the broken are more evolved

independent fandomless oc. heavy trigger content warning. this is not for the faint of heart. penned by remmy.

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the loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.

F. Scott Fitzgerald (via beautifulimpairment)

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*SMOOCH*

excellent, now that i have your attention: this is a smol starter call. i’ll be reblogging  this for the next day or two while i work on drafts. this is not because i do not need more things to do, but more to get back into oliver’s head. that being said…. feel free to like this post for a smol starter from my precious bean !!

UPDATE: i’m going to vegas tomorrow! so like this up for a starter and i will get to it when i return !! <3

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*SMOOCH*

excellent, now that i have your attention: this is a smol starter call. i’ll be reblogging  this for the next day or two while i work on drafts. this is not because i do not need more things to do, but more to get back into oliver’s head. that being said…. feel free to like this post for a smol starter from my precious bean !!

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warrioroflondonbelow:

“Of course! I’d love to go to New York with you, Oliver. Have I ever mentioned how I’ve always wanted to see New York? I mean, even if it’s for just a wee couple of days, that’s still pretty neat, right?” beamed Richard. In fact, he remembered that he and Jessica were planning a trip there at some point. So much for going together. Still, at least he was with Oliver. “Besides, I don’t think it’s a good idea to be movin’ yer’ things, plus the cats all alone. Definitely a hassle.– If you want I can even book two tickets for next week later today, if you’d like?” 

         blinking at richard slowly, oliver attempted a BRIEF smile, shoving porcelain hands in the pockets of his jeans. “ um----i-i mean, i d-don’t think it’s all that impressive but... ” he nodded his head regardless, nibbling at his bottom lip a tad nervously. “ b-but thank you, r-richard. you’re very kind.. ” he doesn’t think he deserves THAT kind of kindness, but it’s obvious he appreciates it, nevertheless.

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*SMOOCH*

excellent, now that i have your attention: this is a smol starter call. i’ll be reblogging  this for the next day or two while i work on drafts. this is not because i do not need more things to do, but more to get back into oliver’s head. that being said…. feel free to like this post for a smol starter from my precious bean !!

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oxyjenn :

i have this Huge Fear™ that no one will ever actually want me or love me.

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                      ❝  SAVE ME IF I BECOME                                                    MY DEMONS. ❞

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*SMOOCH*

excellent, now that i have your attention: this is a smol starter call. i’ll be reblogging  this for the next day or two while i work on drafts. this is not because i do not need more things to do, but more to get back into oliver’s head. that being said…. feel free to like this post for a smol starter from my precious bean !!

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*SMOOCH*

excellent, now that i have your attention: this is a smol starter call. i’ll be reblogging  this for the next day or two while i work on drafts. this is not because i do not need more things to do, but more to get back into oliver’s head. that being said.... feel free to like this post for a smol starter from my precious bean !!

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Do you rp as Tony stark?

errrr.....no? i don’t know why this even came up but lolno, remmy has never, and may never, write as mister tony.not to say i don’t love him, bc i do, buuuuut....not for me.

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11 Questions for the Mun

tagged by: no one, but i did steal it from @warrioroflondonbelow cause i liked it

tagging: everyone....yes even you

Rules

Answer the 11 questions posted for you

Create 11 new ones (optional, you can use the previous)

Tag 11 people (optional as well)

My 11 Answers

1. What drew you to Tumblr Roleplaying?

two people, actually. one of them I don’t actively speak to anymore and I don’t even know if they’re still in the rp community or not, and the other...is miss kelly who i love dearly with all my heart.

2. Did you RP somewhere else prior to Tumblr? Where else?

i’ve been roleplaying since i was 12, yo. that’s 10 years of roleplay lmao, so yes. i shifted from myspace, facebook, rp.me, and multiple other communities.

3. What is your favorite part of RPing?

mostly the people i meet and interact with. i have a hard time maintaining friendships in real life and this is like a second family to me. i’m so grateful for everyone who i’ve met in my time here. and of course, i love writing, it’s a good practice, especially when i have major writer’s block.

4. What is your least favorite part of RPing?

y ikes. that would be... the negativity and the drama, i guess. i’m generally not in the drama, cause i like to stay tf out of it, but i’ve had my fair share and j esus... people can be so cruel to one another..

5. Any former muses you miss writing?

charles and stiles will always be my children. out of every canon character i have written, those two are by far my favorites. of course, malia and my sweet oc baby, august, are also on that list. will i return to writing them? perhaps.. when the time is right......

6. What’s your favorite thing about your muse?

oliver is... well, he’s a good person. despite what he’s gone through, he wants to see the best in everyone. he wanted to see the best in his family for so many years and no matter what hell they put him through, they never really broke his spirit. he’s stronger than he appears to be..

7. Do you think that if you and your muse were to meet, you would get along?

yes. there are parts about oliver i molded from myself. oliver and i would be inseparable.

8. Is there any genre or setting of Roleplay that you cannot stand?

anything that includes non-consent ( as far as the actual writing of it ) bothers me but other than that... not really? i’m pretty damn open to just about anything.

9. Do you ever reread threads? Which ones?

i dooooo. i like to reread almost every thread i’ve had on oliver. he’s becoming so complex and it really helps get into his head for his novel, so. as for specifics... just look at who oliver interacts with most.

10. Is there any particular plot or dynamic which you haven’t yet had the chance to RP that you want to? What is it?

i think seeing oliver in an abusive relationship would be interesting. okay, i know, my child has gone through hell as it is. but it makes sense, does it not? most children of abuse who do not become abusive themselves, often find themselves attracted to abusive partners. i just like the angst..

11. What are your favorite books?

i’m a huge book nerd but if i had to name a few... perks of being a wallflower, the boy in the striped pajamas, the bridge to terabithia... the list can go on for days lol p.s. if a story breaks my heart, i will most likely love it... obviously.. 

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@goodcndtwisted replied to your post: i quit my job lolol sooo….that being said…. guess...

BABE *clings*

dID YA MISS ME ???

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i quit my job lolol sooo....that being said.... guess who is actually online, ready to do stuff?? lmao

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AS OF THE WEEKEND OF 7/15/17, OLIVER WILL RETURN. hello guys, i’m here to let you know some important things. right now, i realize i’ve been hiatus for over two months and i’m so so sorry for that. this was never my intention. however, i have finally come to realization that oliver is my child and needs to be taken care of asap. i have been neglectful, horribly so, and not to mention, i am starting to actually write his novel. it is essential that i return to a daily routine once again. NOW HERE COMES THE FUN PART. i am returning this upcoming weekend, if not sooner. however, there are some key components that i’m about to lay out for everyone.

1. i’m taking mythology class for school right now. it just started and that is going to be my priority over roleplay. i will not come online until my weekly homework is finished.

2. i work 4/10s. this being said, i work sunday-wednesday every week and i work 10 hour shifts. i will most likely not be online during these working hours.

3. i will be going home each weekend. remember when i said i have a boyfriend? yeah, i’m currently staying with him and my son is back home with my parents, and so is my pooch. so i will probably be idle until my son is sleeping. just an fyi.

AND LAST THING----

4. i’m going to vegas from the 20-22! my boyfriend is taking me on my first plane ride and we’re going to vegas! i’m super excited. now, what this means is.... whoops, yeah, i won’t be around for that weekend. 

this all being said, i realize i’m gonna be back for a weekend and then disappear on ya’ll again, but i promise, i promise, i’m going to return. i just need some time and patience. thank you. 

xx remmy

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hello friends, i am not dead. i know i have not been active for about a month now, quite literally, and i apologize. i have been in training for the last 4 weeks and i won’t be getting  out until this next week. also....... i have a boyfriend now. i know, shocking. i met him while in training and to say i’m a bit head over heels is an understatement. HOWEVER!! this does not mean i am leaving roleplay. in fact, it means the  exact opposite. i may be putting my other blogs on a brief hiatus while i sort myself out, but oliver will return very, very soon. i am about to start his novel and it is essential that i get back into his head anyways. expect to see me soon. i  love all of you and thank you for still being here.

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things are probably gonna be slow for a while. at least until the 14th. i’ll be staying in a hotel from the 14th till the 20th and i’ll be working  8-9 hour shifts and since i’m working a lot these next two weeks until i start my new job, i’ll probably be on and off frequently. i’m just about finished with my term for class and i won’t start my new classes until the 8th so i may be around then as well. like i said though, i’ll be working quite a bit and i need to still find a place to live and give my doggo some attention as far as her training goes. may is gonna be such a loooong, painful, month.

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i’m going to attempt to do things today if i’m not too busy. i do need to give my other blogs some attention too so we’ll see honestly. i’m still gonna try to get at least 10 things done here before i go to bed tonight so. let’s hope for the best.