~ Díaa ~

First It Hurts ; Then It Changes You.

[diaaxpr]

Hey y'all , I haven't posted in a while ..

Here's something ..

Dear Lover,

if i could

i would

take you on a journey

of my overthinking

you know ..

show you the process

of how you ruined me

if i could

i would

take you on a journey

and make you live it

on repeat

because of you Im scared

scared to feel again

I'm scared to feel love

love isn't supposed to hurt

Because of you

I now live in this constant ball of anxiety

I have put up a wall

around my heart

Bigger than the

Great Wall of china.

-vengeance

[diaaxpr]

she did a lot of things, but most importantly she continued to choose what was best for her each day. she stopped worrying about those who never returned the calls or messages. she stopped stressing over the small stuff and learned how to grow into her full potential. she finally gave her heart away to herself.

[diaaxpr]

All of us are better when we are loved.

[diaaxpr]

& then I realized

caring about so many little things

isn't wrong

it's exhausting

but can make you strong

it might mean

you have a big heart

at vour core

you just really want things

to be good

[diaaxpr]

She will remember the moments

you made her feel loved

more than the times you said,

"I love you."

[diaaxpr]

now it is you,

me,

& the it's over in between us.

[diaaxpr]

It's comforting to know

we sleep under the same moon

stancing with a distance,

retrieving the memory

where someday that moon testified

them being one.

[diaaxpr]

I really wanted it to be you,

I so badly wanted it to be you,

Until I understood

You didn't want it to be me.

[diaaxpr]

If I had one hundred lives to live,

I would want to live

every one of them with you.

And isn't it cruel,.

isn't it cruel,

that the only one I get

I get -

I have to live

without you.

[diaaxpr]

I realized I had to let him go. He was unbothered watching me lose my mind over his destructive behaviors. I lost myself and realized I was fighting for something that was destroying me. The truth is that he’s broken and I wasn’t meant to fix or force him to get his self together. I healed and learned that how people treat you is a reflection of how they feel about themselves and what you tolerate you also encourage. Moral of the story, Never let a person get comfortable mistreating you and disrespecting you. The more chances you give someone the less respect they’ll have for you!

[diaaxpr]

The space between

"Please come back'

And

"I forgive you"

Feels a lot like hate.

[diaaxpr]

Now my heart lies bare with a gun aimed at it. I should convince you not to pull the trigger, but it has your name engraved on it.

[diaaxpr]

“ Dreaming “

There’s nothing in the world that I want more

Then to sit & talk to you ..

But that just hurts me more

& I can’t hurt me anymore

I’ve got to love me

& as much I love you

I’ve got to love me too

So I’ll dream of you tonight

the sunlight will rise

& you will leave

but don’t worry I’ll see you

tonight in my dreams ..

[diaaxpr]

"Lie to me again" she whispered.

"I love you" he said.

[diaaxpr]

Her gift was loving

without condition

Her curse was lacking

the same in return

[diaaxpr]

the problem is,

i would still

choose you,

over anyone

and

anything.

[diaaxpr]

Her angel eyes

saw the good in

so many devils.