ROAD 318

Anthropologist student, road explorer. I know I'm gonna need this

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Mum’s garden-farm

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FishInn，拍摄这一类的照片变得不再有趣，是因为了解这种奇观化的视角，背后也隐藏着英文世界与本地的权力不平等关系。弄清楚这些让自己不舒服的理由后，就舒心自在地停止了拍摄。直到我找到看这座城市的更舒适的方式吧…可是，这座城市我也待得太久了，久到，质疑自己是否该因为停滞不前而离开了。

FishInn. These kind of photo-taking is not making me happy anymore after I realized that the perspective I took is a specialization of the ordinary scenes. It has been disturbing but now the reasons are clear, only that a way of looking needs to be found and formed. Until then, me and my camera should be happy with a rest. But I’ve been living here for so long, long enough to feel that maybe it’s, now, too long and time for a change.

#fishinn #shanghai

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今天感到有点疲累，叹息说同龄人的生活都已经步入正轨。想问宇宙的神秘力量，我的命运是很难算还是怎样，为何还不告诉我答案？

但，号召力拥有一股政治性的力量。

Can’t help but feeling a little bit tired today. Things seem to have all worked out well for others but just not for me. Dear mysterious power of the world, is my destiny level-ten math, why not telling me my fate?

But, but I know, opinions have political power. 

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从路变成城市，再从城市变成海。时间慢慢过去了，路的故事我又再写起来。

最近终于脱离那种被打败的心绪，连带着跟朋友一起，都欢脱了起来。可能是春天来了吧。没有害怕了，只有一种往前走的坚定。去台湾看望朋友，我们驱车去看到到山跟海，都让人想到人生可以看到那么美的风景，很幸运。

我一点也不想结束，这路上，让我多待一阵子吧。

From the road to the city, and then the city to the sea. The road writing is again back in my plate. 

Now the feeling of being defeated is all gone. So is fear. It’s a lucky thing and it might be the spring. We drove to see the northern coast of Taiwan. Beautiful mountains and the sea. It’s nice to be alive. Even the thought of being able to see more of that makes me happy. 

I want to go nowhere but to stay.

photo / Jiufen, Taiwan

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Listen/purchase: Gangster Music Vol. 1 by Gangster Doodles

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偶尔觉得自己的人生走得比别人慢了。偶尔又觉得自己很满足。

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我还在写那条路，纵使我知道我应该赶快写下关于冒险的一切。最近充满了煮饭的动力。写论文也是极限运动。

I'm still working on the road chapter in my dissertation, though I'm so aware that I should put down everything about adventure instead. Recently, i've been soaking fulfilment from cooking for him. Guess writing is also an extreme sport.

photo /Lithang

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开始写论文的第十天，字数上停滞不前可是想法上有些进展。周日早上下了好大的雨，大到像是英格兰之神往伦敦城上头浇了整盆的水。在Bedford小广场那边躲进一户人家的屋檐。屋檐下还有另一对情侣，德国男子和娇嗔的台湾女孩。阴阴沉沉的天空像是城市还没有醒过来，我们在人满为患的咖啡店里吃早餐暗自假装我们是唯一享受早晨的人。下雨没有任何的不好，亚非图书馆里是木头和粗粝石块质感墙面的颜色，整个三楼就像是我们的。光着脚去卫生间和拿书，好像在家一样。

The tenth day since I started writing. the words amount didn't seem to increase but hopefully I have better thoughts now. It rains heavily Sunday morning, as if the god of England left the tap running. We ran into a couple who were also sheltering in Bedford Square, Germany guy and over-too-sweet Taiwanese girl. The Whole world looks dim as if not yet awake from the saturday night dream. We had breakfast in the only cafe that was opened, pretending that nobody but us didn't miss morning. Raining is no bad at all. SOAS Library is in dark yellow now with its rough stone-textured wall, and the entire floor C belongs to us now, as we walking around barefoot.

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I was thinking about the road im going to write about but ended dull, once a year Im again in the limbo of the past and the present. Once again anthropology touches me when it comes to going back to one's memory. 

起因是毕业论文无法下手，而后是因为这几天搬家旅行一时半会儿集中不了注意力。看到朋友的摄影觉得有些感动。于是开始写这个图片的日记吧。希望能跟他一起完成这条论文之路。

(pic/Royal Opera House)

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