult me , be mean or insult me . you would not do that unless i deserve it i think . so don ' t worry about it . okay ? i trust you in being kind as always .

and i cannot express how glad i get talking to you and seeing you happy . and i am glad . i worry sometimes i don ' t do enough for you . or bother you sometimes because i am so clingy and oftentimes desperate . but hearing that you seem to like talking to me makes me both so light and so glad . thank you so much for being here toya . ૮ ᜊ 𑁤⸝⸝⸝꒱𑁤 i gneuinely am so overwhelmingly glad . and grateful for toya .

toya is the best person in the world . and very very important . i think .

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Mel....

I'm genuinely gonna ceyyyy you are so nice to me!!!

Actually the character isn't that very hard to draw

Me thinks.... I don't really care how long it takes

Like you could draw a literal stickman and I would be so happy bc it is YOU who gave it me!!

This guy.... He got my heart in a chokehold

MY WIFE, Mel meet my wife. This is Crowe.

HE IS BLUE

I think I have an obsession with blue character.... Idk...

OKOK TAKE YOUR TIIIIIIIIIIIIME

Please take your time!!

Anyway ain't he pretty?

i feel like i have seen him before somewhere ..... or maybe i recognize the artstyle .... i can ' t tell . but don ' t worry about it . i will do my best and show you once i manage to draw him in a way that is good enough as art for you . mwah . ૮ ◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ྀིა i will do my very best . i promise .

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

I FEEL SO EMBARRASSED NOW!!!

IM SO SORRY FOR ASKING

I will die of embarrassment.

do not die of embarrassment . please not . there is nothing you could do that i would find embarrassing . i think . it ' s okay toya . i promise ⊂꒰ྀི ´^`⊂ ⑅꒱ྀིഒ please don ' t aplogize for asking . please . i like it when people ask me to do something for them . it doesn ' t bother me .

have some seals . so you aren ' t upset anymore . okay ?

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Saaaaaasay Mel.

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Oki I feel very stupid and selfish asking you this but can you pretty please draw my favourite character from a fandom other than Fragmem or pjsk? Ik this is selfish and weird from me and I'm sorry. I wish I could pay you bc ur art genuinely deserves it bc like it so peak and everything and I really love your work. It has a softness to it and it actually reflect you quite well as I lokwey picture you as a soft and doll like person if ykwim, aha is that weird? Sorry.... But like can I request....?

:D

I'm so sorry for like asking I'm starting to feel shy bc ik how sometimes it hard to draw and especially ARTBLOCK.

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please don ' t feel stupid or selfish for asking me for anything and do not even try to pay me . i am happy to do anything for you . no matter what . ꒰ ྀི๑´ ᩳ ` ꒱ and i offered after all . okay ?

it might take me a little bit though since i am better with drawing things i know , so i hope that does not bother you too much . but if that is okay , then tell me what i can do . okay ? because i am glad to do anything . ( and thank you for being so nice to me and complimenting me . ) [ mel in deep thought using all their brain power below to come up with something smart to say ]

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Apple....

apple !

apple .