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My senior year.

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Pouring my heart to the Internet. Don't think it's the safest plan...

I feel so alone that it hurts me. My heart is squeezing out pain from its every corner. You know they say the happiest people in the are the saddest. Am I that? I have this bright face very morning that I take to school. I have chubby cheeks that fill my smile up every time I say good morning. I have hope every day for the better the next morning. People say it gets better one day at a time. But this never seems to get better. Every step I take to stay happy; life hits me back with twice the power. It’s like it makes an effort to make things harder for me. I know the right and wrong. I know the line between them; but I look at the wrong and sometimes it seems better than the right. I’ve never crossed that line but it’s so tempting to. Its so tempting to cross that line and go to the dark side in hopes for the better. I have good life. Not everthing in the world but I have enough things in life that I’m not struggling. Yet I seem to be struggling. I seem to not have anything with me. Like having everything but nothing. Maybe I’m just hormonal right now but I feel like shit. I feel so alone and helpless to my situation. I keep remembering these words. Last, I was called down to the vice principal’s office for something. The vice principal looked at me and smile. He knew it fake. He saw right through it and told me to find someone to lean on. At the time I thought he was just old and didn’t know me enough to tell me such things. But it was me that wasn’t aware. I didn’t know he was right. I need someone to lean on. I’ve been holding on to the side for a long time. Now I need someone to pick me up. I belive in hope. I belive that there will be a time when someone will come and pick me up. But I hope for it to me sooner cause I don’t think I can hold on any longer.

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