we did not spend our life together
but at least i still buy the same eggs as you
and i still have the gifted christmas pajamas
i still listen to taylor swift, despite so many songs relating back to you
i refuse to have my favorite songs be ruined, even though they hurt
and i do wonder if you will think of me october 27 too
we did not spend our life together
but at least i still sleep hugging the plushie you gave me
and i know how you take you coffee and what you eat for breakfast
i now drink lemonade instead of soda, by the way
i try to get out of the house almost daily, if only to go buy myself some
and i can still hear you next to me in the grocery store some days
some days you're kind to me, other days we fight in my head over prices and what to buy
you're like a phantom limb pain i just can't shake for now
i know you're not there anymore, but i feel it
i love comparing you to phantom pain
or anything ghostly in general
maybe it's because i have this fantasy of haunting you, having you regret what happened, winning all those arguments in my head
when the truth is, you're probably the one haunting me with the fact i meant less than trivial things
you loved the way i called you honey, just not enough to fix us
well, honey, we were mostly bad, sometimes good
and you kissed my face and fell asleep stroking my hair
and we did not spend our life together
and we fought and i cried and you screamed
and i broke my promise that i would not regret you
oh, honey, because we ran all the love into the ground.
but at least i still buy the same eggs as you
that has to account for something.
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