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I don't even know where to start from anymore.

I'm such a disappointment..I hope my sis will study hard as much as she can to make my mother happy. T.T 지금 너무 힘들어... 그 실패할게는 느낌 알아? That fear of failure when you've already tasted it more than once. I wanted to clear up my spirit ytd before studying for pbf.... but til today I'm still crying over stats. No one will ever understand that kind of fear cos they haven't failed as many times I did. T.T Wanna sleep. Forever. So sick and tired. So depressing.... but I know I have to get up to study...... fffffffff. Anyway people whom I thought will disappoint me less disappointed me a lot these days. Really hate it when you wanna give/makr something but asked somebody to do it instead.... don't want to try already. Wanna cry for maybe 10minutes. But noooooo. Cannot. Bye