Diary Of a BIG Gurl

Anything is obtainable if you REACH!

[diaryofabiggurl]

Love this fucking song!!!!!

[diaryofabiggurl]

Welcome to 2017 guys!!!! The year that everything you want is already yours. I'm über excited God granted me the privilege of facing another day. The fact that we're all here is fucking amazing. We survived all of the shit that hurt us & changed us forever. Yet and still we've crossed the finish line like a boss, so give yourself a pat on the back. Get excited because this is the year that EVERYTHING you want will be manifested into your life. Often times we loose hope of a better reality. We think good shit can only happen to others. That's bullshit, stop being caught up in the matrix that celebrities are the only ones worthy of success. They are people just like you & I. The only difference is their perspective, journey, & work ethic. Despite the current state you're in, things can change dramatically. Wanting a better life is only half the battle. You have to also allow yourself to receive it, believe it and trust that you are deserving. Take it from the person who've had many shitty days, but hope & belief changed my life. Don't get me wrong I've experienced depression & temporary negative thoughts. But once I understood that I was worthy of something greater & believed in the things not yet seen/experienced, my life began to change. I positioned myself to receive what was already mines. Love is something we need more of in 2017. These past few days has been rough on my spirit because I've witnessed so much hate & fuckery. I'm so thankful I'm not consumed in the lives of others more so than my own. We're all going to fcking die, it's inevitable. So make this year count & live it to your fullest potential. Stop spending your precious time on bullshit. Stop allowing negativity to corrupt your mental space. Fill your mind with love, hope, & belief. You're dope as fck and deserving of your wildest dreams! Happy New Year!

[diaryofabiggurl]

10 Day Smoothie Challenge

I have decided to join the 10 day smoothie challenge. Yes, we live in the era of challenges so I thought, “hey let me hop on board.” If you’ve been following me, then you know my health has been a big issue in my live. It’s like a constant loosing battle, and everyone else makes it look so easy. Well speaking of easy, Day 1 was super easy. I didn’t have the desire to eat horrible and I joined a facebook group. This group consists of a community people doing the 10 day smoothie challenge. It’s so helpful and I feel so motivated when I reading the post. I even ask a few questions, they are very knowledgeable.  Here are my Day 1 Smoothie ingredients and snacks, that kept me fulfilled:

Day 2: 

Day two was the day from hell, it started off great. I slept ok and I woke up running to the restroom. (Sidebar: I actually pee 100 times a day and poop atleast 3 times a day.) I stepped on the scale and to my surprise I lost 10 pounds. I blinked, got off the scale, and got back on to double check. I was 10 pounds lighter hunty and I started jigging lol. This instantly motivated me to start making my day 2 smoothie, which is pictured below.

So all was well, until the headache from hell creeped up on me. My head is pounding as I type and a part of me wants to say to hell with this. Like why am i suffering from trying to turn my health around? I’m perfectly fine when I down my hot wings and french fries. Speaking of which, I left my smoothies for lunch and dinner in my fridge by mistake. and I’m proud to say that I still didn’t convert to my old ways and order take out. I ate my tuna, and crunched on my fresh veggies, and stayed the course. Day 2 is almost over guys, pray for me because It was not as easy as day 1! I did read in JJ Smith’s book that the more toxic you are, the more sever your headaches will be. So this is physical proof that this detox is needed. 

[diaryofabiggurl]

This along with my tumblr is going to lead me to a better version of myself! Always consistently improve 👌🏽

[purplebuddhaproject]

[diaryofabiggurl]

Yes

[diaryofabiggurl]

Starting tomorrow I will be doing a #10daygreensmoothiecleanse because if you know me, you know I love fast food! I try to workout as much as I can but the truth is I eat horribly! So if you'd like to follow my journey check out my Tumblr : diaryofabiggurl ❤️ wish me luck! #weightloss #healthylife #toxinfree

[kushandwizdom]

[diaryofabiggurl]

👌🏽💯

[jheneaiko]

new balance

most of us are angry most of us are strangely more alike than we’d like to believe

most of us are empty most of us are simply more alive in the scenes of our dreams

then there’s you

you’ve got something I’ve been wanting

you’re so new

you’re my salvage you’re my balance

you’re so new

most of us are hurting most of us are searching someone to love someone to understand

most the time i’m fighting multiple voices residing in my head

then there’s you you bring silence to my violent truth

you’re my salvage you’re my balance

you’re so new

it hit me like a tidal wave knew that i was in love with you right away turned all my days into brighter days even when people say what we do is not ok

according to what the people say who cares what other people say

man fuck what other people say

i'mma ride for you baby if you gon ride for me

cuz i know that what we share is real and I feel so confident in

all you say

when you say

you’ll never leave you’ll never leave please never leave

yea, i believe you

most of all i am thankful you are just what i prayed for you are what i was made for

yes, im for sure

most of all i just want to mean the most to you most of all baby im just tryna grow with you i just wanna go with you

cuz you bring so much hope to the picture

some of us do find the one to fall in love and off of the fucking face of the earth with

some of us DO deserve it a love thats true and perfect

some of us been through it all before

some of us do still come back for more…..

(via jheneaiko)

I fcking love Jhene Aiko ❤️❤️

[thecalminside]

Our true home is the present moment. If we really live in the moment, our worries and hardships will disappear and we will discover life with all its miracles. Real life can only be found and touched in the here and now.

Thich Nhat Hanh (via thecalminside)

[diaryofabiggurl]

Yesterday I woke up to my dear friend Face-timing me! He gave me the grandest Happy Birthday....followed by, "Anything you want to do, it's on me...it's early pack your bags we can go on a road trip to a beach, anything I got you! I just want you to have a great bday you deserve it" Let me say this.....I'm so honored to have great friends, I've been blessed to experience 31 different birthdays with AMAZING family & friends. Each year is unique in its own way & I'm so very blessed! Love you all who showed me love on my special day. Jaye & Moses I love you guys so forever 💑 (at No Mas Cantina)

[purplebuddhaproject]

You think of yourselves as humans searching for a spiritual awakening, when in fact you are spiritual beings attempting to cope with a human awakening. Seeing yourselves from the perspective of the spirit within will help you to remember why you came here and what you came here to do.

(via purplebuddhaproject)

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[diaryofabiggurl]

🙌🏾🙌🏾

[thegoodvibeco]

[diaryofabiggurl]

💯

[purplebuddhaproject]

Holding on to anything is like holding on to your breath. You will suffocate. The only way to get anything in the physical universe is by letting go of it. Let go & it will be yours forever.

Deepak Chopra (via purplebuddhaproject)

[purplebuddhaproject]

You cannot use someone else’s fire; you can only use your own. And in order to do that, you must first be willing to believe you have it.

Audre Lorde (via purplebuddhaproject)

[purplebuddhaproject]

http://ift.tt/1LLtH2O

[diaryofabiggurl]

🙏🏾

[glamdoll-z]

You can’t force a relationship, and you can’t force the other person to care and love you the same way you love them.

glamdoll-z  (via seulray)

  (via kushandwizdom)

So true, love yourself you gain a better reward by doing so!