this is super after the fact, but i just want to put this somewhere
Before we start, do you have anything you want to say to me? just why? And why not talk to me sooner? over the past two years you’ve become such a large part of my life as emotional support and an awesome friend ive loved spending time with. I still do respect you hugely as a person because you always seem to be there in someones time of need and for the past two years you’ve showed yourself to be such a selfless person that positively impacts everything/one. I think the reason i lashed out at you was because i couldn’t really come to terms with what you, my phoebe, who has been such a rock for me, did to me. I really really want to put this behind us, but at the same time i think you can understand why it is so hard for me to let this go. I dont know what i want to do because i want to have the amazing, respectful and emotionally supportive phoebe in my life but everytime i see you know all i can see is the phoebe that knowingly cheated on me and i dont how to get over that.
I also understand that being defined by one action is the shittiest thing that can happen and in light of that i want to forgive you bc highschoolers make mistakes and this is just one mistake, albeit a giant colossal one. To work so hard for something and to have it ripped away bc of one failure in judgement is really unjust. I know bc i thought i had fucked up all my hard work in school by that one decision to drink. My mom showed my that forgiveness is the way to go when she forgave my actions that almost killed me. and helped me grow and better myself as a person. she gave me a second chance and i want to give you one. (also you gotta fuckin apologize to snell cause you fucked him up too.)