dani

remind me of my quality

[di4ph4nous]

i wanna write my about my pain in such a way to when you read it you feel my emotion. id rather express my pain in a beautiful way rather than hurting myself physically, bc it hurts jus as much to reread it back

[di4ph4nous]

i don't know how much more i can take

can't see the light in the tunnel

and from my lack of senses

i never saw it coming

i can't take it

[di4ph4nous]

Purple

you're not giving me something to write about

not a metaphor comes to mind

when i look into your eyes

my problems seem to cease

and with permission from a blink

you let me gaze at the threshold

or the windows to your soul

and you'd tilt your head and let me know

that your insides are pink through and through

and so are my own

you you you

and for you, my feelings are clear as day

oh so true

oh my god

none of my heart's beats are for another

my lashes only bat for you

I'm in love

pink and blue

[di4ph4nous]

i can't understand the idea of

unanimous love

a love without sin

a love tale spread thin

thin as the trails left behind by tears on my own skin

im never gonna treat you like i should

scraped skin on infinite roads

to forget your skin on mine

sprayed with firehoses

to rid the stench of affairing lovers

i know that im not good

im never gonna love you as i should

still, i stare into your eyes as i

trace the lines of your jaw

these infidelities are never worth

the clenching of your teeth it comes with

or the furrowing of your eyebrows

or your eyes diverting mine

why do i find it so hard to love you

when i know in my heart that I want to

your lips alone is never enough for me

i'll always want more

how much more for me could you possibly want to be

[di4ph4nous]

One and A Thousand

in a thousand words i’ll kiss you

a thousand pairs of your lips will touch mine

then my hands will graze your hips gracefully

for the hundredth, thousandth, millionth time

the shape of your brown body will forever

be burned into my brown eyes

and ill lean and whisper

“what do you want me to do”

a thousand times again and again

ill do it all to please you

[di4ph4nous]

he can have the last laugh

and the last smirk

with the last grin

whatever will pacify the temptations

with however many sins

see

the way this works

in the end we both win

[di4ph4nous]

if i could take your nervous system then i would

just to make you feel my pain

to make you soft like i

your words mean more than mine

it'll never be enough

why wont you look at me

why wont you acknowledge im here

that im alive

that im breathing

im thinking thoughts just as complex as your own

imagination isnt real

dont you see me?

do want to?

be honest with me

whats the problem

why dont you love me

who's your favorite girl

[di4ph4nous]

id like nothing more than to spread myself out

than to disburse my limbs

than to detach from myself

to free my real soul

to get lost in the dark matter

hoping to be with the stars

light years away

far from the chaos

close with the cosmos

wearing saturns rings

habitating venus

living in my dark academia

white gas closer than it could ever be

burning gas entering the atmosphere

like fireworks next to me

bleeding from plucking at my scalp

feeling the picking from far far away

away from the stress

of my self hatred

and “not so obvious” depricating mental health

fantasizing about death

and how id dictate my last days

hoping itd be spontaneous combustion

self heating from self hatred

a thermal suicide

when a star’s gas cant stay ignited

it falls

when a blade enters my body

it bleeds

when the truth unveils itself

i see

betrayal from a unsuspected enemy

[di4ph4nous]

im gonna take your words

its smart how they do it

its a evil world we love it

its a evil world we love in

that's accidentally beautiful

and with accidental beauty

there consequential conflict

and consequences bring lessons

lessons lack selfishness

it brings waves of ethics and morals

yet im gonna take your dialect

ill twist your phrases

and make whats yours mine

i’m gonna steal your voice

but nothing is louder than your silence

[di4ph4nous]

ive nver seen a star shine as bright as you

my eyes have glanced a million things

and still i haven’t seen anyone quite like you

for me to identify a shape thats built for you

five sides

five different angles

five more reasons im in love with you

[di4ph4nous]

cryout

[di4ph4nous]

[di4ph4nous]

for sake of my perfection

i give you my words

its the best i could do

to give you my words

to give you my love

id hand you my white heart

a organ without blood

in its purest form

without all the work

without all the stress

of pumping for all my veins

some raw and cleaned love

the center of my life

reason for my breath

im handing you my life

ive given you my lungs

and my tongue with my lips

and the back of my teeth

im scalping myself

and all this for what

a text ?

if im lucky a call ?

can you guess what i want

can i make it obvious for you

can i give you my eyes

can you try on my shoes

could you give me your breath

could you give me your knees

along with your palms

can i rip out your spleen ?

[di4ph4nous]

theres no reason to believe youll save us now

but if you really love say me it now

like i love you

[di4ph4nous]

how far is a lightyear

[di4ph4nous]

look at you go

i just adore you

i wish that i knew

what makes you so good

and im nothing like you

look at you go

im right behind you

i wish it was true

that you feel how i felt

i just want to be you

oh how i wish that i knew

what makes me think

youre so special

i wish you thought i was special

if i could begin to be

half of what i think of you

i could do about anything

i could even gain confidence

if you would just talk to me

tell me what was bothering you

i would do about anything

just to see you cheer up

i could even learn how to love me for you

i always thought i was bad

not ever enough for you

cause

i think youre so cool

i just want to be you

[di4ph4nous]