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I just hope someone would be so sincerely scared to lose me as much as I'm scared to lose them...

I don't want to be a convenience again. please

Here I am yet again. Constantly feeling that something, someone might hurt the hell out of me. Is this trauma? is this trust issues? Why does it always have to end up me having unpleasant thoughts of something that gives me happiness? Why can't I ever be a hundred percent happy or just peaceful?

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“Never expect anything in return from anyone. But the truth is when we really love someone, we naturally expect a little care and love from them.”

— lieinlove

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“My only relief is to sleep. When I’m sleeping, I’m not sad, I’m not angry, I’m not lonely, I’m nothing.”

— Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point.

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“There is no intensity of love or feeling that does not involve the risk of crippling hurt. It is a duty to take this risk, to love and feel without defense or reserve.”

— William S. Burroughs

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“When you’re sad, my Little Star, go out of doors. It’s always better underneath the open sky.””

— Unknown

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“Do you know what people really want? Everyone, I mean. Everybody in the world is thinking: I wish there was just one other person I could really talk to, who could really understand me, who’d be kind to me. That’s what people really want, if they’re telling the truth.”

— Doris Lessing

I almost forgot I had this app. It's been 2 months. This will be the last time I'll wrote something for you. For you it was sudden, for me it took almost 6 months to figure out what was really happening and why it was happening. I was so happy that I was willing to change myself to suit your taste. I never wanted to hurt you in anyway. Supporting you in any way I can. Trying to fit in your lifestyle. I thought it was just enough, but maybe it was too much. I never regret everything that happened between us. the moments I loved you the most and the moments I've been asking myself if it's just me who loves the relationship. I was definitely starting to build the future I promised with you but you were also the reason it was broken down. Still, I wanted to say sorry for making it too sudden for you. The sunset vision was fading too fast no matter how hard I wanted to see it those months I needed it the most. My heart still aches whenever I hear your name or whenever I think about what happened. the promises you made, everything. But I'm doing well, and of course thank you for all the memories we've had. It was both delightful and sad. I hope you'll find someone that will definitely make you happier than I did. I wish all the goodness and happiness for you.