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This is my side blog for all my SHINee writing. My otp is JongKey but I am open to writing any pairing, so if you have requests feel free to ask away! To navigate through my stories please use the tags for easier access!

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I haven't posted or updated this page in quite a long time. But due to Jonghyun's passing I don't know if I'll be keeping this page and my stories posted.... Atm it doesn't feel right? I'm sorry to those who still read my stories or were possibly hoping that one day I'd come back to writing. Tbh I had been thinking about it most recently, truly missing it and I had wanted to return. But now it all just feels so wrong.

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should I start to post on this blog again??

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Two Worlds - Part 1

Genre: Drabble, Romance, Fluff

Summary: Their two worlds are closer then they think

Pairing: JongKey /Rated T (for now)

Word Count: 419

Side Note: Just a cute little idea that popped into my head, hope you enjoy! 

The balmy night air sat warm and sticky against Jonghyun’s skin as he bumped against the strangers around him. It wasn’t the first time the blonde found himself in the midst of a summer music festival, his old doc’s caked up with mud making him happy he’d opted for the boots unlike others whose sandaled feet were lost amongst the mucky ground. He’d long lost the friends who he’d came with but wasn’t in a hurry to find them. He had never been the type of person who needed someone at his side at all times, he found great peace and comfort in times like this. Being surrounded by lots of people he didn’t know and yet they’d all came together for the same thing. There weren’t many things in this world that could capture people’s hearts and bring them all together, but music was one of them and that was a beautiful thing to him. For Jonghyun there truly was only one reason, or rather one group he’d come to watch. Everyone else aside from them just seemed like background noise.

“Put your hands together for Axodus!”

The husky announcer called out catching everyone’s attention and causing the crowd to go wild. As if on cue the blonde felt his pulse quicken as he glued himself to the front bars at the edge of the mosh pit, mocha colored eyes fastened to the stage before him. With bated breath Jonghyun waited, and like a sharp kick to the chest his eyes found him. Long toned legs stood bearing toned thighs beneath torn up jeans causing the blonde to swallow as his eyes traveled up. Over the black meshed top Jonghyun caught glimpses of milky flesh beneath the sheer material while rich leather encased the singer’s arms. Blunt teeth quickly found their way into the blonde’s bottom lip as he finally had the courage to take in the rest. Sharp kohl rimmed eyes, glossy kitten-like lips, sharp jaw and high cheek bones, these were all the makings of his fantasy.  

Kim Kibum, stage name Key, was the muse for each and every one of his songs. He was the man that Jonghyun dreamt about when he was asleep at night, the one he imagined himself with when he caught himself daydreaming in between commercial breaks on his radio show. At some point between listening to a couple of Key’s songs Jonghyun had found himself getting completely lost in everything there was to do with the man. He would never confess it to anyone, not even his best friend, but he’d found himself knee deep inside of Key’s world without having ever exchanged words with the man.

Long ringed fingers encircled the microphone as Key took center stage and all too soon the area was being filled by the man’s smooth voice. Goosebumps rose against Jonghyun’s skin as if on cue leaving him to shiver as he soaked in the singer’s words.

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Symptoms - ch 4- In Need Of A Distraction

Genre: Fic, AU, Romance, Future angst/smut

Summary: After losing his sight at the age of sixteen Kibum has quickly learnt to adapt to living his daily life without the luxury of seeing. It has taken him three years to find a comfortable balance, but after meeting Jonghyun he wasn’t sure if balance is what he needed.

Pairing: JongKey /Rated M

Word Count: 3942

Side Note: Hey guys, I know it’s been a very long time but I’ve been extremely busy with work to start with and then it became a struggle to finish this chapter. Thank you for being so patient and I promise things are going to start moving along now that we’re getting past the initial hump of the plot. Anyway - I do hope you enjoy this, just hold out for the jongkey bc it’s on its way :) 

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Oh my goodness can I please request a key with any pairing smut that's based off of his odd eye performance?? He just looks so good omfg. Like maybe when they're rewatching the performance to evaluate or whatever one of the members gets all hot and bothered? Or anything really, I'm just totally obsessed with that performance. ^^

FUCK THIS WAS PROBABLY SENT FOREVER AGO IM SO SORRY.... let me see what I can do tho bc that outfit was killer, it slayed half the fandom, he’s sinful. 

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hello, you're taking requests atm right? well can i request for ontae just being all cute and making out on the couch? thank you :))

Let me see what I can come up with this weekend, I have no idea when this was sent but Im assuming it was like ten years ago... either way I feel terrible so let me see what sorta drabble I can do :) 

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Pleaaaaese Update Symptoms !! Very addicting 😻😻😪

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Symptoms - ch 4- In Need Of A Distraction

Genre: Fic, AU, Romance, Future angst/smut

Summary: After losing his sight at the age of sixteen Kibum has quickly learnt to adapt to living his daily life without the luxury of seeing. It has taken him three years to find a comfortable balance, but after meeting Jonghyun he wasn’t sure if balance is what he needed.

Pairing: JongKey /Rated M

Word Count: 3942

Side Note: Hey guys, I know it’s been a very long time but I’ve been extremely busy with work to start with and then it became a struggle to finish this chapter. Thank you for being so patient and I promise things are going to start moving along now that we’re getting past the initial hump of the plot. Anyway - I do hope you enjoy this, just hold out for the jongkey bc it’s on its way :) 

She smelt like an expensive call girl, like the kind you pay top dollar for just to talk to because sex costs an extra five hundred per half hour. Jinki had lied to him and said she was cute when she wasn't, she was sexy and flirty and wore heeled boots that sounded more like a weapon than a fashion statement. When she sat across from Kibum he could hear her soft hum of approval as her eyes studied him. It sounded like a gentle purr of satisfaction and he could only assume it'd feel amazing against his cock. She was the kind of girl that Kibum labeled as dangerous for many reasons, and above all else there was a very prevalent problem.  

"You're his sister? Funny, Jinki seemed to leave that part out." Bringing his beer to his lips Kibum listened to the elder cough.  

"Oh, well he must have left it out for a reason then?" She mused, interest clearly peaked. "Does it change things?"  

"I knew if I told you she was Taemin's sister you'd never agree!" Jinki admitted, pout clearly in voice.  

"Am I that bad?" Taemin asked making Kibum snort. "She is my twin after all."  

"And I'm blind remember? I can't see so that factor obviously doesn't bother me."  

His words earned him a soft giggle, one that sent his skin prickling as it played against his ears. Taeyeon's voice was feminine and smooth, the kind that he'd want to hear during sex and over the past twenty minutes of sitting with her this is what he'd come to. She was going to be bad for him, Taeyeon was going to give him a whole lot more than just her phone number because she wanted him. He wasn't trying to be smug, but the casual brush of her foot along his leg spoke wonders. As if her laugh wasn't enough with how it chimed, or the way she touched his hand as if she wanted to slip her fingers under his shirt. He had to wonder if she'd worn a cardigan the last time Jinki had seen her with how he'd described her. Hell maybe she was wearing one now. Either way with what he'd gathered so far Taeyeon did not seem like the type that was going to be easy, and he thought that's what Jinki wanted for him.  

"Don't worry I've been told I'm pretty hot." Taeyeon said as an attempt to ease any of the redhead's worries.  

Smirking at her words Kibum brought his beer up to finish It off. "Oh I don't doubt that."  

That evening they spent roughly two hours together at the bar, laughing and drinking as they got to know each other while Taemin and Jinki sidelined. Mostly Jinki, maybe it was just his paranoia but Kibum couldn't help but feel a tinge of awkwardness from Taemin. It would make sense considering the situation. Not everyday you hooked your friend up with your twin sister after all.  

As they began to gather up, Taeyeon went off to the washroom while Jinki paid leaving Kibum alone with Taemin. Passing a hand through his hair Kibum listened to the younger tap away at his phone. "I'm sorry if this is awkward for you, if you don't like this Taemin..."  

"No, no, no, it's fine really!" Taemin suddenly jumped in, phone forgotten. "Taeyeon's fun and exciting, she'd be good at breaking you out of your shell I think."  

"You think?"  

"Jinki thinks..." Taemin corrected earning a bark of laughter.  

"Right, well she seems..."  

Smiling at Kibum's lack of words Taemin tried to help. "She's not as easy as you might think, she just likes you. She's seen you on campus with Jjong and just hasn't had the guts to approach you."  

"She might kill you for telling me that." Kibum teased, albeit surprised.  

"That's why you don't tell her, idiot." Taemin huffed like the snarky teen he was.  

"So why are you then, she's your sister after all. Shouldn't you be chasing me away? I'm the big bad wolf."  

Now it was Taemin's turn to laugh. "To be honest? Because of Jinki, otherwise I wouldn't let you anywhere near her."  

'As usual it all comes back onto Jinki.' Kibum thought to himself as he hummed over Taemin's response. He couldn't say he was surprised, although it was usually Taemin who seemed to be doing the manipulating in their relationship. They'd only been dating for a month but Kibum could see what Taemin did to his best friend, Jinki was quickly on his way to the realm of puppy love and Kibum was more than happy for them.  

"You're a good guy, Taemin." Kibum said with a small smile.  

"Thanks Kibum, ah here they come."  

The sharp click of heels slipped into Kibum's ears before Taemin had even spoken and he was turning his head towards his date as she came to a stop next to him. Standing up from the booth he could hear her breath hitch; she was nervous. Bringing his hand out he gently and slowly brushed her hair back and behind her ear. It was soft and around shoulder length with a beachy wave, she'd styled her hair even though he couldn’t see it. He did like a woman that liked to look good for herself.  

Leaning in he brought his lips against her ear, fingers against her pulse as he whispered. "Your perfume is beautiful, Taeyeon."  

He could feel it, the way her pulsed jumped as her body heated up like a freshly lit flame. Her breathing shook and he could feel her drop a little as her knee's weakened all in a matter of a few seconds. It was like fuel to his ego, this is how he'd learned to pick up women. Although it didn't happen often he couldn't remember the last time he'd felt so confident with a stranger. It was different with Jonghyun, but really the two couldn't be compared. If the truth were known he was doing his utmost best not to think about the blond, instead he was trying his best to focus on the girl before him. After so long he was just happy to relish in the feeling of being so openly wanted by someone.  

"Ready to go?" Jinki called, a trill to his voice that made Kibum want to laugh.  

"Well actually I was just thinking, more like wondering if maybe Kibum wanted to go back to my place for a drink?" Taeyeon asked, reaching out to gently brush the redhead's hand earning her a small smile.

"You live on campus, Taeyeon, you have a roommate." Taemin reminded only to earn a dark glare.  

"We can go to my place, I don't mind." Kibum offered, this time pushing out Jinki's laugh.  

"Right, well we'll be off then." Jinki said before all but dragging Taemin with him.  

With that Kibum allowed Taeyeon to lead him out of the restaurant and into the cool night air which he made sure to take big lungfuls of. "We're about two blocks away, will you be okay?" He asked knowing her heels must be anything but comfortable. It earned him a small laugh though before she was thanking him.  

"I'll be fine though, I practically live in heels." She confirmed before looping their arms together.  

As they walked they talked about this and that, nothing of great importance or relevance. Mostly about school and classes, how the teachers were and what exactly they were going for. He learned she was a dancer much like her brother and wanted to become a professional ballerina.  

"I can only imagine you must have killer legs." Kibum offered with a cheeky smile.  

"After ten years of dance I can confidently say they're nicely toned." She said proudly.  

Resisting the urge to ask for a feel he instead brought the conversation around. "I used to dance, I mean I still do now but it's less practiced and more me just feeling the music, y'know?" He listened to her hum as she gently brushed her fingers along the top of his hand. It was nice and friendly and gave him the feeling that she was genuinely listening to him which he appreciated.  

"I can't imagine how hard that must have been to lose something you were so passionate for. We're here by the way." Taeyeon offered before coming to a slow stop.  

Glancing to his side towards the apartment he allowed her to lead. "I've learned to adapt, I'm still learning if I'm being honest... always learning. How did you know where I live by the way?"  

"Ah, well, I've been over before when Taemin needed me to pick him up." She explained in a nervous rush that had Kibum laughing. "What's so funny?"  

"No, nothing, you just have good memory."  

As they made their way to his apartment Kibum suddenly felt a rush of butterflies invade his stomach leaving him feeling a tad sick. It made unlocking his door a bit of a challenge when he suddenly had shaky hands making him miss the lock at least twice. Frowning as he stepped into the home Kibum released a deep breath that he hadn't realized he'd been holding in. He wasn't exactly sure why he was nervous but he could assume it was because of a handful of reasons.  

Slipping out of his shoes he made his way in as he told her to make herself comfortable. "You're still up for a drink right?" He asked before turning into his kitchen where he retrieved two wine glasses along with a fresh bottle of wine. He usually found himself drinking on his own simply because Jinki wasn't a huge fan of wine and Jonghyun didn't drink.  

"A glass would be nice." Taeyeon finally replied as she joined him, her round eyes scanning the quaint kitchen. "It suits you two well I think, the apartment."  

"Have you already seen my room?" Kibum asked.  

"W-What? N-No, how?!" Taeyeon nearly squawked as she flailed her hands about making an obnoxious breeze.  

Tipping his head back Kibum barked out a laugh. "I was only teasing because you said you'd been here before, but now I'm slightly suspicious."  

"I-I'm not a creep, jeez!" She defended with a whine and a small push to the man's shoulder earning a charming smile.  

"Would you like to see it?"  

Pulling out the cork to the wine bottle Kibum gently slipped his hand against the counter in search of the first glass before pouring out a bit. Silence followed his question making him cock a brow, slightly surprised that he'd caught her that off guard. "I'm sorry was that too blunt?" He asked as he held out the glass, half expecting her to turn around and leave. The thought only grew stronger when she never took the glass.  

"Taeyeon?"  

Any other words he had quickly died in his throat when slim fingers caressed his face causing him to immediately jolt. Blinking in surprise he slowly put the glass and bottle down before turning towards the younger girl. "Taeyeon?"  

Biting her lip Taeyeon was suddenly thankful he couldn't see her blush. "I-I'm sorry, I just wasn't sure if it'd be rude to kiss you or not."  

"Why, because I'm blind? To be honest I think it'd be rude if you didn't." Kibum teased and was relieved when he heard her laugh.  

"Fair enough."  

With that full lips were capturing his causing him to take a step back as she came towards him a bit faster than he anticipated. Moving his hands down he took a hold of her hips as he steadied himself and took her in. The kiss was gentle and unsure, almost as if she was shy and he was slightly surprised by this because he thought she'd be more confident. He was beginning to think the girl put on a good show much like Taemin had said, he knew his twin best after all.  

Moving his lips against hers he rather enjoyed the taste of her lip gloss and wondered what color it was, or if it was colored at all. It was the one thing he loved about kissing girls, something that most men hated- lip gloss. Maybe it was because he sometimes wore a tiny bit of it himself, but it was one thing most men didn't have. 'Jonghyun probably wears lip balm that tastes like mint.' The sudden thought had him pulling back for air.  

"What are you hoping to get out of this?" The words were leaving his mouth before his brain could catch up making him nearly facepalm.  

"I... I'm sorry?"  

Closing his eyes he felt her pull back slightly and he could only sigh. "No, I'm sorry, that came out of nowhere."  

Silence slipped around them leaving him to remove his hands without much else to do. He couldn’t begin to understand why he'd said that, because truth be told he wasn't even sure what he truly wanted out of this date. He knew what everyone else wanted, everyone except Taeyeon and maybe that's why he wanted to know.  

"I think... I mean I like you, you're attractive and funny and have great style, I'd like to get to know you more." She finally admitted. "Do you think sex on the first date is wrong?"  

"It's not wrong, just depends what you're after I guess."  

"And what are you after, Kibum?" Taeyeon asked, secretly hoping for a certain answer.  

"Pushing a hand through his hair Kibum released a sigh. "If I'm being honest...  a distraction."  

He had a moment after he spoke where he wondered if he had been too blunt, but then warm hands were cupping his face and he was once again being greeted by that spicy perfume she wore. "Then let me be your distraction." Full lips once again found his only this time with less gloss and more courage. Kbium couldn't help but sigh into the kiss as their bodies pressed together and her fingers played with the ends of his hair. It started out soft and seemed to grow in strength the longer they stayed together.

Slipping his right hand up to the back of her head he moved her to how he wanted her before teasing his tongue along her bottom lip. The action earned him a tiny hum before she was granting him access to her mouth. It wasn’t long before he was listening to her moan, the sound causing his cock to stiffen in his jeans.  

"Y-You're an amazing kisser." Taeyeon breathed as they pulled back for air.  

Smirking at the compliment Kibum moved in to check the counter behind her. "You're not too bad yourself. Do me a favor and hop up here." Patting the counter he waited until she was doing as he asked.  

"Like this?" She asked, allowing the elder to spread her legs as he moved closer.  

"Just like that, beautiful."  

Leaning in Taeyeon released a small moan as they kissed. "H-How... do you know I'm beautiful?"  

"I don't need to see your face to know you're beautiful, Taeyeon."  

Reaching up Kibum brought his hand along her shirt, feeling to see what it was and he was pleased to find it was a button up. Undoing the buttons one by one he listened to her steady breathing pick up the closer he got to the end. "Relax, I'm a professional." He teased with a smirk as he finally removed her shirt earning him a light giggle. Her laughter quickly turned into a pleased sigh though when his lips found her skin.  

Down her collarbones and along the tops of her breasts he allowed his lips to move, kissing her warm skin causing it to prickle in excitement. He could tell her breasts weren't too large, they we're probably around a B-cup, the perfect perky handful. Moving his hand up Kibum cupped her left breast earning him a low hum, the sound seeming to turn higher as he passed over her nipple.  

"So sensitive." Kibum teased, and with a flick of his wrist her bra was slipping off.  

"Ah, Kibum!"  

Taeyeon gasped as he groped her, his hands becoming slightly more rough while his tongue gently ran across her skin. Listening to the sounds she made he took into account what she liked, the spots that made her gasp rather then sigh or giggle. He enjoyed the way she moaned when he got to her nipples, the gentle flick of his tongue had her shivering with excitement. "You smell amazing." He sighed as he nosed her breast, nuzzling the warm skin before dragging his teeth across it. The action had her spreading her legs more as she moaned causing Kibum to grin.  

"Are you wet for me yet, Taeyeon?" Kibum asked, not a hint of shame tainting his voice.  

Warmth fell across the brunette's face as she steadied her breath. "D-Dripping."  

"Mmm, is that so?"  

Pushing past her skirt Kibum gently ran his fingernails up her inner thigh, teasing her until he reached her panties. As if on cue she was shifting closer to him in hopes of gaining more contact. Listening to her request Kibum traced his thumb over the hem of her panties. They were classic cotton panties, no frills or lace, nothing overly sexy or exciting much to his surprise but by no means disappointing. "Cute." He hummed as he nipped at her skin and felt her squirm. The way she whimpered his name had his cock pushing agaisnt his jeans making him dig his teeth into her skin from excitement. The action earned him a pained whine as she tugged at his hair, "K-Kibum, please!" Taking that as his cue he moved his thumb across her panties,  feeling the curve of her plump lips before he was pushing and spreading them and he was rewarded by dampness.  

"Oh sweetheart, you're a mess aren't you? Did I do all of this?" He all but purred, voice low and deep feeling like it was gliding across her skin causing her to heat.  

"Y-Yes!" Taeyeon gasped, her head falling back as she fought for air.  

Passing his thumb across her clit he listened to her moan his name as he felt her tremble against him. It felt like a mixture of excitement and anticipation that was quickly falling into a large pile of pleasure. Her fingers were running across his back in search of something to hold onto, and he couldn't help but release a husky laugh when he felt her thighs tighten around him.  

"Relax, Taeyeon... just relax and let me help you enjoy yourself." Kibum whispered.  

Pulling his hand back he listened to her whine, it earned her a gentle coo before he was moving his hand to her mouth. "Taste yourself for me, sweetie." Without hesitation the young girl was parting her lips for him and allowing him in. Smearing his sticky thumb down her chin he slipped his two fingers into her mouth and allowed her to clean them. The act had him moaning as she sucked on his fingers, running her tongue between them as she bobbed her head as if she was treating his cock instead.  

Pulling his fingers free he praised her a job well done before moving back to his previous task, only this time he was pushing into her.  

"Oh fuck," Taeyeon gasped as his fingers entered her. "K-Kibum!"

"Mmm, dirty girl, look how well you're taking those fingers already... a bit greedy aren't you?" Kibum cooed as he rested his forehead against her shoulder.  

"D-Do you... do you have condoms?" She asked, grip tight in his hair and she could feel him smile against her skin.  

"So eager for me already?"  

Pressing her lips to his ear Taeyeon gave a breathy moan. "I want you inside me, Kibum."  

Groaning at her words Kibum relented. "It'll be faster if you grab them, in the bathroom cupboard you'll see them on the first shelf."  

Releasing her from his grasp Kibum listened to her gentle hum as he retrieved his fingers from inside her. Bringing the digits to his lips it was his turn to taste her and he was more than pleased as her juices coated her tongue. Her breathy giggle filled his ears as he licked his fingers clean only for her to cup his face and pull him in for a quick kiss.  

"Be right back."  

With that she was hopping off the counter in search for their saving grace. While he waited he found she'd left both her bra and shirt causing him to smirk knowing she was walking around nearly naked, it pleased him. It had been a while since he'd truly enjoyed the person he was with, maybe it was all her or maybe it was a mixture of things but he couldn’t bring himself to care much. He didn't want to ruin things by complicating them anymore. Taeyeon wanted him bad and he wasn't about to let nagging what ifs bother him anymore.  

As if on mocking cue his cellphone began to blare it's obnoxious tone. The phone buzzed as it chimed the callers names for his sake, Jonghyun - Jonghyun! It sounded causing him to stiffen as he retrieved the phone almost upon reflex.  

"Kibummie, I found them... are you going to get that?" Taeyeon asked, catching sight of the loud phone in his hand.  

Quickly silencing the device Kibum offered a smile in her direction. "Of course not, beautiful, come here." Genre: Fic, AU, Romance, Future angst/smut 

Placing the phone onto the counter Kibum was greeted by gentle hands slipping under his shirt, silently asking for him to remove it. Without question he discarded the item and allowed her a turn to play with him. Full lips glided across his warm chest quickly descending until he could tell she was on her knees and with quick hands she undid his pants.  

"I've been told my mouth is pretty amazing, wanna test it out?" Taeyeon asked earning her a fierce nod.  

"God yes." Kibum all but groaned causing her to laugh. "How could I say no?"  

"Good answer."  

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Symptoms -ch 3- Slipping Up

Genre: Fic, AU, Romance, Future angst/smut

Summary: After losing his sight at the age of sixteen Kibum has quickly learnt to adapt to living his daily life without the luxury of seeing. It has taken him three years to find a comfortable balance, but after meeting Jonghyun he wasn’t sure if balance is what he needed.

Pairing: JongKey /Rated M

Word Count: 3809

Side Note: So happy you guys seem to enjoy where this is headed so far ~ tbh I’m just so excited to start diving into the real drama so I can’t wait to get further into this! Again thanks for all your lovely words and comments it keeps me motivated ^^

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Symptoms -ch 3- Slipping Up

Genre: Fic, AU, Romance, Future angst/smut

Summary: After losing his sight at the age of sixteen Kibum has quickly learnt to adapt to living his daily life without the luxury of seeing. It has taken him three years to find a comfortable balance, but after meeting Jonghyun he wasn’t sure if balance is what he needed.

Pairing: JongKey /Rated M

Word Count: 3809

Side Note: So happy you guys seem to enjoy where this is headed so far ~ tbh I’m just so excited to start diving into the real drama so I can’t wait to get further into this! Again thanks for all your lovely words and comments it keeps me motivated ^^

He felt warm, as if sunshine was spilling over his body from the tips of his ears down to his toes. It left him short of breath making him pant as he tried to calm his racing heart against the feather light touch that traveled down his torso. Scrunching his brows he kept his eyes shut tight, leaving him to see an array of colors. Bright reds moved behind his eyelids like water colors, mixing with oranges and purples before they were exploding together. He could feel him, smell his cologne so strong he could practically taste it on the tip of his tongue. The sensation left him spreading his legs and Kibum could only gasp when something warm wrapped around his cock, gripping him firmly with a teasing squeeze.  

He had never felt anything like this before, something that had him arching as pleasure burst through him. The sensation left him gripping his sheets as he gasped for air, words seeming to fail him as he struggled for control. “Kibum…” The voice that called to him was so smooth, like melted candle wax that dripped against his skin; he wanted more.  

Shooting up in bed Kibum struggled to regain his breath, “F-Fuck!” He sputtered as the colors left his vision leaving him once again with nothing but darkness. Passing a shaky hand through his hair he could feel the sweat that clung to his skin making him groan with distaste. Scrubbing his hands over his face he was flopping back down as he realized. “It was just a dream…” Sighing at the thought Kibum slowly brought his hand down until his assumptions were confirmed.  

“Shit.” Hissing as he met the sensitive skin of his cock Kibum gently wrapped his fingers around his length.  

Licking his lips he gave his shaft a firm stroke causing him to bite back a low moan. Spreading his legs he got more comfortable before setting a pace, his free hand slipping up his shirt to pass over his surprisingly hard nipples. “Oh fuck… Jonghyun!” Fastening his pace he allowed the man’s voice to play through his ears while imagining the contagious smile he’d created in his mind. Over the past month he’d slowly began to create small bits of the blond, like trying to make pieces of a puzzle that would never quite fit together. It was especially frustrating in times like this where he craved more than just voices and colors, he’d began to crave the real thing.  

Biting into his bottom lip Kibum could only whine as he came hard into his hand. The sensation had him craning his neck as he gripped his sheets for any last bits of control. Breathing in through his nose he slowly released a breath as he began to relax, but now he felt dirty. He could feel cum on his stomach and hand, some of which he was sure was on his sheets and overall he was a sweaty mess.  

Grumbling to himself he brought his dick back into his boxers before wiping off his hand and slowly sitting up in bed. It took him about five minutes of clearing the fog from his hazy mind till he was able to slowly stumble his was to the bathroom. Followed by another ten minutes of standing bellow the lukewarm water till he was fully awake and was able to comprehend what exactly had just happened.  

“I had a sex dream about Jonghyun.” Kibum mused over his morning coffee causing Jinki to nearly spit his all over their kitchen table. “You what?!”  

Blowing into the hot drink the redhead merely shrugged. “I’m amazed you didn’t hear me to be honest.”  

“You know I’m a heavy sleeper, unless you were screaming for help I don’t think I’d wake up.” Jinki admitted, eyes still round with shock as he took in the younger.  

“Well that’s good to know.” He couldn’t help but laugh at the image of Jinki running in half naked with a baseball bat.  

Pushing around his cereal the elder couldn’t help but wonder. “It might be stupid to ask, but how do you know it was him for sure? I mean you’ve never even seen him.”  

“It’s not stupid.” Placing his coffee cup down Kibum began to explain. “When I was dreaming I could hear him calling my name, I could even smell him. It was like… when Jonghyun talks I see color, he’s warm and comforting.”  

“Wow, you’re totally falling for him.” Jink watched as his blunt words had the younger’s face matching his hair. “Don’t even try to deny it!”  

“I’m still getting to know him, Jinx! One sex dream does not mean I’m falling for him, it just means I’m horny.” Kibum offered.  

Rolling his eyes the pink haired elder scoffed. “It’s been a month of you seeing him practically every day, I’d say you’ve gotten to know him quite well.”  

Pursing his lips at his friend’s words Kibum began to tap his coffee mug as he thought. Yes, Jinki did in fact have a point and he knew the elder wasn’t far off. That being said he was not ready to accept that he was actually interested in the blond, after all he wasn’t quite sure what Jonghyun was thinking. On one hand he knew the older blond wasn’t looking for a relationship, but on the other Jonghyun wasn’t exactly shy when it came to flirting. If he was being honest the man was sort of all over the place, sending mixed signals left and right. The only thing he knew for sure was the fact that Jonghyun was in fact completely gay which in hindsight automatically increased his chances. 'But your blind ass is kind of a set back.'  He thought, eyes practically burning holes through his coffee cup causing his friend to sigh.  

"Kibum, if you like him then just be honest with him! You're kind of past the whole dancing around it aren't you?" Jinki asked, brow cocked as he watched the younger roll his eyes.  

"It wouldn’t be so bad if I wasn't... I just don't want to ruin anything." His words quickly changed and he could practically feel Jinki's sigh this time.  

"Look I'm not going to harass you about this."  

"Good."  

Clicking his tongue Jinki snatched up the redhead's coffee cup as he stood. "But just know that the longer you sit on this the higher the chances of him finding someone else becomes."  

Jinki's words seemed to echo through Kibum's mind that afternoon as he sat with Jonghyun, the elder having promised to help him with his project. Sitting cross legged on the blonde's bedroom floor he couldn't help but wonder exactly how many guys had seen this room. He remembered the sly comment the man had made the first time he'd ever spent the night, something about him putting his bed to good use? He was curious if that was really the case.  

"Hey Jjong... can I ask you something?" Rubbing his hands together he listened for the elder to acknowledge him.  

"Of course, doesn't mean I'll answer you though." Jonghyun teased.  

Smiling at the joke Kibum began to fidget. "Fair enough, so when was the last time you dated some?"

Silence followed the question and he had to wonder if Jonghyun was studying his expression. He tried to relax his face, making sure his brows weren't furrowed and his fingers weren't ripping at anything near him. He had a tendency of becoming fidgety when he was nervous and had a habit of finding things to tear apart, mostly paper and useless things. It was a bad habit that showed though and he wasn't too fond of it.  

"Dated? Oh wow, it's been a while to be honest." Jonghyun finally admitted. "Haven't I told you this before?"  

Shaking his head Kibum tried to think back. "You've never really brought up past relationships."  

"Neither have you." The blond tossed back. "Our love lives haven’t really been a main topic I guess."  

"Or lack their of?"  

Laughing at the younger's bitter tone Jonghyun could only smile. "I'm content at the moment, I don’t think I mind anymore."  

"Anymore, what's changed?" Curiosity killed the cat, Kibum.  

"School, new friends, I guess I'm just content with what I have right now... besides where would I find the time for a boyfriend when we're constantly together?" Jonghyun joked as he read over the younger's paper, missing the soft blush that filled the redhead's cheeks.  

"Right, you're gonna be the reason I'm stuck being single." Kibum was very aware of how that could sound, but he took Jonghyun's laughter as a sign that he was in the clear.  

"Does that bother you?"  

Suddenly he could feel the blonde's eyes on him and all he could do was shake his head before flopping back in a weak attempt to hide. No, it definitely didn't bother him that ninety percent of his free time was spent with Jonghyun. How could he when his feelings for the man were growing so steadily? It felt like every day they spent together brought them even closer together and he was quickly losing control of his feelings, he knew that.  

Even though he had a vague idea of how this would end he couldn't bring himself to step back. Call him a masochist but he couldn’t bring himself to say no to the man. "I'm happy." Kibum spoke softly from where he laid, eyes closed as he brushed his fingers against the soft carpet. He allowed his breathing to slow as he relaxed, not a single worry where Jonghyun was concerned. He never thought he'd trust someone so quickly, but Jonghyun just seemed to have that effect on him.  

"My turn to ask you a question." His words had Kibum snorting which the blond took as a good sign. "Have you and Minho ever..."  

"Yes." Kibum offered knowing exactly where this was going. "A lot back in high school."

Choking at the younger's response Jonghyun could only gape. "Y-You didn't even let me finish!"  

"I'm sorry were you not asking me if we'd ever had sex?" Silence filled the room causing Kibum to laugh. "That's what I thought."  

Frowning at Kibum's answer, Jonghyun could only grunt. "And now?"  

"Minho's straight, Jonghyun."

"Not when it comes to you as he's displayed on a couple occasions."

"Straightish then." Kibum corrected and he could practically feel that man's eye roll from across the room. "We have a lot of sexual past yes, but it's called past for a reason."  

"I've seen the way he looks at you, Kibum, he would jump your bones at any time all you'd have to do is ask." Watching the younger's face with interest Jonghyun didn't miss the fleeting look of confusion.  

"But I don't want to so what does it matter?"  

It matters a whole hell of a lot, Kibum, he thought to himself as he brought his hands up to rest against his stomach. "It doesn't, I was just curious as to where your head was at. I mean friendships can be ruined over this kind of thing." Jonghyun offered, leaving the younger to hum while he did his best to mask his disappointment.  

Thinking back to the conversation Kibum found himself replaying the blonde's words over and over again in his mind. He couldn't help but feel a tinge of bitterness towards Jonghyun's words, as if he was expecting the man to have a different reaction. Well, not expecting, but hoping that the man possibly felt different. He was hoping that maybe, just possibly, Jonghyun cared a little more like he did because then the chances of this becoming something more would seem just slightly more tangible.  

He could remember all the times when he was in high school and his heart would get broken and in his moment of bitterness he would call Minho.  What better way to ease the pains of embarrassment or frustration than good sex?  

"I thought you were past this, Bummie."  

"So did I... and maybe I am and I'm just confused, I don't know." Kibum tried but couldn't quite believe it himself.  

"Not that I mind, you're always great in bed after all. I just thought that maybe Jonghyun was different." Minho explained as he drew makeshift patterns onto the redhead's stomach.  

"So did I." Kibum sighed as he received a gentle kiss to his shoulder.  

"Maybe you're moving too fast, it's only been a month... it's hard when you want to make friends and fuck them at the same time, signals get mixed." Minho offered, earning him a throaty laugh.

"Like us?"  

Shaking his head Minho sat up. "No, we're different because we can be both things without any struggle. If I were to find myself a girlfriend you'd be more than happy for me and vice versa for me with you. I love you but it's not romantic, it's more like a brother."  

Taking in Minho's words Kibum couldn't help but smile as he tugged his sheets higher so they laid across his stomach. Minho was a lot of things but when it came down to it he was an extremely caring friend, someone he was lucky to have. "Like a brother? You're disgusting." Grunting at the small jab he received he listened as the brunette began to get dressed, belt clinking and shirt rustling and he couldn't help but pout knowing Minho wouldn't be staying.  

"Don't look at me like that." Sighing at kitten-like eyes Minho pulled on his shirt.

"First off I dunno where I'm looking, secondly I don't even know what face I'm making... is it cute?" Kibum asked, lips curving into a smile he knew for a fact was rather cute.  

"You know a lot more than you like to lead on, Kibum." Minho tossed back. "And for the record it is very cute... so cute it sorta makes me sick."  

Feeling the bed dip Kibum couldn't help but lick his lips as he felt the younger approaching. Warm lips captured his own in a needy kiss. 'He always knew how to make my toes curl with his lips.' Driving his fingers through thick locks Kibum released a soft moan as he pulled Minho closer, silently asking for him to stay because if he was being honest he wasn't exactly done. The act had Minho groaning as a warm tongue slipped into his mouth in search of someone to play with. "Mmm, s-shit, Kibum I h-have work."  

"And I have a boner, my problem seems so much more fun." He cooed, voice dropping to a tone he knew always turned the other to mush. "Tell them you'll be late."  

"God dammit, Kibum I hate you and your ridiculous sex drive at times like this."  

Brushing his lips against the man's ear Kibum all but purred, "Fuck me, Minho." And he knew he had him.  

***

Waking up the next morning Kibum was greeted by the sound of Minho getting dressed yet again. Lifting his arms he gave a good stretch only to choke mid yawn at the slight twinge in his lower back. Quiet laughter was suddenly filling the room as Minho watched the redhead's reaction. "Sorry, but you wanted it hard." The brunet defended, tone as cheeky as the smile he wore making Kibum huff.  

"Guess that's what I get for making you stay when you had work, thanks though." Yawning mid speech Kibum covered his mouth causing his words to mumble.  

"No problem, but I guess I should ask... is this going to become a habit again?" Minho asked while fixing his shirt.  

Passing a hand through his hair Kibum could only sigh. "No, I'm sorry I shouldn't have used you like that. It's not fair."  

"Not fair? Kibum you're giving me sex because you're frustrated, how is that unfair?" Minho asked. " You know I don't see it like that, use me anytime you like."

With that Minho was out the door leaving Kibum to flop back onto his bed with the hopes that the soccer player would go unseen. After all he knew for a fact there was one person who would definitely not approve of this. Hell, he wasn't even sure if he approved of this especially since this meant he practically lied to Jonghyun's face yesterday. 'But it wasn't like that, you had no intention of ever sleeping with Minho again until last night.' He thought to himself only to scoff at his own reasoning. He hated it, the feeling of not being in control and allowing others to manipulate his emotions and feelings. Even worse when they didn't even know they were doing it, because how can you be mad at someone when your feelings are the problem?  

"I thought you were past this shit, Kibum." Jinki called from the younger's doorway causing him to jump.

"And I thought you were at Taemin's place, jesus fucking christ, Jinki!" Kibum snapped, heart now in his throat. "Don't sneak up like that!"  

"I'm sorry, I thought you would have heard me scream your name after I so awkwardly bumped into Minho on my way in." Watching the redhead roll his eyes Jinki couldn't help but sigh. "Kibum..."

"What, Jinx, what do you want me to say?!"  

"I want you to tell me why the hell you're screwing Minho when just yesterday... what happened Kibum?"  

Bringing his knees up as a makeshift rest for his head Kibum took a deep breath in. "He made it abundantly clear that he isn't looking for a relationship."  

Taking a seat in front of the younger Jinki could only frown. "That doesn't mean he's not interested in you."  

"He also made it clear that sex ruins friendship."  

"It does most of the time, you and Minho are a bit odd." The elder admitted.  

Snorting at the man's words Kibum hugged his legs tighter. "It won't happen again I was just frustrated, I got ahead of myself."  

"He's easy to fall for, for once be thankful you can't see him." It was supposed to be a joke, but Kibum couldn't help but feel that Jinki was being partially serious.  

"He's really good to me and it's been so long since I've had someone treat me like this... I feel like I'm in high school all over again with him."  

"You haven't been out of high school that long, Kibum. Sometimes I think you forget that."  

"You weren't there for my last year, Jinki! I did well, I focused on myself, fuck I was practically celibate for a year!" Kibum defended, suddenly feeling as if this was turning into a fight.  

"I know Kibum, but you can't just run back to Minho every time someone doesn't return your feelings! He's not some sex toy you can use when it's convenient!"  

"He is convenient, and stop acting as if he gets nothing out of it!"

Jinki couldn't help but frown at his friends attitude. "I just don't want you to use him as a crutch again, Kibum. There will be someone out there that's going to love you, blindness and all, you just have to give it time."  

Feeling his stomach turn at the elder's words Kibum could only sigh, because part of him knew exactly where Jinki was coming from and that he was of course right. The other part of him was bitter though, he had this terrible urge to be with someone and not just sexually, but in an actual relationship. After he had become blind his very first girlfriend had broken up with him after two years, she hadn't even waited for him to be discharged from the hospital before she was ending it. After that point it felt like things had changed for him, people viewed him different. It's as if he had become this person that wasn't worth anything past sex, at least with Minho it was different because he knew no matter what that the boy cared for him.  

"There's a part of me that's just really lonely I guess." Kibum mumbled as comforting fingers combed through his hair. "And Jonghyun is just so good, you see it don't you?"  

"I do, but I also think that after an entire month of spending every day with him that maybe it's time to take a breather." Jinki admitted.  

"A breather?"  

"Taemin has this friend who's interested in meeting you, maybe we could do a double date?"  

Looking up with wide eyes Kibum could only blink for a moment. "A friend of Taemin's?"  

"She's the same age as him and is super cute I already met her, and sweet too you'd like her." Jinki boasted as he watched his friend's reaction.

"She's actually interested..."  

"I showed her a picture and everything, she was very interested. Come on Kibum, what do you got to loose?"  

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Symptoms -ch 2- Day Two

  Genre: Fic, AU, Romance, Future angst/smut

Summary: After losing his sight at the age of sixteen Kibum has quickly learnt to adapt to living his daily life without the luxury of seeing. It has taken him three years to find a comfortable balance, but after meeting Jonghyun he wasn’t sure if balance is what he needed.

Pairing: JongKey /Rated M

Word Count: 4581

Side Note: I’m so overwhelmed by the love this has gotten so far ;; I’m so glad you guys enjoyed the first chapter, I hope you like this one too!! I’ll be posting every 2 weeks btw and please feel free to msg me comments on here, I love talking to you all <3

Waking up in unfamiliar places was not something Kibum did often, if at all anymore. The entire concept of being in a strangers home without his sight was still a major discomfort, he didn’t like being ripped out of his comfort zone all that much. One night stands were usually held in a bathroom or somewhere close by which usually meant they avoided the awkward morning bit completely. Although hotels were sometimes used depending on how he felt, at least that way he didn’t have to worry about things being stolen from him. He was overly cautious after all, call him paranoid but he knew how people worked and he was not about to let that happen.

Bringing his hands up to rub away at his eyes Kibum gave off a strong yawn as he slowly woke up. It took him about one minute to realize the bed he was laying in was in fact not his. Had the smell of the room not been enough than the size of the bed would have been. His room did not smell like a Yankee candle store and he definitely did not sleep on a double.

Sitting up in bed Kibum could only frown as he brought his hands along the mattress as he tried to remember just what had happened the night before. A gentle knock against the door to his right had him jolting in bed before turning towards the stranger. “Good morning sleepyhead, glad to see you’re finally up.” It took him all of ten seconds to recognize the voice and by then he was sighing with relief.

“Jonghyun, this is your room?” He asked, smile seeming to come to his lips without even trying.

Stepping in the blond gave a nod without thinking. “Ah, yes it is. You don’t remember nearly passing out on my couch?”

Feeling his cheeks warm Kibum gave off a shy laugh. “Right, right… I’m sorry I guess it kind of came out of nowhere.” Moving his gaze down towards the bed he allowed his teeth to find his bottom lip where he nervously attacked the sensitive skin. He remembered how well they talked, how things seemed to just naturally fall together nicely the more they got to know each other. He’d quickly realized that he shared a lot in common with Jonghyun, along with some interesting differences. Different can be good, he thought as he felt the bed dip slightly next to his leg.

“I hope you don’t mind that I moved you, I didn’t really want you to wake up with a kink in your neck.” Jonghyun mused, smiling as pink seemed to dust the younger’s cheeks.

“I-I’m so sorry I put you out of your bed!” Kibum sputtered causing the elder to laugh. “What?”

“Nothing, you’re just cute. It wasn’t a problem really, I didn’t get much sleep because I don’t really sleep much remember? I’m glad someone got to put my bed to good use.” Jonghyun explained.

Humming at the blonde’s words Kibum finally brought his hand up to feel at his dark hair only to snort at the obvious bird’s nest that sat on his head. He had only known Jonghyun for a day and the man had already seen him fresh out of bed, he wasn’t so sure how he felt about that. He didn’t feel an immediate discomfort but he wasn’t thrilled about the idea either. “I’m sorry if I drooled on your pillows, I’m not really that peaceful of a sleeper.” He admitted, moving to check his face for any signs of dried drool, relieved when he came back clean.

“Honestly you look far too good for someone who’s just woken. When I first wake up I look like the living dead.” The blond explained, happy to see Kibum’s smile.

“I thought you said you didn’t sleep?”

Snorting Jonghyun brought his hand out to ruffle the younger’s hair. “I said I was an insomniac Kibum, not a vampire. I still need to sleep to live.”

The elder’s words had Kibum scoffing and swatting his hand away, feeling a sudden rush of warmth fill his stomach at the playful touch. “Oh shut up, you know what I meant.” Huffing at the deep laughter he received Kibum took to ignoring him and instead finding his way out of bed. He could hear Jonghyun almost immediately stand with him and after a brief thought he held out his hand. “I’m sorry I just don’t want to bang into anything.” Without question Jonghyun took his hand and steered him in the proper direction.

“About four steps from the bed will be the door, then we’ll turn left and head out to the living room. Would you like some coffee?” Jonghyun began, making sure that Kibum didn’t hurt himself on the way.

“That would be nice, what time is it anyway?” He couldn’t remember what time he’d fallen asleep but it felt like he’d slept a while.

“Eleven.”

Hearing the time he couldn’t help but choke. “Eleven?! I have class in an hour! Why the hell did I sleep so late?”

“Oh, well we didn’t get to sleep till late, Kibum. Probably around four?” Jonghyun explained. “I can totally drive you though.”

Furrowing his brows Kibum turned to the blond. “Four AM? I can’t believe we talked for that long.”

“I guess we had a lot to talk about.”

Kibum could hear the smile in Jonghyun’s voice, something that had quickly become apparent. He wanted to reach out and trace the curve of the man’s mouth to help paint himself a picture of what his smile looked like. Learning what he did about Jonghyun had helped him create an image in his mind of how the man looked, whether that was accurate though was a different story. Most importantly he imagined the blond had a kind face, one that lit up when he smiled and laughed.

“By the way your friend Jinki kept calling you so I answered and told him you were sleeping and would call him later. I don’t think he liked me very much.” Jonghyun admitted, frowning at the memory.

Pausing mid sip of his coffee Kibum realized his mistake. “Oh my god, I never told Jinki what I was doing! Could I please used your phone?”

Holding out his hand Kibum thanked the elder and with expert fingers dialed his friend’s number. He suddenly felt guilty because he knew Jinki had a tendency to worry even though he tried his best to give Kibum his space. Even before he lost his eye sight Kibum could always depend on Jinki no matter what, he was protective then and that only seemed to grow stronger. Let’s hope he hasn’t had a heart attack by now, the younger snorted at the thought. “Hello?” Smiling at the sound of his friend’s voice Kibum was thankful he sounded calm. “Did you miss me?”

“Kibum… I’ve moved your boxes into the hallway, you can pick them up sometime today.” Jinki huffed causing the younger to whine.

“Jinki, I’m sorry I didn’t think!” he admitted. “It just completely slipped my mind, I didn’t mean to make you worry!”

The sigh that traveled through the phone had Kibum frowning. “It’s fine, Jonghyun already explained everything.”

“Did he? Well I am fine, he’s going to drive me to my class… sorry again.” Hearing Jonghyun move around Kibum couldn’t help but fidget.

“Its fine, I’m just happy you’re okay. Things are still new so I just worried, but I’m glad to hear you met someone so soon.” Jinki admitted.

Feeling his ears warm at the mention Kibum let out an annoyed huff before tilting his head down in hopes of hiding his face which he was sure was red as well. “It’s not like that.” Was the brief answer he gave the elder with the hopes that it would be enough. After all he had just met Jonghyun yesterday, what could he even call this? He was rather confident that him and Jonghyun could become good friends if things continued like this, but is that what he wanted?

“Whatever you say, you should invite him out tonight and we can all grab drinks… I could give you my opinion.” Jinki said, following a curse as he dropped his phone.

Snorting at the clumsy man Kibum debated. “Jonghyun?”

“Yes?”

He could hear that the man was still in front of him, although further away. “Are you free tonight? Jinki wanted to go out for drinks.”

“Sure, I’m free.” Jonghyun answered, maybe a smidge too fast he wondered. “I mean… I don’t drink much but it’s always nice to meet new people. I’ll invite someone and make it even.”

Accepting the offer Kibum informed Jinki before hanging up and deciding that if Jonghyun’s friend was anything like himself than they’d all get along great. Both Minho and Jinki kept telling him he needed to relax and meet more people, easier said than done of course. The older blond could be a good start, one small step at a time.

Sitting in class that day was quickly found to be a struggle, not because he didn’t like musical theory but because all he could do was think about Jonghyun.

“I think life’s too short to focus on the negative.” Jonghyun mused earning a quirky laugh from the brunet. “What?”

“Nothing, it’s just that’s a hard concept that I’m still learning.” Kibum explained with a smile.

“I can understand why, losing your sight isn’t as simple as losing a job or a girlfriend.”

Passing a hand through his hair Kibum sighed. “It makes me feel burdened, like a vicious cycle of guilt to those around me and bitterness to what I have to live with.”

“You have to learn not to hate your blindness, Kibum. You have to learn how to accept this new part of you just like you accept the other things you don’t favour about yourself. Once you can do that things will become easier.” Jonghyun explained causing the younger’s brows to furrow.

“You sound like my therapist.”

Jonghyun’s laugh was nearly contagious as it filled up the small booth around them. “Maybe we see the same one.”

“Excuse me, Kibum, but class is over with.” His professor called causing him to jump in his spot. “Sorry I didn’t mean to startle you.”

“Oh no, I’m sorry I was just… lost in thought.” He admitted before quickly gathering his things and heading out.

It had been a long day simply because he was wearing the same outfit he had yesterday and he hated that feeling. It made him feel dirty and he’d suddenly wished he had taken Jonghyun up on his offer to borrow some clothes. He couldn’t remember the last time he was left wearing the same outfit as the day before, probably sometime back in high school.

Making his way through the crowded hallway Kibum couldn’t help but roll his eyes. This was the part of school that he’d come to hate, he was hoping that things would change once he started university but if anything they only got worse. He had grown tired of socializing aspect of being a student very fast simply because it was all the same. Relationships, drinking and parties, that’s all high school was to so many and it was the same here. Maybe he was just bitter because he couldn’t live so simply anymore and couldn’t relate to them, but he despised it.

That used to be him though, and he could barely figure out how he could come to dislike something so strongly that used to be him. I’m just a little different now that’s all, he mused as he ignored a girls rushed apology.

“I’m just not the same.” The words drifted past his lips as he stepped outside, greeted by the cool autumn air he took a minute to breathe it in. He could smell dampness in the air and he was sure it was going to rain, the thought suddenly had him frowning. “Frizzy hair…” he grumbled to no one but himself as he carefully made his way down the steps.

He had counted before that it was roughly between forty and forty-five steps from the school to his apartment and vice versa. It was something he’d picked up along the way to help him through the city. Of course he had thought of getting a Seeing Eye dog but being a college student that owned a dog was not the most convenient idea in the world sadly. Even though Jinki had offered to help many times he just preferred this better. The last thing he wanted to do was end up depending on an animal to take him places. After all there was still a slim chance that one day his eyes may heal enough that treatment may be an option, that being said he wasn’t holding his breath.

Counting to forty-two Kibum found the steps of his apartment building, he was thankful the building’s door was rather unique because it made things much easier to recognize. It was small things like this that had him wondering if Jinki had made sure of the detail on purpose.

“Honey, I’m home!” Kibum called out as he stepped into the cozy apartment only to be greeted my Jinki’s laughter.

“Hey, how was class?” Jink asked, walking into the room to find the younger already stripping down. “Um, Kibum?”

“I’m sorry, but I need to shower can we talk in a minute?” Kibum asked without bothering to wait for a reply.

Walking over to the bathroom he felt to his left till he found their laundry basket and dropped off his clothes. Outside he could faintly hear Jinki grumbling about walking around naked and having guests, he could only guess that the man was being a prude. Snorting at the thought he quickly climbed into the shower, turning on the water and waiting for it to heat up he couldn’t help but release a pleased sigh when the water was finally falling over him. Tipping his head back he allowed the stream to fall over his face, the gentle sensation making him relax as any stress slowly slipped away.

Raising his hands up he ran them through his hair and sighed, “I wonder if I’ll be able to make it through college in one piece.” Thinking out loud Kibum brought his hand along the blue tiled wall, down until he found two bottles. Snapping them open he smelt the two, deeming the coconut as his shampoo he took some into his hand before lathering up his hair.

Showers for him were a time that he thoroughly enjoyed, because there was something about being naked under running water that was just so addicting. Taking his time to wash up Kibum relished in the peace and quiet for as long as possible before he was forced back into a world of noise.

Stepping out of the shower a half hour later he wrapped a towel around his waist before drying off and grabbing one for his hair. Moving through the apartment he found his room where he stepped over to his dresser with ease, slowly finding his music and turning it on. “Long day?” Jinki called from his doorway causing him to jolt. Shaking off the surprise he simply shrugged his shoulders unsure of really what to say.

“I was surprised when Jonghyun answered… did you two have sex?” Jinki asked, pure curiosity filling his voice.

This time the younger snorted. “I just met him, Jinki.”

“That’s never stopped you before.” The blond shot back. “He sounded nice.”

“We’re just friends… I guess? I mean we stayed up late talking, he is a nice guy.” Kibum admitted, smile slipping onto his face.

“So then maybe he’s boyfriend material.”

Humming at the thought Kibum passed the towel through his hair. “People don’t usually go for the blind guy, Jinx.”

“I’d go for the blind guy if he looked like you.”

Jinki’s words had Kibum laughing only for him to feel the man’s arms wrap around him before soft lips were pressing against his shoulder. Sighing he reached up to caress the blonde’s hair, frowning at the change of texture. “Jinki… ah, you dyed it.” The realization had him smiling as he tried to imagine his friend with pink hair.

“Cute?”

“I think so.” Jinki smiled as he took in the younger’s fresh scent. “It’s like… a bubblegum shade.”

“Ooh, that’s rather daring of you.” Kibum teased.

Rolling his eyes Jinki reached up to take over drying Kibum’s hair. “You should too, maybe red?”

Humming at the thought Kibum didn’t bother to disagree, thinking that maybe a change in hair color could be fun. Even if he couldn’t see his appearance he still liked to look nice and red was one he’d never tried before.

“Really though Kibum, don’t think you’re not worth dating just because of your lack of sight.” Jinki suddenly said, voice soft with affection.

“It’s not me you should be saying that to, Jinx.” Kibum offered while trying his best to feign indifference. “Either way tonight will be fun, you can tell me just how hot Jonghyun is, because he sounds deadly.”

“Are you sure you want to know?” Jinki laughed, watching as the man moved to search through his dresser for underwear.

“Of course, I might as well know what I’ll be missing out on.”

Keeping his words in mind Kibum couldn’t help but frown at the low whistle Jinki gave off when they entered the bar that night. Elbowing the elder Kibum cast him a glare, “What was that?” he asked even though he already knew the answer.

“He’d said he was in booth four right? Silvery white hair, stocky with strong brows and pouty lips?” Jinki asked, causing the latter to roll his eyes.

“I wouldn’t know Jinki, I’m blind remember? Although he did say his hair was silver…” He muttered before adjusting his sunglasses.

“Well if it is him then I most definitely approve.”

Allowing Jinki to take his hand he was led over to where he assumed Jonghyun sat, hoping above all else that they weren’t about to greet a complete stranger. Relief quickly washed over him though when he caught the familiar scent in the air. “Ah, it is him…” He mumbled more to himself although he could tell over Jinki’s pause that he was confused, unaware that Kibum had become rather fond of the newly found cologne.

“Kibum, you made it! This must be your friend, Jinki was it?” Jonghyun perked up, eyes bright only for Jinki to see.

“The one and only.” Jinki joked causing Kibum to laugh.

“For sure, Jinki… I hope you didn’t wait long.” Kibum said before taking a seat in their booth.

“Nope, just got here and my friend… is actually coming up right now. Hey Tae, this is Kibum and Jinki!” Jonghyun’s voice came off high as if it was littered with excitement.

“Ah, so this is the guy he wouldn’t shut up about. It’s nice to meet you, Kibum.”

Titling up his head curiously Kibum couldn’t help but cock a brow, curiosity peaked. “You talked about me?”

“Ah, well, I mean we spent all afternoon, night and well into the early morning together, are you really that surprised?” Jonghyun offered, trying to keep his voice more even.

“I guess not.” Kibum mused before nudging the body next to him. “This is my good friend, Jinki.”

“It’s nice to meet you, Jinki.” Taemin said, his voice light and friendly.

Kibum felt Jinki move to shake the latter’s hand. “N-Nice to meet you too, Taemin.”

Frowning at the elder’s jello like voice Kibum all but yelped when warm fingers were brushing his face. Reaching up he caught what he realized was Jonghyun’s hand as he tried to remove his sunglasses. “Sorry, it’s just… you don’t have to wear them.” The blond offered only to pull back leaving Kibum to blink in confusion. “You don’t mind?”

“Why would we mind?” Taemin suddenly offered.

Pulling off his sunglasses Kibum looked in the direction of Taemin’s voice. “Because people get unnerved by this, it freaks them out as I’ve been told many times.”

“Your eyes are beautiful I don’t understand how someone could possibly be freaked out.” Jonghyun muttered.

Warmth seemed to pool along Kibum’s cheeks at hyper speed before he was looking down and offering a small laugh. He had to wonder if Jonghyun did it on purpose or if his compliments were purely innocent, not with intent to embarrass him but simply encourage. Maybe it was a little bit of both?

“You know I could use a drink right about now.” Taemin chimed, his attempt to break the silence more than obvious. “Jinki, mind coming to help me since the waitress seems to be MIA?”

“N-No, not at all. Beer right, Kibum?” Jink asked causing Kibum to nod. “Jonghyun?”

“Just ice water with a straw, I’m driving.”

“Does the straw help keep you sober too?” Kibum teased.

Scoffing Jonghyun reached out to poke the younger’s nose. “No, smartass, the straw is for me to chew on.”

“Ugh, you’re such a dog.”

“A cute one though.” Jonghyun reminded.

“So you keep telling me.” Rubbing his nose Kibum couldn’t help but smile. “So why don’t you tell me what Taemin’s like?”

Humming in thought Jonghyun watched the younger. “Friendly, ambitious, physically androgynous and a trouble maker at heart. What about Jinki?”

“Dorky, loving, clumsy, strong and has a heart of gold, he’s wonderful.” Kibum rambled off without shame. “He’s the best friend I’ve ever had and I wouldn’t change him for the world.”

Blinking at the brunet Jonghyun couldn’t help but stare. “Kibum… are you-”

“No, yes I love him but I’m not in love with him. He’s family, not a lover and the feeling is mutual.” Kibum quickly offered, smiling as the two returned. “Speak of the devil.”

“You’ll never guess who I found at the bar.” Jinki mused as he set down Kibum’s beer.

“Who?” Kibum started only to feel a strong arm slip around his shoulders. “Ah…”

“Hey, beautiful.” Minho’s deep voice slipped into Kibum’s ear before familiar lips were against his cheek. “Long time no see.”

“Liar, you saw me yesterday. How much have you been drinking, you smell like cheap beer and women.” Kibum sassed earning him some laughter from both Minho and Jinki.

“What else is there to do in college, really?”

“Men.” Jinki offered.

Humming at the elder’s words Minho allowed his fingers to slip under the hem of Kibum’s shirt, not going unnoticed. “True, but you know I prefer women, Jinx.”

“Really now?” Jonghyun suddenly spoke up earning the taller male’s attention. “I’m Jonghyun and this is my friend Taemin, nice to meet you.”

“Ah, Minho and it’s nice to meet you both.” Minho offered without much care.

Shifting in his seat Kibum grabbed his beer. “Minho’s never been one for making tough decisions, women are just easier for him.” He tried to offer what almost seemed like an explanation, why he wasn’t so sure. Maybe because he didn’t want Jonghyun getting the wrong idea, after all he had disclosed the previous night that he was one hundred percent gay. That being said that didn’t mean he’d automatically be attracted to Minho, but he didn’t really want to take the chances. Kibum knew just how easily it was to get swept up in Minho’s big dark eyes, he had been there for all of the athlete’s curious phase after all.

“So judgey for someone who can’t settle down.” The soccer player teased earning a sharp jab from Kibum’s elbow.

“Aren’t you here with someone, Choi?”

Placing a hand over his heart Minho gasped. “So harsh, but I should probably get back to the team.”

“Don’t let us keep you.” Jonghyun mused, offering a stiff smile that had Jinki snorting.

Listening to the quiet shuffle of Minho slipping out of their booth Kibum didn’t miss the playful foot that tapped his. Cocking a brow in Jonghyun’s direction he caught the low chuckle the elder gave off before his foot was being tapped again. Smiling at the playful act Kibum nearly missed Minho’s goodbye. “Ah, yeah we’ll definitely hangout just call me!” With that he was happily back to offering his full attention to the man in front of him.

“Well he seemed… nice.” Taemin said without much certainty.

“He was drunk, or well on his way to getting there. He’s a total sweetheart once you get to know him.” Jinki explained. “Right, Kibum?”

Nodding in response the brunet took a drink from his beer while trying not to laugh at the obnoxious game of footsies Jonghyun was currently playing with him. This continued on as one drink became four and slowly Kibum felt a lot lighter than he had when he first arrived. Within the few hours he realized that Jinki was most definitely interested in Taemin, and if the younger asking Jinki for a game of pool meant anything than he thought it was safe to say the feeling was mutual.

“I should be cut off after this.” Kibum admitted as his finished off number four.

“Do you have class tomorrow?” Jonghyun asked.

Shaking his head Kibum pushed the bottle away. “Nope, just don’t feeling like getting drunk on our second meeting.”

“True, you should save that for tomorrow.” The blond casually said earning him a confused look. “Hang out with me tomorrow, I’m free too.”

“Again? That’d be three days in a row, aren’t you sick of me yet?” It was an innocent question but Kibum felt it was necessary. However it ironically earned him quite the laugh making him huff, because clearly he missed the joke. “What?”

“Nothing, you’re just cute.” Jonghyun offered with a hidden smile. “How about we go shopping?”

Perking up at the mention of his favourite workout Kibum reached out till he found Jonghyun’s hand. “Jonghyun, this could be a test of our new friendship!”

“Oh, so we are friends?”

Blinking at his words Kibum felt his stomach tighten with nerves. “W-Well… I mean, yes?”

“Good, after this morning I was worried I’d never see you again.” Jonghyun admitted, fingers gently playing with the younger’s without much thought.

“Did you forget we have class together?” Kibum teased, a small smile tugging up the corners of his mouth as he spoke.

“No, but I’ve also seen your stubbornness in action and if you didn’t want to see me…”

“That’s not the case, I’ll go. You’re not so bad after all.”

Brushing his fingers along Kibum’s knuckles, Jonghyun could only laugh. “I’m glad to hear that.”

Willing away his blush the younger tried to fight off the sudden onslaught of nerves that seemed to come rushing to the surface. It had been a while since he’d found himself flustered around somebody and he was surprised that after nearly forty-eight hours Jonghyun could do this to him. It made him wonder if the blond was able to see his blush or if he could possibly feel how his pulse was racing. He wanted to brush it off and blame it on the alcohol but he knew it had nothing to do with the beer. Jonghyun had sounded just as good before he had started drinking, and now he only sounded better.

“If you still like me after we go shopping than I may just have to marry you, Jonghyun.”

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Chapter update

I’ll be posting tomorrow :)

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I was just wondering^^ I know some people don't like writing the boys as girls sometimes...

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with writing girlee, after all they’re just characters right? Junghee/Gwiboon ect don’t actually exist, if anything people should be more comfortable using girlee bc they’re literally fictional characters created for the boys to act out. Does that make any sense? lol I dunno if it does but either way I definitely don’t mind it :) it’s just not something I’m used to. 

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karamelkroissants replied to your post “Symptoms -ch 1- First Meetings”

AAAAAAAH!! ��������

Pretty much how I felt when I finally finished writing something lol

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mitranslation replied to your post: Symptoms -ch 1- First Meetings

Hi, we dont know each other, but just wanted to say that I loved this. Thank You!!

Thank you so much for commenting sweetie that really means a lot ;; 

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I'm begging you !!! Please make "worse than drug " chaptered fic !!! It's so gooooooood !!!!!

Well right now I have a lot on my plate, aside from writing Symptoms I’m also reworking on Delirium (as we speak) which is also another chaptered fic. So unfortunately my writing where chaptered fics are concerned is quite full ^^;; 

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When will ch2 of symptoms come out? I cant wait 😁 plz make it a full series

I’ll be posting every two weeks on the monday if things go as planned ^^ I’m not sure how long it’s going to be yet but it’ll definitely be a chaptered fic either way :)