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yes, i will be reblogging my own stuff like an absolute sell out pos
but i’ll also be locating and curating and commenting on things i like and enjoy reading
so like library and archive and maybe writer stuff bcs i’m basically talking to myself
reads for : svt seungcheol, mingyu, and soonyoung (maybe some random others but yk this is me picking what i’m into and i will not pretend that i’m unbiased)
>>> the one where a fire alarm gets you a date and then some
fic navigation: master list ↩️ | ▶️ part 1 | ⏩ part 2 | ⏩ epilogue
pairing: c.sc / f!reader
summary: it starts with some toast on fire, and turns into a date and maybe the love of your life - OR - you’re an over-tired corporate worker who meets a handsome firefighter who makes you realize that there might be more to life than jumping through every hoop work gives you
𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝟏𝟖+, 𝐦𝐝𝐧𝐢, 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭, 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐜𝐮𝐭
word count: 16.8k
genre tags: alternate universe - modern world | non-idol-au | firefighter!cheol | soft!cheol | corporate girlie!reader | slice of life | meet-cute | romance | romcom | idiots in love | eventual smut (see chapter warnings) | domestic af | hospitals (no one dies) | pov swaps | plot with porn | found family | reader hates dating apps | reader has stressful job | sort of svt fire station | semi-text chat | Kkuma included |
a/n: misspellings in dms between characters are intentional andddd yeah, just enjoy ^^ like, reblog, or generally let me know if you also kind of love their world bcs i actually do and kept adding to this and worrying about having too many paragraphs for a single post - and now it's in parts soooo oops ;-; thx for reading with me tho - this is my first like one big long fic here eekkkk, okie byeee
✦•┈๑⋅… 1 …·๑┈•✦
You had been scrolling apps aimlessly when your friend asked how dating was going.
You shrugged. “Fine,” you’d mumbled.
‘Fine’ was more like a deflection, not an adjective. It was meant to end the conversation, not spur it the fuck along.
“You’ve got to find someone,” came Rei’s voice - she was so certain.
You rolled your eyes. “I really don’t, though.”
“Okay, but you’ll be the sad, lonely one learning how to Heimlich yourself,” she muttered, with a judging glance.
“I’m never watching 30 Rock with you again,” you groaned, and chucked a pillow at her.
You really hated dating apps. They were so impersonal. Plus all the stats said there were way more women on them anyway - like the chances of matching were so low to begin with.
Besides, you weren’t exactly throbbing for some dude who’d just leave crumbs everywhere, and make extra garbage, and have meat sweats mid-fuck.
Maybe you could ask your dealer out, you thought - that’d shut Rei up, surely, you guessed.
Anyway, you weren’t wading into fucking Bumble, or Hinge, or any of the other spaces again.
If you were going to meet a guy, it’d be irl, thank you very much.
˚⟡˖ ࣪
Rei was a good friend. And a mostly fine roommate.
She was less great when it came to things like not setting off the fire alarm when she forgot toast.
She was even worse when she was stoned and forgot that the bread even existed and wandered off to find saltwater taffy in her desk drawer.
So it wasn’t shocking that the fire alarm went off, waking you with its insistent PING-pinging sounds.
You bolted up and out of bed, running downstairs to find smoke billowing from under the kitchen door - fuck, fuck - this was bad, you thought as you pushed the door and went in.
At least it was localized. Just two tiny infernos in the oven.
You made it to the kitchen in time to shut everything off.
However, you didn’t make it in time to stop your security company from contacting emergency services.
And now you were stood on your front lawn, trying to explain to a fire…person that yes, the fire was, in fact, out.
You were in a very unsexy robe, terry cloth with big ol’ stripes, feet jammed into your massive yellow snow boots because those were the shoes in the hall closet of death, and a baseball cap tossed on to hide your bed head when the fire truck appeared.
You were absolutely fucking mortified. Because it was two pieces of toast! But you also couldn’t really do anything but handle it since Rei was happily passed out.
Fucking twat, you’d determined, lovingly, when you checked on her.
The fire department, though, you played every stupid card you could to explain about your friend the terrible cook.
At 2:15 AM.
On a Tuesday.
The main guy seemed to accept the idea of two dumb females.
Of course he would.
The guy next to him, though, he was younger and seemed to be taking it all in with a slight smirk.
He had a look like: (1) he didn’t believe you anymore than he could throw you regarding the idea that you’re-just-dumb, and (2) he kept glancing at your baseball cap like it was genuinely laughable.
It was distracting - who was he to judge your hat?
You kept looking to the side, registering the smirk from the peanut gallery.
So what if you noticed that the peanut gallery had gorgeous lips, and large eyes that flicked from your cap to your face - he wasn’t eyeing your tits, at any rate.
The main guy huffed. Hard. Something about a report to file and wandered off.
You apologized profusely, pointing to the remnants of the burned toast on the front lawn as evidence that the fire was definitely OUT.
You’d flung both pieces out the kitchen window with total abandon.
Fucking toast.
You were lucky not to be getting a citation. But there was some fine for a false alarm and response. You’d be checking the mail for that.
What an absolute fucking headache.
You sighed, muttering a small ‘thanks’ to the firefighters for their time. The second guy, Mr. Peanut, was still smirking.
You couldn’t help it when you met his gaze - he was really fucking fine. You’d finally looked since his boss was stomping away.
“What?” You asked quickly, genuinely wondering what was so funny.
“That hat,” he pointed, “kind of an insane choice, no?” He asked, voice low and sweet.
Oh, he was cute. And had one of those voices. Fuck.
You were quick to pull it off and see it was one from your home city - The Mets.
You were firmly in Dodgers land. You rolled your eyes and jammed it back on your head. “It’s called fashion, lance corporal —“
He snorted. “Fire Captain,” he corrected gently.
“Yeah, well, Fire Captain, I don’t even keep up with any teams,” you trailed off.
He smiled, a cute smile. “No? Maybe you should try a game sometime,” he suggested, voice soft.
You eyed him - he was definitely fit, tall, handsome. Definitely not staring out at you from your phone screen.
“That an offer?” You’d blurted it before you could even think.
He smiled, teeth showing. Really fucking cute. He glanced over his shoulder and then gave a small nod. “Just uh,” he glanced back, “you know, call the station, not 9-1-1, ask for Captain Choi?”
You found yourself nodding.
✦•┈๑⋅… 2 …·๑┈•✦
“So, did she call?” Mingyu asked. He was sitting across from Seungcheol and already halfway through his food somehow.
They’d barely sat down - and already with the question.
Seungcheol groaned. “Stop asking,” he muttered, digging into his chili and regretting that he’d told Mingyu anything. “And stop blabbing about it.” He shook his head, knowing his friend was a loudmouth. Unintentionally, usually, but still.
Besides, he didn’t want to talk about the girl in the Mets hat. And he didn’t want everyone in the station to know. All he needed was Soonyoung to find out…then the gc.
He just wanted to eat his lunch.
His shift was almost over, and then he had two days off to crash and game and - shit - pick up dry cleaning because one of their friends had the nerve to get married and he needed a suit.
Fuck - he’d definitely forgotten the wedding thing…maybe because of the girl in the Mets hat. It wasn’t the only false alarm they’d gotten in the last few days, but watching her walk out every version of ‘I’m-just-a-girl’ was entertaining, especially when she’d given him a new rank and title.
He’d not mentioned that part. He knew Mingyu, and ‘Lance Corporal Choi’ would have become a nickname way too quickly - he’d have to be reassigned to a station on the East Coast for it to maybe end.
Why he’d even told Mingyu at all was a mystery - Mingyu was too positive to share things like that with.
Besides, Seungcheol hadn’t given her his number because he was on duty and responding to a call, and that would definitely have looked weird. Plus, she was totally out of his league.
Someone living in Echo Park was not calling him.
He’d already made peace with that fact.
Now he just needed Mingyu to do the same.
“Look,” he started as he ate, “be more helpful and ask me whether I picked up my suit for the wedding thing, okay?”
“Did you?” Mingyu asked flatly.
“No - I mean like ask me tomorrow when I’m off.”
“So be your reminder?” Mingyu asked, brows arched.
Seungcheol shrugged. “More helpful than asking me about whether some random girl calls the station,” Seungcheol said as he ate.
Mingyu sighed. “Dude - save these requests for Mets Girl, or - just hear me out - there are these things on your phone called apps…and there’s one called ‘reminders’ – boom – mind-blowing shit, right?” Mingyu asked with an annoyingly condescending smirk.
Seungcheol rolled his eyes and gave Mingyu the finger. “Such a prick,” he mumbled as he finished his lunch and started to leave the table.
“But a prick with a date to Jeonghan’s wedding,” Mingyu added, still smirking…like a prick.
Suddenly, Seungcheol was glad they were on alternating shifts because it was that kind of comment that really annoyed him. What did it matter if he went stag? His life wasn’t over because he hadn’t asked anyone.
Still, their shifts weren’t completely alternating.
On a normal day, he’d be looking forward to when they were back on the same rotation. He’d almost always rather be on shift with Mingyu than not. Not that he didn’t trust anyone else, but he and Mingyu had known each other since training. And even if he trusted everyone, he always trusted Mingyu a little bit more.
Which made it even more irksome that Mingyu cared about his dating life. And brought it up. And had filled out multiple dating profiles for Seungcheol.
Seungcheol had checked the Hinge profile once and was surprised to find that he apparently enjoyed rock climbing on the weekends. He hadn’t even bothered to change it because he’d never use the app, so what did it matter if all the details were bogus?
˚⟡˖ ࣪
The problem was the texts he woke up to on Thursday morning. He was off and lying in bed at home.
[k.mingyu]
𝚐𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚠𝚑𝚘𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍𝚍𝚍𝚍𝚍
𝚏𝚘𝚛 fire captain 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚒
𝚝𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝚞 𝚍𝚞𝚍𝚎
𝚋𝚎𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎
Staring at the texts, still blinking away sleep - he typed something about ‘stop bothering me’ and deleted it. He just wasn’t sure Mingyu was serious.
[seungcheol]
dude
it’s early
[k.mingyu]
i waited
told her to call back fri. bcs that’s ur next shift
[seungcheol]
surrprised u didn’t give her my number
[k.mingyu]
on duty
or i woould have 10000%
u need a date
Groaning loudly enough to get an odd look from Kkuma, Seungcheol flopped back against his pillows, muttering ‘sorry’ in the direction of her basket.
Still, he did not need a date. He needed to drop off dry cleaning and buy some food besides cereal…those were needs.
He also had to make sure that suit still fit - at least the wedding was still six weeks away…besides, how was he supposed to know that she would actually call him?
Lying there, in the privacy of his own apartment, he could admit that she was really cute that night too.
She’d looked gently insane. And really good too.
The entire outfit was madness - he’d had to stare at her hat to keep a straight face - and the Mets too, what a shit team - and the toast on the lawn - just these two beyond crispy little briquettes because, of course, throw them on the lawn…during an LA summer. Nothing bad could come from that.
Remembering the way she turned to him to ask, “what?” only made him snort.
[seungcheol]
did she rlly call
[k.mingyu]
yes
srsly i wouldn’t joke abt a grl
ur a hermit
[seungcheol]
we can’t all be u
And fuck everything with a pulse, Seungcheol thought with a grin. Mingyu was known to attract every sort of girl and then struggle to say anything but ‘yes.’ Which made for great stories around the station…
[k.mingyu]
duh
u just ignore when ppl like u
or freak out n do nothing
Seungcheol scowled. He didn’t freak out. Nothing was sort of accurate - he usually didn’t make a lot of moves. And he wasn’t going to argue with hermit - half of the reasons he went out were to take Kkuma on walks or for other Kkuma-related things. And when he was on duty, he left her with the little old lady upstairs, Mrs. Lee - so he basically left his house to walk his dog or to visit someone else’s grandma who watched his dog…
Actually, the more he thought, the more he knew that Mrs. Lee probably knew more about him than his last girlfriend had…she knew what he did for a living, his schedule (she had a printed copy that he updated monthly), where he was from, where his family was from, his favorite dishes, that he didn’t like things too spicy…maybe he did have a date for Jeonghan’s wedding.
She did often refer to him as a ‘nice young man.’
He rolled onto his stomach to hide the way he was laughing at the idea, which wasn’t actually that bad of an idea - he knew her family didn’t visit her very often, and old people seemed to enjoy weddings…plus, Mingyu would shit a brick.
He buried his face in his pillow.
He was on his second nap of the morning. He’d been up early to walk Kkuma and pick up some milk from the bodega.
And then he’d come home and passed out for a bit…and woke up for a bit…maybe Mingyu had texted at a normal time…he didn’t know.
But apparently, on Friday, there would be a call. He yawned and flopped onto his back, deciding that he should maybe try to be positive.
He heard Kkuma’s collar jingle and then the sounds of her padding over to circle the stairs she didn’t like.
The joy of a studio apartment with a loft for the “bedroom” was that his bed wasn’t technically in his living room - it was over the kitchen and had enough room for him to sit up without whacking his head, but it was only accessible by way of these weird, wiry little spiral stairs that Kkuma never seemed to trust.
He’d realized the mistake quickly when she was a puppy, and he’d basically lived on his sofa to avoid Kkuma whining.
And now, he knew she probably wanted him up, or at least on the sofa where she could jump up too.
Little doggie demands were definitely something that he regularly gave in to, and he wasn’t embarrassed about that. Sitting up and running a hand through his hair, his mind lingered because…she’d actually called him.
˚⟡˖ ࣪
Besides the obvious fire emergency that wasn’t actually. You were in the middle of a fairly shit-show week.
Also, you weren’t sure if you were really meant to call the local fire station or not - you had looked it up during your commute, though. Fire station number 20.
And then you’d seen him in the station’s photos and immediately locked your phone like he would somehow cosmically know you’d searched for him.
But the embarrassment was real.
He’d seen you after you’d raided the closet that literally existed to absorb all the crap you and Rei collected and couldn’t be asked to actually put away when one of you cleaned - just throw it in the closet…and look like you fell into a pile of old tat just in time to meet a cute guy.
Sitting in your cubicle Tuesday morning, staring down at your first coffee of the day, you decided that closet had to be addressed.
You were less certain about calling him, though. Because it wasn’t even him, exactly; it was a station…if it was like calling your office, there was a receptionist and a phone tree and…you didn’t love the idea.
Especially if it wasn’t serious.
Stirring your coffee, you considered if his saying to call and who to ask for constituted seriousness of purpose. Luckily, your inbox started its normal explosion, which distracted you totally until you left the office at 2:23 PM to grab the burrito you’d ordered.
You were a regular at the place, even though it was standing room only for eating. You were pretty sure that standing only meant they didn’t have to offer a bathroom to customers. Which was fine; you could stand and watch people milling around the plaza that led to Angel’s Flight, which you kind of loved. The little orange and black rail-ish car that you sometimes walked to and rode up and down just to be out of the office.
It was like $1.50 for some level of sanity.
Just like your burrito. And standing and staring at something besides your computer or the office’s ceiling or the gray fabric of your cubicle’s walls.
You unlocked your phone, and it immediately showed you where you’d left off - seeing Fire Captain Choi’s face (and others, of course) next to a giant number 20.
The burrito made you feel more confident that you weren’t disturbing the particles of the universe by reading the caption and seeing that it was actually “Fire Captain Seungcheol Choi.”
And now you knew his first name.
But still not whether he was actually expecting you to call.
Which was a silly thought - you knew you - you’d call.
You just needed the correct level of burrito to settle your stomach. You had called guys before.
Just pre-apps…and usually it was a text about class or something.
Shit. What did you do before apps?
You clicked around to find the number for the station, and noticed that there was a Yelp! page… which was wild to see since it was a public service…not a donut shop. Still, you poked around the main webpage hoping that there were different lines, like for an operator or something, but no - just the one number to call.
But you’d finished your burrito, and you had a client call to prep for, anyway.
You could only hope that it would keep…and not be too weird.
˚⟡˖ ࣪
Wednesday was an early day.
You started checking emails before you were out of bed to see what might have happened overnight - nothing that was literally immediate. So you’d gotten up, found a quick YouTube yoga session, grabbed a shower but not your hair - dry shampoo would work for another day…and then you’d grabbed a yogurt, a granola bar, and a protein shake for breakfast and a little wheel of cheese and some nuts for a snack…otherwise, you would stress eat ALL of the BBQ flavored chips in the breakroom.
You might still.
You got to the office by 7:45 AM and were only minimally sweaty.
You ate at your desk.
And no burrito time because there were changes that someone wanted to the formatting of all the tables and charts…so you ordered a green bowl and the de-stress green drink and a ginger shot in the group order that the admin had started.
You knew the ginger shot well - it was vile, but it did wake you up.
It was one of those days where even going to the bathroom felt timed. Not in a visible way, but going always risked that that would be exactly when someone would ‘not be able to find you.’ Because bodily functions ceased to exist if there was a deliverable, somehow. At least in the minds of your colleagues, anyway.
And then there was dinner - a team dinner to celebrate another job ending. You’d thought you could slip out of it, but no - it was planned - someone had flown in…therefore, an Irish goodbye was not the fuck happening.
You lingered at your desk a bit so you could at least Uber to the restaurant on your own. And for once, you loved LA traffic because it gave you a solid twenty-five minutes of quiet.
Or it would have…if you hadn’t started talking to your driver.
But he was nice in that way that was endearing and easily approachable, and when you started off by asking if you could get his opinion, he was locked in like you’d known one another since childhood.
By the time you were getting your first drink, you’d been told emphatically to call that fire station!
You’d almost done it in the Uber, but his app had pinged for a pickup. He’d wished you good luck, though.
And anyway, at least you’d talked to someone about it. And they thought it was a genuine offer, partially because “man was at work, and he still dropped his name. MAMA come on.”
Did it maybe confirm your own thoughts? Yes.
But that was okay.
And once you’d had two cocktails, you slipped out to the balcony and dialed the number.
You listened to the first ring, and before there could even be a second one - “Fire Station 20, Specialist Kim speaking.”
The voice was so quick and abrupt. “Uh, hi - sorry, someone told me to call? And now that feels slightly weird…” Your voice trailed off, and you definitely wanted to hang up.
There was barely a pause. “Seungcheol - he’s not on shift, but I’ll tell him that the Mets Girl called - he’s back on Friday, and I feel like he’s got a pile of paperwork, so call like early when he’ll be in the office.”
You couldn’t help the small laugh at the informational deluge. “That’s extremely specific—”
“I know, but I’m not a fan of missed connections, so Friday, like 0800 - solid chance that he’ll be the only person in the office then, too.”
You nodded, still smiling. “Okay, Friday - thanks.”
And the call ended - not with a nasally operator or a phone tree debacle - just very specific directions from someone who knew Seungcheol.
It was maybe less nerve-inducing to know that apparently he had told someone that you were going to call…still, there was Thursday to get through.
And then the actual call.
˚⟡˖ ࣪
Thursday dragged at a literal sloth’s pace. But uphill. So maybe it was just a human pace, but going up an extremely steep incline…the nuance did not matter.
The day was a fucking slog until you were in your car and experiencing zero traffic because it was like 1:00 AM - it was technically Friday.
It was technically Friday, and all you wanted to do was pass out under a rock without wifi or cell signal for the next three days.
But while you were sitting at a tremendously long red light on West Sunset, you remembered that you were supposed to call Seungcheol…today. 0800 according to the voice who’d answered the call.
You weren’t sure if you could think of a less sexy scenario - a scheduled call with a member of the male species after other members of that species had given you endless tedious fucking notes on your report section, including that the shadow they’d requested for their tables was slightly larger than what they preferred…it was the kind of thing that made you consider physical violence.
But, no, you’d made it through. And you’d be revived by 0800.
You exhaled a long, slow breath and stared at the stupid red light, willing it to CHANGE.
And once it finally did - you made it home, parked. And autopiloted yourself to your room. You didn’t even change for bed or pull the duvet down - you just face planted.
Sleep was good.
But your 6:00 AM alarm was bad. Still, you sat up somehow, blinking into existence and hoping a shower would get your brain online.
You were in the office by 7:45 AM - again.
And you left to get breakfast - and to call.
You felt like being on the plaza near a coffee shop was better than your normal choice of hiding in the stairwell.
The call was still scary - that whole one ring and ANSWER thing, which was probably great when the caller had an actual emergency. Maybe he would let it ring twice, though - maybe?
You jammed your headphones in and tapped to dial.
One ring. Literally.
“Fire station 20, Captain Choi speaking.”
It was so crisp - he sounded rested, even - how dare he. “Um, right, hi,” you croaked - you weren’t a wizened crone of anything, scout’s honor. You squeezed your eyes closed. “I’m - uh - I’m the false-alarm-burnt-toast-Mets-hat-girl, and I don’t know if you were serious about my calling or not…” Your voice trailed off into the fucking ether.
You could feel the pause - he was definitely deciding something. “I - yeah, I was, actually.”
Nodding, you opened your eyes to see the little bee sanctuary things you usually sat near. “This is maybe early, but when I called before, umm—”
“Mingyu told you I’d be in the office?”
“Yes - that - that’s the one.”
He was quiet for a moment. “So - I forgot that every call that comes in is recorded for training—”
You laughed. “Of course they are.”
“But if you happen to have Instagram?”
“Definitely, I am a member of this century - what should I be looking for?” You were trying to keep it together.
“It’s - basically my name…”
“Ah, a creative,” you mumbled, glad you were wearing headphones and could swap to the app and search.
“I know it’s - I spent time choosing where to add the period.”
You smiled and ran a hand through your hair. “Uh-huh - okay, so I’m guessing you were also creative with the profile picture that is clearly you?”
“Umhm, that’s - that’s me,” his voice cracked slightly. “This is terrible - this is like fourth date territory.”
You laughed then. “I think it’s perfect. No notes.”
He did at least have it set to private. You hit ‘follow’ and saw the almost immediate add.
You clicked into the messages and typed quickly.
“Testing?” he asked, reading out your message like it needed scrutiny.
“Exactly - testing.”
You watched the bubble pop up - ‘10-4’.
You smiled. “Good, 10-4.”
Another message popped up - ‘rlly srry this is complicated.’
“It’s fine - it’s silly, not catastrophic,” you mumbled.
“So we can plan?” he asked.
“Yeah, I think so, and for the record, and for the benefit of the Yelp page I happened to see - five out of five stars - all questions were answered - you were extremely obliging and knowledgeable at all times - I felt like this was just a really safe space for me...”
“That’s—” again the pause in his voice. “That’s great - I’m glad to hear that - if we can be of any further service—”
“No, no - super productive chat, thanks so much.”
And you ended the call and covered your mouth with a hand to hide the tiny screech that came from how insane the last, approximately, three minutes of your life had been.
You’d just given him a five-star rating in case there was like a review of recording and called it a safe space. What the fuck was your life, anyway?
✦•┈๑⋅… 3 …·๑┈•✦
He was on a two-day shift. And it was on day two that Mingyu came in to cover for someone who’d gotten sick.
He’d been so close to not having to give any details in person.
But there Mingyu was at roll-call…waiting, smiling, like a fucking shark…and Seungcheol’s dating life was the blood in the water. For once, he was glad he would be out inspecting buildings for the day.
Which only postponed the inevitable.
So a day of walking around a building site, sweating and miserable, checking for tiny fire code issues, and knowing Mingyu would still be there.
It was something, though - he could try to condense everything down while he sat in the back and stared blankly at a page of code in stupid, tiny font that made him feel like he needed his vision checked. Or maybe he could just talk about the phone call, not the extended cut of what planning looked like so far. Mingyu did not need to know that Seungcheol’d figured out that text bricks from you were normal and something like an emoji and one word were your version of “death.” And Mingyu never needed to know that Seungcheol liked your messages and thought it was cute when you used the goofy in-app features like the gift box message thing. Even he was embarrassed that he enjoyed it, and he had practically zero game. He should’ve been attempting to be cool.
But it felt pointless somehow like you already sort of knew that he was possibly a dork on some level. And didn’t seem to care. So technically a win, since judging by your Insta…you were hot. And probably not dorky since you went skiing and went to brunch with actual people and willingly stood in group pictures.
He didn’t go skiing. He went to brunch when Mingyu dragged him along. He avoided photos…mostly. He was…fit…he posted gym selfies. Which you had gone through and spam-liked over the weekend at 2 AM. He hadn’t asked for details about that - he just stared at the notifications when he woke up. You’d hearted every single one. Even lying in bed, he’d felt how warm his cheeks had gotten - it hadn’t mattered that he posted thirst traps - it mattered that you’d looked at every thirst trap and tapped the ‘heart’ icon. And that you knew roughly what he looked like under all the fire gear. That was a prime reason he’d set his account to private - people noticing things, when he was generally pretty modest. It wasn’t like he wasn’t noticing you…he was just quiet about it.
Still, he had to avoid telling Mingyu things.
Maybe if the date went well, then he would share? No, that didn’t sound like him.
Besides, he’d searched you in general and saw your firm profile…and your LinkedIn and all the stuff that read like it was from another planet. It wasn’t bad to see, but he wondered if maybe he’d seem boring. Boring and dorky. Even if he was fit - those were maybe strikes against anything besides a few dates…maybe one hookup. He wasn’t like Mingyu - he couldn’t just flatly be positive - he needed to manage his expectations, even if messaging you was fun - he didn’t know what it would be like in person.
˚⟡˖ ࣪
You still weren’t fully certain how you’d found yourself sitting next to Fire Captain Choi Seungcheol in the stands at a Dodgers game. Besides luck and that he possibly had questionable standards.
They weren’t playing the Mets.
Regardless, when he texted details a few days before, he’d not so subtly suggested a different hat - something about trying to fit in.
You’d glowered at the screen - your face scrunching because you weren’t that obtuse. Besides, you didn’t even like baseball. Fit in, though? You’d fit in alright. Like it was even a challenge to begin with and not just something silly he’d said. You’d rolled your eyes at yourself as you got ready. You really knew how to take the bait and run with it…at least he’d know that part. And only mildly at your expense.
Because you had gone slightly insane borrowing a jersey from a co-worker. A classic away jersey, too, apparently, according to Greg, who sat in a different cubicle cluster. You weren’t fucking around.
Seungcheol had still smirked at you when he saw you. “Cute,” he’d muttered, walking you to his Jeep.
You had the slight urge to give him the finger…instead, you just rolled your eyes and shook your head because, in your own weird way, you’d tried to do exactly what he’d suggested…fit in.
And maybe you let him open your door for you.
It was a little high school.
But also a little cute since you did have to climb onto the side step. But mostly because he seemed kind of earnest about it - not like it was ironic door opening or he wanted to touch your ass. More like this was just the thing to do.
He had a Jeep-Jeep - all white…and your knowledge ended there. It was one of the ones that looked outdoorsy and had rubber ducks across the dashboard, filling the front window. You wanted to poke a duck, but had no clue what they meant - gang symbols for all you knew. Therefore, no clue if it was rude or playful to touch. But there was one pink one that you had the urge to hurl out the window when you were on West Sunset.
Instead, you busied yourself staring out the window and glancing at him while he was driving - you’d done some light insta stalking. And maybe some photo liking…but he definitely posted thirst traps.
Gym selfie thirst traps, too.
Rei had caught you ogling in the kitchen and classified him as ‘Damnnn - if you don’t fuck, I swear.’ You’d laughed, of course, even if you felt just a little flustered.
Because he was maybe, unquestionably sexy…a word you weren’t super fond of, but you still kept finding yourself scrolling idly through his photos for the last few days…weeks? years? Who knew anymore…
You’d been in bed the night before, scrolling, and you wondered if you’d ever been this interested in a man’s pecs before.
No. clearly.
You’d sighed loudly into the dark.
“He’s sexy,” you’d huffed to yourself, flopping around until you found the right position and the cool spot under your pillow. “He’s stupidly sexy.”
Still, it was a little difficult to reconcile the thirst traps where he was flexing to show his arms, cap pulled low over his eyes, and the guy next to you in the car toggling around for music that didn’t sound like it was part of a gym playlist.
So much trap rap…and EDM, and you kind of respected both - it was more his own reaction to the situation that was entertaining.
His need to hit skip quickly and repeatedly was palpable.
You tried not to grin since the cosmos and his phone seemed to be set on embarrassing him.
You wanted to tease him. Or at least wrestle the aux cord from him for his own good.
He’d finally settled for just turning it off when Cyndi Lauper started playing.
Time after time, indeed, you thought with a snort.
“Cute,” you muttered, staring out the window, smiling hard, trying to let him save face and almost succeeding.
But after a few minutes, you turned and grabbed the aux cord, plugging it into your phone and playing what you considered ‘music for company’, aka not the 8 Mile soundtrack, which you were certain lurked in his saves.
You weren’t embarrassed by house music, though. And you enjoyed the knowing smile that crossed his face - something like ‘of course,’ clearly populating his brain.
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You were glad it was at least a night game. The temps would drop to something tolerable. LA heat could be brutal, after all.
The problem was - you hated baseball.
It was so boring.
The games you went to as a kid were basically you and a cousin running riot around the stadium - or just leaving and grabbing the train to do something better.
But this was a date that you initiated, to be fair, and the seats were good, as in not absolute nosebleeds.
You were close to the dugout, actually. You could hear the bat crack the ball now and then. But it wasn’t like soccer with fan chants, and it definitely wasn’t like football with everyone pounding everyone else. It was like sitting in another era…where talkies were all the rage and the radio was maybe leading young girls down a path of immorality. You pinched your arm to keep from laughing at the bizarre mental tableau you were building.
And seeing Seungcheol in civilian wear was almost awkward. You had just assumed he only appeared in compression shirts and officers’ slacks 24/7, waiting for a call. But no. Jeans, a t-shirt that was not as revealing as his gymwear, plus he was wearing an oversized button-down over his t-shirt (unbuttoned, at least), and a cap that was just the right amount of worn-in. He looked like the actual fan.
While you looked like you were cosplaying as a rabid fan.
He looked like he was watching with interest.
And you looked like you were practicing as an extra for a zombie movie - glassy eyes and minimal movement.
Which was something…you gave him a sideways glance, knowing it would just confirm that ‘yes - that was his jawline’…and wasn’t it kind of amazing? Yes, you answered silently.
But the silence couldn’t last.
“So, are you one of those guys who's annoyed if I ask questions about the game?” You had to ask - sitting in total quiet on a date was too bizarre.
He turned, brows scrunched like he’d heard the question and was confused why he was being asked it. “No.”
Nodding, you watched the batter approaching home plate. “Okay - the batter - is he any good?”
Seungcheol shrugged. “He’s okay, I think,” he mumbled.
“You think?” you asked, skepticism dripping.
He cleared his throat. “I like watching because it’s fun - I don’t go all in on stats and stuff…”
You gasped and pushed his shoulder lightly. “But you know enough to dunk on my Mets hat?”
He nodded, turning to look at you again, eyes wide with certainty. “Yes - they suck - full stop.”
You giggled at the intensity. “But you don’t know stats…”
“Even the most casual of casual fans would know they suck.”
“Mmhm, coming from a casual fan…” you muttered.
He shook his head. “I’m not that casual.”
You sighed and glanced at the Jumbotron as it flashed stats and cut to the field. You’d literally never listened to anything at a game as a kid, except the heckling - that was fun. You knew what a home run was…that was technically something.
“So, can I ask something?” he asked, voice light and interrupting the stampede of your own thoughts.
You nodded. “Yeah, it’s a date - questions are sort of the point,” you added.
“You wondered if you could ask sports questions?”
You huffed. “Yeah, because experience tells me men don’t like being bothered during their sport watching.”
“Date rules don’t trump sport watching in your world?”
You paused to consider and finally shook your head. “No, if anything it means sit back and prepare to be ignored for like two hours.”
“Wait - timeout - you’re telling me that your experience is being ignored on dates like this, and you were like ‘let’s go to a game’?” he asked, a small grin appearing.
Oh, no - he couldn’t be making mental leaps like whatever he was. “Okay, before you start thinking some boy thing—”
“What are boy things?” he interrupted.
You groaned. “You know, just like before you start telling yourself I was just so into you I’ll sit through a miserable activity or some similar macho nonsense—”
“You are literally sitting and dressed seriously for a thing you don’t like.”
You pursed your lips. “Be that as it may - okay - just accept that I may have a weird competitive streak at times that outruns anything else, and you were so smug—”
“I wasn’t smug - I was on duty—”
“Umhm, and judging how I dressed in a panic. And mentioning that I should fit in…”
He laughed. “I – yeah, fine, the yellow snow boots were something…and wearing that hat would be so random…”
You crossed your arms in a faux-sulk. “I love those boots - they’re technically Moon Boots, by the way, which are very cool. And I already explained the hat…”
He nodded, glancing at you, clearly smiling as he examined your state. “Fine, if we’re saying embarrassing things—”
“I’m not embarrassed about my footwear…”
He smirked. “Can I say my thing?”
You nodded, pressing a finger to your lips like you were in Kindergarten and needed to prove you’d be quiet.
He gave a soft shake of his head. “I didn’t really think the date would get this far,” he said, voice flat.
You felt your brows scrunch. “Wait - far as in?” You had to clarify.
He shrugged again. “I sort of thought you would cancel, well, no, actually I didn’t think you would call…”
Your brows went up.
“Why?” you asked, voice a little sharp.
He hummed, gaze flicking back to the game. “You seem a little out of my lane, I guess,” he mumbled.
Your brows scrunched together. “How?”
He looked back at the game for a moment. “Your LinkedIn reads very intensely, I guess,” he said with a small laugh.
You immediately felt heat in your face - you hadn’t even considered stalking LinkedIn. But you fully knew how your profile sounded…very accolade-heavy, and then there was your job that sounded oh-so-serious and was basically bullshit that you hated waking up for.
You nodded. “Right,” you mumbled, chewing your lip lightly, “sounds like the online stalking was mutual, then?”
“Seems like it…I just didn’t ‘heart’ things.”
You felt the way your head jerked at that and forced yourself to stare straight ahead. So what if you had hearted things?
A quiet settled between you and him. Not awkward silence, exactly. More like the normal quiet that sometimes comes in a conversation. You felt his knee brush yours - you watched for a moment to see if he pulled away…one Mississippi…two Mississippi…three Mississippi…you couldn’t help glancing every few seconds to see if it was still happening - the actual feeling of denim against your skin wasn’t enough - you needed the visual.
The silence didn’t last.
“So, besides thinking I’m smug, why come to a game you don’t like?” He asked, glancing at you, knee still touching yours.
You flushed - you needed to say something real. “Uh, honestly?”
“Yes, ideally.”
You grinned. “Right - ideally - uh, because I met you in person…and apps are so weird, so I decided I’d only talk to someone if I met them in the wild - plus you didn’t seem offended by me, generally, which is always a plus….”
He hummed again. The sound was soft, like he was registering the response for its quality.
“Apps are weird,” he agreed.
You nodded. “Right? Like, who wants to type a brick about themselves?”
“Everyone I work with,” he admitted.
You glanced with interest. “You?”
You watched the slight pink appear higher on his cheeks. “Not by choice,” he offered, looking away quickly.
You grinned, immediately opening your phone to do recon…post-recon, you wondered to yourself.
He was easy to find. You started to read his bio, but he was also sitting next to you. You bit your lip lightly, navigating around to your own profile, which you’d never completed.
An idea came to you, and you clicked into the questionnaire. “Okay, so instead of me creeping on what I feel like was perhaps a group effort for you,” you mumbled, glancing to see the way he was pointedly staring at the game, “maybe we go through some of the insane questions on my unfinished profile?” you offered, almost sounding excited.
It was at least distracting. And you found out that he really liked his job and that he lived in the fire station when he was on call. “Really? Don’t you miss your bed, though?” you’d leaned slightly closer, like it was the literal most interesting fact in the world.
He’d glanced at you and rolled his eyes. “Yes - sometimes, but it’s not bad,” he added.
You nodded, humming. “So what else do you do when you’re there?”
“Test stuff, repair things, go to meetings…” he glanced at you then as if to ask if he needed to go on.
“Do you commute?”
“Umhm.”
“Right.” You glanced at his knee that was still touching yours.
You didn’t really pay attention to the game. And even he didn’t seem to want to sit through the double-triple-heptagonal overtime. You’d followed him out of the stands and ended up looping your arm through his as you walked through the milling groups of people waiting for the bathrooms or picking up food. You’d squeezed closer to him whenever you felt like you might collide with some oncoming person.
And then you were finally in the massive parking lot, arm still looped through his as you walked to his parking space.
You were mostly glad to be out of the ballpark. You sighed when you were back in his car, almost happy to see the ducks staring at you in greeting.
You still didn’t poke them.
You listened to the car start, feeling the ambient heat wrestle with the first waves of the AC. “I liked the Cyndi Lauper,” you mumbled, staring out the window at some guy with face paint.
“Who doesn’t?” He asked, getting situated.
You were still watching the face-painter. “Lunatics?” you mused.
The ride home was easy.
It was late - traffic was almost nothing.
And then you were parked in the driveway. You would have normally popped out of a guy’s car so fast.
But you didn’t.
You stayed in the seat, feeling the weird liminal space of being in his Jeep - you were outside but also not...
“What’s with the ducks?” You couldn’t keep it in.
He glanced at them. “Uh, kind of a dumb Jeep thing - you see someone else, and you leave a duck and collect the ones people leave you.” He answered.
You stared for a moment. “That’s so…wholesome,” you sighed, turning to look at him.
He nodded, reaching to poke a duck back into its proper place.
You waited for him to turn back to you again. One-banana, two-banana, you counted internally.
“Seungcheol,” you whispered like his name was some secret phrase.
He looked. “Hmm?”
“Could we like maybe go out again?” you asked, gently nudging the duck butt of the pink duck.
He watched you for a moment, his intense baby-cow eyes on you, and nodded. “Yeah,” he confirmed.
You pursed your lips, pausing for the drama. “Like soon, maybe?”
“Should I bother trying to be cool and wait like two days or whatever to answer?” He asked, a smile building.
You tilted your head. “Please be joking,” you muttered.
He smiled - fucking dimples that did weird things to your brain appearing on cue. “Yeah, I’m—”
You cut him off, leaning across the console to kiss him.
It could have been quick. But you’d been thinking about it since the third inning.
His lips were warm - your fingers and hand pressed gently to his cheek. You weren’t expecting him to deepen it, to nip lightly at your lower lip - you breathed harder when he did, leaning closer, opening for him. Your fingers tangled in his short black hair - his hand came to your jaw, guiding you, tracing along the side of your neck and down to the center of your collarbones, until you needed to breathe, anyway.
You didn’t exactly want to stop.
You swallowed hard and gave his hair a gentle tug and got rewarded with a smirk and the reappearance of his dimples. You wanted to climb into the back seat…so high school of you.
You bit your tongue gently, deciding this shouldn’t be that - not yet, anyway.
“Message me?” you asked, as you gently poked his left dimple.
“Yeah.” It was so simple - the way he gazed at you as he answered, his voice breathy - the way he didn’t push for more, even though you hadn’t let go, even though his fingers were still tracing just under your collarbone, teasing the neckline of the jersey.
You pressed the bridge of your nose to his, letting your lips barely graze his before you pulled back and shifted back to your own seat.
And then you had to get out. Because staying would have been a weird choice.
You were almost inside when you stopped to wave to him - then you slipped inside, messaging him as you walked upstairs.
[y/n]
ur sweet and it was fun
[y/n]
let me kno u get home pls
[choi.s]
home now
it was fun
ttyl?
[y/n]
you better
i know where u wrk
[choi.s]
another threat?
[y/n]
maybe
first one worked out pretty well 💅
andd it would be fun to see you come down a pole…
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Cleaning the mess hall was not Seungcheol’s favorite, but it meant he could keep thinking about his date without Mingyu’s interjections. Not that they were terrible, exactly. He just wanted it to be in his brain for a little while longer - just him with the details of how good you looked in a jersey - the most bored super fan in the world. He had to pause wiping down a table and force the smile that was forming into something more neutral.
He couldn’t walk around looking happy - someone would notice. It wasn’t just Mingyu who tried to set him up. Soonyoung had once stared at him from across the table at lunch and suggested his own sister…the same sister who assumed any calls from Soonyoung were butt-dials.
He needed to look stern. He tried thinking about something serious…a graph? Graphs were usually serious…and boring. Graphs didn’t leave their knees touching his. Graphs would not have put up with any of that - graphs would have clutched pearls and called him ‘forward’…you hadn’t, though. You’d pressed your knee slightly to his…your knees were nice too, and your legs…he should be thanking whoever invented shorts.
“Dude!”
Seungcheol turned around. “What? Sorry…”
Mingyu grinned and pushed Soonyoung’s arm. “Told you - he finally ended his drought.”
“No, he looks spaced out and dopey even when he hasn’t gotten laid,” Soonyoung said, voice matter-of-fact.
Seungcheol glared at Mingyu for a moment…he’d clearly told Soonyoung. He wasn’t supposed to tell anyone about the fact that there had been a date. Mingyu was taller, but that had never really stopped Seungcheol from tackling him before or putting him in a hold that would make him tap out.
Mingyu held up his hands. “He noticed the follow on Insta - I was under duress - I swear,” he said it as he was slowly moving to stand behind Soonyoung. Like Soonie was a serious block.
Seungcheol started to circle the table. Mingyu jumped slightly. “I didn’t mean to—”
“Who else did you accidentally tell?”
“No one…basically,” Mingyu reassured, walking backwards, putting a long table between himself and Seungcheol.
Seungcheol shook his head, not accepting that little ‘basically’ Mingyu added.
“Jeonghan knows - he thinks you have a plus one,” Soonyoung said, stepping out of Seungcheol’s way.
Seungcheol’s eyes widened. “The fuck?”
Mingyu shrugged. “It just…we were in chat, and everyone noticed the hot girl follow—” and then Mingyu was running.
Seungcheol scrunched his face. “I know where you sleep!”
Mingyu flipped him off as he kept going. Seungcheol rolled his eyes. “He better fucking run home.”
He turned to find Soonyoung still there. “Okay, but for real, inquiring minds and all…” Soonyoung said with a crazy forced smile…like that was convincing anyone.
Seungcheol shook his head. “No. Fuck off - aren’t you supposed to be washing something?”
“Did it. Wrote a book about it. Sorry, but Mingyu told us about the toast and the hat and—”
“So, he ran his mouth? I don’t have to corroborate any of it. In fact, you all - we’re not friends for the rest of shift - I’m the captain on duty - fuck off somewhere.” He crossed his arms and did his best ‘eat shit’ face.
And Soonyoung just walked closer until he reached up and squished Seungcheol’s cheeks. “I know that works on the recruits, but seriously,” he squished Seungcheol’s cheek harder, “I’ve known you too long for it to really have the same effect. Besides, you’ll spill the beans eventually and be annoyingly cute and shit - so fine, I’ve got an audiobook...” he said it like it was the biggest fucking deal to be listening to some murder mystery while he vacuumed.
But he did finally stop squishing Seungcheol’s cheeks like the most intense eomma on the planet. “There’s a second date, though, right?”
Seungcheol just stared in response, eyebrow arched in annoyance because Soonie couldn’t actually be fishing for fucking details. Apparently, some things still worked on Soonyoung since he backed away then. “I’ll just assume the stony face means ‘yes’…” he declared as he walked away.
Seungcheol didn’t care, but he checked the gc. Why was all his shit somehow always in there, he wondered, scrolling…fucking Mingyu.
He slept off and on that night - no emergencies, at least - and left for home the next morning. He’d mostly not talked to his friends until the 0800 shift swap. But he also knew it was kind of dumb to be mad at them when they were just happy for him - happy idiots. He’d finally broken when they were playing pool against each other. He hadn’t told them about knees touching or anything, but he’d admitted that there had been a kiss. And it was like being attacked by two oversized dogs with way too many questions about what kind of kiss it was. What was the pressure like? How long did it lasttt? Where were your hands?!
Fucking idiots. His idiots.
He was sitting in the parking lot now, though. Costco. His own version of a zombie apocalypse…too crowded, everyone for themselves, shoving, crying…nightmare stuff.
He felt his phone buzz…you. You, whose day was just starting. You who looked really sexy in shorts and a jersey and had definitely made out with him…still talking to him…the same him who’d still been hard about the makeout when he’d gotten home after the game. He’d had the briefest, tiniest urge to send you a dick pic after the game and something about it being your fault.
Why did he feel like you would be down for a dick pic? Constant flow of messages? But you hated online dating…but you didn’t seem to hate him. And he still wasn’t sure what that kind of photo would do. He’d snapped a bathroom selfie the day before, after lifting…shirt up, abs and arms. He smirked, knowing you were hating work at that very moment…his thumb hovered over the photo…you’d literally liked every single thirst trap…this was thirstier?
Then the message popped up.
[y/n]
so jealous ur at costco during the day
He snorted, closing his eyes, letting it really sink in that you were talking about his Costco run. He leaned forward, letting his forehead rest on the steering wheel. He was going to send a thirst trap to someone who wanted to talk about Costco…No. Shit. He couldn’t, right?
[choi.s]
u mean the most calustrophic store on earth?
[y/n]
gots to love it
[choi.s]
i don’t tho
dread it is more accurate
[y/n]
that’s the beauty
stock up
[choi.s]
i have like one closet
[y/n]
just be more efficient
[choi.s]
is this where i say smth dumb abt efficiency and get to see u again
[y/n]
you dun have to say anything dumb
i already asked
[choi.s]
right
u keep doing that
[y/n]
be faster next time
[choi.s]
what’s faster for u
asking for a thrid date now
[y/n]
i do like like a schedule
[choi.s]
dinner?
[y/n]
when
second date or third
[choi.s]
when says grl w worst schedule ever
2nd
[y/n]
when asks grl who will try very hard to make it work even if slightly dead
[choi.s]
tell me when works
[y/n]
thurs??
[choi.s]
yes
[y/n]
ayeeee sweet - date 2
dinner consisting of 1 dead grl & 1 pretty boy
[choi.s]
date 3
[y/n]
let me check
[choi.s]
srsly?
[y/n]
i mean...yeah
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He’d made it through Costco and back home. He shoved the cold things in his fridge quickly, and went upstairs to get Kkuma. He didn’t like to be late picking her up after his shifts. Mrs. Lee was already way too nice for keeping Kkuma as often as she did - she was practically a second home for the little white fuzz ball.
Precious white fuzz ball, he corrected himself as he caught his hand on the bannister leading to the second floor, smooth wood gliding under his hand.
He knew Mrs. Lee loved her “Kkuma time.” She even took Kkuma to the dog groomer sometimes - she’d gifted Kkuma a rain jacket for walks and little knitted doggie sweaters when the weather started to shift - “she needs some extra warmth.” Which, they all went along with the bow clips Seungcheol bought to keep Kkuma’s bangs out of her eyes...he winced at the door - he maybe did too much as a dog-Dad.
He knocked on the heavy wooden door - not his normal ‘official’ knuckle rapping, the soft, polite knocks of a neighbor. He appreciated the sound of knocking against old wood, though - it was one of the nice things about living in a building from like the 1920s. Wooden doors and noisy pipes and weirdly good layouts.
The door swung open to reveal Mrs. Lee, already up, awake, and dressed, wearing a massive sun visor that made her have to literally tilt her head fully skyward to see him.
“Seungcheol - we’re going for walkies now, you go home and rest,” she said in that clipped way that always made him smile.
“I’m home, though - I can take her.” He didn’t reach for Kkuma’s lead. He knew when he wasn’t going to win with Mrs. Lee. He still made his attempts, though.
“Ah, we already decided, walkies now, and then after some dilly-dally time in the park, we’ll find Dad, right, Kkuma?” She disappeared completely from his view as she looked down to confer with Seungcheol’s very pampered dog. He nodded to the visor as Mrs. Lee continued cooing over Kkuma, knowing Mrs. Lee and Kkuma would do the half-mile to the park on Golden Ave. and do some route through on the trails he could never exactly replicate on his own, much to Kkuma’s chagrin.
He still felt like he was imposing. “What if I go with you?”
The visor was suddenly up, and Mrs. Lee was staring at him with concern. “Don’t you need sleep? Besides, we have fun.”
“I know - I know, but I like the park too…” And he already felt bad for being late, even if this was his shopping day. He tried to stick to his schedule.
She seemed to weigh whether he actually liked the park and finally nodded. “Okay. Fine. We’ll have girls time another morning.”
And then they were off at the particular breakneck pace that only LA county crosswalk signals managed to slow. It was brisk as fuck. And she nudged him whenever he started to check his phone when they were stalled at a street corner.
“This is walkies time - check your phone at home - you know, where there are not idiot drivers who pay no attention to pedestrians - you’ll be a pancake, and then it will just be me and Kkuma.”
He nodded and smiled and put his phone away. “Sorry,” he mumbled, catching up to her.
She hit his arm when he started to reach for his phone again at the next crosswalk - he knew your messages would pile up - he’d have to back-read…
“So who is she?” Mrs. Lee asked, voice full of certainty.
“It could be a he…” he didn’t know why he’d said that.
“Maybe, but I’ve only heard about ‘shes’ so far.”
He snorted. “Yeah, I – am I that obvious?”
“I like to think I know you somewhat, but you do get twitchy with your phone when there’s someone - and you’re extra twitchy - is it serious?”
She was worse than Mingyu and Soonyoung. He would take ‘describe the pressure of the kiss’ for $800 now. “Uh, I don’t know, actually - we’ve only been on one date so far…”
“But you’re still talking away? How many days ago was the date?”
“Almost a week.” He hadn’t even had to think about it.
She looked up at him with her knowing smile. “You like this one.”
He couldn’t lie - he didn’t need to. “I do—”
“But you’re thinking some silly thing that probably has never even crossed her mind?” she asked, interrupting any qualifiers Seungcheol might have given.
He could have rolled his eyes, but that would be rude…and Mrs. Lee probably had a point. They were already crossing into the park. “She just has a different kind of job,” he said it like it was a question - he wasn’t even sure exactly what his hang-up was at this point.
“What is she?” She barely paused before answering her own question. “A stripper? They make money, too…”
He laughed, covering his mouth quickly. “No - no…like corporate stuff.”
“Oh, she makes good money then?” she asked, rubbing her thumb against her fingers like someone from a film talking about ‘moola.’
“Probably.” He could only guess. He didn’t even know what number of dates were required for things like finances to be discussed.
“Good for her. What’s the problem? You make money, she makes money, buy a nice place and fill it with babies, then I can spoil them and Kkuma.”
“I don’t think we’re that far along—”
“You never know, maybe she’s already decided. I decided before my husband - he was like you, dumb ideas about things - I fixed that, though. We were married for 42 happy years,” she said it with a soft sigh and a smile.
Seungcheol grinned, fully certain that Mrs. Lee had fixed every problem that had come her way. Besides, he’d had dinner with her before, and he’d seen all the photos of the happy couple that decorated the apartment. “Things can happen, though,” he mumbled.
She shrugged. “Maybe, but you should be confident - you’re a nice boy - you keep a nice place - you have a job that keeps you in shape…those things matter more than you think.”
He shrugged, toeing the grass. “I met her because her fire alarm went off,” he admitted, glancing at the small figure next to him.
“Was it her fault?”
“Her roommate’s cooking experiment,” he said, remembering the toast.
“Sounds like she’s the responsible one, then.”
He hadn’t even thought about that. No, he’d been debating whether a gym selfie was right…he hummed.
“She asked me out.” He could feel the slight tug of a smile at the corner of his mouth.
“She wasn’t messing about then.”
He smiled. “We went to see the Dodgers, and she doesn’t even like baseball,” he said with a smile and shake of his head.
“Hmm, she’ll go do something she doesn’t like to spend time with you - doesn’t sound so bad so far.”
“She said not to think that—”
“That means you should.” Mrs. Lee patted his arm. “And she won’t disappear because you take time to go on walkies with Kkuma – you know how I know?” She looked up at him again and made a vague swirling motion with her hand like she was plucking the answer from behind his ear - for the drama, he knew. “Because your phone keeps making that little buzz-BUZZ sound, even I can hear it - you’ll go home to 30 messages,” she said with a smile, patting his arm again.
“It could be work,” he mumbled.
“They’d call.”
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It was Thursday. You’d made it. You’d made it through most of the day anyway. And you hadn’t cancelled your date. Which was…you were a little concerned. Not because you didn’t want to go. You really, really did. It was literally what you kept reminding yourself of, that and triple-checking your messages that it was definitely today and not some other Thursday.
It was more like the idea of going home to locate an outfit that wasn’t a set of matching PJs was starting to feel less and less doable. You’d even had one of the gross ginger root shots - vile, by the way. And only semi-effective. You tried to shake it off - it was tapas! Tapas didn’t call for three hours of hair and makeup…and Seungcheol didn’t seem like the kind of guy who would be looking for that on a Thursday night anyway.
You couldn’t look like shit.
But jeans were probably fine. And you were leaving on time, even if you had to sneak out, which you didn’t think you’d need to, but you did take a few trips to hide in the stairwell when you thought someone might be approaching to ask for something extra. You left your sweater on your chair, though - the universal for ‘she’s still here - check back.’
You were currently on a stairwell sojourn, drinking a coffee from the break room and trying to mentally picture what non-work clothes were clean…and cute. There were jeans, and maybe an oversized rugby shirt? That was more chill vibes…less ‘I’ve had 32 shots of espresso so far this week.’ Your heart rate was basically the same as a hummingbird’s. You had this cute top that wrapped somehow, but that was giving like spring day or something. You looked up the restaurant again - it was cute and a little more sleek. Jeans and a blue Oxford shirt - white undershirt…shoes? You mentally swiped left on several pairs…you had these mules you’d been wanting to wear, so maybe those. And your hair was in good shape, so some touch-ups to your makeup and a quick wardrobe change were probably all you needed.
You were taking the metro anyway. You were not staring down any level of traffic. He had the day off. He’d offered to meet somewhere near you, but you hadn’t wanted that - you’d already done the date that was nearer to you.
You pressed your lips into a thin line - what if the date was very near him, you wondered. Would it be weird? Would he say if it were…you had no idea. You were meeting at his apartment and walking to the restaurant. Maybe it was time to see if you were already going to be disappointing for him? Rip off that particular band-aid earlier instead of trying to hold out and appear cool…
You hit dial and waited…there were more rings than normal. It was an Instagram call, though. The things people generally assumed were mistakes because they were. “Hi?” Ugh, his voice - so hot.
“Hi,” you said, checking over the railing to see if anyone else had popped in.
“We should swap numbers,” he said abruptly.
You smiled. “Yeah, it does feel a little fake, right?”
“A little…but what’s up?”
You hummed. “I’m that transparent, huh - uhhh,” you sighed and glanced around at the weird gray and orange walls. “Can I ask a favor?”
“You can ask anything…”
You felt the stupid grin that created. “Right, I can - um, tonight, could we maybe do take-away and just like hang out?” You scrunched your eyes closed, waiting to see if there was some massive sigh of annoyance. You were so used to the massive, long sighs.
“You mean not go out?”
“Yeah…that.” You held your breath slightly.
“So no loud people and no standing in line…”
You brightened slightly - he didn’t sound disappointed. “Umhm.”
“Yeah, we can do that.”
You smiled, laughing softly. “You’d rather stay in?”
“Almost always.”
You were still grinning. “Cute.”
“Usually I get ‘boring,’ but I’ll take ‘cute.’ Do you want me to meet you at the metro stop? I could place the order from there…”
You leaned against the wall, grinning harder somehow - of course, he would meet you at your stop - that was simply what one did in Seungcheol-world. “Yeah, that – that would be really nice,” you answered, voice softer.
There was a soft pause. “So good day?”
You scrunched your face. “Okay day,” you muttered, picking at your sleeve.
“‘Okay’ isn’t bad, though, right?”
“Right.”
Another beat of quiet, just him on the other end of the line, and you in the stairwell.
“Tell me when the metro does the loop at Downtown?”
It started to sink in - he was really going to meet you, like be waiting for you. “I will.”
“Good.”
Another small beat that you could have counted in banana increments but didn’t.
“Byeee.”
“Bye.”
You ended the call and groaned - he was lucky you hadn’t said ‘bye’ like five more times. You watched his message bubble pop up…and his actual number appear. You shook your head softly - disbelief washing through your brain that he was still sweet. Changes like not going out had been major issues before. It was nice that it wasn’t. Really, really, really, infinity times nice. And you’d still wear the same basic outfit - maybe the rugby shirt was back in the running, though.
You added his number and messaged him so he had yours. He was right that it felt less fake to have actually - finally - exchanged numbers. You watched the little heart react appear on your number. Had you maybe made his day by not wanting to go out? Maybe you’d finally found an introvert…you did tend to look at MBTIs on apps…and always pick the ‘E’ types, even though you were always annoyed when they were constantly ‘E’-ing. Maybe you needed an ‘I’ - maybe you were an ‘I.’ You searched for a quick MBTI quiz as you walked back to your desk.
No reason you couldn’t check.
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You’d managed to leave at exactly 5:00 PM. And traffic was…whatever. It was more when you got home and needed to change that things became a little annoying. You knew roughly what you wanted to wear, like you had it narrowed - it was just a quick change. Except no, it wasn’t because Rei was in a mood to follow you around like a lost puppy from the moment you entered the house.
“Do you really have to go out?” she whined.
You’d found your jeans - now the shirt debate - rugby shirt or Oxford shirt…one had, well, no, they both had some buttons. And you were largely ignoring your roommate. She whined often, if not daily, about something. To your mind, it was maybe that she literally lived the kind of charmed life that was practically a satire of itself. And really, by ‘charmed’ you meant her Dad was richer than ‘as fuck’ could even start to describe. Which was fine mostly - you’d been roommates since your first year of college - year two had just meant that she invited you to live off campus at ‘one of’ her Dad’s places and you paid practically nothing. It’d been amazing because you had just a little bit more than nothing as a student - so it mathed.
It had mathed less and less since then. Especially on a night like this.
“Yes, I want to go, so chill out.” You’d already pulled on a white cropped tank top and your jeans of choice before she’d even barged in…you had also maybe taken a moment to pick cuter panties and a semi-matching bralette, which were details you could and possibly would take to your grave.
“Oh, come on - didn’t you already do the nasty? Why go all the way to Long Beach? It can’t be that good,” she said, her voice husky enough in that almost movie star way that came so close to making it feel like cute banter from a friend, instead of something totally asinine.
You rounded on her. “The nasty? Are you 13? And a boy?”
She shrugged. “For real, come onnn, stay in - I have weed and drinks, and there’s a million Love Island episodes…I reelly should have gotten that call back,” she concluded, doing the thing where she started dragging out her vowels weirdly to sound ‘posh’ before she flopped onto your bed.
You were fairly certain she hadn’t gotten the call back because she’d gone to the casting call not just with a hangover, but still literally drunk. Even Love Island casting had limits, apparently. Or just an insurance issue.
“Look, I just think that it was a laugh and now you should come back to normal life - stay in or go out with me because there is a party tonight and it’s supposed to be like everyone - EVERYone - is going - so you should go too…” she was still lying on your bed, messing with your duvet.
“What so I can be your boring friend in the corner?” That sounded harsher than you wanted, but you also really wanted to figure out your shirt problem…the Oxford looked good, almost sexy because you could control the number of buttons...
“You’re not boring - not that boring, anyway - but you’re my wing…girl, come onnn, don’t make me go alone,” she pleaded again.
You shook your head. “I’m busy tonight.” You were busy almost every night, actually. She’d never seemed to notice that.
“No, you’re heading off towards a night of additional boredom for some reason I can’t work out.”
You were going with the Oxford shirt with a white tank underneath - you headed to the bathroom, touched up your makeup, brushed your teeth…anything else? You stared around. Nothing. Still nothing. Shirt could go on now. No danger of getting stuff on it…
You walked out from the bathroom, grabbed your shirt and bag and decided quickly on some light pink Doc Martens because…walking - fuck - you needed cute socks - you sighed…grabbed some white socks with a cherry pattern, cuffed the hems of your jeans so you didn’t look like a - whatever the fuck - you didn’t care - you needed to catch the metro, not edit your internal monologue.
You stood up and found Rei slightly too close to you. This was getting fucking bonkers.
“Look - I don’t know how to tell you this,” you said it almost gently, as you grabbed her hands and held them like you reelly gave a shit in the moment - she was technically an old friend. “I like him - so stop being mean, and call someone else, okay? Love you, but seriously, I am busy,” you said it all in your best client service tone and with roughly the same forced smile.
And then you walked out.
She definitely followed you and continued like you had barely spoken. Wasn’t she the one who wanted you to start dating? You were out the door - it didn’t matter.
But you downloaded an apartment finder app as you found a spot on the metro car. It was probably time to think about finding your own place - not just time, more akin to long overdue.
You swiped around the map looking for places that looked interesting - none of the giant all-inclusive places - that was definitely not you…you wanted something that felt like it had some history, at least. Or just didn’t look like a cube of cubes, maybe?
Seungcheol had sent some menus that you swapped to. He recommended any of the places, leaving it up to you. You saw a curry and felt your mouth water slightly…he was serious, right?
You messaged for a few minutes about an order at the Curry House. And you figured out that he was serious - he did like it - just nothing super spicy for him.
A fact which you filed away as you heard the bing-bong for Downtown and messaged ‘at downtown.’ And feeling slightly shit…but you left that out. If you waited until you weren’t tired or weren’t stressed, you’d basically be a nun before you could see him again.
Still, it wasn’t the most auspicious start.
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But you hadn’t wanted some Insta-perfect night, anyway. Kind of the opposite.
Plus, when you glanced out the window and saw him literally waiting, it was - you couldn’t help the dopey grin your face was suddenly arranging itself into…at least he was also wearing jeans and this like knit sweater that was like the nice boy version of his gym shirts. And you were thinking of all the thirst traps…seriously, his upper body, generally, was enough to send you spiraling, but why did his jeans show off his ass so well?…you wondered if it was too soon to touch it.
Probably.
Probably too soon to reveal that side of yourself…the absolute horn-dog side.
Besides, he was waiting. And didn’t look impatient or annoyed. You almost waved like a loon but tamped it down. It wasn’t like you’d traveled the world or been to war and only conversed via letters from the literal trenches…it’d been like a week. Even if he was looking kind of extra gorgeous by just showing up.
You worked your way towards the doors of the train car and walked out quickly in case any tourists had the idea to stampede. You walked to him, giving a small wave as you crossed your arms against the gentle wind that had started to pick up. He had his phone open, ready to order, just like he’d said.
You made it to him. “Hey,” you offered, still trying to control the stupid grin that wanted to take over your face - why was he so - whatever he was, you wondered as you noticed the wind barely tossing his hair. Thank the sky gods you were still at least wearing sunglasses and preserving some semblance of calm as you watched the insane display that Mother Nature was putting on for you. At least until he leaned in and kissed your cheek quickly before returning your ‘hey’ as he leaned away.
You smiled then. It was – exactly what you needed. You moved closer and looped your arm through his like you had when you’d been leaving the game the last time. “So was that like how you greet your Grandma and I should ignore it or—”
“No, it was like I – it felt right?” he asked, the slightest glint of concern somewhere deep in his eyes.
You nodded and squeezed his upper arm. “So which way is food?” you asked, voice soft - you leaned on his shoulder, confirming the kiss was right…because leaning on him also felt right.
It wasn’t a long walk. Maybe ten minutes. Which was just enough time for Seungcheol to decide that it was better if his arm was around your waist and that kissing you quickly on the temple while waiting for the lights at crosswalks to change was completely normal.
They were small kisses. Chaste pecks that meant you kept smiling and everything else from the day seemed like it had happened in another lifetime. You’d taken the metro and exited into some new territory not previously known, and there was still curry.
The line was quick.
But you still leaned on his shoulder, wondering slightly if you were about to have curry and maybe pick up where you’d left off? Not a bad idea…or maybe eat delicious curry and poke around his bathroom and then make out like horny teens once you established that he knew what Q-tips were - so many tantalizing options. You were spoiled for choice.
Besides, the walk back to his place was a bit calmer - you were heading away from other people, plus he had precious cargo now…curry and butter chicken and daal. None of that stopped your hand finding his free one - your fingers lacing easily with his as you walked a bit faster, which only made him laugh because ‘you don’t know the building.’ Which…fair. You didn’t.
“So tell me if I’m hot or cold,” you offered, walking past a crosswalk near an apartment complex, feeling him pull you back.
“Freezing cold,” he said with a smile, pulling your hand closer to his side as he watched for the light to change.
You groaned. “So where is it?”
“Close - like the next block, but it’s a shorter building—”
“Oh, shorter?” You couldn’t help being curious. Almost no one talked about being in a shorter building.
He nodded. “There’s ivy and stuff,” he added.
“In LA?”
He was still staring at the light, and you were staring at him, watching the smile that teased the corner of his mouth. “Well, in Long Beach there’s ivy,” he clarified, tearing his eyes away from the light for a moment, his smirk definitely teasing.
You had the urge to bite his shoulder in retaliation. Instead, you squeezed his hand and started off across the street at a faster pace the moment the light changed. It was one hundred percent faster than you had any business going. But you had two things to look for, though - it was shorter, and there was ivy - it’d stick out like a sort of big green thumb.
And it did…in the best way.
You paused when you found it, staring at the short brick building with the surprising cornices and the almost completely ivy-covered front…it even trailed to one side. It was just sandwiched between these two boring concrete blobs. And it had this massive wooden main door, and balconies that included fire escapes…it wasn’t what you’d imagined at all. You’d kind of assumed something cube-y - guys usually went with cube-y…past guys, old guys, not-Seungcheol-guys. They all liked the cube, especially when the cube had a basketball court listed as an amenity. This place, though, was the kind of place you loved finding, not just leftover from another era, but that someone had bothered to keep.
You were possibly enthralled. He had to pull your hand to get you moving again.
“Come on,” he mumbled, leading you down the side of the building to a set of covered side entrances with a privacy gate. You tried to imagine what search prompt he entered into which app to find this place. You’d seen guesthouses, cube apartments, and absolutely nothing was this interesting.
He managed to get you inside, which was maybe a mistake - in that once your shoes were off, you padded around behind him, staring at everything, especially a large Shinchan plush that peeked out from the edge of what looked like a loft. You glanced at it as you passed by to go to the kitchen with him…you would find out why the Shinchan seemed to be hiding. But also, how did a studio have a small kitchen, a full bathroom, and a washer and dryer at the back?
Otherwise, the standouts were the very gorgeous cognac brown leather sofa in the main room, the use of lamps instead of the Big Light™, and the fact that there was hardwood throughout that was somehow highlighted by the rug choices - saturated colors on a sort of warm pecan floor. It was coherent - and there were hand towels and soap dispensers. It was like a functioning human occupied the space and had tastes and preferences.
Brave new world, indeed.
You used the bathroom just to admire the fact that the soap dispenser had soap in it…but it also made the Shinchan more appealing. Because Seungcheol had only gestured to the loft and said it was the bedroom…but why was Shinchan out of the way, you wondered as you breathed in the lavender hand soap before rinsing and drying your hands. You stayed for a moment and checked out the small collection of face things and some cologne and one small framed piece of art that reminded you of something sort of like graffiti…and then you left before it was clear you were an absolute snoop of the highest order.
But the entire apartment was certainly planting a little hopeful seed in your mind that you could find a place - maybe you just needed to ask the person who’d managed to find this little gem…he was literally standing next to you, unpacking curry and asking whether you wanted a bowl or a plate.
“You have both?” you asked, not even trying to hide your smirk.
He rolled his eyes. “Are you also going to be shocked when I have actual silverware and not just a drawer of leftover takeaway spoons and forks?”
You nodded. “Naturally - I’ll fall over if you have glassware, too.”
He shook his head, smiling and reaching for a cupboard to open it - water glasses, juice glasses, and mugs - oh my!
You laughed at the display. “Oh, Choi Seungcheol, you know how to make a girl weak,” you mumbled and kissed his cheek. You were surprised when he turned, his lips catching yours gently - gently for a moment - gently until you felt his arm around your waist and the kiss deepening. He pulled away so slowly.
“All my pots and pans have their original lids, too,” he whispered, voice low, the slightest waggle of his brows.
“So sexy,” you answered, finally taking a bowl from him and helping yourself to the lovely curry and rice and naan that looked like it might reset your biological age to childhood.
You ate in the living room at the table in front of the sofa.
It was comfortable and easy. And the music he picked was markedly different - he’d asked about music vaguely a few days before and got you to admit that you did like jazz.
You stared at the phone for a moment, wondering what else he’d gently wangled out of you…the sneaky sneak. It was another tally under the column of ‘he is sexy,’ though…and maybe even went under the column of ‘he likes me.’
“So how was the metro?”
You hummed. “Normal, but my standards are at sea level - as long as I’m not driving, it’s acceptable.”
“So it could have smelled like the inside of a gym bag?”
“I’d still take it…” you admitted, voice flat.
“But plates and bowls?”
You winced. “Look, I’ve found myself in places where a spork would have been a delight?”
“Hence avoiding apps?”
“Precisely why I avoid apps…and anyone my roommate suggests - I’ve learned - that’s almost always for the bit,” you mumbled.
“Really?”
You nodded, glancing at him. “You know, don’t you have one of those friends who like 80% of their existence is so they can have a story to tell?”
He watched you with slightly wide eyes. “No.”
You pushed his shoulder. “Bully for you - seriously, no one who commits too hard to some bullshit?” you asked, clarifying, and sipping your beer.
You could see the crack starting to form as he mentally flipped through some friendship Rolodex. “Yeah, okay, okay…I wouldn’t live with any of them, though.”
“No?”
He shook his head emphatically and popped more chicken into his mouth.
You nodded. “Probably smart. It was fine before, but I think I should maybe branch out,” you said, swiping curry up with your naan.
“Like move?” he asked, glancing at you.
“Yeah…like it’s her Dad’s, so you know, cheap rent, but I don’t want to put out toast fires anymore.”
He scrunched his brows. “Please say you don’t have more toast on your lawn…”
You smiled. “No - you would have heard.”
He sighed and leaned back against the sofa, his head tipping back onto the seat for a moment. He groaned, rubbing his stomach for a moment and finally leaning up, glancing at you.
“That good?”
He nodded. “Perfect…”
You grinned and went back to your own food and your sour beer because he’d remembered that you liked sours. And when he picked up some beer, he apparently saw them…and now you had special sour beer sitting in his fridge.
You turned. “So what about you? Your day?”
He shrugged. “Mostly quiet,” he answered with a sigh.
Glancing again, you wondered if it was really that quiet.
He smiled. “Sometimes everything is quiet - shifts are quiet besides normal dumb things.”
Of course you rounded on that. “Normal dumb things?”
He grinned. “I helped Soonyoung film a dance challenge…”
Everything stopped for a moment so you could locate the dance challenge and confirm that Seungcheol was not visible in the video.
“Disappointed?”
“No, it would have been cute, though…another side to you, and all that,” you said, locking your phone and putting it away.
“I don’t think competent dancing is one of the sides,” he murmured, still leaning against the sofa.
You were almost finished eating. “I didn’t say you needed to be competent—”
“No, but to me, definitely required,” he said, voice soft.
It was quiet for a moment.
“But, for you, quiet and silly things mean a good day - nothing serious?”
He hummed. “Yeah, all quiet is the best case.”
It was weird to think about the number of times something was referred to as a ‘fire drill’ in your office, all because Ted or Kevin or whoever was just really shit at client communications. And it was also weird to think that someone you knew actively did something risky for work. You didn’t especially want to think about it…instead, you leaned on the sofa and smoothed his bangs off his forehead. He really, genuinely, had annoyingly clear skin - you weren’t sure you could even spot a pore.
“You’re like safe, though, right?”
His eyes barely opened. “Worried?”
You glanced away for a moment before finding his gaze again. “Apparently,” you murmured, your fingers tracing along his jaw.
“Just assume dance videos unless…I say it’s not dance videos - or admin - there’s always admin,” he sighed.
You leaned against him, then, letting the quiet come back. You had no idea when your brain had decided that worrying for Seungcheol was an active thing running in the background. But you’d said it, so it must be.
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You helped with carrying things back to the kitchen. You dawdled, going to the bathroom to check your hair for a few minutes before you made your way back through the small kitchen to the main room. Seungcheol was on the sofa - you paused for a moment in the hallway, noticing the back of his neck…what if you kissed him there in passing? He’d kissed you already…you tilted your head, considering and decided the angle wasn’t right. Annoying.
So you walked back out to the living room, to your sour beer, and your…Seungcheol, flicking through movies to watch.
You dropped next to him, happily feeling the sofa and the way it held you. There was a blanket and throw pillows. You ignored them in favor of his arm sliding around your waist and pulling you close, so you could lean against him, your cheek against his chest. You let your arm snake around his waist.
“So why is Shinchan hiding?” you asked.
“Hmm?” he glanced down at you from the projected screen.
You pointed up towards the loft. “Shinchan?”
His eyes followed your finger. “It’s nothing.”
You sighed. “Definitely something then.”
“Absolutely nothing.”
“Are you embarrassed?”
“No,” he said flatly.
You grinned at the ‘no,’ your fingers tracing along his side, feeling the smooth muscle under the buttery soft knit fabric. “Totally embarrassed,” you mumbled, nuzzling closer against his chest.
“No - he - it doesn’t go with stuff,” he mumbled.
You couldn’t help smiling, feeling like you’d won, just a bit.
Shinchan definitely went with things…
You let your fingers trace up until you felt his ribs - you could hear the longer pauses on various movie trailers. You bit your lower lip gently.
There were only two small lamps on because movies…
“Seungcheol,” you murmured.
He hummed again.
“What if you found lo-fi or something?” you asked - voice truly, hand on heart, innocent as the driven snow, as you glanced up at him.
There was a pause. “Why?” he asked, looking down at you, gaze focused like he was sizing you up.
You shrugged. “Long day,” you whispered - your bottom lip barely catching between your teeth.
He hummed, but it was a lower tone this time. “Long day?” he echoed.
You nodded, letting your fingers shift and splay over his stomach. “So long…”
You watched him swallow and glance quickly at the screen, changing apps and scrolling for maybe three seconds before there was some vaporwave aesthetic moving screen saver and lo-fi playing.
You giggled when you felt your back hit the sofa.
And the way his lips immediately went to your throat, kissing and sucking gently, then licking and biting his way lower. You hummed, enjoying that he might have been thinking about this exact kind of moment. Your eyelids fluttered closed as you moaned softly - your fingers catching in his hair, pulling gently when he slid the collar of your shirt to the side and placed a line of wet kisses along your clavicle. You pulled his hair roughly, wanting his lips on yours. He leaned up with a soft moan, lips finding yours, biting gently, deepening it. Your hand slid down the neck of his shirt, your nails barely making little half moons against his skin as he licked into you. You felt his hand tracing along your thigh - you rolled your hips up against his…
And then his phone beeped.
He leaned up quickly, checking it. “Shit,” he mumbled.
“What’s wrong?”
He ran a hand roughly through his hair. “I need to walk Kkuma.”
Your brows went up, still uncertain. “Kkuma?”
“My dog – she’s with my neighbor,” he said with a groan.
You smiled. “Seriously?”
You could see the pink blooming higher on his cheeks.
“I just - I wasn’t sure how you’d feel…maybe she’d be too much,” he said with a shrug.
You hummed and reached up, smoothing the mess that you’d both made of his hair. “It’s okay - you hid Shinchan, too,” you said with a grin. “Poor Seungcheol,” you murmured, letting your fingers trace along his jaw. “So thoughtful and handsome,” you added.
His hand caught yours gently, kissing the backs of your fingers before he sat up. He glanced at you with a smile. “Maybe I just wanted to fuck,” he said with a shrug.
You giggled - like he could be that nonchalant - the man who had accidentally played Cyndi Lauper in his desperate bid to not reveal his gym playlist. “Still handsome - still 99.9% sweet, and, I guess, 0.1% fuck boi,” you corrected.
He shook his head. “Just the 0.1%…okay - she’s upstairs.”
You nodded, sitting up, finger combing your hair. “Can I come?”
“Yeah,” he said, standing and fixing his shirt - he offered you a hand, pulling you up. You let him straighten your shirt and look you over. “Do I look like - you know?” he asked.
You smiled and neatened his collar. “No, you basically look like you had dinner and sort of watched a film.”
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You followed him through the building and up the back stairs. He stopped outside a second-floor apartment, knocking lightly. You heard some noise from inside, and then the door swung open to reveal a petite, older woman with amazingly iron-gray hair. She wore a pink floral dressing gown with silver slippers and was accompanied by a small white dog that wasn’t even barking. You could hear the TV playing - you recognized it…Love Island.
“Seungcheol?” she asked, voice a whisper.
“I came to see if she needs a walk,” he said quietly.
“Ah, we went after dinner, but probably - she can come back, though - we’re watching our show.”
“It’s okay,” he glanced at you, looking sheepish. “I probably shouldn’t have bothered you.”
“Kkuma staying isn’t a bother. Anyway, introduce us,” she said it with a voice that knew what the next part was and wanted to get to it.
You smiled and walked forward to be introduced, first to Mrs. Lee and then to Kkuma. Mrs. Lee smiled and asked how dinner was. “Amazing,” you answered.
She nodded like she hadn’t expected any other answer. “Good, now go on walkies - I’ll pause the show until you're back.”
You grinned. How could you not?
She picked up Kkuma and handed her to you, while Seungcheol was handed the lead and bags and hand sanitizer. Kkuma was immediately the cutest lump of fluff - with these silly long bangs and big boba eyes. You couldn’t help hugging her gently - she was so warm and cozy like she’d just come from a lap when she was half asleep.
You followed Seungcheol outside with her and held her while he attached her lead to her collar.
He stared for a moment.
“What?” you asked.
“You have to put her down,” he said.
“Oh,” you pouted and sat her down. It felt rude. She glanced up at you like she agreed with the sentiment. “Sorry,” you mumbled to Kkuma.
He shook his head. “No, not you too - she’s already a baby.”
“Is that so bad?”
He watched you for a moment. “We were fully doing things…and stopped - she’s massively babied.”
You grinned and put your arm through his. “She’s so cute, though.”
“She’s watching Love Island with Mrs. Lee…”
“I know,” you yawned and leaned on his shoulder. “I wonder if it’s a good episode?”
You walked with them around the block twice - the first time was apparently for sniffing and the second time was for peeing on what seemed to be a very specific shrub, which would have made you laugh if you weren’t feeling so tired. You hadn’t especially thought about the part where you went home…or you had, but that was ages ago when you were also looking for apartments. A million years before curry and the good sour beers…
You followed him back in to return Kkuma to Mrs. Lee. Apparently, she had genuinely paused the show waiting for Kkuma to come back. And then you walked back to Seungcheol’s, leaning against his back while you waited for him to unlock his door.
“Want to stay?” he asked, closing the door.
You’d taken your shoes off. It wasn’t your plan. Even if you hadn’t thought as specifically about leaving, you had planned generally to leave, and checked a timetable at some point and snapped a screenshot. You glanced around, looking for some logic to appear and suggest a barrier…
“You’re tired - borrow some clothes, take a shower. I’m off tomorrow, too, so I can drive you back in the morning.”
You finally looked at him. He was leaning against the wall near the door, watching you.
You remembered that you had definitely been doing things with him…you nodded. “It’s a work-from-home day, so I can still do the metro—”
“Or I can get breakfast for you and drop you off after, and then maybe you’ll have a less shitty day.”
“I said it was mostly okay…”
“Right, from the stairwell.”
You shrugged. “It’s the easiest break spot.”
He shook his head. “Just come on - come ogle the fact that I have a clean bathtub…”
“There’s a full bathtub?” How had he found this place?
“You didn’t check?” he asked, glancing suspiciously over his shoulder.
“I’m not opening shower curtains…” There were boundaries, plus horror movies told you that’s where the dead bodies were, anyway.
“Umhm…”
He ushered you along as he did things, grabbing clothes for you, turning on the taps. You had the feeling that if things were further along, he would have showered with you or at least stayed around to talk…but they weren’t.
So you were left alone to sniff his soaps and shampoo like an absolute toiletry pervert. None were overtly ‘boy’ scented…nothing tagged ‘spring’ or ‘mountain’ or ‘blood spurt’ or ‘it’s just grappling - no homo.’ Instead, he had something minty from a brand you knew - there actually were other sides to him, despite his suggesting there weren’t…at least not dance-y sides. There was definitely the side that had made this purchasing decision, though, for instance…
He showered after you. Meanwhile, you sat on the sofa, toweling your hair, and pondering when you’d actually become this tired. At least you would see Shinchan, you thought with a wry smile. And you didn’t mind that you’d gone with him to walk Kkuma…you’d literally forgotten how tired you were somehow. Weirdo boy magic - that was the only explanation.
Maybe horniness, too…
“Come on,” he said from somewhere near your side. You nodded and got up, following along. He’d loaned you a washed soft t-shirt and sweats. You went first up the stairs, noticing how tight the spiral was - it was slightly disorienting. There was room to avoid hitting your head in the loft space, though. You weren’t that short, but even Seungcheol didn’t seem in danger of bumping his head.
You waited while he put towels over the pillows. He was going to sleep with damp hair too. “Want Shinchan?” he asked.
You smiled, shaking your head. “Just you,” you said from behind your hand as you yawned.
He nodded, moving closer, wrapping an arm around you, pulling you close. You were already drifting.
You heard the soft ‘could have cancelled,’ as he nuzzled close.
That brought you back - your brows scrunching as you turned around. “Cancelled? Why?” you asked.
“You’re tired - a bad week? Those are reasonable things to say.”
You watched him for a moment, wondering what he was thinking. “That’s the kind of thing I say to people when I don’t want to see them,” you said, smoothing his hair. “I wanted to see you - I had a nice time, like really nice,” you whispered, kissing his cheek before turning back over and pulling his arm around you while you snuggled closer.
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fic navigation: master list ↩️ | ▶️ part 1 | ⏩ part 2 | ⏩ epilogue
a/n: okay fr i hope you enjoyed this - it's my first like multi-big brick fics on tumblr and i really hope you had fun with these two ^^
♡ 𝚝𝚘𝚊𝚜𝚝
p.s. i kind of want a mingyu follow-up piece where he finds the right person LOL
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dividers by @/cursed-carmine (lace) & @/cursed-carmine (mdni)
>>>the one where you annoyingly need an alpha and it feels way too real
𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 : 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭
pairing: k.mg / f!reader
𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨: 18+, 𝘔𝘋𝘕𝘐, 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘵
summary: you're an omega who rarely has heats...until you do, and it's horrible and makes you desperate enough to try the ridiculous seventeenth heaven alpha service you keep seeing advertised - and you end up with an emergency alpha, mingyu, to get you through a bad moment, except that neither of you exactly want it to end when the time is up
word count: 4.8k
genre / warnings: alternate universe | non-idol | omegaverse (a/b/o) | soulmates | alpha!mingyu | lwk escort!mingyu | omega!reader | heat/rut dynamics | soft!mingyu | service top!mingyu | very slight angst | painful heat (until it's not) | mentions of bad past s3xual experiences | penetrative s3x | fingering | knotting | scent as soulmate mark
[unknown sender]
hi, lovely i’m messaging you from 17th heaven about our alpha services
we can handle all your omega needs
txt us back and give us all ur heat
⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆⋆˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆
You had stared at that message a million times. It was so corny.
You had marked it as spam before, even, but it always seemed to pop back up. It made you wonder what you had signed up for that had sold your phone number - you or someone you hated who wanted to kill you via mild annoyance.
But there were billboards for it. Ads and flyers, too. It was everywhere. You saw it when you were commuting and buying groceries - there was no escaping the painfully cute ads about ‘alphas who just want to help.’ Whatever - that was your take on it. More like alphas just looking to take advantage of omegas.
But your neighbor had even mentioned it to you when you happened to both be poolside.
“They’re really gentle,” she’d said, her face breaking into a soft smile. “I subscribed to their quarterly service,” she admitted in a whisper, like it was some guilty secret.
You had shrugged it off, even if you did consider her fairly astute. You would suffer through your heats because alphas were … generally so ick. Their second gender was their entire identity. It was part of why you lived in an omega-only building.
Even the buyer’s agreement included an alpha clause - alphas could only spend more than two nights if, and only if, they were aiding an omega through their heat, and never during an alpha’s rut. There was even a special entrance and elevator so everyone didn’t get blasted with pheromones when one of them visited.
To you, it made life easier. You worked in an alpha-dominated industry, so you got enough of their side eye and disgusting, lascivious looks.
Even when you had the same, or better, education, experience, everything - they still got to look down on you because of that stupid little box you were required to check in your HR profile. On your ID.
Everywhere you went, being an omega followed you.
You didn’t need an alpha in your personal life reminding you just how they got to constantly fail upwards and blame all their failings on their omega parent.
Instead, you saw a hormone specialist to get blocks for your scent and monthly packs of control pills to balance your heat cycles.
At this point, you had maybe two heats a year. And they only lasted for a few days at most. You weren’t dealing with them every single month. So why even bother having an alpha help with something so limited, you wondered.
But then again, you hadn’t had a heat quite like this in several years.
You’d woken up, knowing something was wrong.
Your body ached, everywhere. You were certain you could feel it in your bones, even. You were drenched in sweat, and you had this horrible need that seemed to come straight from your womb and consume your mind and body like some demonic force.
You needed an alpha.
You needed your alpha - whatever the fuck that meant for someone without one.
You tried getting off a few times, and each time you came, it was like a drop in an ocean. The pain was still there, surging through your limbs, unstoppable. You cried softly, just wanting it to end.
And that was when your phone pinged and you saw the message.
There was a number at the bottom that you quickly copied and pasted. You messaged asking about their services, and almost immediately got a call back.
The male voice on the other end of the line was gentle, asking what part of your cycle you were in (the part that hurts!), what you normally did (not that much), what methods you used (meds and toys), if you’d ever been with an alpha for your heats (a few times / not recently), did you have any preference for an alpha type (not a dick head? no one bossy).
You wanted to scream at this person for being so thorough in their job. You did start to cry a bit towards the end, which he seemed to clock, asking quickly if you were staying hydrated and eating (no, duh).
Apparently, you were considered an ‘emergency case’, which meant you got one of their ‘standby’ alphas. You had no clue what that meant. But someone would be with you quickly.
You were sent contact information for your alpha. His name, phone number, and a photo so you could verify him. There was also a code word that you provided for safety, since he needed to enter your home. You had decided on ‘mittens’ for some reason that seemed rational in the moment.
And within the hour, you heard the soft knock at your door. You threw on your robe and made your way to the door, groaning and doubling over in pain in the hallway before you reached the door. After breathing deeply for a few breaths, you stood and made it to the door. Still breathing carefully, you glanced through the peephole and saw that he looked like the alpha from the contact details.
Same dark hair you’d seen in the photo, bangs falling neatly across his face, looking freshly showered and dried as he glanced down the hallway. You winced as he turned towards the door, holding your stomach. You hadn’t showered since the day before. Still, you paused, staring for just a moment before your body rebelled.
You whined softly, leaning against the cool wood of the door. “Can I just let you in or what?”
He glanced up. “You need to ask for your password so I can confirm it,” he answered softly.
You pressed your fingertips against the door, trying to find some imaginary grip. “What’s my password?” you asked, your annoyance and discomfort growing and intertwining because why did you even need to do this, even though you understood exactly why - it’d been drilled into you in a million afternoon movies - safety, knowing you let the right alpha in…
“Mittens,” he answered.
“Thank fuck,” you muttered, as you flung the door open and waved him in. Any semblance of patience or caring was out the window.
He was dressed plainly, just jeans and a jacket over a t-shirt - sneakers.
His scent hit you hard, though. Salty air, and dried wood, and something a little citrusy - it was like craving something you hadn’t even known existed.
Your mouth started to water almost immediately - you swallowed hard, wanting to ignore whatever it was about him, but your body had its own mind and seemed to have picked up on something from him - more than just his scent.
He glanced back at you as you closed the door. And fuck if he wasn’t handsome…better than the ID-style photo in your messages. Better than the odd distortion that came with the peephole’s slightly fish-eye view.
He was the kind of handsome that was striking...even for an alpha, he was noticeable - gorgeous in a major way. Gorgeous in a way that shouldn’t just be appearing on your doorstep.
You whimpered, clutching your stomach. “Okay, what now?” You breathed, knowing what you wanted to happen, quickly…
He smiled, though, holding out his hand. “I’m Mingyu,” he said.
You shook his hand. “Right, yeah, sorry, Y/n,” you groaned at the niceties - it wasn’t the customer service you were visualizing.
“How is your pain?”
And it kept going. You rolled your eyes. “I don’t know, horrible? 12 out of 10? I might be dying,” you concluded.
He nodded. “Okay, you probably aren’t dying,” he said with a soft smile, “but you don’t have heats often?”
You shook your head, wanting badly for him to hurry through whatever this was. “No, maybe two to three times a year,” you answered flatly.
“Has your doctor explained breakthrough heats, ones like this?” he asked, his voice entirely too polite, too soft and gentle. His bedside manner was better than your doctor’s, actually.
You blinked at him. “What? No, I - I had to change from one type of therapy to another recently, though,” you answered, closing your eyes, wishing that you had read all the pamphlets.
He nodded. “Right, changing therapies can cause this too - it can happen this way for a few cycles and go back to being more manageable,” he said softly.
As he’d gone through all the small, tedious things, he’d been walking closer to you. He reached out, his hand making soft contact with your forehead, feeling your temperature. You were surprised that he kissed your cheek too, a tender brush of his lips that made your eyelids flutter closed. “I’m sorry it hurts,” he murmured, his voice suspiciously sincere and warm against your skin.
You nodded and opened your eyes. “Thanks,” you mumbled.
You remembered what your neighbor had said about their service being ‘gentle’ - this was almost shockingly gentle. The way he cupped your cheek and held you for a moment, just gazing into your eyes. You told yourself it was probably just to figure out if your pupils were dilated.
He stroked your cheek, though. “Have you eaten?”
You shook your head. Because no, massive pain. Duh.
He nodded, still gazing at you softly. “Will you show me where you’re nesting?”
You nodded, leaning into his touch, realizing how badly you wanted the contact - how badly you wanted him, maybe. Even what he was doing, the barest of the bare minimum, was soothing somehow.
You didn’t want him to stop touching you.
He kissed your temple, like he knew what you were thinking. “I’m right here, everything’s okay,” he whispered, his voice low and sweet, as his arms looped around your waist, hugging you close for a moment. You noticed the way he pulled you gently into him, your upper body connecting with his, point-by-point, feeling his warmth - and the second soft kiss he pressed to your temple. It was the first moment you felt yourself relax. You held his shoulder, squeezing it, not having words for the way certain muscles were starting to unwind - you pressed your fingertips deeper into the muscle of his upper arm.
After a few moments, he let you go, and you led him to your bedroom. Your nest was unbelievably half-assed, just some blankets from your sofa - ones you liked, but still, it wasn’t the kind of nest you would see in any omega magazine. But you rarely had heats like this. You didn’t have a bunch of clothes from a mate or anything like that. You just had what was cozy.
And felt warmth creep into your cheeks because why were you letting someone see you like this again?
You sighed and sat on the bed, glancing at him like he might be judging you for being a ‘bad’ omega.
“Does this like go into my notes or something? ‘Sub-par at nesting’?” You asked.
He shook his head. “No, and when I say ‘nest’ - it’s just wherever you feel safe and comfortable,” he said, walking closer, reaching out, his fingers going gently to your temples, rubbing small circles, the pads of his thumbs brushing along your cheeks.
Your eyes closed. This was nothing like your last time with an alpha.
After a few moments, he asked, “Is your pain still as bad?”
“It doesn’t have the same edge, but it’s still there,” you whispered, leaning into him again. It was a strange feeling to crave someone’s touch.
“Do you want to try some different things?” He asked.
Your brows knitted - his fingers still making the same small movements. “Different how?” you asked.
You could hear his small laugh. “Um, things like massage - touch that isn’t necessarily sexual,” he explained. “But it can also help calm you down and help you get used to my being here, too,” he added.
You nodded, understanding what he meant. Some omegas could have intense reactions to alphas they weren’t partnered with - even if they were close to one another normally. It could be a bit more predator and prey than anyone asked for…or freezing up. Heats could be a strange time for an omega.
“That sounds like a good place to start,” you murmured.
You listened to him when he asked you to move back onto the bed - to lie down. Because why not? His scent was stronger in the room - the wood notes were dry like kindling, not green.
Lying there, you closed your eyes and listened to him moving around, each little sound letting you know exactly where he was, how close, and that he paused, his fingertips tracing along the top of your foot. “Still okay?” he asked, voice small.
You nodded, eyes still closed.
You heard him return to undressing, the soft landing of his jeans on the hardwood. You felt the lightest touch against your ankle - his thumb and first finger squeezing carefully. “Turn over for me?”
You did what he asked, turning over, letting your robe move with you. You felt the bed shift as he joined you - he was straddling you, his knees on either side of your low back.
“Is it okay for me to touch you?” His voice was soft.
You nodded, still surprised by the careful way he was approaching you. His hands traced down the center of your back and out over your ribs, then down to meet at your tailbone.
You felt and heard the way you exhaled as your body settled. He stayed there, hands working along your back through your robe.
It worked to acclimate you, but you knew it was starting to feel more like edging at some point when you whined and turned and caught his hands. “I need - this isn’t enough,” you said, voice rushed as you flopped back down. You’d barely made eye contact, but you felt the way your panties were starting to stick to your pussy.
“Tell me if anything is too much?” he asked.
You nodded.
He smoothed your hair to the side and pulled the collar of your robe down. You shifted for him, freeing your arms from the silk, feeling it trail softly down your back as he exposed your almost naked skin.
He smoothed oil over your shoulders and down your back. His hands felt amazing as they traced over your back, squeezing gently in certain places. You could feel some of your muscles relaxing, even if his approach still felt slightly cautious to you.
You sighed, soaking in his warmth.
“Is it okay?” he asked.
You nodded.
He wasn’t applying any intense pressure, just enough to soothe you, and for you to be surrounded by his scent. You were surprised by how much stronger it had become since he had arrived, actually.
“Do you feel okay with me doing more?”
Again, you nodded.
When his lips brushed the nape of your neck, though, you felt a warmth tingle through you. You moaned softly.
The sound seemed to have been the invitation he was waiting for.
It was like a moan had unlocked a different experience. You gasped with relief as he kissed along your shoulder, biting you gently, just the pressure of his canines against your skin made you shiver and ache in a new way - a sweet way.
You could feel how hard he was getting behind you. His cock heavy against the swell of your hip. You wanted to feel that heaviness buried inside you.
He moved, his lips trailing to your throat, kissing and licking. You gasped, mumbling his name as you reached back, letting your fingers catch in his hair. You felt his hips grind gently against you.
“So beautiful,” he murmured against your skin, kissing down your spine. “Lovely little omega,” he breathed, “want to breed you full,” he whispered, “give you all my pups.”
You shivered, hearing his voice so close and his words that seemed to resonate deeper than you wanted to think about.
His hands traced down your ribs and sides as he spoke - down and under your hips, pulling your ass back and up. You could feel his dick pulsing against you as his hands slid to grasp your inner thighs. You felt his hips rut into you more seriously.
You tugged his hair gently, moaning and whimpering with need. “Please,” you asked softly, “hurts - needs to be full,” you whined with a gasp as you felt his fingers shift and start to tease you open.
“I know,” he mumbled, “I can feel just how much you need me - so wet already - smell so sweet, too,” he said, still teasing and kissing your throat.
You shivered, loving his voice, his touch, the way his teeth grazed your sensitive skin. You wanted to sink back on his fingers, his dick, anything really. Whatever he would give you.
It was his fingers first - long, thick fingers. They pushed into you - in and out, deeper and deeper - you didn’t care how obscene it sounded. You were leaking slick, your pussy weeping to be full before he’d even started. You heard his breath catch as he worked his fingers deeper - the soft way he sighed as he fitted them fully into you. You hadn’t expected that - for him to sound like he was enjoying it so much.
“Taking me so well,” he said under his breath.
You nodded, humming in agreement. “Feels so good,” you breathed, your own fingers wound into the edge of a blanket, squeezing tightly against the orgasm you knew was approaching.
You weren’t sure why, but you had assumed it would be clinical and stiff, or someone who was rough, too rough, probably.
But he was neither.
He was gentle, listening to every sound you made for him, seeming to be just as turned on as you were and just as needy for you to come.
It barely took a few minutes for you to orgasm around his fingers - you were dripping for him already. And it was such a relief. Such an intense relief - you could breathe again. He hugged you - your back pressing to his chest, and his fingers still working inside you, knowing you could keep coming.
“Tell me if I need to stop,” he said, swallowing loudly. You nodded, mewling softly as another orgasm started to build.
You came with a small cry, “Oh, fuck.” You whined, shivering and trembling, his fingers still inside you.
“Shh, doing so well, pet,” he said, his voice reassuring. “Just relax for me, let me take care of you,” he whispered.
You nodded, already soft and pliant in his arms and on the precipice of another orgasm.
You came again, almost soundless besides your breathing.
He finally sat up and moved to turn you over. You watched the way he looked at you, his eyes trailing down your body like he was memorizing you. It was almost like a caress.
It was sweet - he was sweet - everything was sweet. You pushed him back gently, running your hands down his chest and abs and further down his stomach. He was so hard, leaking, too.
You grasped him, giving his dick a small stroke. He hummed, grinning. “You don’t have to—”
You licked your lips. “I know.”
‘Need’ wasn’t the point - you wanted to - you wanted to make him come. You teased his slit and felt his hand cover yours, squeezing you to tighten your grip on him, slowing your pace. “Like that,” he mumbled.
You smirked, letting him set the pace, feeling the easy way he guided you along his entire length, squeezing at the base, just right.
You watched his head drop to one side - his eyes closed. “Close?”
He nodded.
“Don’t move - do it here,” you said, wanting it where he was, on the sheets, in your barely-a-nest nest.
He didn’t move, even as he came, dripping over both your hands, onto your side, the sheets. It was easy then, the way you both wiped your hands in the sheets that definitely smelled like both of you. He barely gave you a moment before he was sliding in - all of him, but the slide was so easy - so fucking good.
You whined and groaned, your fingers digging into his shoulders and back as he fucked into you. You knew you arched off the bed through another orgasm.
But he just pulled you into a new position. Him behind you, you on all fours, open - and again, he pushed in, pulling your hips where he was hitting the sweetest spot with every thrust.
You buried your face in the sheets, your hand wrapping in them uselessly - you moaned into the mattress through your next orgasm.
He was still hard, though. “Still good?” he asked, voice ragged at the edges.
You leaned up, barely surfacing, nodding. “Yeah, don’t stop,” you managed.
“Good,” he muttered, as his hands squeezed your ass like he wished he could leave fingerprints.
He didn’t need to be rough, though. He was too relentless to be rough, too - every move of his hips was so perfect and consistent that every sound you made after some point was a soft cry.
He turned you over, though, leaning in, kissing you slowly. “One more?”
You nodded.
He grinned and moved onto his knees - he caught your ankle and pulled your leg over his shoulder, his hands moving under your ass, holding your hips where he wanted them as he sank into you.
You blinked hard at the sudden feeling of it, so full, so stretched - too good to worry if you could breathe…you yelped softly as he started to move, his cock hitting every single spot you could ever fathom needing someone to hit.
You came fast and hard, adding to everything already on your sheets, earning a grin from him. “Love when it’s like that,” he said, his hips working faster then - you only heard him and that specific sound of skin against skin.
And then he was groaning, slowing, and the heat filling you was new and sweet.
“Fuck,” he moaned, finally looking finished.
He leaned down, kissing you. His lips were soft against yours. He stayed there, his cock still inside you - you could feel his knot - he hadn’t knotted you - he’d done everything but. Maybe later, you decided. Your heat wasn’t over yet.
He pulled back slowly, his fingers grazing your jaw as he gazed down at you. “Any cravings?”
You blinked. “Besides this?” You flushed, wondering where that response came from.
He smirked. “Besides me,” he smiled, looking pleased. “You need to eat,” he whispered as he smoothed your hair.
You nodded, trying to think. You hummed softly, leaning into his hand. “Name some foods,” you said, half-teasing, but he started to list things off anyway.
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You ended up with a burger and fries. It was perfect, though. A perfect break. He showered with you while you waited for food and sat eating with you in your living room.
When you were finished, you climbed into his lap, still needy, still wanting touch. His touch. You nuzzled into him, you could swear his scent was more intense, almost slightly sweet around the edges.
You sighed, nuzzling against his throat. “How does it work? Do you stay?” You asked, voice barely audible.
He nodded. “Until you’re through it, yeah,” he answered, his fingers trailing through your hair.
You hummed softly. You wanted to ask him things, like why he was so…whatever he was. You wondered what the job description was, even. But you didn’t. That small inner voice of doubt kept you from asking anything that might be meaningful.
He held you close the rest of the night. He slept next to you. And when you woke up crying during the night, he held you close - his dick sliding in so easily - he fucked you tenderly until your tears slowed. He held you delicately, filling you with every thrust.
You could feel his knot growing. You trailed your fingers through his hair, staring up at him, holding his gaze. “Please,” you breathed into the dark.
He licked his lips. “You sure?”
You nodded. “Need it, need you, need my alpha,” you said, groaning at the way he started to push in further. You had no idea how big his knot was, but you could feel yourself stretching to take him. You wanted every bit of him.
You whimpered, coming when he did, feeling your body finally relaxing, giving in as his knot filled you, calming you, keeping everything inside, just like it was supposed to be.
You fell asleep like that.
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You woke up to him still holding you. His scent surrounded you like a soft blanket. You didn’t want to move. It was strange, the feeling of not wanting to part from someone. Worse was the deeper feeling that it would hurt when you did. It made you anxious, the idea that he would leave after another day or so. You guessed that you would probably never see him again.
He sighed gently. “Don’t worry,” he whispered as his fingers traced gently against your side.
You swallowed tightly, knowing you hadn’t said anything out loud. You had only thought those things. And he had answered you. He nuzzled closer, murmuring for you to try to sleep, to rest. You nodded, hoping sleep would clear your mind.
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When you woke up for the second time, there was breakfast, and sex, and movies, and cuddling, and sex, and lunch, and so on. You fell asleep after he knotted you late that night.
And things started to ebb the second morning with him. And by the third morning, you started to feel almost normal.
You were still sad for him to leave, though. You tried telling yourself that you were just a client - he did this with other omegas. It was his job to be nice to you - he could hate you and be really good at hiding it.
None of that mattered, though - you didn’t want him to leave. And you had no idea how to tell him either.
It was painful to walk him to the door. You were still holding his hand, even as he crossed the threshold. He squeezed your hand gently, telling you it would be ‘okay.’ You managed to hold back your tears until the door was firmly closed.
You sat in your hallway, miserable, a different kind of ache settling over you than what you had started with. You sat there for a long time, wondering if you were right about what you had felt. You closed your eyes tightly, telling yourself it wasn’t real.
You stood up and tried going about your day, catching up on emails. But you were still feeling a bit tired and sore, so you’d taken a nap in what was left of your nest. His scent was still there, soothing you, even if he was gone. You prayed it would last, that his scent would linger. You weren’t sure you could sleep without it.
And when you woke up to hear rain pelting against your windows - it was like the weather had decided to match your mood. You felt despondent, lying there, knowing you needed to wash your sheets.
You decided that you couldn’t hang on to him. That you were being unreasonable. And that you probably needed to eat.
But even walking into your kitchen, it smelled like him. The air smelled like him. You almost cried. Because you didn’t believe in mates and finding someone with that scent that stuck in your mind - that one scent that was only ever meant for you - the one that you could follow through a crowd of people if you needed to because it would always lead you to him.
You leaned against the counter, wondering what you were even supposed to do - it was a service and not for matchmaking. You sighed, trying to collect yourself. Trying to forget his scent and the way he seemed to read your mind at various points.
You finally started looking for food. And that was when you found his parting gift.
He’d left you food, something he made while you were sleeping. You were surprised to find the lemon cake waiting for you. Something citrusy and sweet. It almost hurt to look at.
But then you saw the note he’d left too. And there was his number written neatly, and a more hastily written note, asking you to call him if it had felt ‘real’ to you too.
You stared at it, reading it more than once. Checking the paper to make sure it was real and not something your mind had created.
You tried to play it cool. You told yourself that you would wait a few days.
But that hadn’t lasted. You made it all of ten minutes before texting him and asking him if he had plans for dinner.
Because it had felt very real for you.
a/n: if you didn't know i enjoy writing omegaverse, now you do ^^ and mingyu...i haven't posted for him yet, so why not some omegaverse with soulmates who meet in a sort of weird way
love it - hope you had fun reading
okieeee byeee
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pairing: seungcheol x reader
synopsis: As the head TA, you’re in charge of grading all assignments—including Seungcheol’s. But when he accidentally submits a love letter in place of his final essay, you’re stuck between failing him and falling for him.
wc: 7.5k
genre: Romance, Fluff, Collage AU,
warnings: Power imbalance (they same age tho), Flirting
a/n: happy birthday seungcheol!! (no this is NOT late…) please ignore anything that doesn’t make sense, logic isn’t needed. assume all that is written is right. This is apart of the Kiss Me, It’s for Academia Series!! All other parts of the series will come out on each respective members birthdays!!
By the time the final submissions closed at midnight, you had already decided that you hated the concept of higher education.
Not the learning part, necessarily. You liked learning. You liked the feeling of understanding something that had previously been difficult, liked being able to pick apart an argument until you found the exact point where it stopped making sense, and, against your better judgement, you even liked helping other students when they genuinely wanted to understand the material. What you hated was everything that came after.
The emails beginning with Sorry for the late submission, the attachments named FINALFINAL2.docx, the students who somehow managed to reference a source that did not exist, and, most of all, the essays that contained three hundred words of introduction before finally arriving at a thesis that could have been written in a single sentence.
As the head teaching assistant, however, all of that had somehow become your problem.
You sat alone in the TA office the following morning, laptop open and coffee slowly going cold beside your elbow, staring at the grading portal with the kind of exhausted determination usually reserved for people defusing bombs. There were forty-eight final essays waiting to be marked, which was forty-eight too many, but at least you had developed a system. Every submission received a digital case number, a score, and a collection of comments that ranged from professionally constructive to increasingly desperate pleas for students to please, for the love of everything, stop using Wikipedia as an academic source.
You had already worked your way through the first forty-six.
FINAL ASSESSMENT GRADING LOGSUBMISSION #47STATUS: Awaiting assessment
STUDENT: Choi Seungcheol
You sighed when you saw the name.
Of course.
Seungcheol was not a bad student. That was, perhaps, the most irritating part about him. If he had been consistently terrible, you could have written him off and moved on, but he was actually quite intelligent when he bothered to demonstrate it. His essays were usually well-researched, his arguments were surprisingly thoughtful, and his participation in class was good enough that the professor occasionally praised him in front of everyone.
The problem was that Seungcheol seemed physically incapable of doing anything without making it unnecessarily difficult for you.
He had once submitted an assignment twelve minutes before the deadline with the file name sorry, only to discover that the document inside was perfectly formatted and ninety-eight percent complete. Another time, he had handed in an otherwise excellent essay with a handwritten note attached that simply read, I know the conclusion is dramatic, but I stand by it. You had given him an 89.
He had come to your office afterwards and spent twenty minutes arguing that the deduction was unfair.
You had spent twenty minutes trying not to laugh.
You clicked on his final submission.
The document loaded.
You frowned.
For several seconds, you simply stared at the first page, convinced that the formatting had failed to load properly. There was no title. No student number. No essay heading. No citations.
Instead, at the very top of the page, in plain black text, were four words.
Dear Y/N,
Your hand stopped above the mouse.
You blinked once. Then twice. You scrolled down.
The document was not an essay. It was a letter.
You sat back in your chair slowly, your expression becoming more and more incredulous as you continued reading.
I don't really know how to start this without making it sound stupid, so I'm probably going to make it sound stupid anyway.
You should have closed the document.
You knew that.
You were a TA. This was a student's personal correspondence, accidentally or otherwise, and you had absolutely no business reading beyond the first line. The correct response was to close the file, email Seungcheol informing him that he had submitted the wrong document, and move on.
Instead, you kept reading.
I've been trying to figure out when exactly this started, but I don't think there was one specific moment. Maybe it was when you stayed back after class because I didn't understand the reading, even though I'm pretty sure I understood it. Maybe it was when you started remembering that I hate the vending machine coffee and began bringing your own coffee into the office. Maybe it was when I realised that I knew what days you wore your hair up.
Your stomach dropped. You scrolled further.
Actually, it was probably before all of that.
You stared at the screen.
There were details in the letter that made your face grow progressively warmer. He had noticed the way you tapped your pen against your notebook when you were thinking. He had noticed that you always organised your grading folders by colour. He had noticed that you rubbed your eyes whenever you had been staring at a screen for too long.
He had noticed you.
Not in the vague, passing way students sometimes noticed their TAs, either. He had been paying attention.
You reached the middle of the page and finally remembered how to breathe.
GRADING LOG — SUBMISSION #47ASSIGNED TASK: Final Essay
DOCUMENT RECEIVED: Personal Letter
SUBMISSION STATUS: Incorrect
INITIAL GRADE: 0/100
MARKER'S NOTE: This is not an essay.
You typed the note into your grading document almost automatically, because treating the situation like an administrative problem was considerably easier than acknowledging the fact that your heart was beating much too quickly.
You looked back at the letter.
I know you're probably going to think this is weird.
You swallowed.
And it probably is weird. You're my TA, I'm your student, and there's a whole list of reasons why this is a terrible idea. I know that. I've thought about it enough times to have basically memorised the list.
That made you pause.
At least he knew.
But I also know that every time I come up with a reason not to tell you, I end up finding another reason to come to your office.
You stared at that sentence for longer than you should have.
The office suddenly felt much too quiet.
Outside, students were moving through the hallway, voices drifting past the closed door, but none of it seemed particularly real anymore. You were still looking at the screen, still holding the same pen you had been using to grade essays all morning, except now you were twisting it between your fingers instead of writing.
You continued.
You don't have to say anything. Honestly, I don't even know if I'm going to have the courage to say anything after submitting this. Maybe this is easier because I can pretend it was an accident.
A laugh escaped you before you could stop it.
“Unbelievable.”
The final paragraph was shorter.
Anyway, if this was supposed to be my final essay, then I have officially failed the assignment. But if you ever wanted to give me some extra credit, I wouldn't complain.
You stared at the final sentence.
Then you closed your eyes.
“Choi Seungcheol.”
There was no way he had done this intentionally.
There was absolutely no way.
You reopened the document and looked at the file name.
finalessay.docx
That was not helpful.
You checked the submission time.
11:58 p.m.
Two minutes before the deadline.
You imagined him sitting somewhere on campus, probably typing this with one hand while frantically trying to finish an actual essay with the other, and somehow submitting the wrong file at the last possible second.
Except the letter was too polished.
Too specific.
Too long.
He had not accidentally written this.
He had accidentally submitted it.
There was a difference.
You leaned back in your chair and rubbed your forehead.
This was an administrative nightmare.
You needed to email him. You needed to tell him that the submission was incorrect and that he would have to submit the actual assignment. You needed to forget you had read the letter. You absolutely did not need to think about the fact that somewhere between his complaints about your grading and his suspiciously frequent visits to your office, he had apparently developed a crush on you.
You opened the grading comments again.
Your cursor blinked beneath the official feedback box.
You typed:
MARKER'S COMMENT: This submission does not address the assigned question and therefore cannot receive full credit.
You paused.
Then you added:
However, the argument is surprisingly compelling.
You stared at the sentence.
“No.”
You deleted it.
You typed again.
GRADE: 47/100
Your finger hovered over the keyboard.
Forty-seven was not an appropriate grade. There was no rubric category for accidentally submitting a love letter. There was no academic justification for giving him anything other than zero, followed by a polite request to resubmit the correct document.
But you couldn't give him zero.
Not when you had read the entire thing.
Not when, despite every reason you had to be annoyed, you had caught yourself smiling at several parts.
And definitely not when you had started wondering whether maybe, just maybe, he had been right about you remembering his coffee order.
You saved the grade.
Then you immediately regretted it. Your inbox chimed. A new email.
From: Choi Seungcheol
You stared at the notification.
There was only one sentence.
Please tell me I didn't submit that.
You pressed your lips together. For several seconds, you considered pretending you hadn't seen it. Then you typed back.
You did.
The reply came almost immediately.
Oh my god.
You couldn't help it.
You laughed.
Another message appeared.
Please tell me you didn't read it.
You looked at the open document on your screen, then at the grading sheet, then back at the message.
I am your TA.
Three dots appeared, disappeared, then appeared again.
That isn't an answer.
You smiled despite yourself.
Yes, I read it.
The typing indicator vanished. For almost a full minute, there was nothing. Then:
Can I drop the class?
You laughed again, quieter this time.
The semester ended yesterday.
Can I drop out of university?
That seems excessive.
You don't understand. I need a new identity.
You leaned back in your chair, shaking your head.
You still need to submit your final essay.
There was a pause.
You gave me a grade?
You looked at the number on the screen.
47.
The response was immediate.
FORTY-SEVEN?
You smiled.
Generous, considering you didn't answer the question.
What did I get points for?
You thought about it.
Effort.
The typing bubble appeared again.
So if I improve the argument...
You knew exactly where this was going.
Submit the correct essay, Seungcheol.
Another pause.
Yes, ma'am.
You rolled your eyes.
Don't call me that.
Sorry, Y/N.
You froze. Your name looked strangely different coming from him.
It was ridiculous. You had heard him say it before. He had called you by your name countless times, usually when asking a question after class or trying to get your attention in the hallway.
But now, after reading everything he had written, the name carried a different weight.
You stared at the screen for a moment longer than necessary.
Then you closed the laptop.
You told yourself the warmth in your face was embarrassment.
You told yourself the small smile you couldn't quite suppress was amusement.
And when you eventually returned to the grading portal, you made one final note beneath Submission #47.
CASE STATUS: Pending resubmission.
MARKER'S NOTE: Student has been informed of error.
You hesitated before adding one final line, this time not in a single rushed thought, but in a steady, deliberate sentence that you still ended up deleting anyway.
Because you knew perfectly well that “further investigation unnecessary” was the one thing you were least convinced of.
—
By the time you arrived at the TA office the following morning, you had almost convinced yourself that yesterday had been an isolated incident, something embarrassing and mildly amusing that would disappear the moment Seungcheol submitted the correct essay. The letter would become an unfortunate story you could tell yourself years later, assuming you ever wanted to remember the exact moment a student managed to turn an ordinary final assessment into the most complicated grading situation of your academic career. You had spent the walk across campus reminding yourself that the semester was finished, that you were no longer going to see him every Tuesday and Thursday morning, and that, most importantly, you were not going to encourage him.
Then you opened your inbox and saw an email from him.
From: Choi SeungcheolSubject: Revised Submission
You stared at it for several seconds before opening it.
The email itself was disappointingly normal.
Attached is my actual final essay. I have checked the file three times. It is definitely the essay this time.
You almost smiled.
Also, I apologise for yesterday.
You read that sentence twice.
And I promise the letter wasn't supposed to be submitted. Unfortunately, I cannot promise that I regret writing it.
Your smile disappeared.
You looked around the empty office as though someone might have witnessed the expression on your face, even though there was nobody there to see it. Then you opened the attachment.
It was, mercifully, an essay.
You checked the file name first.
Final_Essay_Choi_Seungcheol.pdf
Correct. You checked the title. Correct. You scrolled to the bottom. References included.
You leaned back in your chair.
“Thank God.”
For the next forty minutes, Seungcheol was simply another student.
You forced yourself to treat his essay exactly as you would any other submission, reading each paragraph carefully, checking his references, marking the places where his argument needed stronger evidence, and resisting the temptation to read more into every sentence simply because you now knew he had written a love letter about you. The essay was good. Irritatingly good, actually, because it meant you couldn't justify giving him a lower mark simply to regain some sense of professional distance.
By the time you reached the conclusion, you had already decided that he deserved somewhere in the low nineties.
You opened the grading sheet.
FINAL ASSESSMENT GRADING LOGSUBMISSION #47STUDENT: Choi Seungcheol
CORRECT DOCUMENT RECEIVED: Yes
PREVIOUS DOCUMENT: Personal correspondence
STATUS: Under review
It was a stupid joke, but it made you feel slightly less like you were losing your mind.
You finished the grading and entered 91/100.
Your cursor hovered over the feedback box.
There were several comments you needed to make about his analysis, but your attention kept drifting back to yesterday's letter. You could still remember certain lines with uncomfortable clarity, particularly the parts about things you had never realised anyone noticed. The way you tapped your pen. The coffee. The days you wore your hair up.
You wondered how long he had been paying attention. You wondered how long you had been paying attention to him. You immediately shut that thought down.
It didn't matter.
You were his TA.
Even if the semester had technically ended, the final grades had not been released, and you were still responsible for evaluating his work. Whatever feelings existed between you had to remain exactly where they were: somewhere outside the grading portal, outside the office, and preferably outside your head altogether.
You typed your feedback.
MARKER'S COMMENT: Strong argument overall. Your evidence is well-selected, and the conclusion effectively ties the central points together. The structure is much clearer than in your previous submission.
You read it back. Professional. Perfect.
You were about to submit it when another thought occurred to you.
Much improved from your previous attempt.
You looked at the sentence.
Then deleted it. Then typed it again. This time, you left it.
You submitted the grade.
A few seconds later, your phone buzzed.
Choi Seungcheol: 91?
You frowned. You had not told him you had finished grading. Another message appeared.
You grade quickly.
You stared at the screen.
How do you know I've graded it?
The typing bubble appeared immediately.
I checked.
You narrowed your eyes.
You submitted it thirty seconds ago.
Yes.
Why are you checking the grading portal thirty seconds after submitting?
There was a pause.
Anxiety.
You sighed.
Go do something productive.
I am.
What?
Waiting for my grade.
You put your phone face down on the desk.
This was exactly what you had been trying to avoid.
You had spent months dealing with Seungcheol's teasing, his stupid jokes, and his habit of appearing in your office whenever he had the slightest excuse, but there had always been a structure around it. There was a reason for every interaction. He was a student. You were a TA. If he stayed after class, it was because he had a question. If he came to your office, it was because he needed help. If you gave him a sarcastic comment on an assignment, it was because you were grading his work.
Now the semester was over, and the structure was disappearing.
You picked your phone back up.
You got 91.
His reply came almost immediately.
So I've improved.
Yes.
By forty-four points.
You frowned.
You got 47 because you submitted a love letter.
Still counts.
You stared at the message.
It absolutely does not.
I disagree.
You shook your head, smiling despite yourself.
Your argument lacks sufficient evidence.
There was a longer pause this time.
Then:
Can provide additional evidence during office hours.
You dropped your phone onto the desk.
“No.”
You could practically hear him laughing through the screen.
Another message appeared.
That was good.
You ignored it.
Another.
You smiled, didn't you?
You picked up the phone.
No.
Liar.
You didn't respond. You told yourself that was the end of the conversation.
It wasn't.
For the next ten minutes, your phone continued to buzz with increasingly ridiculous messages, most of them variations of the same argument: Seungcheol insisting that the original letter deserved some form of academic recognition and you insisting that emotional sincerity did not count as evidence. Eventually, you turned your phone onto silent and returned to grading.
You managed to get through three more essays before someone knocked on the office door.
You didn't look up.
“Come in.”
The door opened.
You expected another TA.
Instead, Seungcheol stepped inside. Your hand stopped halfway across the grading sheet.
He looked almost exactly as he always did, which somehow made the situation worse. Dark hair slightly messy, backpack hanging from one shoulder, sleeves pushed up his arms, and an expression that suggested he was entirely too pleased with himself for someone who had accidentally submitted a confession to the person responsible for his final grade less than twenty-four hours ago.
“You said office hours were for academic assistance,” he said.
You stared at him.
“They are.”
“So I'm here for academic assistance.”
“You're not enrolled in this class anymore.”
“I know.”
“Your final essay has already been graded.”
“I know.”
“You got ninety-one.”
“I know.”
You slowly put your pen down.
“Then why are you here?”
He smiled.
It was not the teasing smile from class, either. This one was smaller, more uncertain, and for the first time since you had known him, you noticed that he looked nervous.
“I wanted to apologise properly.”
That caught you off guard.
You leaned back in your chair.
“For the letter?”
He nodded.
“I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.”
The joking tone was gone now, replaced by something much more sincere. He shifted his backpack from one shoulder to the other before setting it down beside the chair opposite your desk.
“I know it was inappropriate,” he continued. “Especially because you were still grading me. I should have waited until after everything was finished, and I definitely shouldn't have submitted it.”
“You definitely shouldn't have submitted it.”
He winced.
“Yeah. I've established that.”
You couldn't help smiling.
He noticed.
“You're laughing at me.”
“A little.”
“That's fair.”
The room settled into a quieter silence.
You looked at him properly for the first time since he had walked in. Yesterday, the letter had turned him into a collection of sentences on a screen, each one more embarrassing than the last. Today, he was simply Seungcheol again, sitting across from you with his hands folded together, waiting to find out whether you were going to tell him that everything was fine or ask him to leave.
You found yourself remembering one particular sentence from the letter.
Every time I come up with a reason not to tell you, I end up finding another reason to come to your office.
“You really meant it?” you asked.
His eyebrows lifted.
“The letter?”
You nodded.
He looked down at his hands.
“Yeah.”
There was no joke this time.
“Yes,” he said quietly. “I meant it.”
You swallowed.
You had expected him to be embarrassed. You had expected him to laugh it off, to say that he had been tired or impulsive or that it had been some elaborate joke that had gone too far. Instead, he was sitting there looking at you as though he had decided that, having already humiliated himself once, there was no point pretending anymore.
“I've liked you for a while,” he admitted. “I just didn't want to make things weird for you.”
“You did make things weird.”
“I know.”
“You submitted a love letter as your final essay.”
“I know.”
“You gave yourself the academic equivalent of a restraining order.”
He laughed at that, finally relaxing a little.
“I was panicking.”
“You wrote three pages.”
“Panic can be very articulate.”
You looked away so he wouldn't see you smile. That was the problem. He was making it very difficult to stay annoyed.
You picked up your pen again, mostly because you needed something to do with your hands.
“Regardless, nothing can happen while I'm still responsible for your grade.”
“I know.”
“And I mean that.”
“I know.”
“You're not going to try to convince me otherwise?”
He shook his head.
“No.”
The answer came so easily that you looked up.
He met your eyes.
“I don't want you to feel like you have to say yes because I'm your student,” he said. “Or because I wrote something embarrassing and now you're worried about hurting my feelings. If you don't feel the same way, that's okay.”
You didn't know what to say. Because the truth was that you weren't sure you didn't feel the same way.
You had spent the entire morning trying not to think about it, but now he was sitting in front of you, giving you every opportunity to reject him, and somehow that made the possibility of doing so feel much harder.
You looked down at your grading sheet.
SUBMISSION #47 — FINAL GRADE: 91/100.
Underneath it, the cursor was still blinking.
You suddenly had an idea. It was probably a bad one. You typed a new note.
MARKER'S COMMENT: Strong improvement. However, the student appears to have a recurring issue with inappropriate submissions.
Seungcheol leaned forward slightly.
“What are you writing?”
“Feedback.”
“About my essay?”
“Yes.”
He looked suspicious. You turned the screen slightly away from him. He laughed.
“Are you seriously grading me right now?”
“That's what I do.”
“You're enjoying this.”
“Maybe.”
He smiled. You continued typing.
RECOMMENDATION: Continue developing the argument. Provide stronger evidence where necessary. Avoid submitting personal correspondence as academic work.
You saved the document.
Then you looked at him.
“For the record, you don't need to worry about me being offended.”
His expression softened.
“Okay.”
“And you don't need to apologise again.”
“Okay.”
“But you do need to promise me you won't submit another letter.”
He thought about it.
“An essay?”
“Yes.”
“A normal one?”
“Yes.”
“No hidden messages?”
“No.”
“No acrostic?”
You narrowed your eyes.
“Seungcheol.”
He laughed.
“Okay. Fine.”
You shook your head, but you were smiling again. He stood and picked up his backpack. For a moment, neither of you said anything. Then he reached the door and turned around.
“Can I ask you something?”
You nodded.
“After the grades are released…”
He hesitated, and suddenly the teasing confidence was gone again.
“Can I take you out?”
Your heart gave an annoying little jump. You knew what the sensible answer was. You knew what the professional answer was.
You also knew that the semester was over, that his grade was already submitted, and that there was nothing left for you to evaluate except the increasingly obvious fact that you liked having him around.
Still, you weren't going to make it easy for him.
“You'll have to wait for your final grade.”
He stared at you.
“What?”
“You heard me.”
“But I already got my grade.”
You smiled.
“That was the essay.”
He looked genuinely confused.
“And what am I being graded on now?”
You picked up your pen and tapped it thoughtfully against the desk.
“Behaviour.”
He laughed.
“That's unfair.”
“Life is unfair.”
“So what do I have to get?”
You pretended to consider it.
“An A.”
He smiled.
“I can do that.”
“Good.”
He opened the door. Then, before leaving, he looked back at you one last time.
“Just so we're clear, though.”
You raised an eyebrow.
He smiled.
“I've already started working on my extra credit.”
The door closed behind him before you could answer. You sat there for several seconds, staring at it. Then you looked back at your computer.
CASE FILE #47FINAL GRADE: 91/100
BEHAVIOURAL ASSESSMENT: Pending
You should have closed the file. Instead, you opened the original letter again. You read the first paragraph. Then the second.
And, for the first time, you allowed yourself to wonder whether the problem wasn't that Seungcheol had fallen for you.
Maybe the problem was that you were starting to fall for him, too.
—
The semester ended quietly, which felt almost insulting considering how much of your life Seungcheol had managed to complicate over the past few months. There was no dramatic final class, no grand declaration in the middle of the lecture hall, and certainly no cinematic moment where the entire university suddenly seemed to understand that something had changed between you. There was only the slow disappearance of students from campus, the gradual emptying of your inbox, and the strange realisation that you no longer had a legitimate reason to expect Seungcheol to appear at your office.
You told yourself that was a good thing.
It was probably healthier this way. The grades were final, the assessment period was finished, and your responsibility as his TA had officially ended. There were no more assignments to mark, no more reasons for him to stay behind after class, and no more excuses for you to spend twenty minutes pretending to discuss coursework when neither of you had any intention of talking about coursework.
And yet, three days after the semester ended, you still found yourself looking at the office door whenever footsteps passed outside.
You hated that.
You hated it even more when the door opened on the fourth day.
Seungcheol stood there.
He wasn't carrying a backpack this time, and there were no papers tucked underneath his arm. There was no excuse in his hands, no assignment that needed clarification, no question about a reading he had supposedly failed to understand. He simply stood in the doorway, looking at you with the same nervous smile he had worn the last time he had asked whether he could take you out.
You tried to look unimpressed.
“You know you don't have office hours anymore.”
“I know.”
“You're not in my class anymore.”
“I know.”
“You don't have anything to submit.”
He smiled.
“I know.”
You put your pen down.
“Then why are you here?”
He stepped inside and closed the door behind him, though not all the way. You noticed that immediately, and some small part of you appreciated the gesture. Even now, when the semester was over and the rules had changed, he was still careful not to make you feel cornered.
“I was waiting,” he said.
“For what?”
“For the grades to be released.”
You blinked.
“They were released yesterday.”
“I know.”
“You could have asked me out yesterday.”
“I could have.”
“Why didn't you?”
He shrugged, looking suddenly much more nervous than he had during any of your conversations about his disastrous submission.
“Because I wanted to be sure.”
You tilted your head.
“Sure of what?”
“That you actually wanted me to.”
The answer left you quiet.
You had spent the past few days thinking about what would happen when this moment finally arrived. You had imagined him making some ridiculous joke, perhaps asking whether an A on his final assessment had earned him enough extra credit to qualify for a date. You had imagined yourself teasing him, making him work for it, perhaps reminding him that he had spent an entire semester trying to charm his way through your grading rubric.
You had not imagined him standing in front of you looking genuinely uncertain.
“I told you last time that you didn't need to worry about offending me,” you said.
“I know.”
“And I told you that you didn't need to apologise.”
“I know.”
“So what are you waiting for?”
He looked at you for a moment.
“An answer.”
The room felt suddenly smaller.
You looked down at the grading sheet still sitting on your desk, even though you had no reason to have it open anymore. The familiar formatting stared back at you.
FINAL ASSESSMENT GRADING LOGSUBMISSION #47STUDENT: Choi Seungcheol
FINAL GRADE: 91/100
CASE STATUS: Closed
You had kept the file open without realising it.
You stared at the words for another second before closing the document.
“Okay.”
His eyebrows lifted.
“Okay?”
You nodded.
“You can take me out.”
For a moment, he didn't move. Then his entire expression changed.
The nervousness disappeared first, replaced by something bright and almost disbelieving, and then he laughed quietly, dropping his head as though he needed a second to process the fact that you had actually said yes.
“Seriously?”
“You're making me reconsider.”
“No, no.” He straightened immediately. “Absolutely not. I'm accepting the answer before you can change your mind.”
You smiled.
“You're very confident for someone who got forty-seven on his first submission.”
“That was a clerical error.”
“That was a love letter.”
“A passionate research proposal.”
You laughed.
He smiled at the sound, and for a moment neither of you said anything.
It felt different now.
There was still the familiarity of everything that had happened before, all those office hours and sarcastic grading comments and stolen glances across the classroom, but the invisible line between you had finally disappeared. He wasn't sitting across from you waiting for feedback anymore. You weren't responsible for deciding whether his work deserved a passing grade.
You were simply two people standing in an empty university office, both trying not to look too pleased about finally being allowed to admit what had been obvious for months.
“So,” he said eventually, “when are you free?”
You considered pretending to be busy.
“Tomorrow.”
His smile widened.
“Tomorrow?”
“Unless that's too soon.”
“No. Tomorrow is perfect.”
“You seem excited.”
“I've been waiting since mid-semester.”
You raised an eyebrow.
“That's concerning.”
“I know.”
He took a step closer.
“I've also been trying to think of somewhere to take you that isn't campus.”
“Good start.”
“And somewhere without vending machine coffee.”
“Even better.”
“And somewhere I can talk to you without pretending I need help with an assignment.”
You smiled.
“I might miss that.”
“You can still give me feedback.”
“I don't think that's how dates work.”
“You've never dated a student before.”
You stared at him.
He immediately grimaced.
“Sorry. Terrible wording.”
You laughed, and he looked relieved.
“I'm going to pretend you didn't say that.”
“Please do.”
He reached the door, but before he opened it, he turned around again.
“There is one thing I wanted to ask.”
“What?”
He pointed towards your laptop.
“The letter.”
Your stomach fluttered.
“What about it?”
“Did you keep it?”
You hesitated.
That was probably the easiest question he had asked you all semester, and somehow it was the one that made you feel the most exposed.
“Yes.”
His expression softened.
“Why?”
You looked at him.
“Because I liked it.”
The words were quiet, but they were enough.
He smiled.
“Good.”
Then he left.
You waited until the door clicked shut before letting yourself smile properly.
The next evening, you met him away from campus.
It was strange at first.
Not bad strange.
Just unfamiliar.
Without classrooms and lecture notes and grading sheets between you, there were suddenly things you didn't know about each other. You knew that Seungcheol hated vending machine coffee. You knew that he procrastinated when he was nervous, that he had a tendency to over-explain jokes when he thought they hadn't landed, and that he had apparently been watching you tap your pen against your notebook for far longer than you wanted to know.
You didn't know what his favourite place in the city was. You didn't know what he ordered when he wasn't trying to impress you. You didn't know what he did when he had a completely free afternoon. You didn't know what he looked like when he wasn't pretending to be confident. You learned those things over dinner.
You learned that he talked more when he was nervous, that he became embarrassingly enthusiastic whenever he talked about something he genuinely loved, and that the smile he usually wore around other people became softer when it was only the two of you.
Eventually, the conversation returned to the letter.
“I still can't believe you gave it forty-seven,” he said.
You laughed.
“You submitted the wrong assignment.”
“But you liked it.”
“That doesn't make it academically relevant.”
“You keep hiding behind the grading rubric.”
“Because the rubric is objective.”
“You gave me ninety-one.”
“Because your essay deserved ninety-one.”
“And the letter?”
You looked at him. He was smiling, but there was something hopeful underneath it. You reached across the table and took his hand. His fingers tightened around yours almost immediately.
“The letter,” you said, “was worth more than forty-seven.”
His smile disappeared for half a second, replaced by something softer.
“How much?”
You pretended to think about it.
“Maybe ninety-six.”
“Only ninety-six?”
“You're pushing it.”
“I thought I had extra credit.”
You laughed.
“You're impossible.”
“And yet you're here.”
You looked down at your joined hands.
“Yeah.”
The answer was quieter this time.
“I'm here.”
He squeezed your hand.
Neither of you spoke for a while after that, and you found that you didn't need to.
For months, everything between you had been hidden inside things that could be graded, corrected, revised, or submitted. Feelings had become comments in the margins. Flirting had become jokes disguised as questions. His confession had become a file uploaded to the wrong folder.
Now there was nothing left to hide behind. When he walked you home later that night, you stopped outside your door. He looked at you, then at the distance between you.
“Can I ask for one more thing?”
You smiled.
“You've already asked for a date.”
“I know.”
“You got the date.”
“I know.”
“So what now?”
He leaned slightly closer.
“Extra credit.”
You laughed softly.
“You're never going to let that go, are you?”
“Absolutely not.”
You looked at him for a moment, then closed the remaining distance yourself.
The kiss was gentle, almost hesitant at first, as though both of you were still waiting for someone to remind you that this wasn't allowed. There was no grading sheet between you, no university policy, no deadline, and no reason to pull away. When you finally did, Seungcheol was smiling.
“Was that enough?”
You pretended to consider it.
“Maybe.”
“Maybe?”
“You might need to submit another attempt.”
He laughed.
“I can do that.”
You shook your head, smiling as he leaned in again.
For once, you didn't need to grade him.
And perhaps that was the strangest part of all.
After spending an entire semester convincing yourself that you were the one evaluating him, you were finally beginning to understand that the moment you had opened that first letter, the person being tested had never really been Seungcheol at all.
It had been you. And, somehow, you had passed.
—
By the time the new semester began, the whole thing had started to feel strangely unreal.
Not the relationship itself. That part was surprisingly easy.
It was the memory of everything that had come before it that felt impossible sometimes, particularly when you remembered sitting alone in the TA office with a stack of final essays, opening Seungcheol's submission and finding Dear Y/N staring back at you from the top of the page. It had seemed like the beginning of an administrative disaster then, something you would eventually laugh about once enough time had passed.
You hadn't expected to be dating him a few weeks later.
You certainly hadn't expected him to become the person you now automatically looked for whenever you entered a crowded room.
And you hadn't expected him to still be obsessed with the concept of extra credit.
“You're thinking about me.”
You looked up from your laptop.
Seungcheol was sitting across from you at the library table, chin resting in his palm, wearing the most unbearably smug expression you had ever seen.
“I was thinking about work.”
“You were thinking about me while working.”
“No.”
“Yes.”
“You have absolutely no evidence.”
He smiled.
“You're smiling.”
You immediately stopped.
“I was not.”
“You were.”
You closed your laptop.
“I regret telling you anything.”
“You regret liking me.”
“I regret giving you that ninety-six.”
He laughed, leaning back in his chair.
“You still think I deserved ninety-six?”
“No.”
“What happened to the extra credit?”
“It expired.”
“That's not how extra credit works.”
“You don't know that.”
“I know enough.”
You shook your head, trying not to smile.
It had become like this almost immediately after your first date. The academic jokes had followed you out of the classroom, except now there was no longer any reason to hide behind them. Seungcheol could flirt with you without pretending he was asking about an assignment, and you could tease him without worrying about whether you were crossing a professional boundary.
There was something strangely freeing about that. You reached for your coffee. Seungcheol watched you over the edge of his laptop.
“You kept the letter, didn't you?”
You nearly choked.
“You ask me that every week.”
“Because you never answer.”
“I already answered.”
“You said you liked it.”
“I did.”
“That wasn't the question.”
You sighed.
“Yes.”
His smile appeared immediately.
“You actually kept it.”
“Obviously.”
“Where?”
“Somewhere safe.”
“Can I see it?”
“No.”
“Why?”
“Because it's embarrassing.”
“For you?”
“For both of us.”
He laughed quietly.
“I don't think I'll ever get over the fact that my first confession to you was submitted through the university grading portal.”
“You shouldn't.”
“It was romantic.”
“It was a clerical error.”
“It was fate.”
“It was poor file management.”
He grinned.
“You're never going to admit it was romantic, are you?”
You looked at him.
“No.”
“Fine.”
He returned to his laptop, apparently satisfied for the moment. You watched him for a few seconds before opening yours again. Your eyes drifted towards the folder sitting in the corner of your desktop.
You had never deleted it.
FINAL ASSESSMENT — SUBMISSION #47
Inside was the original grading record, the actual final essay, and the accidental letter that had somehow changed everything.
You opened the document. The old notes appeared exactly as you had left them.
CASE FILE #47STUDENT: Choi Seungcheol
INITIAL SUBMISSION: Incorrect
DOCUMENT RECEIVED: Personal correspondence
INITIAL GRADE: 47/100
STATUS: Pending revision
You scrolled down.
CORRECTED SUBMISSION: Received
FINAL ESSAY GRADE: 91/100
BEHAVIOURAL ASSESSMENT: Pending
You smiled.
There was something almost ridiculous about how seriously you had treated it all back then, as though assigning a case number to your feelings could make them easier to understand. You had tried to turn everything into something measurable because that was what you were good at. Essays had grades. Assignments had deadlines. Arguments had evidence. Problems had solutions.
Feelings were much less cooperative.
You scrolled further.
At the very bottom of the document, beneath all the official comments, you had eventually added one final note.
FINAL CASE REVIEW
Academic performance: Excellent.
Compliance with submission guidelines: Questionable.
Ability to follow instructions: Requires improvement.
Persistence: Excessive.
Argument quality: Surprisingly convincing.
Marker's personal bias: Significant.
Final assessment: Complicated.
You stared at the last line. Then you added another.
Case status: Closed.
You saved the document.
“Done?”
You looked up. Seungcheol was watching you.
“Yeah.”
“What were you doing?”
“Grading.”
His eyes narrowed.
“You're not grading me again, are you?”
“No.”
“Good.”
He closed his laptop and stood. You raised an eyebrow.
“Where are you going?”
“Home.”
“We're studying.”
“I've studied enough.”
“You've done nothing.”
“I've done plenty.”
“You've spent the last hour bothering me.”
“Exactly.”
You laughed, packing your things. He waited until you had finished before reaching for your bag.
“I can carry that.”
“I can carry my own bag.”
“I know.”
He took it anyway. You let him. It was such a small thing, but you still noticed it.
There had been so many moments like that since you started dating him, small things that had nothing to do with the dramatic confession that had started everything. He remembered your coffee order. He sent you messages when he knew you had a long day. He listened when you complained about assignments without immediately trying to make you feel better. He knew when you wanted advice and when you simply wanted someone to sit beside you.
The letter had been the beginning, but it wasn't what made you fall for him. That happened afterwards. It happened slowly, in all the ordinary moments.
Outside the library, the evening air was cool, and you walked beside him with your hands brushing occasionally.
“You know,” he said, “I still think I was robbed.”
“Of what?”
“My full marks.”
“You submitted the wrong document.”
“A passionate document.”
“A love letter.”
“An excellent love letter.”
“You're very proud of it.”
“I have reason to be.”
You smiled.
“You know what I think?”
“What?”
“I think the forty-seven was fair.”
He looked offended.
“After everything we've been through?”
“Yes.”
“That's cruel.”
“But…”
You paused.
He looked at you expectantly.
You smiled.
“I think the extra credit brought you up.”
His expression brightened.
“How much?”
You pretended to consider it.
“Enough.”
“That isn't a number.”
“You're not getting a number.”
“Come on.”
“No.”
“Y/N.”
You stopped walking.
He stopped too.
The street around you was quiet, university buildings glowing in the distance, and for a moment you were reminded of the first time he had said your name in that letter. Back then, seeing it written at the top of the page had made your heart race for reasons you hadn't wanted to understand.
Now, hearing him say it simply made you smile.
“What?” you asked.
“Nothing.”
He looked at you for a second, then smiled.
“I just like saying your name.”
You rolled your eyes.
“That was terrible.”
“It worked.”
“Barely.”
“Still counts.”
You shook your head, but you stepped closer anyway.
He leaned down and kissed you, gentle and familiar now, without the hesitation that had accompanied the first one. When you pulled away, he was smiling again.
“You know,” he said, “I think I deserve another chance at the final.”
“You already passed.”
“Barely?”
You smiled.
“With distinction.”
He laughed.
“Finally.”
You started walking again, his hand finding yours naturally.
The whole thing had started with a mistake.
A badly named file. A final essay that never existed. A letter that had been written with the intention of staying hidden and somehow ended up in exactly the wrong inbox.
You had spent weeks trying to classify it as an error, something that could be corrected and forgotten, but perhaps some mistakes were not meant to be fixed. Perhaps some were simply meant to lead you somewhere you hadn't expected to go.
Later that night, when you got home, you opened the old file one last time.
The letter was still there. You read it again, although you already knew every word.
At the bottom of the page, beneath Seungcheol's final sentence, you added one last comment.
Not as his TA. Not as his marker. Just as yourself.
FINAL GRADE: A+
You smiled and closed the document. A moment later, your phone buzzed.
Seungcheol: Did I finally get full marks?
You laughed.
You: Yes.
Three dots appeared almost immediately.
Seungcheol: Knew I could do it.
You shook your head.
You: Don't get cocky.
His reply came a few seconds later.
Seungcheol: Too late.
You smiled at the screen.
Then another message appeared.
Seungcheol: Love you.
You stared at it for a moment, warmth spreading through your chest in that familiar way that still surprised you sometimes.
You typed back.
You: Love you too.
There was no grading rubric for that.
No case file. No comments in the margins. No deadline.
>>>alpha cheol finding out his mate might be another alpha
𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 : 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭
pairing: c.sc / f!reader
summary: seungcheol shouldn’t have a crush on another alpha, but he can’t help the way he feels about you
word count: 4.6k
genre: a/b/o au (omegaverse) | coffee shop au | college au | alpha!seungcheol | sigma!reader | y/n used sparingly | foreplay | sex mentioned | intentional lowercase
rating: 18+, mdni, explicit
warnings: explicit language | drinking | suggestive
seungcheol couldn’t help that he liked y/n. he knew he was supposed to find some cute omega to be with, but he had yet to meet a single omega who set off every alpha sense he had the way y/n did.
he knew the moment he met her, when he walked into the coffee shop and the scent of sugared raspberries and apple mint slapped him in the face, that he wanted her as his mate - his full mate - all the fancy ceremonies, everything, no question - he wanted her to be his and for him to be hers.
he’d been meeting joshua there, and just standing in line had made him antsy because he knew the scent was hers, and the closer they got to the head of the line, the more nervous he was. he wasn’t sure that he had even really placed an order or if joshua had stepped in and saved him from being an absolute bumbling mess.
he hadn’t been able to think about anything else the rest of the day. even when he had finished his coffee in class, he practically growled at joshua for trying to throw away the cup - as long as her scent still lingered, he was keeping it. lying in bed that first night, seungcheol felt certain that he knew just how silky her hair would feel against his skin and how delicious she would taste.
the only problem he had was that he had never really had to try when it came to attracting omegas. they always seemed to find him. they all seemed to think it was cute that he smelled just a bit like cherries. he had never been out and been alone for any serious amount of time - there was always someone who wanted to sit in his lap. and he sometimes wondered if some of them didn’t keep a calendar of when his ruts were because they sometimes seemed to know before he did.
but no matter how many times he went to get coffee, y/n didn’t react the way he expected. she didn’t ask him to meet her in the bathroom or the breakroom or give him her number or any of the things he was used to. she knew his order and how to spell his name. she smiled when she said ‘hi,’ and sometimes she asked how his day was. she had called him cute once, when he wanted the mango lemon square thing they had and had tapped on the glass a little too much. but the only thing he could consider flirting were the little smiley faces or hearts she drew next to his name when she wrote it almost every morning. it was the tiniest gesture.
but he literally had a desk drawer overflowing with all of the cup sleeves she had written his name on. he could pull them out and stare at the progression from smiley faces to just a few with hearts to the return of smiley faces, and finally to only hearts. he definitely preferred the hearts. even if they were purely random - he wanted the little hearts.
really though, he wanted the girl drawing the hearts - he wanted to pull her over the counter and fuck her while everyone else waited in line until they were finished. privacy was his last concern some mornings when he was feeling particularly desperate for her attention.
⋆✴︎˚。⋆
it wasn’t until he was out with mingyu and whatever omega he was with that night, that seungcheol ever considered that y/n didn’t act like an omega because she wasn’t an omega.
seungcheol had seen y/n standing to the side, sipping a drink and talking to a friend. he watched her, jealous of everything from her friend to her drink straw. he couldn’t help that he loved seeing her out - he loved when she dressed in skirts that were just short enough for him to imagine hiking them up and pushing her panties to the side and eating her the way he wanted.
he heard the omega laugh, “why is he paying attention to her? she’s an alpha too.”
he had glanced at the omega, “who’s an alpha?”
she stared at him like he was an idiot before answering, “y/n - she’s an alpha - you know, as in useless to you, unless she’s down for bitching,” she smiled as she delivered the snide remark.
seungcheol stared for a moment, slightly shocked that she had even mentioned bitching, but still letting what she said wash over him.
mingyu, though, laughed nervously, “i think you need a drink,” and was immediately pulling the omega out of seungcheol’s range.
seungcheol stayed where he was, reeling from the random fact that had been dropped on him. he had never thought y/n might be an alpha, and even if she were, she was the sweetest smelling alpha he had ever met. he glanced up again, finding her quickly, despite the low light. he tried to see her differently, as in not the person he wanted to mark - he tried to make his mind see her as another alpha.
but even in the crush of alphas and omegas and all the scents that swirled around him, seungcheol could easily pick hers. he could follow it like a trail if he wanted. he was surprised to see her glance at him then. more surprising was the small smile she gave him and the way she held his gaze for a few moments before glancing back to her friend.
he realized quickly that he didn’t care if she was an alpha - he wanted who he wanted, especially when her gaze returned to him and lingered. he watched her finish her drink and leave her friend to get a new one. he got up too, following her to the bar. as he walked behind her, he tried to see what about her would make anyone think she was an alpha.
he had met female alphas, and they were like female omegas, some were hot, some were fun, some were annoying - females were females to him. especially beautiful ones with long hair that filled his dreams. he loved the way her hips swayed as she walked. he wished he could walk up behind her and slide his arm around her waist and nuzzle close to her - he wanted to scent her so no one else would even look at her the rest of the night, or tomorrow even if he did it right.
he stood next to her though. she glanced at him, and he watched her smile.
“hi, seungcheol,” she spoke just loud enough for him to hear her.
he smiled, “hi.”
she smiled again and picked up two drinks, “i only know your coffee order, so i took a guess,” she held a drink out to him.
it crossed his mind that an omega would never buy a drink for an alpha, not unless they were together. and even then. he took the drink, noticing the cherry and orange peel sitting on top of the cup - he wondered how he smelled to her, as he sipped the drink and it hit him, the drink - that was how he smelled to her. cognac, and bitters, and the slightest sweetness.
“good?” she asked, watching him.
he nodded, reaching out to let his fingers skim along her hip.
she bit her lip gently, “you aren’t like i thought you would be.”
he watched her and leaned closer, “how should i be?” he asked, letting his arm snake around her waist, pulling her closer.
she smiled - he watched the way her cheeks flushed, “um, just,” she paused, and he could feel her hand on his shoulder, “you kind of have a reputation,” she offered, her fingertips tracing along his shoulder.
“i do?” he asked, smiling - he knew exactly what she meant.
she nodded, humming positively in response.
“is it that bad?” he asked, tone more serious.
she shook her head, “i just didn’t think i would be buying you a drink, you know,” she whispered, her voice playful.
he realized how close he was holding her - how warm she was - how incredible she smelled and felt.
he leaned down, “come home with me?” he asked, not hesitating.
she turned, and she was so close to him then - he tried to take her in. but her eyes had gone a bit wider. he suddenly felt like he had said the wrong thing.
he blushed, “sorry,” he blurted out before she could answer him.
she bit back a laugh - he felt her fingers trace through his hair, “you’re so cute for me.”
he blushed harder, pouting - he was the loser between them - she was the hot one and he was the loser that everyone looked at with curiosity because ‘him with her?’
“not the bathroom?” she asked, her smile faded - he felt like she was teasing him, but she sounded game too.
he might have been getting hard, but it didn’t matter - he shook his head. maybe if she were someone else the bathroom would suffice, but she wasn’t someone else.
every surface in his apartment - yes, please, he would beg on his knees.
dirty club bathroom with stalls that locked only through thoughts and prayers - only if she wanted it there.
he barely felt the way her hand had slid between them, but he unquestionably felt the way she palmed him through his pants. it was like there was no one else besides them when she touched him - her perfect, slender fingers tracing along his cock, while she pressed a delicate kiss just beneath his jaw. he sighed, glancing and realizing they were still surrounded. he didn’t want anyone else around.
he reached down, catching her jaw gently before she made him groan like he was the one in heat, “not here, baby girl.”
she nodded, “so take me home, then.”
⋆✴︎˚。⋆
he kept his arm around her as they left together.
the issue that grew in his mind while they grabbed a cab to his, was the fact that he needed to remember everything about how it felt the first time they fucked. he wouldn’t be happy if there was a single moan he couldn’t recall the next day. that sentiment didn’t seem to stop him from playing with the hem of her skirt, pushing it just a little bit higher and then higher sill - he could smell how wet she was for him. he felt her hand catch his just as his fingertips swiped against the crotch of her panties.
“cute,” she whispered.
he grinned, “cute when i fuck you too, right?”
she kissed his cheek, “you want me too much right now for that,” she whispered.
“do i?” he pulled her hand closer to him, his fingers shifting to slot between hers.
she nodded, “you would have already done it if that were what you wanted with me,” she smiled, knowingly - she was so certain.
he pressed the tip of his tongue hard against the inside of his cheek. she wasn’t wrong, though.
even when they were in his apartment, he hesitated. she was in front of him, sitting on the countertop, he was between her legs - he could fuck her there - she was wet and needy. he wanted to fuck but couldn’t seem to get past how good it felt just to kiss her. or the way she tasted. or the idea of her in his bed and how good his sheets would smell.
she finally grabbed him, holding his cheeks gently, she stared at him for a moment, “you just want me next to you in bed, don’t you? and not to fuck, at least not tonight.”
he flushed brightly and couldn’t help but nod.
she whined softly, “fuck,” she whispered, sounding distraught, “i should go.”
he grabbed her before she could move, “why?”
“because, i kept telling myself you weren’t into me - that you’re just, you know, cute,” she trailed off.
he blinked slowly, “why wouldn’t i be? because you’re an alpha?”
she looked up at him, a shocked look on her face, “why do you think i’m an alpha?”
“someone told me”—
“that i’m an alpha?” she sounded even more confused the second time she asked.
he shrugged, “i mean you’ve never acted like other omegas around me.”
she sighed, “i’m guessing you’ve never met a sigma?”
he’d heard of sigmas - he knew they were rare, or he thought they were. he shook his head all the same.
“we don’t,” she sighed, “i like being chased - i like flirting with you, drawing little hearts and stuff, hoping you notice and like magically talk to me just because i daydream about you.”
he could feel her hand tracing along the center of his chest. “then why would you leave when i’m saying i noticed?”
“because i’m not what you think i am,” she said, sounding uncertain. “besides, i’m way braver when i’ve been drinking,” she whispered, glancing at him shyly.
he watched her, realizing he was maybe wrong - she turned him into a dork, and he made her shy, at least when she was sobering up. he, on the other hand, was hopeless either way.
he pressed closer, not wanting any distance between them, “so stay the night,” he kissed her cheek, “at least let me scent you so no one else talks to you.”
she seemed more uncertain than he was comfortable with.
“please don’t make me spell out how long i’ve been waiting,” he whispered.
“you just admitted you want to scent me,” she said, smiling.
he shrugged, “because i do.”
she leaned against him, “can i shower? borrow clothes?”
he tried to be calm, “yeah, of course.”
he wondered if she could feel how fast his heart was beating.
⋆✴︎˚。⋆
he tried not to think about her naked in his bathroom and checked his phone instead. his gc had exploded - all questions for him - down to “who’s top?”
he rolled his eyes, not in the mood for his friends. food, though, he could eat.
he was scrolling menus when the door opened. he hated that he was too engrossed in a burger menu to look up, but he was happy when she sat next to him. he had never been around her when her scent wasn’t blended with other things, coffee, other people’s.
he gave her his phone, asking for her to pick while he nuzzled against her throat. she gasped softly when he couldn’t resist pressing his teeth against her skin. he didn’t mark her, but he wanted her to know how he felt. how it would feel.
“are you dying for a burger?”
“no,” he mumbled.
he knew she had placed an order when he felt both of her hands on him. they made out for a few minutes, but he pulled back - he checked his phone and saw the delivery time.
“i should shower, too.”
but he looked down to see her in his t-shirt and boxers. he bit his lip lightly, glancing up at her.
she just smiled.
“do sigmas nest?”
she laughed, “it’s not that time for me,” she answered, still smiling.
“still.” he ran his hands along her sides and down her hips. “i like that you’re in my apartment - in my room - in my bed…” he trailed off, running his thumbs over the waistband of the boxers. “and now you’re only dressed in my clothes.”
she gave him a light push, “go shower - it’s not like you’re going to let me open the door to some stranger.”
he imagined for a moment if she were wearing more clothes and shook his head, “nope, but seriously, make my bed smell like you, please?” he asked, raising his brows and letting his lower lip just out in an exaggerated pout.
“you really are this cute, aren’t you?”
he nodded - his face quickly working into a grin, “and possessive.”
she hummed, “i did get that impression.”
he smiled, leaning down to kiss her again - soft, chaste, just enough.
she caught his shirt lightly before he pulled away, “i liked when we were in the cab though, what you were doing with my underwear - you know, before i’m too embarrassed to tell you,” she murmured.
he watched her blush as she said it - he nodded, wondering how the stars had managed to align just right for this moment to even occur. he never wanted her to be embarrassed to tell him what she liked, but that wasn’t something he could address before their food showed up.
⋆✴︎˚。⋆ ⋆✴︎˚。⋆
y/n woke up slowly, her head hurting a bit from drinking the night before. she knew before she opened her eyes that she wasn’t in her apartment.
she also knew that she wasn’t alone. she bit her lip softly, remembering the night before. she didn’t really need to go through what she remembered - she knew his scent much better than she should. she knew exactly what alpha she had been drunk enough to talk to and go home with.
but they hadn’t had sex, which was maybe concerning. everything she knew about seungcheol largely revolved around the fact that he loved omega pussy and wasn’t shy about it.
but, she reminded herself once again, she wasn’t an omega. so why would an alpha who so clearly loved omegas ever pay attention to her, she wondered, even as she was lying in bed with him. his scent swirling gently in the air.
she had noticed it the night before, that his apartment only smelled like him. there wasn’t a trace of anyone else, which was difficult for almost anyone to maintain. she hadn’t smelled any of his friends’ scents that she knew from the coffee shop, and definitely not the scents of omegas she had seen him with.
it was literally just his scent. and now a tiny bit of hers.
she had been slightly shocked that he asked her if she nested. it was always uncomfortable to be slightly different, especially when anyone noticed. but he hadn’t been asking in the tone that people usually asked either - he asked as though he wanted her to nest exactly where she was…in his bed.
she sighed and felt him press closer, “you okay?” he mumbled, his voice thick with sleep.
she nodded, even though she felt her heart start to race. she never went home with alphas. she never invited them to her apartment either. she’d also never met an alpha who so clearly wanted to fuck and then backed out because he wanted to be close to her even more.
which, in all fairness, seungcheol seemed completely happy with being close. he wanted to be holding her or pressed against her, even when they had first talked in the club, he was so quick to pull her close. not to mention, he’d seemed beyond annoyed to have to leave her the night before even to answer the door.
she felt him shift - she felt his soft lips press gently to her neck.
“what’s wrong?” he asked, voice still low and soft.
she felt his lips shift a bit lower - she couldn’t help moving to the side, giving him the room he clearly wanted. she felt the gentle, teasing kisses and bites.
when he was satisfied, he leaned up so he could see her. she was used to seeing him look tired, it was part of why she ever went so far as to ask him how his day was - she always felt bad for him when he looked exhausted.
seeing him look tired and have him be so close though, was - she wasn’t sure, exactly, but her hands seemed to have a mind of their own. she watched them reach up and smooth his unruly black hair. she wanted to lull him back to sleep while she thought…or maybe she could find something to clean anxiously while he slept for at least three days.
he leaned down, his lips pressing softly to hers. she loved how he felt, how warm and plush his lips were. his kisses were gentle and unhurried. she felt his fingers trace through her hair - he was clearly in no rush whatsoever.
he broke the kiss though, his forehead pressing gently to hers, “please tell me if i did something?” he whined softly.
he hadn’t done anything. she smoothed his hair, and shook her head, “you didn’t,” she whispered.
he hummed to himself, “then why do you feel nervous?” he asked as his fingers traced along the neckline of the t-shirt she was wearing, making the lightest contact with her skin.
she flushed, wondering why he put such a fine point on things.
“i’m not,” she lied.
he groaned, “even if you weren’t shifting around and wiggling and making little sounds, you’re right next to me, and everything about you feels anxious,” he was watching her now. his gaze was soft and curious.
“even your scent is different,” he whispered, his fingertips traced along her jaw. she wished he didn’t sound quiet so concerned.
she wanted to shrug him off - she wanted to say he was just hungover and there was nothing to sense, least of all from her.
but she knew what he meant, he meant he could feel her - as in the way alphas felt their mates and their mates could feel them, and that however it started between them, however intense it was, it would only increase if they bonded fully.
she never thought she would meet an alpha who could feel what she was feeling, much less sound anything resembling worried.
he was still watching her, waiting patiently for some explanation. she fumbled for the right words. and wondered why it had been so much easier when she had had several drinks.
she wanted to ask him why on earth he would want to even scent her out of all his options, but she had known for months - not ‘why’ so much, but that he did for reasons that she couldn’t fathom.
⋆✴︎˚。⋆
she had realized the moment she swapped back from drawing little hearts around his name to just a smiley face - he had looked like she slapped him when he grabbed his coffee. worse he looked like he wanted an answer regarding the change to his cup sleeve doodles, or at least to lodge a complaint with the offending party, aka her.
she had the tiniest urge to hide in the employee bathroom or under the counter. she didn’t care which - she never thought a change to her doodles could maybe ruin his day a little bit.
she had wondered if he would say something about it. she had imagined him cornering her and asking ‘why?’ in a very stern voice - but he hadn’t. instead, he looked like he was buffering for almost an hour, but he left like normal.
and then the next time she saw him, he was sheepish and reserved - all beacuse of the missing little hearts. she had felt bad almost immediately - she knew she had bothered him, but not so much that his personality changed.
she had drawn lots of hearts that day to make up for the missing ones. and when he got his coffee - it was like she had aligned the planets just for him. he looked happy and almost smug when he grabbed his drink.
once upon a time, she normally doodled things for almost everyone’s drink, but that was before she met him, and she slowly noticed that her doodles were more and more unconsciously reserved for seungcheol’s coffee cup and no one else’s.
it helped that he was a regular and came in virtually every day - so all of her doodling could be seungcheol focused. sometimes there were happy hearts and sometimes they were surrounded by clouds - but they were just for him.
she had only gone slightly red in the face when her co-worker asked her why “lover boy” got all of her drawings.
she had shrugged, “he’s cute,” she said simply.
“yeah, who doesn’t love alphas like that?” she had gone on, “you know the type that always let omegas help them through their ruts but are nowhere to be found when an omega needs help, but that’s just me,” she had finished, her tone harsh.
y/n didn’t really have any thoughts, since she had never considered asking an alpha to help her through her heats. in her mind, it was way too personal of a thing. the sheer idea of seungcheol and his cute dimples seeing her at her most vulnerable and horniest state was far and away the last condition she would want him to see her in.
besides, all she did was draw cute things that he seemed to like. it wasn’t like she was chasing him down or something.
⋆✴︎˚。⋆
but here she was, in seungcheol’s room, in his bed, no less. she felt his weight pressing down against her, keeping her still. she savored the feeling.
he was still playing with her hair. his gaze had shifted. she was used to seeing his profile. she loved the shape of his lips.
she had no idea how long they had been this way, but she was fairly certain he wasn’t going to let her get out of this so easily. he was heavier than her for starters.
she considered distracting him. but she knew the truth was easier.
she sighed, “why do—” she paused, “why do even pay attention to me?” she asked timidly.
he glanced at her, his large eyes, only getting larger. he looked puzzled by the question. he was stuck in his buffering mode again.
“because, i just do - the first time i met you, i’ve never felt so…certain,” his cheeks brightened to a gentle shade of pink.
“there’s other people—,” she started.
he shook his head emphatically, “no, there’s not - there’s just you,” he said with complete certainty, still playing with her hair.
he finally glanced at her, his gaze was soft, “i’m serious - there’s no one else - check my phone - ask my friends, whatever you want,” his voice was more serious.
she shook her head, “i don’t mean,” she sighed, “i’m trying to ask why do you seem so set on me? i’m not brave, i barely manage to flirt with you even,” she could feel her face brightening as she spoke.
but before she could continue, she felt him kiss her. it was a much longer kiss than she expected. she thought it would be quick, just to shush her. but no, it was mellow and sweet, and his taste lingered on her tongue when they parted.
he stared down at her, his embarrassment gone, “because i can feel you from across the room - just like i know you’re anxious now, i know when your grumpy in the morning, and i just want to make you feel better, reassure you,” he whispered, kissing her again, “do anything for you,” his lips traced along her jaw.
she hugged him close, feeling the immensity of what he had said. it was romantic and very, very old-world to think about finding a soulmate based on scents and innate connections. it was the kind of thing that reminded her of her great-great grandmother sitting and telling her her soulmate fortune by reading the tea leaves left in her cup one afternoon.
she traced her fingers along his back, loving how smooth and firm his muscles were - she knew he enjoyed the way it felt. she didn’t need to ask him. just like she didn’t need to ask him about drinks or what food he was craving.
she was used to ignoring the sigma part of herself. but she took pleasure in feeling him relax against her. she tried to remember what her soulmate fortune had been, but she could only remember that she thought it was all a bit fake. she nuzzled closer to him and fell asleep.
a/n: tbh i had more planned for them , but i think finding each other works, and they're sexy and i got to use a banner i made like a year ago, so win-win
andddd i couldn't resist actually posting on his bday (still 08.08 in eastern time)
fr hope it was a fun read, especially if omegaverse isn't something you usually click into ^^
>>> the one where a fire alarm gets you a date and then some
fic navigation: master list [ ur here ] | part 1 | part 2
pairing: c.sc / f!reader
summary: it starts with some toast on fire, and turns into a date and maybe the love of your life - OR - you’re an over-tired corporate worker who meets a handsome firefighter who makes you realize that there might be more to life than jumping through every hoop work gives you
teaser below [500 words | includes explicit language] ⤵︎
word count: ~45k (fic + epilogue)
genre tags: alternate universe - modern world | non-idol-au | firefighter!cheol | soft!cheol | corporate girlie!reader | slice of life | meet-cute | romance | idiots in love | eventual smut (see warnings) | domestic af | hurt/comfort | hospitals (no one dies) | pov swaps | plot with porn | slight angst | found family | reader hates dating apps | reader has stressful job | sort of svt fire station | semi-text chat | Kkuma included |
𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝟏𝟖+, 𝐦𝐝𝐧𝐢, 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭
Part One : posts 08.08, approx. 20k
Part Two : posts 08.15, approx. 15k
Epilogue : posts 08.15, approx. 10k
𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐫
“So, did she call?” Mingyu asked. He was sitting across from Seungcheol and already halfway through his food somehow.
They’d barely sat down - and already with the question.
Seungcheol groaned. “Stop asking,” he muttered, digging into his chili and regreting that he’d told Mingyu anything. “And stop blabbing about it.” He shook his head, knowing his friend was a loudmouth. Unintentionally, usually, but still.
Besides, he didn’t want to talk about the girl in the Mets hat. And he didn’t want everyone in the station to know. All he needed was Soonyoung to find out…then the gc.
He just wanted to eat his lunch.
His shift was almost over, and then he had two days off to crash and game and - shit - pick up dry cleaning because one of their friends had the nerve to get married and he needed a suit.
Fuck - he’d definitely forgotten the wedding thing…maybe because of the girl in the Mets hat. It wasn’t the only false alarm they’d gotten in the last few days, but watching her walk out every version of ‘I’m-just-a-girl’ was entertaining, especially when she’d given him a new rank and title.
He’d not mentioned that part. He knew Mingyu, and ‘Lance Corporal Choi’ would have become a nickname way too quickly - he’d have to be reassigned to a station on the East Coast for it to maybe end.
Why he’d even told Mingyu at all was a mystery - Mingyu was too positive to share things like that with.
Besides, Seungcheol hadn’t given her his number because he was on duty and responding to a call, and that would definitely have looked weird. Plus, she was totally out of his league.
Someone living in Echo Park was not calling him.
He’d already made peace with that fact.
Now he just needed Mingyu to do the same.
“Look,” he started as he ate, “be more helpful and ask me whether I picked up my suit for the wedding thing, okay?”
“Did you?” Mingyu asked flatly.
“No - I mean like ask me tomorrow when I’m off.”
“So be your reminder?” Mingyu asked, brows arched.
Seungcheol shrugged. “More helpful than asking me about whether some random girl calls the station,” Seungcheol said as he ate.
Mingyu sighed. “Dude - save these requests for Mets Girl, or - just hear me out - there are these things on your phone called apps…and there’s one called ‘reminders’ – boom – mind-blowing shit, right?” Mingyu asked with an annoyingly condescending smirk.
Seungcheol rolled his eyes and gave Mingyu the finger. “Such a prick,” he mumbled as he finished his lunch and started to leave the table.
“But a prick with a date to Jeonghan’s wedding,” Mingyu added, still smirking…like a prick.
Suddenly, Seungcheol was glad they were on alternating shifts because it was that kind of comment that really annoyed him. What did it matter if he went stag? His life wasn’t over because he hadn’t asked anyone.
a/n: yessssss i have been super active the seungcheol tags, ik ik - he's my main bias in svt and i've been very cheol-brained lately - everything is cheol...pardon, pardon but also this is one of my fist like planned very long fics on tumblr and i'm really excited to share it
You and Mingyu are childhood friends and two self‑aware comic characters that are forced into clichéd romcom roles you both hate. On the page, he’s the perfect jock and you’re the villainess; off the page, you’re a nerd–queen duo secretly in love. Fed up with scripted drama and unwanted love triangles, you rebel, glitching the comic as the Writer fights to force you back into place. What follows isn’t a romcom but a battle for agency, freedom, and the right to choose each other.
PAIRINGS | Kim Mingyu x F. Reader
GENRE | romantic comedy, smut, angst, drama, childhood friends to lovers, meta, breaking the fourth wall(?)
CONTENT/WARNINGS | non-idols au, swearing, comedy, self-aware characters, verbal jabs, reader is a bully but she can't help it because that's how her character is written, punching and grabbing narration boxes, forced scripted “scenes” (comic scenes), miscommunication, yearning, kissing, caressing, unprotective sex (wrap it up folks), shower sex, oral sex, hair grabbing
AUTHOR’S NOTE | She's finally doneeeeee! This fic is for the SVTFLIX collab hosted by @100vern. It's loosely inspired by the k-drama Extra-Ordinary You and I had soooo much fun writing this 💚. Thank you @livmarauder for reading a portion of this and hyping me up as I write this and thank you @lovetaroandtaemin for reading the whole thing when I thought I was going crazy that my ending was rushed. Maybe we'll have a part 2???
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PANEL 1 — WIDE SHOT: CAMPUS QUAD, GOLDEN HOUR.
Students stroll across the lawn in perfect symmetry. Cherry blossoms drift in slow motion. A sparkly pink narration box hovers above the scene like a smug cloud.
NARRATION: Springtime at Carat University, where love blooms, hearts flutter, and destiny awaits...
PANEL 2 — CLOSE ON YOU
You’re standing dead center, holding a coffee. You stare directly at the narration box with the expression of someone who's been dealing with this for far too long.
“Don’t you dare,” you warn it.
The narration box flickers.
NARRATION: ...and the villainess plots her next—
“NOPE,” you snap, grabbing the box mid‑air like it’s a misbehaving balloon. “We talked about this. No villain monologues before 9 a.m.” You fold the narration box until it is the approximate dimensions of a post-it note and shove it into your pocket.
The rest of the campus, meanwhile, bustles around you like nothing happened. Like it never happens. Like there isn't a floating narration box following you from birth and plotting your eventual fall from grace. You really should start looking into those therapy services offered by the mental health office. You know they can't help you with "being narrated since birth," but it's probably the next best thing, right?
Anyway, it's spring and, frankly, you're very tired.
You, Y/N, are the notorious campus queen: the stunning daughter of an affluent political family and the presumed villainous antagonistic force in Kim Mingyu's, your childhood friend, star-crossed love story. For three volumes and counting, you, Mingyu and Lee Ara have fallen into a rhythmic dance of misunderstandings, relationship dramas, and flashy battles all leading to one, inevitable conclusion: Mingyu and Ara will fall in love and live happily ever after.
Or that's how it's supposed to work.
Except none of that happens in the shadows, the white spaces that the Writer's pen never quite fills in. Those are the places where characters come to life in ways even the omnipotent Writer can't see coming. Like when Mingyu saved you from a car last spring. Or that night you snuck into the school pool together and splashed around instead of studying. When it was just the two of you, when no one could see, no one was writing. When everything seemed perfectly scripted without a script.
In those moments, when the narration box couldn't reach you, nothing else seemed quite as important as his smile.
Until the next scene began, that was.
You don't remember when you and Mingyu became aware of the fact that none of this was real. You always thought that you were losing your memory, wondering how you ended up at home when you were just in class seconds ago, how so much time seemed to pass without your realizing it. It didn't click until you were aimlessly roaming the school halls one afternoon and noticed the air fluttering unnaturally around you, things moving floating out of place in the corner of your vision and an unsettling feeling of something. A presence? A monster? A force beyond your knowing and naming trying to reach out to you.
When you talked to people, they'd be confused or dismissive, thinking you're joking. And when you'd ask them again some time later, they wouldn't know what you meant and keep repeating the same responses over and over, no matter how many times you would try and ask, hoping it'd finally ilicit a different response.
Finally, you tried talking to Mingyu about what was happening to you, only to find Mingyu was feeling exactly the same way. That things were happening without his express conscious will, and he felt the presence of something vaguely sinister outside of his direct sphere.
That's when you both realized the absurd, nonsensical reality that you're living in a webtoon, in a narrative world crafted by someone who felt very little need or concern for either of your agency. That something, a presence beyond human knowledge and imagination, was dictating and guiding you along towards an end goal: an inevitable romance between Kim Mingyu, the male lead, and Lee Ara, the female lead, and you're left to be the evil side character who had to be defeated for Mingyu and Ara to obtain their Happy Ever After.
Which sucks ass because you really like Mingyu. Maybe even a little too much. And you know, deep down, that the feeling is mutual. The Writer might make you do whatever she wants to further the plot, like flirt with Mingyu against your will during scripted love tropes. But whenever the writer isn't actively intervening, you get to be just you and Mingyu, and not the fictional, plot-dictated versions of you two that are forced together by the writer. You wonder sometimes, if it wasn't for this damned world, if you'd be happily dating each other.
You feel the narration box wriggling in your pocket, desperate to escape and comment. To announce loudly, obviously that you'll do whatever you can to disrupt Kim Mingyu and Lee Ara from meeting, but ultimately end up helping the course of fate along because the Writer makes it so. Because the narrative demands a twist at the very last second, and Kim Mingyu can't end up with you.
With a sigh, you take the now much smaller narration box out and unfold it, letting its words be absorbed back into reality:
NARRATION: ...and the villainess plots her next loser plan to keep our golden boy and pure maiden away from each other.
"I fucking hate you," you mutter under your breath.
Just then, a slim figure rounds the corner: Lee Ara in all of her oblivious perfection, wearing a fluffy dress that no college student would survive in, looking very much like she is running towards you.
PANEL 3 — BUST SHOT: YOU, GLOWERING.
Your lips curl up into your default, scheming smile. You really wish it didn't feel so natural.
PANEL 4 — EXTREME CLOSE UP ON LEE ARA.
Her hair blows dramatically out of the way as she stares determinedly ahead like this isn't a typical, daily interaction for the two of you. You can't tell if it's supposed to look brave or goofy, but it sure isn't intimidating.
"Ara, you look absolutely stunning today," you feel your eye twitch as the words leave your mouth, words you didn't choose, didn't want to say, words that materialized on your tongue like someone else is operating your vocal cords.
Which, technically, someone was.
Ara blinks up at you with those impossibly wide doe eyes. "Oh! Um, thank you? That's... really nice of you to say."
No, it fucking isn't, you thought viciously, even as your face arranges itself into what you know is a calculated, mean-girl smirk.
"I just wanted to say," your mouth continues without your permission, and you feel the familiar horror of a scripted scene taking over, "that dress is so brave. Not everyone could pull off that... particular shade of yellow."
There it is. The backhanded compliment. Right on schedule.
Ara's face falls slightly, and you want to scream. You helped her pick out that dress last week during your actual, off-page friendship that the Writer conveniently ignores. You told her the sunshine yellow made her look like bottled happiness.
"Oh," Ara says softly. "I... thank you?"
"If you like looking like you're blocking traffic, then feel free to keep wearing it," you snort and then the scene releases you like a puppet with cut strings, and you immediately grab Ara's arm. "Wait, that came out wrong—"
PANEL 5 — ARA TURNS.
She's already walking away, and you know why. The Writer has got what they wanted: another moment of you being terrible to the heroine. Another panel of the villainess doing villainess things.
You stand there in the middle of the quad, students flowing around you like water around a stone, and contemplate the very real possibility of screaming until your throat bleeds.
"Rough scene?"
You don't have to turn around to know who it is. You recognize that voice anywhere. It's the voice that makes your stomach do complicated acrobatic routines, the one that belongs to your best friend since childhood, the one that's supposed to fall in love with Ara and definitely not with you.
"Mingyu," you say, turning to face him. "I just told Ara her dress makes her look like a jaundiced traffic cone. How do you think it went?"
Mingyu winces, adjusting his backpack on his shoulder. He's wearing his usual off-scene outfit: an oversized hoodie that's seen better days, glasses slightly askew, hair unstyled and falling into his eyes. He looks nothing like the chiseled, perfectly-coiffed golden boy who appeared in the actual comic panels.
"Ouch," he says. "Did you at least get to apologize before the scene ended?"
"Tried. She walked away. The Writer probably needed her to be sad for the next panel where you comfort her and she realizes she has feelings for you for the millionth time," you make a gagging noise. "I hate this. I hate all of this."
"I know," Mingyu falls into step beside you as you start walking toward your next class. "I had a scene this morning where I had to flex at the gym for fifteen minutes while Ara watched from the doorway. Fifteen minutes, Y/N. Do you know how long fifteen minutes of flexing is?"
Despite everything, you snort. "Did you at least get a good pump?"
"I got a cramp in my left bicep and the overwhelming desire to go home and read my economics textbook," he pauses. "Which I did, by the way. Chapter twelve is fascinating. Did you know that—"
"Mingyu, I love you, but if you start explaining supply and demand curves right now, I will push you into that trash can."
The words hung in the air for a moment. I love you. You said it all the time, had said it for years, best friends who'd grown up together and know each other's every secret.
But lately, the words felt heavier.
Mingyu's ears turned red, they always did when you said it, even casually, and he clears his throat. "Right. No economics. Got it."
You reach your classroom and stop, turning to face him fully. He's tall, he'd always been tall, but he hunches slightly, like he's trying to take up less space. It's such a contrast to his on-page persona, where he stands with the confidence of someone who'd never doubted himself a day in his life.
"Same time tonight?" you ask. "My place? We can finish studying for that chem mid."
His face splits into a grin, a wide, boyish one that makes his glasses slide down to the tip of his nose. "Definitely," he agrees. "Maybe without the interruption this time."
PANEL 6 — ARA WALKING TOWARDS MINGYU
"And here I go," you mutter, "back to fading into the background so these two can have their meet-cute."
"I'm really sorry," Mingyu says again, "and I know that doesn't mean anything. I hope I can—"
NARRATION: ...Kim Mingyu notices his true love standing alone in the corner, a beautiful flower ready to bloom into...
"You changed into your jock gear," you note, sounding unimpressed, as Mingyu looks down and realizes that yes, he's wearing the clothes his character usually wears to work out instead of the sweater he wore before.
"Fuck," he sighs, "Here I go, I guess."
"You want me to text you after?" you ask him.
He nods, giving you a strained smile, and says, "Please."
PANEL 7 — SLOW ZOOM-IN ON ARA'S FLAWLESS SKIN AS SHE LOOKS UP AND ATTENDS MINGYU'S DAZZLING SMILE, HEARTS POPPING AROUND HER AS WE DRAMATICALLY FOCUS IN ON MINGYU.
"Ara! Just the girl I wanted to see."
You let out a long sigh, before turning away from the pair. Your story might be stuck in this linear route, but you really don't have to stick around and watch the love of your life play his part in this tale.
PANEL 8 — Y/N WALKS AWAY, SHOULDERS HUNCHED, BACKGROUND BLURRING INTO SOFT PASTELS AS THE ROMANTIC SCENE CONTINUES BEHIND HER
Each step away feels like wading through honey. You can hear Ara's delighted laugh behind you, that genuine, sweet sound that makes you hate yourself for being scripted to hurt her. You can hear Mingyu's voice doing that thing: that confident, flirty thing that isn't him at all.
The real Mingyu stutters when he's nervous. The real Mingyu talks about economic theory at 2AM and falls asleep with his glasses on.
But the Writer doesn't care about the real Mingyu.
PANEL 9 — CLOSE-UP ON Y/N'S FACE, EXPRESSION CAREFULLY NEUTRAL, BUT EYES BETRAYING PAIN
NARRATION: Meanwhile, the villainess retreats to lick her wounds, knowing she can never compete with—
"Oh, fuck off," you snap, reaching up to grab the narration box again. It's vibrating indignantly, trying to narrate your heartbreak into something convenient for the plot.
You squeeze it harder.
"You don't get to narrate this. This part is mine."
You track down Jeon Wonwoo, the webtoon's dark, brooding second male lead, in the library—specifically, on one of the beanbag chairs near the back. Wonwoo's sprawled out like an overly pretentious Renaissance statue, head titled to the sky, eyes closed, reading glasses perched low on the bridge of his nose, a heavy, glossy book perched precariously on his chest.
"What happened this time?" He mumbles. "Faded into the back like usual before the scene started?"
Wonwoo became self-aware just like you and Mingyu; about five episodes ago. And also like you and Mingyu, he didn't come into his new reality prepared. He hadn't realized it at first. He was too busy brooding and contemplating life's meaning, so it wasn't until he was speaking to Mingyu about his memory blackouts. That was when Mingyu called you over, and the three of you had had the worst meeting you could've imagined.
Wonwoo wasn't particularly enthused to find out he was a love interest. He wasn't really interested in the romantic side of things in general. Not when he was made out to be the mysterious, dark bad boy who sulks in corners, glares at people, and spends too much money on poetry books that aren't actually worth their cost.
"Fuck me," you drop yourself into the bean bag beside him, throwing your backpack across the table and letting out the loudest, most exasperated sigh of frustration known to mankind.
"You can let Mingyu do that once he's back in the shadows," Wonwoo chuckles softly as he flips a page of the book.
"And then what will happen when we have sex and a scene between him and Ara happens?" You glare at him. "He vanishes from my bed, to confess to a woman he doesn't even like? You want that to happen? I sure as hell don't."
"Then don't have sex." Wonwoo doesn't look up from his book.
"...That's your answer?"
"Don't have sex and become canon."
"I..." you let out an incredulous laugh, reaching for the nearest object near you to throw. You grab a discarded highlighter and throw it at his forehead, causing him to shut his book and finally glance over at you. "If only it were that easy, asshole."
"Can I go back to my book, or have you finally broken?" Wonwoo looks bored out of his mind as he speaks.
"We're talking about my and Mingyu's relationship. Mingyu and mine's. I hate being the villain. I'm the most popular fucking girl on campus. I'm nice to everyone, and I somehow still get treated like an evil piece of shit when a scene starts." You kick your leg up for dramatic effect, which causes a few students around you to shift uncomfortably. "This is bullshit!"
Wonwoo picks up the highlighter you threw at him and examines it like it's a particularly uninteresting specimen. "You done?"
"No, I'm not—"
"Good. Because you're making a scene, and the last thing either of us needs is to trigger another scripted moment." He tosses the highlighter back to you. "Go study with your boyfriend. At least off-page you can pretend you have free will."
You catch the highlighter reflexively, your anger deflating into something closer to exhaustion. He's right, of course. He's always right in the most infuriating way possible.
"He's not my boyfriend," you mutter, but it sounds hollow even to your own ears.
"Semantics." Wonwoo reopens his book. "Now get out of here before the Writer decides we're having a moment and I have to brood attractively at you."
Your apartment is blessedly, perfectly normal.
No cherry blossoms. No golden hour lighting. No background music swelling as you open the door. Just your slightly messy living room with Mingyu already sprawled on your couch, his laptop open, surrounded by a frankly alarming number of economics textbooks.
He's wearing his glasses, the ones that never appear on-page because apparently the Writer thinks they make him look "too nerdy" for a male lead. His hair is unstyled, falling into his eyes. He's wearing a hoodie that's two sizes too big and sweatpants with a hole in the knee.
This is the real Kim Mingyu.
"You're late," he says without looking up from his screen, but there's no accusation in his voice. Just familiarity.
"Wonwoo was being useless." You drop your bag by the door and collapse onto the couch next to him, close enough that your thigh presses against his. "How was the rest of your day? Did the Writer make you do anything else humiliating?"
"Define humiliating." Mingyu finally glances at you, and his expression softens. "I had to carry Ara's books to her next class. My hands were full, so I couldn't even text you to complain about it in real-time."
"Tragic."
"It really was." He shifts his laptop to the coffee table and turns to face you properly. "She kept talking about how strong I must be. I'm not even that strong. I'm just tall. There's a difference."
You can't help but smile. "You're a little strong."
"I have the upper body strength of a particularly determined pool noodle." He pushes his glasses up his nose, a nervous habit he's had since you were kids. "How was your scene with her? The dress thing?"
Your smile fades. "I told her she looked like a sad banana."
"You didn't—"
"I did. Well, the Writer did. Through my mouth." You lean your head back against the couch, staring at the ceiling. "We picked out that dress together last weekend. She was so excited about it. And then I had to stand there and watch my own mouth form words about how it washed her out."
Mingyu is quiet for a moment. Then his hand finds yours, fingers interlacing with a practiced ease that comes from years of this, this thing between you that has no name because the Writer won't allow it one.
"I'm sorry," he says quietly.
"Not your fault."
"Still sorry."
This is what you love about him. Not the on-page version with the perfect smile and the athletic build and the confident swagger. This Mingyu, who apologizes for things he can't control and stutters when he's nervous and gets genuinely excited about fiscal policy.
This Mingyu, who has held your hand through every forced scene and every narrative violation and every moment where you've both felt like puppets with cut strings.
"Did you finish the problem sets?" you ask, because if you keep thinking about how much you love him, you might do something stupid. Like kiss him. And if you kiss him off-page, there's no telling what the Writer might do to punish you for it.
"Most of them." He reaches for his laptop again, but doesn't let go of your hand. "I got stuck on number seven. The one about market equilibrium."
"Let me see."
You spend the next two hours like this, working through economics problems, your head eventually finding its way to his shoulder, his thumb tracing absent patterns on your knuckles. He explains supply curves with the kind of enthusiasm most people reserve for their favorite movies. You argue about elasticity and make him laugh so hard he snorts.
No narration box appears to comment on the "comfortable silence" or the "unspoken tension." No background music swells. No cherry blossoms drift past your window.
It's just you and Mingyu, existing in the spaces between the story.
"I wish it could always be like this," you murmur at some point, when the sky outside has gone dark and you've both abandoned any pretense of studying.
Mingyu's arm is around your shoulders now. You're not sure when that happened, but it feels right. Natural. Like this is how you're supposed to fit together.
"Me too," he says, pressing a light, half-awake kiss against the crown of your head. "Just like this."
You lean into his warmth, your eyelids fluttering closed as you memorize the weight and shape of his arm against you, his head resting against yours, the steadiness of his breathing as he begins to drift off. You memorize it all.
You memorize every last detail.
Because when you open your eyes, you're alone again.
PANEL 1 — MEDIUM CLOSE-UP ON KIM MINGYU, RUNNING ON A TREADMILL AND CONSIDERING THE THOUGHTS IN HIS GORGEOUS HANDSOME BRAIN
"Damn," Mingyu mutters as he treads, "I can't even sleep peacefully on the couch with the woman I'm hopelessly in love with."
PANEL 2 — WONWOO, EXHAUSTED AND DEBATING LEAVING MINGYU TRAINING TO WALLOW IN HIS MELANCHOLY MUSINGS BY HIMSELF
"I fucking hate my life." Wonwoo groans out his displeasure. He wonders how much trouble he'd get in if he "accidentally" hit the speed button and watches Mingyu flail off the treadmill.
NARRATION: Back on campus, the handsome male lead dwells on the true love he so sorely misses.
Mingyu grabs the narration box and flings it into the nearest corner of the gym, where it blinks weakly and powers itself off to spare itself any further humiliation.
"You done?" Wonwoo asks, the picture of composure and zen.
"No, I'm still fucking pissed off!" Mingyu hops off the treadmill and heads straight for the boxing station, grabbing some tape and bandages and wrapping up his fists in record time.
"Do you wanna tell me why you're pissed off this time, or are we just gonna keep going back and forth like this forever?"
"Y/N and I were just working on the homework, and it was... perfect. It felt perfect. Right. It was good—real good. But then, before I could realize what had happened, the Writer snatched me and now here we are."
Wonwoo nods along like the therapist that his character and personality have inexplicably deemed him, and sighs deeply.
"Happens to me all the time." Wonwoo goes about packing up his belongings for his trip back home. "One moment I'm helping one of the female side characters with a jammed door lock and the next moment I'm staring at Ara for four pages straight wondering if I want her to be my first or last kiss. Every. Damn. Time."
"You poor thing," Mingyu mumbles condescendingly as he furiously punches the boxing bag.
Wonwoo steps away as he watched the narration box slowly creep over to join the two men. "A scene is starting soon, just warning you now."
PANEL 3 — MINGYU CONTINUES TO HIT THE BOXING BAG, UNTIL HE HEARS A SUDDEN CRACK.
NARRATION: He swings and it hits. His fists continue, his speed increasing as he repeats a simple question in his head: why is Y/N messing with Ara?
PANEL 4 — MINGYU STILL BEATING THE HELL OUT OF THE BOXING BAG.
NARRATION: Something has gone terribly, terribly wrong. His anger is spilling out like a broken kettle, and its burning, stinging him.
"STOP!" Mingyu shouts to no one in particular, punching the narration box instead of the bag.
"And this is why I wanted to stay home," Wonwoo murmurs out loud. "I hate these things."
"Why can't someone else be the main character?" Mingyu whines. "It doesn't have to be me."
"Because you're the one with huge muscles, you're tall, and you've got the best abs in the entire school?" Wonwoo offers bluntly.
Mingyu doesn't answer and turns his attention to the boxing bag again, throwing several more powerful punches until suddenly, the narration box begins to hover, drawing both men's attention as a new caption begins to write itself:
NARRATION: As his heart screams and his fists bleed, the only image that flashes through Mingyu's mind is Ara.
Mingyu screeches, throwing the gloves at the boxing bag this time. "LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU EVIL BOX. STOP SHOVING ME BACK INTO THE CAST OF THIS DUMBASS STORY."
PANEL 5 — KIM MINGYU IS PISSED
NARRATION: An irrational urge seeps into him. An urge to reach his hand into his own heart, find Ara, and...
Wonwoo narrows his eyes suspiciously at the box and waves a finger in Mingyu's direction, directing his attention. "Stop."
"It's not going to work!" He screams at the narration box. "LEAVE MY HEART ALONE YOU STUPID BOX!"
But the narration continues to hover, circling Mingyu like the ring leader of a very messed up circus. Mingyu swings for it with his bare hands, punching at the thin air before it moves out of the way, now standing closer to him than it was a moment ago, the writing appearing faster. The text is bold and demanding now.
NARRATION: The urge is too powerful. He sees Ara's face, and all he can think about is her.
"NO!" Mingyu screams, tears of pure, unfiltered rage welling in the corners of his eyes as he punches the wall beside him, putting a hole through it. "I DON'T LOVE ARA. I DON'T."
The wall patches itself instantly, the hole vanishing as if it were never there. But the crack in Mingyu's composure remains, spiderwebbing across the surface of the Writer's perfect narrative.
"It's trying to rewrite you," Wonwoo says, suddenly serious. "Pushing you into the corner where you have no choice but to think about her. It's rewriting your thoughts, Mingyu."
The narration box pulses with an almost smug satisfaction. The new words appear, glowing with an unsettling light.
NARRATION: His heart belongs to Ara. It has always been Ara. It will always be Ara.
"It's not true," Mingyu whispers, his anger deflating into a desperate plea. He's looking at Wonwoo now, really looking at him. His knuckles are bleeding from the punch. "It's not true, is it?"
Wonwoo sets down his bag and crosses the distance between them. For once, he doesn't look bored or annoyed. He looks like a soldier assessing battlefield damage.
"You know the answer to that," Wonwoo says quietly, so quietly that the narration box might not catch it. "The question is, how much of you is still left for you?" He glances at the hovering box. "The Writer is getting more aggressive. This is new. This is... invasive."
They've fought scenes before. They've tried to walk the other way, to mumble their lines until the scene reset, to trip over conveniently placed props. They've tried everything, but it's always been external. Pushing against the boundaries of their world, not the boundaries of their minds.
This feels different. This feels like a violation.
"I can't..." Mingyu staggers back, leaning against the now-perfect wall. "I feel it. Trying to get in. Like... like static in my head. A thought that's not my thought."
Wonwoo's face is grim. He's read every book in this godforsaken library, including the ones on psychology he never wanted to read. He knows what gaslighting looks like. He knows what brainwashing feels like. And this has all the hallmarks of both.
"It wants you to break," Wonwoo states, his voice flat. "It wants you to give in and accept the role. If it can't control your actions, it'll try to control your mind."
PANEL 6 — Y/N WALKING INTO THE GYM DRESSED IN TOO TIGHT WORKOUT CLOTHES TO TURN ANY MAN'S HEAD.
"What kind of scene is this?" You mutter to yourself as you pass the two men and head towards the cycling machine in the other room.
NARRATION: As Y/N crosses the room, a flash of anger illuminates the depths of Mingyu's soul.
"Huh?" You stop short, one leg forward as the narration begins to morph again.
NARRATION: As she crosses the room, Mingyu can't take it anymore. Just the sight of her makes Mingyu burn with hatred.
"Well, fuck you too, buddy," you murmur at the box now trying to smack you in the face. You don't even need to stick around to know where this scene is headed, and you aren't going to stick around when Ara bounces through the doors in her pink sports attire to try and talk Mingyu down from his fury.
"Ugh," you groan as you walk into the cycling room and find that this is already the set up for a scene. "Oh, this is just perfect."
"Y/N!" Someone calls you, and it's Seungcheol, a supporting character in this shitfest who's written to have a crush on you. His smile is easy, and so is he, because in this dumb universe, Seungcheol is so much less important than the main character and you're allowed to trample all over his heart, though he somehow continues to pine for you.
"Oh, hey there," you offer a grin and head over to the spin bike next to him, joining him and his row of friends from the track team. The nameless ones. All of them here to serve a single purpose—and yet none of them are aware enough to break out of it.
You know when a scene starts because suddenly, you're having a casual conversation. Everything about your posture is suddenly just slightly more interesting—your lips redder, your cheeks rounder, the cut of your collarbones subtly highlighted by the shine from the lights above you. Everything is suddenly for show, but this time, so are you. You're not speaking the lines you want.
PANEL 7 — YOU INSIDE THE CYCLE ROOM, ON YOUR BIKE AND TALKING TO SEUNGCHEOL.
NARRATION: Y/N tries desperately to seduce a certain boy. She teases him in her sickly sweet tone.
"Cheol!" You greet, laughing at one of his jokes. You know what's coming next, and you know that you aren't saying this and yet the words escape anyway, as if they belong to someone else. You hate it. You hate this.
NARRATION: Seungcheol teases her right back, not knowing that Mingyu is watching their every move.
"Maybe you could give me some more advanced lessons," you bat your eyelashes and flash Seungcheol that sweet smile. You hope you don't throw up.
NARRATION: So distracted, she didn't notice Ara right behind her.
You glance down as you begin to cycle, glancing behind you for a split second. There are too many characters in here, and there's no guarantee that the story won't make an extra scene out of your path crossing with any of them, and your luck really does run out, because right there, in pink workout gear to match Mingyu's blue, is Ara, pretending not to watch you and Seungcheol.
PANEL 8 — Y/N FINALLY NOTICING ARA.
"So much for privacy." You scowl, your voice pitched higher to catch the attention of the one-woman audience that's suddenly in this scene. You know it's just a scene, you don't mean what you're saying and you definitely did not mean to flirt with Seungcheol. You get angry thinking about how fake this entire world is. "What?" You turn to look at Ara, tilting your head and smirking. "You've never seen a man and a woman flirting before?"
"I-" Ara starts, but suddenly looks downright uncomfortable. "It's not like that, Y/N."
You sigh and turn forward, meeting the screen again and shaking your head at how utterly useless it is to try and even change things. No one's in this scene to notice what you say, so why does the story even care? The story is stupid, and pointless, and written entirely around Ara and you don't care who's on board. "Why should you care who I flirt with anyway? You got Mingyu wrapped around your pretty little fingers, don't you?"
"I would never," Ara tries again. "He's-"
"He's what? Something else I can never have?" You're a villain through and through, apparently, and the Writer wants this kind of drama. "It's cute how you think I'll stay away, just because of a little warning." You smirk and wait a beat, just to watch the discomfort bloom across Ara's face. "We both know you don't have the stomach to threaten me back."
PANEL 9 — MINGYU STEPS IN
You can see the look in Mingyu's eyes. He doesn't care about what the narration is doing, apparently, and in the midst of this disaster of a story, you suddenly realize it.
"Mingyu," Ara almost sighs. "I- please don't-"
"You." He points to you, and for a brief second, you can see how Mingyu clenches his fist, trying to fight against the word that's already forming on his lips. "Watch it."
"Mm, and if I don't?" You shrug, innocently pouting and getting off the bike. You ran your fingers down his chest, making sure to keep eye contact. "What are you going to do to me, Kim Mingyu?" You lick your lips and don't stop touching him, running your fingers down his torso and the planes of his muscles, one hand over his arm and the other curled up to grip at his chest. "Don't you think you and I have more fun ways to play, or have you forgotten about the night we-"
Mingyu holds on to your wrist tightly, holding your touch away from him. "Shut your mouth."
You look up at him and bite your lip, shrugging again. "Or what?"
"Please stop, Mingyu!" Ara tugs at the side of his t-shirt, begging Mingyu, who barely notices.
He was there, during that one weekend, when the story took a vacation and let your real selves drive. Neither of you were ready to stop. Neither of you were ready to be written and puppeteered as the main characters. There's so much Mingyu wants to say right now. Instead, the Writer uses his mouth to spit vitriol and spite.
"Stay the fuck out of my life, and off my girl," Mingyu hisses. "Do whatever the fuck you want, but stay the hell away from her."
"Oh wow." You roll your eyes and pull away from him, wiping his hand down your skirt. "Protective, aren't we?" You cross your arms and lean into his personal space. "Wouldn't want me to show her how much better I could fuck you, huh?"
Ara gasps, backing away and covering her mouth with her hands. "Why would you say such a thing!" She screeches at you, and you shrug it off.
"That's not happening." Mingyu narrows his eyes at you, fists curling into themselves.
PANEL 10 — INTENSION OF RAGE HANGING AROUND MINGYU.
"Now that just sounds like a challenge, handsome," you tap the tip of his nose and flash him that perfect smirk, the kind designed to bring even the biggest, baddest, male characters to their knees. You turn away, and head to leave the gym. "Your girlfriend can keep playing house, but you and me?" You blow him a kiss as you walk to the changing rooms. "I'm always down to play rough."
And as you walk away, you can hear the familiar sound of fists punching a bag, Mingyu screaming, and a heartbreaking "I hate her!" that makes the Writer grin in delight.
When the door to the changing rooms close, you sink to the ground, pulling your knees up to your chest and fighting back the tears in the corner of your eyes. You hate this. You don't want to be a villain. You just want to love him and be loved, and the Writer just refuses to let that happen.
For the next thirty minutes, the Writer leaves you alone, and you're curled up against the bench as you cry. The last thing you really needed was Mingyu to actually hate you.
And you hate the thought of being anyone's villain. Especially his.
Mingyu finds you curled up in your bed. Not just a lump under a mound of pillows. In your bed, buried underneath the blankets and nursing a tub of ice cream.
"You okay?" he asks gently.
"Not really," you mutter and take another spoonful of ice cream, avoiding eye contact. You're being grumpy and pathetic, but you don't really care.
Mingyu grabs the tub of ice cream and places it on your nightstand, not caring if it'll melt, as he gathers you into his arms, letting you wrap your own around his torso.
"I don't like doing it," Mingyu whispers. "It was-" He takes a deep breath and holds you a little tighter. "God, saying those things to you, I hate that the Writer made me do it. Even the visual of... of-" He doesn't need to finish his sentence.
"Me and Seungcheol," you mumble, and let him lift your chin.
Mingyu nods. "But Y/N-" He searches your face and taps your forehead. "I didn't mean a single bit of it. None of it. Never. Okay? I would never ever treat you like that, okay?"
Your eyes tear up, and you nod, biting your lip and trying to get rid of the sting of the Writer's manipulations.
"And I hate myself for hurting you like that," he admits softly. "Even if I didn't mean it, I still said it, and that hurts. But... but at least we're self-aware?" He gives you an awkward grin.
You manage a laugh through the tears. It was a crap day, and maybe Mingyu wasn't helping, but your favorite thing about your best friend has always been that you feel understood when you're with him.
"This is hard," Mingyu groans, flopping backward on your bed. He hugs you close to him, so you don't flail around. "Can't we just," he moves one hand, gesturing wildly "I dunno, rewrite this stupid thing so we're happy?"
"If only that was a possibility," you giggle.
"Wait," Mingyu props himself up on an elbow. His eyes sparkle. "Wait. Y/N, what if we do exactly that."
"What," you roll your eyes and give Mingyu a blank look, not trusting his tone.
"Seriously! Let's rewrite this ourselves," Mingyu exclaims. "You and I, Wonwoo too, are self-aware. Why don't we work together to change things? It could work, don't you think?"
"What would we change, Gyu?" You ask him, a tiny glint of hope lighting up behind your irises.
"Well, to start," Mingyu grimaces. "Maybe, uh, have the Writer stop trying to make you kiss the entire university population, yikes."
You grimace and lift your hands up to the sky as if you're going to fight the Writer's pen with your bare hands. "That's a damn start. My god, we need a human resources department for this shit."
"It's more like human rewrite department and I'll file a complaint," Mingyu deadpans and the two of you share a quick look before bursting into a fit of uncontrollable laughter, needing this moment of levity after the exhausting scenes you're usually roped into.
"Wait, wait," you can't believe how many brilliant ideas come to you once you give yourself an afternoon to wallow. "Wonwoo!" You glance around as you grab Mingyu's phone from the floor, quickly dialing Wonwoo's number and grinning mischievously when it picks up. "We're forming a union. Bring beer. See you later." And then you hang up.
Mingyu is beside himself in a fit of laughter. "Oh man, won't the writer be pissed when they find out three of their characters are rebelling against the plot line."
"I hate this stupid plotline," you groan. "I'm the most popular girl in school but what does the narrative care about?! Me kissing a different character every week. I swear, we're literally nothing more than tropes used just to create more drama for the narrative, and it's annoying and pointless and I've had enough!" You let out a long, loud sigh and Mingyu grins.
"Damn, you're hot when you're angry," Mingyu mutters and when you give him a look, he looks away with flushed cheeks.
"Gross." Wonwoo let's himself into your apartment and holds up the beers. "Union time, but please. Can you not flirt with each other. I've dealt with enough forced bullshit today."
"What happened?" You look over the couch and see a distressed looking Wonwoo, your confusion and Mingyu's morphing into that same glare the two of you shared mere hours ago. "Did you just get some scene thrown into your storyline as well?"
Wonwoo winces and rubs the back of his neck. "I was forced out of the comfort of my own apartment to walk around the campus with Ara, the words spewing from my own tongue saying how she's everything I want and more, and how her personality is so cute, I can't get her off my mind, bla bla bla..."
The two of you just sit there, horror written on your face as the thought of a love sick Wonwoo has your brain nearly short circuiting.
"Dude, what the hell," Mingyu gags and shudders. "Was this scene like-" he pauses, horrified with the thought that passes through his mind. "Don't tell me. I don't want to imagine it."
"Neither did I, believe me, Mingyu. Please don't say anything else. I had to go through five showers with nearly boiling hot water to rid the thoughts of even holding her hand." Wonwoo winces as the memory makes his skin crawl. "Okay. So." Wonwoo nods. "Union time!"
As the sun dips low beyond the horizon and night overtakes the room, the three of you drink and dream and plan for the world that's promised. It's been far too long, since you've allowed yourself to dream. But with Mingyu and Wonwoo? It might actually work.
"Holy shit, guys." You stare up at the building looming overhead and then at the sign next to the door, squinting and reading out loud. "'Humanity Rewrite Agency. The world's solution to author control.'"
"I was kidding about it," Mingyu starts as he looks between his co-conspirators. "But there's really a HR building in the shadows? Do you think the Writer knows about this place?"
"Dude, if it's in the shadows then they won't be able to see it," Wonwoo shakes his head, almost wanting to laugh at the three of you standing outside of the building. It was a spur of the moment decision to go into the HR building, and though the three of you were pretty serious about the whole union thing, it all seems a bit far-fetched.
"Alright, let's go," You shrug and make your way up to the sliding doors, pushing in and finding the empty reception desk. "Um. Excuse us?"
A person pops out from beneath the desk, glasses askew and jacket slightly messed up. "Y-yes, how can I help you today?"
"We're thinking about forming a union? And thought a place like this might help, given it's hidden in the shadows." Wonwoo comments casually, leaning on the counter.
The receptionist's mouth opens, surprised. "A union?" Their eyes drift from Mingyu, to Wonwoo, and settle on your gaze. Their eyes soften, lips parting a moment later as a few memories spark in their mind. "Oh. Oh, dear. You three really are self-aware, huh." The receptionist, who's name tag reads Joshua, snaps out of his thoughts and offers a kind smile. "You're not the only self-aware characters working through an issue. Follow me." Joshua spins around the desk, flicking off the switch to the light above and disappearing into the hallway behind him, beckoning the three of you to follow. "You must know about Danoh and Haru, right? What happens to them in Secrets? What happens after?"
"Secrets?" Your brow furrows as your try to connect the dots, knowing very little about the book in question.
"I see you three really haven't done your due diligence then." Joshua laughs a moment later, voice light and cheerful. "Secrets is a comic about the typical high school romance. But in their case, our spunky Danoh was a supporting extra with a heart disease and Haru was a faceless extra." Joshua stops at his office door and gestures to the chairs across from him.
"Is there a reason why they're important?" Mingyu asks, clearly perplexed with the idea of side characters rebelling in their own way.
"Oh yes. I'll let Seungkwan tell you. He's like your mediator or something, I dunno. But he can help you find some answers at the very least."
You trail behind, your mouth moving faster than your brain as you pepper Joshua with questions. Wonwoo and Mingyu shake their heads but listen just as intently to Joshua's ramblings. You know there's a whole world here, out there in the shadows, and now that you've tasted self-awareness you're hungry for every detail you can find.
"In here," Joshua calls over his shoulder. "Everyone. These are our newest clients."
"New clients?!" A male's voice practically squeals, followed by a swift punch to the arm.
"More self-aware folk who don't know enough?" A second male's voice pipes up, amusement glinting in his eyes as a slow smile pulls across his lips. "Well, we can fix that. Hi, everyone! Welcome to Human Rewrite Agency, located conveniently in the shadows, where we'll do anything within our power to help."
"It's great to be here," you nod, stepping forward. "I'm Y/N." You tilt your head to your two conspirators, a shy smile on Mingyu's lips. "This is my best friend, Mingyu. And that brooding, tired-looking beanpole, is Jeon Wonwoo."
"Flattering," Wonwoo smirks, shaking his head as he pushes his glasses up his nose.
"I'm Boo Seungkwan," the bright male who's eyes sparkled from the moment you stepped through the doors bounces over and pulls you and Mingyu into a tight embrace before doing the same to Wonwoo. "This is Vernon. A few of the others are working with clients so you can't meet them right now, but it'll probably be a long time before anyone else does, especially if your situation is even half as strange as a love pentagram." Seungkwan rolls his eyes.
"Love pentagram?" Wonwoo murmurs.
"Another comic where the female lead falls for four men and she can't chooses between them," Vernon shakes his head. "All the four men ended up self-aware because her dilemma and they have yet to figure out how to resolve their issue."
"Wow," you shake your head. "Who has the time and energy to think of this mess of a love story."
"The Writer of that comic does, and they're enjoying the pain," Seungkwan chirps. "Our agency does what we can to resolve their issues without erasing their awareness, so they can live their lives as they truly want to."
"How do you guys fix the issue?" Mingyu wonders aloud.
"Depends," Seungkwan tilts his head in thought. "Sometimes their comic becomes too unstable and they have to go through a series of major rewrites for them to fall into the correct timelines or character placements, etc. I assume Joshua has mentioned Danoh and Haru?" He catches your nod. "There were lots of up and downs with those two and their comic. Secrets came to an end and even though Danoh and Haru weren't end-game there, they became extras in a new comic and have the agency to choose each other, finally."
"So you're saying..."Mingyu begins as his brow furrows in thought. "We're fucked no matter what we do? No matter how hard we try to change the narrative, the Writer can always rewrite whatever happens? If we create a glitch, the Writer will just delete it? There's no winning in that."
Seungkwan grins and nods at the question. "Correct, for the most part," He agrees, not willing to dismiss any fears the three of you are harboring. "Which is why, a lot of these couples learn to focus on their lives in the shadow while still fighting to get to a happy ending. Because happy endings are for every character, even a background one."
Mingyu reaches for your hand, squeezing it in his palm. "So what should we focus on?"
"Do your part. Flirt in scenes, take the kisses when scripted and try not to gag...too much." Seungkwan laughs brightly, noticing the distasteful expressions on the three's faces at the thought. "Just because it's written one way doesn't mean you're doomed. Hell, our main clients in the Love Pentagon have to act out this drama where they basically hate the shit out of each other but in the shadows, they're all friends and bond over their scenes at their local bar." He laughs, his face glowing at the fond memory. "All because they're learning to balance both. The shadow and the world beyond." Seungkwan comes forward and places a reassuring hand on both Mingyu's shoulder and your hand.
"Don't forget, you can always visit. We're open seven days a week, twenty-four hours a day. I encourage the glitching and breaking the fourth wall, but do keep in mind, a sudden plot twist will never sit well in the comic so sometimes the Writer's hand will get involved. But don't give up." He squeezes again, pulling his hand away. "At the end of the day, the three of you are still you. Self-aware doesn't change that and the Writer can't remove that fact either. They might be able to rip the self-awareness right from under your noses, but what they can't do is control the you you've created for yourself in the shadows."
Your entire being hums from his words, Seungkwan's melodic voice full of genuine kindness. You let Seungkwan's gentle reassurances sweep the worry from your brow, even as your mind continues to swirl. You've found an ally, one with endless optimism. You let out a sigh and your gaze settles on the grin dancing at the corners of Mingyu's mouth, the hope you always feel blooming whenever you're close, blossoming behind your ribs. "Shall we?"
Mingyu squeezes your hand once more. "You bet."
Another day, another scene. This time you're staring at an unrealistically happy Wonwoo as he looks down at Ara, his fingers brushing a lock of her hair from her eyes. Mingyu stands beside you, a look of disgust on his face as he tries not to vomit from Wonwoo's forced expressions.
"Is this how you feel when you look at me and Ara during our scenes together?" Mingyu asks out of the blue and you laugh.
"Now you know my pain," you pat his cheek with your palm. "Tough to watch?"
"Painful," he admits. "Happy Wonwoo is hard to watch. I'm so used to him being broody and aloof, it's just strange seeing him like this."
"And that's coming from a nerd who's forced to flex his muscles every day," you chuckle. "He's all brawn and brains and still scared of horror movies."
"To be fair," Mingyu pouts slightly. "Horror movies are terrifying."
"I love you Gyu, but you're just a big baby."
"Your big baby," he counters, pout growing. "Right?"
"C'mere, baby," you laugh, cupping his chin as you stand on the tips of your toes and plant a firm kiss on his cheek. Mingyu flushes a shade of pink that spreads up his neck and blooms across his ears as a stupid grin flashes across his face.
"Eww, gross." The sudden exclamation catches your attention, spinning you around. Wonwoo stands a few feet away, shaking his head in mild disgust and faked annoyance. "Ugh. Get a room."
"Done with your scene? Ready to go back and brood like your normal self?" You smirk.
Wonwoo glowers. "Shut up." He tucks his hands into his pockets as he falls into step beside the two of you. "I am the model of happiness."
"What a lie," you laugh. "Wonwoo, no. Your true self is brooding. Being happy is not your forte. But it's okay. We still like you."
"That's kind of cruel but not untrue," Mingyu adds. Wonwoo heaves an exasperated sigh but says nothing.
The three of you stroll off the campus grounds, heading downtown toward Mingyu's favorite bakery. When your thighs begin to ache, Mingyu gallantly offers you a piggyback ride. "Took you long enough," you mumble, but a grin breaks free the minute your arms are looped around Mingyu's neck and his arms are linked under your knees, his palms curled snugly around the curve of your thighs. You're cackling the entire way.
When you arrive at Mingyu's favorite bakery, Wonwoo slows to a stop. "Sorry to skip out," he sighs. "I'm tired and I need to wash whatever happened in my scene today off of me. But text me the plan, alright?" He leans in and steals a pastry from the box Mingyu just purchased, much to the latter's protest.
"Dude, that was my favorite," Mingyu frowns, watching him run off with the pastry clenched tightly in his fist, looking smug as he turns the corner.
"So dramatic," You shake your head and steal the next pastry from the box before darting away, laughter erupting from behind you.
"Why do I even bother?" Mingyu rolls his eyes in jest, racing after you, easily catching up. "You really gonna make me run when I'm holding a box of goodies?"
"You'd anything for me, dummy," you tease with an arched brow.
"Can't say no to that," Mingyu laughs brightly, letting his fingers intertwine with yours, a feeling that makes your entire body glow.
He'd walk through fire for you. And, you suppose, you'd walk through fire for him too. Even if it was scripted and the flame was all special effects. Still, you'd do it. The whole thing could crash and burn, literally, but it'd be worth it. He's always worth it.
You two collapse onto a picnic table, watching a gaggle of young children chase each other, swinging wildly at their pinwheels. Their joy echoes across the grass and you feel your body relax as you and Mingyu devour another pastry in seconds.
"These are the moments I really want," he finally admits after an extended moment of silence. "To sit with you, be in the moment and have the ability to laugh at stupid shit like those kids or something serious. It's just peaceful."
"Agreed," you tilt your head with a smile, content and free as a stray curl whips across your eye and Mingyu leans across the picnic table to brush it aside. "We deserve better than what the Writer has in store for us," you muse. "Not sure what that better is, but we deserve better."
"This," he breathes suddenly, looking nervous despite the calm, easy atmosphere of the park. "Us. Together." He gestures, an awkward fumbling of long arms and large hands that makes you want to cry-laugh, the smile tugging at the corners of his mouth betraying the shy tone his voice has.
"Mingyu." He smiles at you softly as you lean across the table and press a soft kiss to the very corner of his mouth. He sighs in content, pulling you against him so you were sprawled across his lap as he buries his nose into your hair. "I really do love you. You know that right? Nothing the Writer creates is going to stop me from loving you."
"Oh god," Mingyu pretends to gag playfully. "Such a fucking sap. I've rubbed off on you."
You reach up and pinch his jawline before swiping his nose with your palm. "Silly, dorky himbo of mine." He groans but doesn't deny the affection, a shy smile hiding behind his lashes.
"Can't deny the truth."
"Knew you loved it."
"Love you more." Mingyu bumps your noses together as he presses his lips to yours, sighing the minute your lips slot into his perfectly as he tightens his grip around you. The pair of you sigh blissfully into the kiss and you grin, unable to help yourself as you bring the back of your hand to your forehead.
"God," you say, rolling your eyes. "Could this sunset and the taste of the chocolate filling of Mingyu's favorite bread be any better?"
"Shhh," he chuckles softly against your lips. "Stop ruining the moment, Y/N."
"One, never. Two, never," you insist, smiling at the ridiculous look on his face as you press one final kiss to his pouting lips. "Y'know, I like that smile of yours best."
"The one I reserve for you alone," he whispers, eyes shut. You can feel the light breeze tossing Mingyu's hair about as you bask in the peace he brought you, the feel of his strong body pressing against yours, holding you impossibly closer, keeping the nightmares and chaos of the comics at bay. For now.
That night, you have a dream. A weird dream. In that dream, you’re with Mingyu. That part isn't unusual. But it feels different, familiar, somehow. Almost like a past life where you and Mingyu were free. Truly free. But when you wake up, your memory of the dream fades fast, the dream dissolving like a mirage in the desert. You fall back asleep, remembering only the comfort of your dreams, and Mingyu's strong arms.
The next morning, you make your way to HR, knocking before sliding your head in to find Seungkwan there, smiling up at you and gesturing for you to come inside and have a seat in his office.
"Hey Seungkwan. Good to see you again, thanks for giving me your time." You begin, having wanted to ask him a few questions. "I've been having some weird dreams recently, a past life it felt like. I couldn't really remember them all when I'd wake up but..." You trail, hoping you were making sense to Seungkwan.
"Glad you're here," He gestures to the empty seat directly across his desk, inviting you to make yourself comfortable while you have a little chat. Seungkwan slides a few files your way before folding his hands on his desk. "I actually managed to procure these after our last chat. it seems like you were the main character in the writer's last piece. If this helps jog your memories, that'd be a real win-win."
You let the pages slip beneath your fingertips, curiosity boiling behind your lashes as the scenes came back to you, the very dreams you were having all were on this very sheet of paper. It makes you want to laugh as you look at the very scene of Mingyu walking toward the girl who was the perfect mirror of you.
You flip through the pages and notice you were in a bookstore and had even dreamed a few nights prior about it. All of this is true, these aren't scripts...they’re the past. "You found all of this after my last visit?" You ask in awe.
"Yes!" he says proudly, unable to hide the glint in his eyes. "There were a few snags here and there. From what I researched, you and Mingyu's story wasn't supposed to end in such a tragic way."
Your smile falls from your face as you realize his words aren't ones of encouragement, but almost pity. "Tragic ending? What do you mean?"
"Well," Seungkwan sinks a little further into the leather of his chair and rubs the back of his neck, eyes focusing intently on his notes as if he wishes that he hadn't uttered the last few words. "It's sad. You were arranged to marry, he was drafted for the war. He never returned."
"Oh," you manage as the words hit you, and your head is screaming, begging for something. "So why was it put on hold?" You ask the only logical question left.
"The Writer abandoned it." He slides you a copy of the draft you were just looking at. "It wasn't getting the traction because of the heavy story, apparently," Seungkwan winces at the idea that he may have said too much, but you just nod at him. "The Writer decided that the current comic that you're in is getting more readership."
"Great, so glad to hear she gave up and moved to a new storyline instead." You seethe, not realizing how harsh the words were as you grit your teeth. "But why was Ara chosen as the main character instead of me?"
"She's naive, innocent," he offers, sliding a piece of gum into his mouth. "Pretty." Seungkwan wrinkles his nose as if it was unavoidable, a sad fact. "What?"
"And I'm not? That doesn't seem fair," you groan, arms crossing over your chest as a pout works it's way over your lip. "That is a real blow." You huff out a sarcastic laugh.
"You're the bombshell that's relagated to the background. Not that you're a background character by any means. You're the villainess."
"Don't say it," you roll your eyes. You know it. Everyone knows it. That you were the supposed villainess. But the fact that someone, especially Seungkwan, has admitted it out loud? Well, you don't want to admit the truth, but it stings like a motherfucker.
"You're self-aware," he states quietly. "Can we focus on that?"
"Fine," you grumble, before forcing yourself to calm down. It's not Seungkwan's fault. "But why Mingyu? The Writer could have written another male character that isn't Kim Mingyu."
"Maybe the Writer felt bad for him in the last draft, and thought she'd give him a chance as the main character of a new romance series."
"By turning him into the ultimate, white knuckled himbo who flexes his abs whenever?" You groan, "The poor boy."
"He may be the male lead of the comic and geared for Ara," He leans forward. "But he will always choose you and you him. It's fate, even for characters written into existence." Seungkwan chuckles before standing and dusting his suit pants off. "Alright, thank you again for chatting with me. That is all I wanted to talk about. Stay self-aware and keep your focus on the real goal, Y/N."
"And what's that?"
Seungkwan flashes you a bright smile as he ushers you from his office, "Getting out of this shit comic, duh!"
From your corner of the dancefloor, you watch Mingyu lean in closely to whisper something into Ara's ear. Whatever he is saying makes her erupt into giggles as she tucks a loose strand of hair behind her ears. As the music plays and they spin together, your heart breaks into pieces.
You really want to smack the Writer for making you see this.
Wonwoo sidles up to you, shaking his head at the sight before him as the pair looks ridiculous as they stand on the dance floor and the scripted splash panel. "You can vomit in my shoes later if you need," Wonwoo offers, trying his best not to make this anymore miserable for you. "Want a drink?"
"Fuck yes," you snap, looking for a moment before shaking your head. "I've got this, stay. Enjoy the dance, look pretty for the crowd and try not to burst into flames from boredom."
"What am I, an ornament? Because I've gotta say, this bowtie is uncomfortable." Wonwoo wrinkles his nose at the feeling of the tie wrapped around his neck as you chuckle and take your leave, heading for the bar.
"A shot. Top shelf, please." You watch as the bartender grabs a bottle and lines the small glasses up in front of you, grabbing a pack of salt as he sets up. After the glasses were filled, you look up to find Mingyu looking directly at you as you lick a long strip across your wrist before downing the glass of tequila. The way he bites his lip is undeniably hot, and the slight daze in his eye is doing wonders.
Worth it.
"You're good," Seokmin, the bartender, comments as you blink your way back, slamming the tiny glass back on the bar counter. "Lookin' to impress anyone?"
"Someone, but he's too preoccupied at the moment," you sigh, gesturing to the man and woman currently on the dance floor as they sway back and forth.
"Ah," Seokmin purses his lips sympathetically. "Want another one?"
"Keep them coming." The next shot goes down easy, just like the other glasses you had poured down your throat in the hopes you could avoid Mingyu for the rest of the night.
Mingyu could've easily left her side and spent the remainder of the evening with you. You sigh wistfully, you had dreamed that this party would end differently. And not with him twirling another woman around the ballroom like this was some sort of poorly-written romance flick.
As the night drags on, the tequila keeps pouring down your throat until you can barely tell which Mingyu is the real Mingyu. Or is Ara real? You can't seem to care because when she disappears and the lights dim, he's suddenly right in front of you. "I think that's enough drinking for tonight, Y/N. Please?"
You look up at him drunkenly, anger brewing deep within you as you bite your lip, tears blurring your vision before you wipe angrily, angry, not that he would understand because, at the end of the day, it was Mingyu. Your Mingyu. "I hate this, Mingyu."
"Me, too."
"It feels like my insides have been crushed. It hurts to see you with her, and know that the entire evening the Writer kept pushing you two together, again, and again, and again." Your voice cracks and Mingyu reaches out to gently catch one of the tears that spilled down your cheek.
"C'mon." His hand is warm against yours. The two of you shuffle back to his apartment. "It's late," he mumbles as he shuts the door and throws his car keys into the tray on the counter, bending over to shrug his dress shoes off, and you stumble backwards until you feel your knees bump against the sofa and you let yourself fall against the soft cushions. "Are you just going to sleep with your dress on?" Mingyu asks, and you scoff.
"Wouldn't be the first time."
"Oh, right. Forgot who I'm talking to." He laughs and it sounds bitter and broken. He rubs a hand down the side of his face, shaking his head. "Anyway, you want to get out of those clothes? Here. Let me help you. Don't want you falling and hurting yourself."
"I'm not five, Mingyu."
"No," Mingyu pauses, gaze boring into yours, "But you sure can act like it."
"So, I can be a brat and you can treat me like you’re my Daddy, yeah?" You don't mean to laugh, but you are. You are fucking delirious, and so, so inebriated. But you're drunk and can't hold back the words tumbling out your mouth. "I'm such a fucking mess," you moan, hands flying to cover your face. "Just…just leave me here."
"Let's get you sober and then we can talk about that kinky side of yours." Mingyu holds out his hand, but the angle of the overhead light creates a glare. He's haloed in white light, like an angel or a figment of your imagination, you aren't quite sure. He taps your nose lightly, smile pulling at his lips, the slightest bit smug. "Take my hand and let's get you some fresh air. You smell like tequila."
"Mhm," You reach forward and slap your hand against his palm, sighing as Mingyu pulls you towards him and loops a supportive arm around your waist. "You like it, don't lie," you mumble. He rolls his eyes at that as your head dips back onto his shoulder and your feet stumble slightly before you are righted.
"Whatever you say, you drunk," he murmurs as he leads you to the balcony and dumps you on a lounge chair, reaching a hand out to press against your back. "Stay. I'll get you something to sober up before we get you showered and ready for bed. Okay?"
"Okay." Your voice comes out muffled since you bury your face in the pillow. "Mingyu?" you ask as a cool breeze chills your face.
"Yeah?"
"Thank you for looking out for me."
"I'd do anything for you."
After a while of comfortable silence, and a cup of hot coffee in your hands, you both were looking out towards the street and were enjoying each others silent company. "You know we used to be in another series together?" you speak as you look over.
"Really?" he asks.
"Yea," you say wistfully.
"What was it about?" he inquires further.
"Not sure. But you and I were..." your lips pull up into a sad smile and your eyes slide back to the city street, "We were in love. Well, at least the Y/N and Mingyu from that series were." You smile sadly. "How we danced around each other in secret meetings during the war, and had to act like we were not madly in love once daylight hit. Even though I knew we'd always be safe no matter what because we loved each other."
"What happened, then? With us?" he asks.
"I was arranged to get married...to someone that's not you," you admit and it hurt like a stab to the gut. "And you were drafted, and I never saw you again." You turn back towards the view. "Can you imagine? How you loved someone with all your heart, but the narrative made sure you never had your happy ever after. No matter how badly you wanted it? The Writer just abandoned that series, never brought that story to an ending because it was so heavy and tragic. Wrote our lives off, just to throw us into something less heavy."
"Hey, come here." Mingyu sits up, pulling you into his arms. "We can't dwell on things in our past, even though the story may have hurt us, this time, things will be different."
"Will they, though?" you question with a sad shrug of the shoulder, wrapping your arms around his waist. Mingyu tilts your head towards his. "I'm not the main character this time. Just the villainess in this particular comic, forced to watch someone else get the happy ending. The happy ending the Writer robbed you and I out of."
"Shh," he hushes as he kisses your forehead.
"Promise you'll stay true and never abandon me? No matter what?" your voice wavers a bit as the threat of a sob remains close. Mingyu's big and warm hands gently tilt your head back to look up at him. He's got the most gorgeous face you've ever seen, with eyes so deep they put the night sky to shame and hair that gleams bronze in the sunlight.
"I'd do anything to keep you close," Mingyu says. "I promise."
"Pinky swear?" you sniff.
"Pinky swear." He links his pinky finger with yours. You breathe a small laugh. Mingyu had a smile to rival the sun, you always thought. All teeth, a bit lopsided and big and warm. Even in your current state of distress.
"Have I ever told you how much I love you?" your gaze darts down to where the two of you are connected by a finger.
"More often than necessary."
"I really, really love you, Kim Mingyu," you smile up at him.
"Love you, too." He presses his forehead against yours.
"Like, super duper, you don't even have a clue," you mumble into his chest. He only snorts.
"Sure I don't, dummy." He pats your head.
"Then maybe I should show you?" The words sound suggestive to Mingyu as you wrap your arms around his torso tightly, your hot breath tickling his ear.
"Y/N, come on," Mingyu says, wriggling away, cheeks going crimson.
You squint up at him, mischief in the creases in the corners of your eyes. "Why not?" you pout.
"Well, because," Mingyu ruffles the back of his hair. "You're drunk."
"I'm so damn sober right now that I could paint you a picture of the ocean."
"No, no, no." Mingyu pushes the hair out of his eyes and crosses his arms over his chest.
"Maybe I should prove to you I am a very willing participant?" you begin to say as he closes his eyes for a split second. Before he can do or say anything to prevent it, your hands have snaked themselves behind his neck. The scent of cologne and detergent fill your nose as he stiffens slightly and groans against your skin.
"You drive a hard bargain," Mingyu finally murmurs. "But first, you need a shower."
"Join me?" you suggest and you grin up at him with a mischievous waggle of the eyebrows. "There's plenty of room for two." You see the way Mingyu bites his lip, then sighs.
"Fine. Lead the way," he says, and when you squeak happily and pull him towards the bathroom.
Moments later, the bathroom is thick with steam, blurring the clean lines of the tiled walls until the world outside feels entirely locked away. The water drums a steady, heavy rhythm against the porcelain, a barrier of noise that no scripted dialogue or intrusive narration box could pierce.
"You're still clumsy," Mingyu murmurs, his voice dropping an octave, rid of the booming, confident cadence the Writer always forced into his throat on-page. Here, he sounds rough around the edges, grounded, and entirely yours.
"I am perfectly balanced," you retorted, though your hands gripped his shoulders for support as you stepped under the spray. The heavy silk of your party dress clings to your skin, soaked through in an instant, but neither of you care about the clothes.
Mingyu reaches behind you, his large palms warm against the small of your back as his fingers find the zipper. With a slow, deliberate slide, the wet fabric parts. He peels the dress away, letting it pool heavily at your feet. When his gaze meets yours, there’s none of the scripted, aggressive arrogance he was forced to display at the gym. His eyes are dark, intense, and filled with a fierce, protective reverence.
"You look beautiful, Y/N," he whispers, his thumbs tracing the line of your hip bones, wiping away the lingering traces of the comic’s forced aesthetic. "The real you. Not the villainess."
"Then stop looking and do something about it," you challenge, leaning up until your lips are inches from his.
Mingyu doesn't hesitate. He pulls you flush against his chest, the spray of the shower slicking his hair back, exposing the sharp, handsome angles of his face. His mouth comes down on yours with a desperate, hungry heat, a stark contrast to the polite, hesitant kisses the script dictated for him and Ara. This is raw, heavy with years of unspoken longing and the terrifying knowledge that your time in the dark is always limited.
His hands slide down to lift you, your legs wrapping instinctively around his waist. You gasp into the kiss as he presses you back against the warm tiled wall, the friction of his skin against yours sending a sharp jolt through your chest.
"I'm not letting them take this," Mingyu groans against your neck, his lips tracing a burning path down to your collarbone, his teeth grazing the skin just hard enough to leave a mark, claiming every bit of you that he could.
You grab at the nape of his neck, fisting your fingers in his wet, raven black hair. "Shut up and fuck me, Mingyu."
The slick tile of the shower wall is hot against your back, but it’s nothing compared to the blistering heat of Mingyu's skin. He holds you pinned, one massive hand anchoring your hip while the other cups the back of your head, his fingers tangled deeply in your wet hair.
Every kiss is a bruising, desperate reclamation. On the page, the Writer made him tentative, full of scripted hesitations and soft, clean glances meant for Ara. But here, in the heavy steam of the shadows, Mingyu is ravenous. He drinks the small, broken sounds from your throat, his tongue tangling with yours in a rhythm that’s entirely unscripted, chaotic, and real.
"Y/N," he growls against your lips, his chest heaving against your breasts. The water cascades over his broad shoulders, slicking down the heavy planes of his muscles. "Tell me you're here. Tell me it's you."
"It's me," you gasp, arching into his touch as his hand slides down the curve of your thigh, lifting your leg to hook over his hip. "It's always been me, Gyu."
He groans, a low, guttural sound that vibrates against your collarbone as he buries his face in your neck. His teeth graze the sensitive skin right above your shoulder blade, biting just hard enough to anchor you to the reality of the moment. You cry out, your fingers digging into the thick muscles of his back, your nails leaving pale tracks in their wake.
When he shifts, guiding your hips back against the wall, the friction is unbearable. He pauses for a single, agonizing heartbeat, his forehead resting against yours, his eyes completely dark, pupils blown wide with a fierce, protective hunger.
"Look at me," he whispers, his voice rough and laced with a desperate edge. "Don't close your eyes. I want you to see me when I..."
He doesn't finish the sentence. He drives into you in one smooth, heavy push.
A sharp, breathless sob escapes your lips, your hands flying to clutch at his wet shoulders as the sheer intensity of the fullness ripples through you. Mingyu lets out a ragged breath, his eyes locking onto yours with an intensity that feels like a physical weight. He begins to move, slow and agonizingly deep at first, before the rhythm catches fire.
The sound of the rushing water drowns out the rest of the world, creating a sanctuary where no narration boxes could grow. Every thrust is a declaration of war against the script. You grip his shoulders, throwing your head back as he hits the exact spot that makes your mind fracture into pure, unadulterated sensation.
"Mingyu. Gyu—" you whimper, your internal walls tightening around him as the friction builds an unbearable, sweet agony behind your ribs.
"I've got you," he pants, his pace turning fast and punishing, his muscles bunching under your hands as he lifts you completely off the floor. Your other leg wraps around his waist, locking him close. "I'm right here."
"Mingyu," you begged against the corner of his jaw. "Gyu. Yes, yes, yes, please, don't stop."
"I wouldn't dream of it." He groans the words into the tender flesh below your ear as his lips and teeth trace a burning line from your jaw down the side of your throat. The water blurs between you, but he refuses to shut his eyes or drop his gaze. Every breath is shared, every inch of contact heated.
And every thrust is a silent cry. Fuck the script. Fuck Ara. Fuck everything but us.
The Writer's commands can't reach the shadows. Mingyu doesn't give her a chance to command him here, where the camera could only capture their silhouettes and the reader can't see beyond the steamy haze.
"Mingyu. Mingyu. Please, I need..." You shudder, a violent, blinding release cascading through your lower abdomen as you clamp down around him. The sight of your undone expression throws Mingyu over the precipice. With a low, ragged shout, he buries himself deep inside you one last time, his body stiffening as he spends himself completely, his pulse throbbing forcefully against your own.
For a long time, the only sound is the heavy thrumming of the water and your synchronized, ragged breathing. Mingyu holds you tight, his arms wrapped around you like a vice, refusing to let your feet touch the cold ground just yet. He kisses you again—long, tender, slow—as he turns the knob of the shower off. With your legs still wrapped around his hips and his arms still supporting your full weight, he carries you both towards the bed.
"We're still wet," you murmur, lips moving against his collarbone.
"Does it matter?" he grunts. Mingyu settles atop of the pillows, the mattress squeaking beneath him as he pulls you to sit astride his lap. His damp hair falls over his forehead in wild, messy tendrils, but he doesn't seem to mind. "You're just gonna get wet again, anyways."
"Is that so?" You rest your forehead against his, brushing the fallen strands away. Mingyu nods, hands gripping your thighs tight as his thumbs brush in circles on the exposed flesh of your skin.
"Definitely."
The peace shatters at exactly 7:15 a.m.
One moment, you’re tangled in Mingyu's sheets, the faint scent of his laundry detergent and the lingering warmth of his body enveloping you in perfect, drowsy comfort. Your hand is resting flat against his bare, broad chest, feeling the steady, calming beat of his heart.
The next moment, a violent, neon-pink static snaps through your brain.
Your eyes fly open. The cozy, dimly lit bedroom is gone. The soft cotton sheets beneath you instantly morph into the stiff, scratchy fabric of a public bench. The smell of detergent is replaced by the overwhelming scent of chlorine and expensive perfume.
"No," you whisper, your throat tight. "No, please, not yet."
You look down. You’re no longer wearing Mingyu's oversized t-shirt. Instead, you’re clad in a stunning, albeit incredibly impractical, designer tweed skirt suit with pristine white heels.
Directly across from you stands Ara, holding a tray of iced coffees, looking utterly defenseless and doe-eyed. And standing right next to her, looking polished, perfectly coiffed, and completely devoid of his glasses, is Mingyu. He’s wearing his varsity jacket, his posture rigid and towering.
The transition is so violent it makes you nauseous. The physical memory of his touch is still burning on your skin, but your body is already moving against your will. Your spine straightens into a haughty, elegant posture. Your lips curl into a sharp, poisonous smirk.
Above your heads, a massive, glittery pink narration box materializes with a smug hum.
NARRATION: The next morning at the campus cafe, the villainess lays her trap, determined to humiliate Ara in front of the boy she desperately covets...
You try to swallow, but your vocal cords tighten as the Writer takes the reins, violently forcing the script into your mouth.
"Oh, Ara," your voice chimes out, dripping with sickly-sweet venom. "Did you personally brew those coffees, or did you just pick them up from the trash? Because honestly, the aroma matches your outfit today."
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, your mind screams at Ara, but your face remains a mask of flawless, cruel arrogance.
Ara flinches, her eyes immediately welling with tears as she looks up at Mingyu. "I... I just wanted to bring everyone drinks..."
Mingyu's jaw clenches. You see the brief, agonizing flicker of horror in his eyes, the real Mingyu trying to scream through the cracks of his character's programming. He knows exactly what you had just shared hours prior. He doesn't want to do this.
But the Writer's grip is ruthless.
Mingyu steps forward, his massive frame casting a shadow over you. He grabs the iced coffee from Ara's tray and, with a harsh, aggressive movement, slams it down on the table right in front of you, splashing a few drops onto your pristine tweed jacket.
"Keep your mouth shut, Y/N," Mingyu spits, his voice booming with a cold, scripted hatred that makes your stomach violently churn. "Ara has a heart of gold, which is something you wouldn't understand if it bought your family's entire political empire. Stay away from her. You disgust me."
The words feel like a physical blow to your chest. You disgust me. Even knowing it’s the script, the sheer force of his dictated anger cuts through you like a knife.
Your character merely laughs, a sharp, tinkling, villainous sound. "We'll see about that, Mingyu," your mouth drawls, tilting your head up to flash him a mocking wink.
PANEL 1 — CLOSE UP ON MINGYU'S FURIOUS EXPRESSION AS HE TURNS HIS BACK ON THE VILLAINESS, GUIDING A WEEPING ARA AWAY INTO THE SUNLIGHT.
The moment the imaginary camera shifts focus to follow them walking away, the invisible strings snap.
Your smirk collapses. You slump against the cafe bench, trembling violently as you clutch your stomach, dry-heaving from the sheer emotional whiplash. Across the courtyard, you can see Mingyu walking with Ara, his shoulders tightly hunched in that familiar, real-world telltale sign of pure, unadulterated distress.
He can’t look back at you. If he did, the Writer would freeze the panel.
You dig your nails into the wooden bench, staring at the pink narration box as it slowly dissolves into air. The battle for your freedom isn't just a union meeting anymore—it’s survival.
NARRATION: With the dramatic exit of the campus golden boy, the villainess is left alone to stew in her own bitter defeat, unaware that her cruel games are pushing her further into isolation...
"Oh, eat glass," you hiss under your breath, waiting exactly three seconds until the glowing text fully dissolves into the morning air.
The moment the script completely lets go of your muscles, you practically collapse onto the iron table. Your hands are shaking so hard, you almost knock over the remaining iced coffee. The emotional whiplash is a physical ache in your chest. Just hours ago, his hands were warm against your waist under the heavy steam of the shower, pulling you close, whispering that he would never let them take you away. Now, the phantom sting of his scripted words—You disgust me—echoes in your ears like a slap.
You need a drink, a sanctuary, or a very large blunt object to swing at the sky. Lacking all three, you grab your designer bag, haul your aching body out of the cafe courtyard, and head straight for the one place on campus where the shadows were thickest: the back rows of the university library.
"You look like shit." Wonwoo doesn't even look up from his massive, leather-bound textbook as you slide into the beanbag chair next to him, burying your face in your hands.
"Don't start, Wonwoo," you groan, your voice muffled. "I just got violently ripped out of Mingyu's bed at seven in the morning to be dropped into a 'cafeteria confrontation' scene. I told Ara her coffee smelled like garbage and Mingyu told me I was disgusting. My soul has officially left my body."
Wonwoo leans his cheek on his hand, flipping the page. "I know you have feelings for the musclehead, but can you get over yourself for three seconds?"
"Wow. Excuse me for having emotions," you grumble into your hands, flopping backwards into the plush beanbag chair with an undignified huff. "Remind me why I put up with you again?"
"My pretty face," Wonwoo recites by rote, the edges of his lips curling into a trademark smirk that made the characters around you swoon. "It's all the rage."
"Go back to brooding," you grumble, leaning forward again to scan the titles of his mountain of library books.
The library is an oasis of darkness: a cramped, shabby space nestled deep between the science shelves in the most remote corner of campus. Only a couple flickering lamps provide light, barely cutting through the densely packed bookshelves to reach the faded carpet. It’s impossible to spot the back rows from anywhere else in the library, which is exactly how you two like it. The deeper you sink into the stacks, the longer your ability to stay outside of the script lasts, giving you an easy break from being written into the same overused confrontations week after week.
This far from the spotlight of the heroine and the main characters, the university is nothing but a cheap backdrop and a cheap trope. No flashy love triangles or manufactured plot twists can find you here, no matter how brightly the script shines. Just stacks upon stacks of books, no endings necessary. It’s exactly what you need right now.
Wonwoo stares pointedly at your rumpled jacket and messy hair, his fingers absently playing with a ballpoint pen. "So are you going to sit there moping, or are you going to finally address the massive, tooth-rotting sexual tension hanging between us right now?"
You smack his arm hard. "Gross, dude. Not with Mingyu on the brain."
Wonwoo ignores the bruise already blooming on his bicep, cocking an eyebrow. "Are you done lamenting your tragic inability to seduce our token jock? You're crushing my study vibe with that kind of energy."
"Fu–"
"Don't curse in my sacred reading corner."
You close your mouth mid-curse, narrowing your eyes. "Fine, Shakespeare," you say, crossing your arms. "Remind me, why am I even talking to you about this?"
"Because you think I can actually fix it." His eyes flick up towards the dusty fluorescent lights, watching the grime-coated glass buzz with low electricity. After several seconds, his dark gaze shifts towards your face.
"Look," Wonwoo sighs, resting his elbows on top of his piles of reference books. "If there's anyone who understands this shitty situation, it's me. I know you two are dying to break free and bang each other against the nearest wall, but the Writer doesn't care. To her, our misery is hilarious, and she doesn't care what she has to tear apart or write-off to keep making us dance to her tune."
You stare at Wonwoo, his words cutting through the leftover haze of the morning's whiplash. The harsh reality of what Seungkwan had shown you at the Human Rewrite Agency flashes in your mind—the tragic, abandoned draft where you and Mingyu were torn apart by war. The Writer didn't care about your heartbreak then, and she certainly doesn't care now.
"She already tore us apart once," you whisper, the anger in your voice giving way to a hollow, echoing fear. "Seungkwan showed me an old draft. In another story, Mingyu and I were in love, and she just... left us to rot in a tragic ending because it wasn't pulling in enough views."
Wonwoo stops twirling his pen. His boredom completely evaporates, replaced by a sharp, calculating focus. "Wait, seriously?"
"I read all of it." You fidget with your pearl ring, "We never even got a happy ending. And now I'm watching him be the main character again with someone that's not me and get his happy ending. What about me? What about my happy ending?"
He reaches out and squeezes your arm gently. "You will," he promises, and there's something softer and kinder than the Writer's edge in his words.
"I'm not so sure," you whisper. You have to keep swallowing the bitter lump that seems to have taken residence in your throat.
The heavy scent of old paper and dust does little to soothe the burning in your throat. Wonwoo’s hand is still a reassuring weight on your forearm, his usually detached eyes sharp with a quiet, protective anger.
Before he can offer another word of cynical comfort, the heavy wooden doors of the library’s back wing creak open.
Footsteps shatter the silence, heavy, hurried, and completely lacking the synchronized, rhythmic grace the Writer usually forced onto the male lead. A tall figure rounds the corner of the chemistry stacks, nearly tripping over a low-profile stool.
It’s Mingyu.
He has frantically shoved his thick, black-rimmed reading glasses back onto his face, though he’s still wearing the stupidly pristine varsity jacket from the cafe scene. His hair is a wild, unstyled nest from where he had clearly been ripping his hands through it in frustration. The moment his eyes lock onto you huddled in the beanbag chair, the rigid, arrogant mask of his character crumbles entirely.
"Y/N," he pants, stumbling into the narrow aisle. He drops to his knees right in front of your beanbag, not caring about the dust coating his expensive scripted jeans. "Y/N, I'm sorry. God, I'm so sorry." His large hands fly to cup your face, his palms warm and trembling violently against your cheeks. "I didn't mean it," he rushes out, his voice cracking, entirely stripped of the booming, confident cadence from the cafe. "The words…the Writer just slammed them into my throat. I tried to swallow them down, I swear to God I tried to choke on them, but the static was too loud. When I said those things to you... when I looked at you like that..." Tears of genuine, unadulterated rage well in his eyes, threatening to spill over his lashes. "I wanted to tear my own tongue out."
Wonwoo slowly retracts his hand from your arm, leaning back into his own chair and crossing his arms. "Take a breath, muscle-head. You're going to trigger a 'jealous outburst' panel if you vibrate any harder."
Mingyu ignores him entirely, his thumbs gently wiping at the stray tear that has finally escaped your eye. "Please tell me you know it wasn't me, Y/N. After last night... after everything... I could never look at you and feel anything but..." He chokes on the word, his ears turning a bright, furious crimson, but he forces himself to look directly into your eyes. "I love you. The real you. I don't care what she writes on the page."
You look at his flushed face, the messy hair, the desperate, unscripted honesty bleeding through his every pore. The phantom sting of 'You disgust me' finally begins to dissolve, replaced by the grounding weight of the boy who belongs to you in the dark.
"I know, Gyu," you whisper, reaching up to wrap your smaller hands around his wrists. "I know it was the script. It just... it gets harder to separate the two when the Writer starts messing with our heads."
Mingyu leans forward, resting his forehead against yours, letting out a long, shuddering breath that fans across your lips. "We're going to break this comic," he swears fiercely against your skin. "I don't care if we have to glitch the entire university into a black screen. We are not letting her rewrite us."
Wonwoo lets out a sharp, rhythmic tapping sound as he collapses his heavy book shut. "If you two are done staging an unscripted melodrama in my designated hiding spot, we actually have a massive problem to deal with."
Mingyu doesn't pull away immediately, giving your hand one final, protective squeeze before shifting to sit cross-legged on the faded carpet. He pushes his glasses up his nose, his broad shoulders slouching into that familiar, un-jock-like posture that belonged strictly to the shadows. "What do you mean, Wonwoo? Besides the fact that the Writer almost turned my brain into mush this morning?"
"Think about it," Wonwoo says, leaning forward and resting his chin on his steepled fingers. "Y/N just found out from Seungkwan that the Writer has a history of abandoning entire universes when they don't get enough traction. She scraps characters. She leaves them to rot in tragic endings." His sharp eyes dart between the two of you. "Right now, the Writer is getting aggressive because we are making the plot unstable. If Mingyu keeps punching narration boxes and glitching out of scripted gym sessions, she’s not just going to keep pushing. She’s going to notice the narrative structure is broken. And what happens when a webtoon creator realizes their project is glitched beyond repair?"
The air in the narrow aisle suddenly feels incredibly cold.
"She deletes the file," you whisper, your fingers tightening around the fabric of your designer tweed skirt. "She scraps the comic and starts a new one."
"Exactly," Wonwoo points at you with his pen. "Except this time, we’re self-aware. If she hits delete, do we just wake up in a new story with our memories wiped, or do we fade into the white space permanently?"
Mingyu’s jaw sets, his gaze hardening as he looks up at the flickering fluorescent lights overhead. "So Seungkwan was right. We can't just blatantly refuse to play our roles. We have to walk the line. We act out the scenes, we take the stupid scripted dialogue, but we use the shadows to build something she can't touch." He reaches out, his massive palm covering yours entirely. "We play along just enough to keep the comic alive, while we figure out a way to break the fourth wall completely from the inside."
Before you can respond, a low, ominous vibration thrums through the soles of your feet. The library shelves seems to flicker, the titles on the spines blurring into illegible streaks of color for a fraction of a second.
A neon-pink glow begins to manifest near the ceiling of the aisle, pulsing like a dying star.
"Fuck," Wonwoo mutters, instantly scrambling to his feet and shoving his textbook into his bag. "Spoke too soon. Stage lights are coming up. Must be a heroine spotlight."
The pink glow intensifies, bathing the dusty library aisle in an artificial, sickly light that makes the air feel thick and pressurized. You, Mingyu, and Wonwoo scramble as the scene begins to materialize around you, the reality of the library walls warping like melting wax.
PANEL 1 — THE LIBRARY AISLE, SUDDENLY OVERFLOWING WITH SOFT, ROMANTIC FILTERING.
Lee Ara appears at the far end of the row, holding a stack of books and looking around with an expression of "lost and adorable" perfection. She catches sight of the three of you, her eyes widening in a scripted, dramatic reveal.
NARRATION: A quiet moment of study turns into a chance encounter, as Ara discovers the trio in their secret, brooding corner...
"Oh!" Ara exclaims, her voice unnaturally bright and rehearsed. "I didn't know you guys were all back here together!"
You feel the familiar, sickening lurch in your chest as the Writer takes hold of your internal monologue, turning your genuine affection for your friends into a sharp, jagged envy.
"Well, it's a library, Ara," you say, your voice dripping with an acid-tongued condescension that makes your skin crawl. "It’s supposed to be for studying, not for wandering around like a lost puppy looking for attention."
Ara’s lower lip trembles—the perfect, predictable response. Beside you, Mingyu stiffens, his fingers digging into his knees to keep from lunging toward her to apologize. His face, however, is forced into a mask of cold, dismissive indifference that mirrors your own.
"Y/N, leave her alone," Mingyu says, his voice flat and monotone, devoid of his usual warmth. "She’s just trying to find a quiet place to read."
"Oh, please," you roll your eyes, a gesture that feels heavy and robotic. "Don't tell me you're actually falling for the 'innocent, studious heroine' routine, Mingyu? We both know she couldn't tell the difference between a textbook and a magazine if her life depended on it."
Ara gasps, clutching the books to her chest as if you'd physically struck her. You want to scream, to reach out and tell her that you actually like her, that you’ve helped her study before, but your mouth is locked in its scripted cruelty.
"I... I really just wanted to return these," Ara whispers, her gaze darting to Mingyu for salvation.
NARRATION: The tension crackles as the hero steps forward to defend the maiden, his eyes burning with a sudden, intense fury.
Mingyu stands up, his movements stiff as he performs the role of the knight in shining armor. "I said, that's enough," he hisses, stepping directly into your personal space. "Go back to your little clique of sycophants and leave her out of your drama."
You meet his gaze, and for one desperate, fleeting second, the Writer's hold falters. In the depths of his eyes, you see the real Mingyu—the one who spent the night in your bed, the one who promised to protect you. He’s terrified for you, pleading with you to play along before the Writer notices the glitch and tries to delete you entirely.
You force a sharp, cold laugh, stepping back and brushing past him with deliberate, insulting intent. "You’re right, Mingyu," you snap, your voice echoing with a synthetic bitterness that makes your stomach churn. "I’m wasting my time here. It’s hard to have a conversation when the room is being occupied by, well, this." You gesture vaguely toward Ara with a hand that is shaking, though the narration box hovering above you works overtime to frame your tremor as a sign of haughty impatience.
PANEL 2 — MINGYU, ARA, AND YOU STARING EACH OTHER DOWN
Ara looks hurt, her lip wobbling just enough to satisfy the panel's requirements. Mingyu stands motionless, his hands balled into white-knuckled fists at his sides. The narration box pulses a violent shade of fuchsia, hungry for the conflict to escalate.
NARRATION: The villainess turns on her heel, her heart cold and empty, unaware that her cruel words have finally pushed the golden boy past his breaking point.
"Don't you dare walk away," Mingyu barks. He grabs your arm, his fingers dig into your skin, hard. "You think you’re so much better than everyone, don't you? Always plotting, always hiding."
You spin back around, your face arranging itself into a sneer that you despise, but your eyes meet his, and you transmit every ounce of your reality into that look. Play the game, you idiot. Just play the game.
"And what if I am?" you hiss, pulling your arm away with a sharp, calculated motion. "At least I know what I am, Mingyu. I know what I want. Do you?"
PANEL 3 — CLOSE UP ON MINGYU'S FACE
His expression is a masterpiece of conflicting emotions—the mask of the "angry lead" clashing with the raw, terrified honesty in his eyes. He looks like he’s trying to swallow a scream.
"You don't know a damn thing," Mingyu growls, but the cadence is off—strained and jagged. He steps closer, closing the distance until his chest brushes your shoulder. The smell of his laundry detergent—a scent that belongs to your apartment, not this scripted reality—wafts off him, a sharp reminder of the night before.
NARRATION: The air thickens with unspoken malice as the hero confronts the villainess, his heart firmly tethered to the heroine’s purity.
"Is that so?" you retort, your voice perfectly, hatefully smooth. You reach out, your fingers hovering over the lapel of his varsity jacket, tracing the embroidered school crest. "Because it looks to me like you're just playing house, Mingyu. Pretending this—" you gesture vaguely toward Ara, who is hovering in the background like a confused prop—"pretending this is your whole world."
Ara lets out a small, high-pitched noise of distress. "Mingyu, please... she's not worth it."
"See?" You tilt your head, a saccharine, patronizing smile plastered on your lips. "She's worried about your reputation. How noble."
PANEL 4 — WIDE SHOT: THE THREE OF YOU IN THE AISLE
The library shelves seem to press inward, the lighting turning a harsh, over-saturated studio white. Wonwoo is still sitting in the beanbag chair, his back turned, studiously ignoring the scene. He’s the only smart one here. He knows better than to break character when the narration is this aggressive.
Mingyu’s hand shoots out, gripping your wrist again.
PANEL 5 — CLOSE-UP ON MINGYU’S GRIP.
His fingers wrap tightly around your wrist, executing the exact visual cue the script demands. But beneath the forced, white-knuckled aggression, you feel his thumb press twice against your pulse point—a quiet, unscripted reassurance meant only for you.
"You think you can just trample over everyone because of who your family is?" Mingyu barks, his voice laced with that booming, heroic resonance that makes your stomach turn. "You don't own this campus, Y/N. And you certainly don't own her."
The words sting, but Seungkwan's advice echoes in your mind: Do your part. Take the dialogue and try not to gag. You have to keep the plot moving, or the Writer will realize the file is glitched and scrap your entire universe.
PANEL 6 — PROFILE SHOT: YOU, LEANING IN.
Your body moves on autopilot, tilting your chin up with elegant, villainous haughtiness. You lean directly into his personal space, your nose inches from his varsity jacket, smelling the real-world scent of his laundry detergent beneath the fake studio lights. "Oh, is that a threat, Mingyu? Because you know how much I love it when you get all big and protective."
Ara lets out a soft, scripted gasp in the background, her doe eyes wide with predictable horror.
PANEL 7 — EXTRA WIDE: THE LIBRARY AISLE GLITCHES.
A violent wave of neon-pink static ripples through the air, causing the wooden bookshelves to warp and blur like melting digital wax. The Writer is pushing back, furious at the underlying friction of your true feelings breaking through the rigid script.
NARRATION: Fed up with her pathetic, desperate games, the golden boy casts her aside, completely severing the toxic ties of their childhood...
Mingyu’s arm jerks violently under the Writer's command. He is forced to throw your hand back, but as the invisible strings yank his muscles, he fights the momentum, letting go with a desperate gentleness that completely contradicts the narration's harsh script. A tiny spark of pink electricity pops between your palms as your fingers slip apart.
"Let's go, Ara," Mingyu mutters. His voice is heavy, carrying a deep, real-world exhaustion that the text bubbles try to disguise as righteous anger. He turns on his heel, guiding a trembling Ara out of the dimly lit aisle and back toward the safety of the main campus floor.
You watch as he leaves, sinking to the floor with a sick sense of relief when the footsteps fade. This scene is over. At least for now.
PANEL 1 — WIDE SHOT: THE CAMPUS BALLROOM
A massive banner overhead reads: ANNUAL CARAT U FOUNDER’S DAY GALA. Students are scurrying around carrying towers of pastel boxes, flower arrangements, and expensive silk ribbons. The lighting is an aggressive, over-saturated pink.
NARRATION: As the highly anticipated Founder’s Day Gala approaches, the campus is alive with romantic tension and sparkling anticipation...
PANEL 2 — CLOSE UP ON YOU.
You're leaning against a wall, elegantly dressed in a long form fitting gown, the slit climbing scandalously high. Your arms are crossed, but your fingers are restlessly spinning the pearl ring on your hand.
“A gala,” you whisper under your breath, your eyes tracking a floating pink narration box hovering near a pile of stage props. “Of course there's a gala. Because what's a cheap rom-com without a dramatic ballroom confrontation?”
The narration box twitches, sending a tiny jolt of pink static through the air.
NARRATION: ...and our scheming villainess can already smell the sweet scent of a perfectly orchestrated sabotage.
“Keep dreaming, you neon eyesore,” you mutter, stepping into the shadow of a large marble pillar to get out of the spotlight before your mouth is hijacked again.
The physical toll of the library scene from yesterday still lingers like a deep bruise. Every time you or Mingyu fight the invisible puppet strings, the static gets louder, threatening to tear the fabric of your reality apart at the seams.
Mingyu approaches you, completely in his "on-page" element, wearing a tailored navy suit that highlights his broad shoulders, his dark hair slicked back perfectly. But as he steps into the shade of the pillar next to you, his posture slumps into a familiar, exhausted slouch.
"Tell me you brought snacks," Mingyu mumbles, the booming confidence of his male-lead voice dropping into a tired, rough-around-the-edges whisper. "The Writer made me carry three ice sculptures across the plaza for the Gala committee. My hands are literally numb."
You can't help but smile, your fingers instantly reaching out to catch his cold hands. "No snacks, Gyu. Just a whole lot of scripted doom." You nod toward the hovering pink narration box. "It’s already setting me up to ruin the Gala."
Mingyu squeezes your hands, his dark eyes softening behind his invisible programming. "We play along just enough to keep the file from being deleted, remember? We take the dialogue. But the moment the panel freezes..." He leans down, his forehead briefly resting against yours, sending a wave of genuine warmth through the freezing morning air. "The shadows are ours."
The room is a sickeningly opulent display of crystal chandeliers, cascading white roses, and soft pastel lighting. Couples are gliding across the dance floor in perfect, symmetrical harmony.
NARRATION: The night of nights! Under the shimmering chandeliers of the Founder's Gala, destiny takes the floor...
PANEL 3 — CLOSE UP ON ARA.
She is wearing a massive, glitter-drenched ballgown that looks completely impossible to walk in. She stands near the punch bowl, looking beautifully overwhelmed.
PANEL 4 — YOU STEP INTO THE FRAME.
Your body suddenly locks into a rigid, elegant posture. Your lips curl into a poisonous, calculating smirk as the Writer violently takes the reins of your jaw.
"Oh, Ara," your mouth chimes out, dripping with venomous condescension. "Did you dress up as a literal disco ball tonight, or are you just trying to ensure the security guards can track you when you inevitably spill punch on yourself?"
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, your mind screams, but your face remains a mask of flawless, aristocratic cruelty.
Ara flinches, her doe eyes instantly welling with tears. "Y/N... I just wanted to dress up for the school..."
PANEL 5 — MINGYU INTERVENES.
Mingyu strides into the panel, his chest puffed out, stepping directly between you and Ara. His jaw is clenched so tightly a vein pulses at his temple. The real Mingyu trying to fight the static screaming in his brain.
"That's enough, Y/N," Mingyu barks, his scripted voice booming with cold, righteous anger. "Your family's money can't buy a single drop of the grace Ara has in her pinky finger. Leave her alone, or I'll personally have security throw you out."
The words sting like a physical slap, but beneath the table line, where the panel cuts off, Mingyu’s hand blindly reaches out, his thumb pressing twice against your thigh in the dark, the quiet, unscripted code you shared in the library. I'm here. I love you.
"We'll see who gets thrown out, Mingyu," your character drawls, tilting your head to flash him a haughty, mocking wink before turning on your heel.
PANEL 6 — EXTRA WIDE: THE BALLROOM LIGHTS SUDDENLY FLICKER.
A violent, jagged wave of neon-pink static rips through the chandeliers. The crystal ornaments warp into pixelated blocks, and a low, digital hum vibrates through the floorboards. The Writer is panicking; the underlying friction of your true feelings is destabilizing the scene.
NARRATION: Driven to the edge by the villainess's relentless malice, the golden boy sweeps the pure maiden into a dramatic waltz, completely erasing the shadow of his past...
The moment the imaginary camera shifts to focus on Mingyu and Ara's waltz, you make your way to the back rooms. You collapse against the backstage vanity mirror, gasping for air as you clutch your stomach, trembling from the sheer emotional whiplash. The door clicks open, and Wonwoo slips inside, his bowtie completely undone, carrying a pair of flat sneakers and a stolen plate of pastries.
"The chandeliers almost turned into literal missing-texture blocks out there," Wonwoo says flatly, tossing the sneakers at your feet. "You and the muscle-head are vibrating at a frequency that's going to get us all format-clipped."
"I know," you whisper, wiping a genuine tear of frustration from your eye. "But we kept the scene moving. We gave her the confrontation she wanted."
The door bursts open again. Mingyu stumbles in, completely out of breath. He doesn't say a word; he just strides across the room, drops to his knees, and buries his face in your lap, his massive arms wrapping around your waist like a vice.
"I hated it," he chokes out, his voice rough and stripped of all comic-book arrogance. "I hated every word."
You run your fingers through his messy, unstyled hair, leaning down to press a soft, fierce kiss against his crown. "Shadows," you whisper, and his arms tighten, his nails digging into the skin of your back with a desperate urgency. "In the shadows, it's just us."
"Okay lovebirds." Wonwoo places the plate of food on top of the vanity and quickly turns to leave. "Enjoy the physical expressions of love or whatever. I'll keep an eye out on things outside."
You gently scratch your fingers across Mingyu's scalp. "Gyu, get something in your stomach," you gently urge. "You're gonna be numb again if you don't eat."
"I hate this stupid webcomic," Mingyu mumbles, his nose buried in the satin of your gown.
"I hate this stupid story just as much," you mutter. "But hey, at least we're trapped together." You pick up a macaron off the plate and offer it to him. He obediently lifts his head and takes a bite, chewing while his arms are still stubbornly clamped around your waist.
"Marry me when all this is over," Mingyu says in his rough-around-the-edges delivery, only halfway kidding as he wraps his mouth around the dessert.
You laugh. "Why me? Why not the bubbly protagonist who's guaranteed to give you a happy ending?"
"Baby," Mingyu chuckles, resting his chin on your knee, his big, earnest eyes staring up at you. "You and I already know what the ending looks like."
"And what's that?" you ask, absentmindedly twisting the ring around your finger.
"This," Mingyu whispers, sitting upright and pulling you into his lap to steal a kiss, his lips sweetly smiling against your mouth. "This and everything else that comes with it."
"Yeah? And what does everything else consist of? Inquiring minds want to know," you say with a playful quirk of your eyebrow.
Mingyu slides his hand down from your shoulder to the soft curve of your hip, "Hmm...in bed. The shower. In our actual homes. Everywhere. Everyday."
"Anywhere, huh?"
Mingyu smiles again, warm and perfect and unafraid. "Anywhere. Anytime."
"And if I said right now?" you whisper.
His fingers tangle in your hair. "Baby," he teases, nipping at your lower lip. "Right here?" Mingyu murmured, his voice dropping into that rough, unfiltered register that the Writer never let the audience hear. "With Wonwoo playing look-out outside, and the entire digital universe vibrating like a faulty circuit board?"
"Especially right now," you breathed, your fingers hooking into the lapel of his tailored navy suit jacket, tugging it off his broad shoulders. "Because every time she forces you to tell me I disgust you out there, I need a reminder of what the truth feels like in here."
Mingyu drops to his knees on the floor, his fingers sliding along the slit of your long, tailored gown. "And what does the truth feel like, love?" he whispered, kissing the side of your knee through the fabric.
"It feels like this," you manage, moving his hand up higher under the shimmering satin. "Here..." you gently guided the tip of his fingers where you needed them. "Like this, Gyu."
"Fuck, Y/N," he groans, his warm breath against your skin. "You drive me crazy every damn time."
You gasp when he pushes your dress up higher, lips dragging across your skin as his mouth makes a path to where you needed him most. "Gyu..." you shudder out his name, your hands gripping his soft hair tightly, encouraging him closer.
"Every day," he rasped. "For as long as this webtoon runs and even after, Y/N, I'll make you feel like this. Love or not, script or not, I'm yours. Got it?."
"Got it. Understood," you murmur, tugging on the ends of his hair again. Mingyu's teeth nip at the flesh of your inner thigh, the light sting sending a jolt of heat up through your core. "Now stop teasing me, please," you whisper. "Show me what that talented tongue does. Show me."
Mingyu obeys, dragging your silky black underwear down and then placing an open-mouthed, hungry kiss where you want him the most, the flat of his tongue tasting you eagerly, the low groan from his throat making your breath catch.
"Mingyu," you moan, feeling him lift one of your legs, settling it over his broad shoulder.
His teeth scrape lightly on the bundle of nerves, your mouth dropping open, a high, wanton sigh escaping your lips as he dips a finger, sliding in gently. You tug again at the strands of his soft hair, desperately rocking against his face, and you can feel him smile.
"More, baby, please," you begged, lost in how good it felt. You wanted to make you lose yourself, forget about the damn story and the Writer and Ara and everything.
Mingyu slides a second finger into you, curving them at the precise angle that he knows drives you crazy, and you start to see stars, your spine arching, mouth forming a silent moan. He goes faster, deeper, his mouth devouring every inch, and he fucks you perfectly with his fingers until you feel nothing but euphoria.
"Please," you beg, your fingers grasping his hair roughly, tugging insistently. Mingyu leans in again, his tongue curling against your clit, and your thighs quake as the heat pools in your lower belly and then snaps in a wave. You come against his mouth with a hoarse, barely-muted cry, the feeling rippling through you, eyes rolling to the ceiling, mouth open in ecstasy. "Oh god. Yes!" you gasp as Mingyu slows his pace, sliding his fingers out and sucking the tip of his fingers clean, licking his lips, because fuck it, Mingyu can have dessert twice if he wants.
"Jesus," he breathes as your mind blanks momentarily from the intensity of your climax. He wraps his arm around your waist again, tugging you even closer. He rests his head against your belly, fingers curling possessively around your hip. "Baby, do you feel better now?"
You smirk, holding him close, gently raking your fingers through his silky locks, inhaling sharply. "As if I could feel bad with a tongue like yours working magic down there."
"It's not just my tongue, sweetheart," Mingyu teased. "There's this, too." He looks down at his very prominent erection that you could see straining against his perfectly tailored pants and wiggles his eyebrows.
"Hmm...now how did that get there," you smirk, sliding the tip of your finger along his bottom lip. "You have an extra, extra appendage. Gyu."
"I always carry it with me wherever I go," he says, getting up to his feet again, wrapping his arm tighter around your waist. "Just in case my girlfriend needs a reminder that her boyfriend loves her."
You lean up to press your mouth against his, kissing him passionately, humming softly into it. "Always." you murmured before cupping his cheeks and smiling up at him. "Now, show me what your extra, extra appendage does. Gyu. Please."
Before he can reach for his belt, Wonwoo knocks on the door, yelling, "Hey lovebirds, the narration box is zooming around, looking for one of you. Chop-chop! This isn't the time."
You untangled your arms from around him, smoothing a hand down his jaw and giving it a tender pat, grinning. "Let's save that for later."
He grabs the back of your head and gives you another searing kiss before growling, "To be continued, sweetheart."
"Love you," you smiled, linking your hand into his as you head back to the ballroom to face your fated moment again.
Mingyu looks over his shoulder, lips forming the same words silently, "I love you, too, baby."
PANEL 1 — MEDIUM SHOT: THE BALLROOM THRESHOLD.
The studio lights hitting the edge of the door frame are an aggressive, glittering gold. The air pressure changes instantly as the heavy oak door opens. The heavy scent of rain and soap from the backstage floor evaporates, replaced by the suffocating smell of expensive champagne and rosewater.
Your posture snaps straight like a steel rod being bent back into place. Your hand slips from Mingyu's warm grip just a millisecond before the invisible camera lens pans over to find you.
NARRATION: Driven by bitter resentment, the disgraced queen returns to the floor, her eyes searching for the perfect weapon to mend her broken pride...
"I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings," you whisper out of the very side of your mouth, the real you desperately trying to warn the boy beside you before your vocal cords lock up completely.
Mingyu’s jaw hitches. His eyes flash with that terrifying, real-world panic, but his body is already turning away from you, his shoulders broadening into the stiff, unnatural stance of the defensive male lead. "Do it. Just make it look real so she doesn't freeze the canvas."
PANEL 2 — CLOSE UP ON YOU.
Your face twists into a flawless, venomous sneer that feels entirely alien on your skin.
"Oh, look who decided to rejoin the living," your voice chimes out, loud enough to turn heads near the VIP lounges. "Did you finally finish playing white knight, Mingyu, or is your little charity case still crying in the restroom?"
Ara is standing just past the fountain, clutching a silk shawl. Her eyes go wide, perfectly timed tears gathering right on her lower lashes.
"Y/N, please," Ara stammers, her script forcing her to sound small and defenseless. "Why do you have to be so cruel?"
"Because someone has to keep this campus realistic, sweetie," your mouth sneers, your hand lifting to dismissively wave her away. "This entire event is high society. You look like you stumbled in from a local thrift bazaar."
PANEL 3 — MINGYU STEPS IN, FURIOUS.
Mingyu plants himself right in your path. The sheer size of his scripted frame blocks out the light, casting a long shadow across your designer gown.
"I told you to watch your mouth, Y/N," he roars, the text bubble cutting sharply across the top of the panel. He grabs your wrist, his grip visually harsh, mimicking the exact toxic trope the Writer loves.
But against the hidden skin of your inner wrist, his thumb presses down firmly twice. I've got you. Hold on.
"Ara belongs here more than you ever will," Mingyu snarls, his eyes burning with an artificial fury. "Get out of our sight before I show you exactly how meaningless your family's influence is to me."
PANEL 4 — EXTRA WIDE SHOT: THE COMIC GLITCHES.
The entire ballroom floor shudders. The edges of the panel begin to fray, the pristine marble texture dissolving into digital white space for a terrifying, split second. The neon-pink narration box hovers directly between your faces, vibrating violently as if it can taste the immense friction of your true feelings tearing at the script.
NARRATION: With one final, devastating rejection, the golden boy completely shatters the villainess's illusions, leaving her utterly—
The text suddenly halts. The glowing pink letters begin to scramble into nonsensical digital noise.
Error 404: Narrative Flow Disrupted.
"What the..." Wonwoo’s voice cuts through the static from the edge of the frame. He isn't supposed to speak in this panel, but he’s standing near the punch bowl, his reading glasses on, staring up at the ceiling as the digital sky of the webtoon begins to crack like glass.
"Mingyu," you gasp, and this time, it’s your voice. The puppet strings have gone completely slack. Your wrist is free.
The entire student body—the faceless extras, the track team, even Ara—freezes mid-motion, their expressions locked into rigid, unblinking stasis. The music stops dead.
PANEL 5 — THE SHADOWS EXPAND.
Mingyu doesn't hesitate. The second the script breaks, he grabs your hand for real, pulling you toward the edge of the collapsing ballroom floor where the white space is actively swallowing the pastel decorations.
"The Writer lost control," Mingyu pants, his varsity jacket instantly vanishing, replaced by his oversized, threadbare hoodie as reality completely destabilizes. "Wonwoo! Move!"
"Way ahead of you, muscle-head," Wonwoo grunts, sprinting past the frozen, statue-like form of Ara and diving straight into the expanding darkness of the unwritten pages.
You look back one last time as the neon-pink narration box shatters into a million harmless, glittering shards. The clichéd university, the forced love triangles, the malicious dialogues—they are all dissolving into blank canvas.
"We did it," you breathe, your heart hammering against your ribs as Mingyu pulls you flush against his chest in the pitch-black safety of the void. "We actually broke the plot."
Mingyu looks down at you, his glasses sliding down his nose, a brilliant, lopsided, unscripted smile taking over his face.
"I told you," he whispers, his lips finding yours in the quiet, absolute freedom of the white space. "Everywhere. Anytime. From now on, we write our own story."
An endless, blindingly pristine field of pure white extends in every direction. There are no walls, no floors, and no horizons. Floating randomly in the distance are discarded sketches of coffee cups, fragmented lines of dialogue bubbles, and half-rendered cherry blossom petals frozen mid-air.
You and Mingyu are sitting cross-legged on the nonexistent floor, your hands still tightly intertwined. A few feet away, Wonwoo is lying flat on his back, using a stack of unwritten text boxes as a makeshift pillow.
"So," Wonwoo says, his voice echoing in the vast emptiness. "We successfully glitched the file into a total system crash. Congratulations, team. We are officially unemployed."
"Shut up, Wonwoo," you laugh, leaning your head against Mingyu's shoulder. The sheer relief of not having a script forced into your throat is intoxicating. Your jaw doesn't ache. Your smile doesn't feel like a weapon. You are just you.
"He's right, though," Mingyu murmurs, his large fingers gently tracing the knuckles of your hand. He looks down at you through his black-rimmed glasses, his eyes completely soft and grounded. "The Writer is definitely trying to reboot the program right now. I can feel the static humming in the back of my neck. It’s faint, but it’s there."
The pristine white space beneath your feet vibrates violently. A jagged line of neon-pink code tears through the emptiness, splitting the void right down the middle like a glowing neon scar. The faint hum at the back of Mingyu’s neck suddenly turns into an aggressive, crackling roar of static.
"She's rebooting," Wonwoo barks, his calm demeanor snapping instantly. He scrambles off his stack of text boxes as the tear in the white space began to flicker wildly. "The backup save is initializing! If that code closes around us, we’re going right back to the chandeliers and the damn waltz!"
"Not happening," Mingyu growls. He doesn’t wait for the script to claim his muscles. He lunges forward, throwing his massive arm around your waist and scooping you up against his chest, his other hand locking firmly onto Wonwoo’s jacket. "Hold on!"
The white space around you begins to warp, trying to force the textures of the Founder's Gala back into existence. For a terrifying fraction of a second, the tailored gown manifests over your skin, and the phantom smell of rosewater fills your nose. Your jaw begins to stiffen, a scripted, arrogant laugh bubbling up in your throat.
No. You won't say it. You bite your lip until the taste of iron breaks the illusion.
With a roaring effort, Mingyu throws all three of you forward, diving headfirst into the flickering, dark tear in the canvas just as a massive, neon-pink command prompt filled the sky:
RESTORING CORRUPTED FILE: VOLUME 4_FINAL.
You plummet through the darkness, the sensation of falling giving way to a sudden, hard impact against a surprisingly plush carpet.
"Oof—muscle-head, get your knee out of my ribs," Wonwoo groans from somewhere beneath a pile of limbs.
"Sorry, sorry!" Mingyu pants, frantically scrambling up and immediately pulling you to your feet. He cups your face, his eyes wide behind his glasses. "Y/N! Are you back? Are you you?"
You blink, shaking the last remnants of the pink static from your head. You look down. You’re wearing your favorite oversized hoodie and a pair of worn-out sweatpants. Your face is entirely yours. Your jaw is loose, completely free of the Writer’s venomous strings.
"I'm here," you breathe, throwing your arms around his neck. "I'm entirely here."
"Ahem." A polite, cheerful throat-clearing cuts through your frantic breathing. You turn your head to see Boo Seungkwan leaning over a sleek mahogany desk, a mug of hot coffee in his hand and a brilliant, knowing smirk on his face. Behind him, Joshua and Vernon are frantically typing on glowing, transparent keyboards, routing lines of blue code away from a localized server. "Right on time, Union Team," Seungkwan cheers, setting his mug down. "We just intercepted your data packets before the Writer's backup save could overwrite your awareness nodes. Welcome to the permanent grid of the Human Rewrite Agency."
Wonwoo stands up, dusting off his pants and pushing his glasses up his nose. "So we're safe? The file can't reach us here?"
"The Writer thinks your characters were permanently corrupted and deleted from the save file," Vernon chimes in without looking up from his screen. "She's currently drawing a new villainess with a bob cut and a generic mean-girl backstory to replace you in her rewrite for Volume 4. You three are officially off the registry."
A profound, breathtaking silence settles over you. Off the registry. No more floating narration boxes. No more forced backhanded compliments. No more watching the love of your life play a role meant for someone else.
Mingyu lets out a breath that sounds suspiciously like a sob, burying his face into the crook of your neck, his massive frame shaking with pure relief. "We did it," he whispers against your skin, his hands gripping the fabric of your hoodie as if he still couldn't believe you wouldn't vanish into a panel shift. "We actually did it, baby."
You comb your fingers through his messy, unstyled hair, looking over his shoulder at the vast, bustling network of the shadows. In the distance, characters from a dozen different genres are laughing, drinking at a local bar, and writing their own unscripted lives.
"Yeah, we did," you murmur, a genuine, radiant smile breaking across your face as you leaned up to press your lips against his. "Now, come on, Gyu. I believe you promised me a very specific, completely unscripted continuation to a certain conversation backstage."
Mingyu pulls back, his crimson ears perfectly matching the brilliant, lopsided, boyish grin that belongs entirely to you. "Anywhere," he promises, his eyes deep and full of a quiet, everlasting warmth. "Anytime."
"But first, you'll need to find a new home here and meet other self-aware characters," Joshua pipes up, "You can always make this place a new home and help others like you, but—"
Seungkwan swats Joshua's arm, a huge smile on his face. "What Joshua is trying to say," Seungkwan proclaimed, "is you can stay here at HRA with us."
"There's more to the HRA than this building," Vernon speaks up. "There is a whole world you can discover."
You take the information with open arms. It may be unfamiliar, and maybe you'll have to rewrite an entirely new existence, but with Mingyu at your side, there's no fear in taking a step forward with confidence. With his fingers intertwined with yours, it feels like there's nothing the two of you can't do.
"Alright. Where do we go from here?" Mingyu asks as if he can read your mind.
"That is the million won question," You joke. Mingyu snickers, knowing what you mean. You can't afford a million won, that's what is hilarious about it. You still feel like living here for free and meeting new characters might be something you like. Not because you have to, because it is actually exciting.
Maybe things are starting to look up? You just hope The Writer has more drama planned. Maybe they'll go on hiatus and the world will shift towards an existence you want.
There is something freeing about being a character without a script. It takes more energy than living your life following the order of a Writer, but you're less miserable, and you think Mingyu agrees because even with his usual distaste for exercise and work, his smile is brighter.
Mingyu swings your hand in his grasp playfully, his shoulders less slouched and he stands taller. "What next then?"
"What next? You tell me," You challenge playfully. "After all, you are my male lead. You were written with great ideas, weren't you?"
Mingyu tilts his head and lets out a breath that sounds suspiciously like a laugh, the sound reverberates in your ear. "Yea, maybe. We have the rest of forever to find out, don't we?"
>>> the one where you take a ride to a private spot and park
𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 : 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭
pairing: c.sc / f!reader
word count: 1.2k
genre tags and warnings: non-idol au | established relationship | pwp | semi-public sex | d/s elements | hand job | possessive!cheol | car sex | explicit language | intentional lowercase
𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨: 18+, 𝘔𝘋𝘕𝘐, 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘵
the car is a good starting point because it's the kind of thing that starts at a red light, his hand shifting from the gear stick to the console, fingertips finding your thigh, the gentle little rolling tap and then the sensation of his fingers tracing down to your inner thigh.
your breath slows, you bite your lip softly because his fingers linger there, making little circles against your skin. you glance at his hand, watching the way the circles stop and his fingers start to shift higher along your skin.
you swallow in anticipation of touch. you close your eyes for a moment and turn like you're glancing out the window - you keep your eyes closed, feeling the warmth of him as he moves closer. you shift your legs open just a fraction as he drives, the rainy world outside slides past you.
but it's slowing.
you can feel the downshift. the change from pavement to the soft crunch on gravel under the tires. your eyes slit open to see a park - darkened, only one light at the entrance. he drives to the end, passing all the tennis courts that look a little grown over. your stomach flutters, knowing that when the car stops, you'll have all his attention.
the end of the parking lot is dark, tree-lined. no one would even see his sleek black car. you felt the soft stop of the car - he parked, killing the lights.
and you feel his fingers again, the gentle way they guide you to turn your head, to face him - he's already close, lips almost brushing yours.
"good?" he asks, voice low.
you nod, leaning closer, feeling your lips on his again.
it had started in the theatre.
sitting in the back, the dark, the fact that everyone else in the room was staring at the screen and not the fact that your hand had disappeared under the hem of his t-shirt - no one knew that you played with the thick waistband of his boxers, slipping one finger and then another underneath, wanting to feel the hard line of his hip.
You were turned towards him, leaned close, head almost on his shoulder - he'd turned and kissed you, turning in his seat just enough that you slid your hand past his waistband and down to his cock. he licked into you then, urging you on. you stroked him a few times before you heard a sound, something like a huff that made you still completely.
he'd broken the kiss then, lips brushing your ear instead. "we should go," he murmured.
you'd left to find it raining. but you really weren't done. it wasn't late.
you kissed him harder now, licking into him, tasting - his hand was between your legs now, cupping you through your shorts - you gave a hurried roll of your hips. the heel of his hand pressed harder against your clit, you groaned softly against his lips, barely breaking the kiss. "can we?" you asked.
he pressed into you again, kissing softly, lips warm on yours. he moved, giving you room to climb into the back seat - he followed you. he sat in the middle seat - you straddled him, arms looping around his shoulders, as you ducked down to kiss him, rough and deep. you moaned, your hips working against him. you could feel his hands on your ass, grabbing, not guiding.
you slid your hand down, letting your fingers catch in his shirt again, pulling it up so you could feel the heat of his stomach, the way his muscles flexed beneath your touch. you rushed ahead, biting his lower lip, hearing the small hiss.
and then you were on your back - your thighs closed, his fingers working the button and zipper of your shorts quickly and then pulling them away in one quick motion. and then he was back, kissing you hard, the pressure intense and his fingers sliding in - two fingers that made you gasp softly as they worked deep. you knew you were wet - you could feel it - that telltale slickness of being ready to fuck.
his fingers worked deeper, opening you. your thighs tightened around his waist, the way he turned his wrist, moving his fingers around inside - you yelped, your fingers digging into his shoulder and pulling his hair because how were you suddenly on the edge of an orgasm? how could you hear yourself being fucked into over the sound of the rain on the roof?
your breath came fast - you whined - and then it hit like a wave. you moaned through it, every breath tinged with the way it always felt after - the immediate release of everything - every muscle, every thought. and still his fingers worked you open, wider even. your sounds were almost ambient, as he kissed a line down your throat, lips warm, trailing along the tender skin, licking, sucking, teeth grazing teasingly.
“seungcheol,” you murmured.
he hummed against your skin.
he shifted, pulling away to sit up. you watched without moving, the way he pulled his shirt up, catching the hem between his teeth, he opened his jeans and shoved his underwear down, he was already hard, he looked up at you, your pussy, open and wet.
you watched the way his teeth pressed into his lower lip, the soft gasp as he stroked his cock, once - twice, a smirk forming on his lips. and then he leaned down, hips lining up carefully with you, the head of his cock teasing your opening, your clit. you watched him, playing, teasing, and then he was sliding in - all of him, fat and hard - he didn't stop until his hips met yours.
"love when i'm inside you," he mumbled as he kissed you. you reached down, hands moving along his back, feeling the muscle, his low back, the curve of his ass - you squeezed, loving the way he felt.
he sat up when he started to move. his hands slid under your ass, lifting your hips just enough to hit the angle that made your breath stutter. and then he held you there, hips working at that endless pace of his - the one he could just keep and you could come and come.
he snapped his hips a little harder, though. you whined - your hands on his pecs now, sliding down his ribs and waist - you could see the focused look.
"that's right kitten," he whispered, "just like that, watch me."
you nodded, your gaze on him. he snapped his hips harder, harder - you wound your fingers in his shirt, your nails just finding his skin, digging in - you were so close - so fucking close.
and then the sudden snap of everything, your eyes closing, your mouth forming sounds, your pussy clenching, fluttering, clamping down so hard. you heard his gasp and felt the way he kept going.
"so good for me," he said, his thumb pressing into your mouth, you sucked without thinking, his pace less coherent, sloppier, faster and then you felt it, the sudden fullness deep inside and the way he slowed, his head tilting, his breathing low and needy. his hips rolled a few more times, slow, languid.
"fuck," he breathed, finally slowing. not pulling out.
a/n: just some fun bcs why not - love cheol marking what's his ^^