Diary Of A 26 Year Old Introvert @diaryofa26yointrovert - Tumblr Blog

“Stay single until someone actually complements your life in a way that makes it better not to be single. If not, it’s not worth it.”

— Unknown

I am tired. My heart is tired.

It can be really bloody lonely over here. It’s lonely watching all your friends leave the party hand in hand only to have to go home to a dark, empty house. It’s lonely being the only single person at the wedding table. It’s lonely at Christmas, on your birthday, when something good happens, when something bad happens. It’s lonely on long weekends, or when your sick or hungover. It’s lonely going to sleep by yourself every. single. night. And I’ve been doing that for the last 10+ years.

I’m a little bit tired of fearing I’d be the bad fruit nobody buys.

Inadequate.

When is it my turn?

Why don’t I deserve love?

lostdeepindarkthoughts

silvermoonwritings

“If I really care, I'll try like 400 times. But once I'm done, it's over.”

I distance myself first to protect myself from getting hurt. When I feel or sense someone acting even slightly different, I pull away and put the walls back up so I have control and I feel like I’m the one who ends it and then I don’t get my heart broken.

kruschonka

The thing about avoidant attachment style is you can’t heal it yourself. And you will try to, that’s the whole fucking point, the emotional independence oh I can handle everything myself I always dooo. But you can’t this one, that’s the exact mindset we’re trying to fix man.

kruschonka

The thing about avoidant attachment style is you can’t heal it yourself. And you will try to, that’s the whole fucking point, the emotional independence oh I can handle everything myself I always dooo. But you can’t this one, that’s the exact mindset we’re trying to fix man.

idkmaybeitsbpd

Me: Okay! I am ready to date again!

Healthy potential partner: Hey! I could be consistent with affection and showing love.

Me: Hmmm, okay……what else is out there?

Avoidant potential partner: I’ll be consistent in the beginning but eventually be so inconsistent that you’ll question your worth and start chasing me

Me: Yeah I want this one!

flittermousemoth

Well hello if it isn’t my old friend, “I’m scared I’m developing a connection that may turn into anxious attachment and now I have to avoid someone who has done nothing wrong,” we meet again.