my neurodivergent thoughts
the emotions exhaust me more and more
i rather sit in silence and be alone
i hate the noise and the lights
stop touching me, i don’t want to look you in the eyes
stop talking to me, i can’t talk back
let it be over soon
i want to be happy again
i want to be invited even though i can’t come
stop making me scared that we aren’t friends anymore
sure, sometimes you don’t want me around
but say it to my face or in the conversation we have over the phone
don’t leave me guessing over why you didn’t ask me to come
i want to leave this place
i want to live alone
i can’t leave this place
i can’t live alone
i’m not capable
but what if i am?
these times fill my head with dark thoughts i don’t want to think about
and i just want to be free again to do what i want
though i don’t know if even then i can put myself to do the things i want
i’m not capable
but what if i am?
i’m so tired already
stop playing with my head
i don’t want to do it like this
stop making me tired
leave me alone
don’t leave
just go
don’t leave
i think i need help
but i can’t ask questions
pick up the signs
i want to be better again
i need to be better again
for me
i’m not capable
but what if i am?
