Strawberry Josten

☆Very normal about Neil Josten☆

[dismemberedlemon]

If Andrew didn't tell Neil that he 'hated' him and Neil noticed that he was having weird reactions around Andrew, such as: his heart racing, gave feeling hot and always thinking about him when he's not there he definitely thinks that he's been poisoned or compromised somehow because he's never felt like that before.

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil has the uncanny smile he gives people he really doesn't like and there's so many reddit posts and twitter threads on whether he's a skinwalker or something and aaron makes fun of him so much for it

[dismemberedlemon]

Hear me out.

Werewolf! Andrew and Vampire!Neil

Muscular Andrew, really protective of his family, doesn't let anyone get close?

Thinner, paler Neil, has an obsession with necks, got a knack for hiding in the day, speedy, probably amazing eyesight and hearing?

[dismemberedlemon]

"A drag path, etched in the surface as evidence i left there on purpose"

But it's Neil leaving his bag, racquet and phone behind when he was taken by Lola so Andrew knew he didn't leave him willingly

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil stayed in a room with Riko when he was at evermore, meaning while he was handcuffed to the bed in the dark, he could see Riko staring at him like this while he tried to sleep:

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil is contortionist levels of flexible because of how many tight spaces or tough places he had to get through while on the run and uses it all the time to scare the shit out of people, it happened to Kevin first in the middle of the court while the lights were still switched off and Neil was stretching, Andrew found it fucking hilarious so Neil kept doing it

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil eats anything and everything he shouldn't. Motherfucker would've eaten rocks off the side of the road while on the run if he could

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil ringing up Agent Browning when he and Andrew get married, like "hey, I know my agreement says i can't change my name but I'm getting married so you'll have to deal with it."

And Agent Browning should have retired when he had the chance.

[dismemberedlemon]

I just know Neil would have been the scariest motherfucker if he grew up in the nest.

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil isn't suicidal. He doesn't want to die. He just accepted that he will before most people do.

He knew from a very young age that his Father was a one-of-a-kind monster, a demon that haunted even the worst of people, he knew that if he ever did die, it would be at his hands.

Neil knew at the age of 10 that he would die to his father. He accepted that would die at 19.

And that's the saddest thing.

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil can feel the absence of his fangs every day. A taunt that he would never be a real omega. It felt like an eternal 'fuck you' from his life before Palmetto. Before Andrew.

Mary had ripped them out after one too many instances of him hissing at her. Being on the run with an Omega who was constantly in distress was hard enough without all the people from schools, shops, and public transport expressing concern constantly.

His Omega writhed inside him, whimpering at the loss of defense, the venom that once comforted him and allowed him to fend off pretty much anyone left a gaping hole in his chest and stripped away what little security he had left.

His scent soured under constant use of patches and suppressants, the constant fear of his father and the insecurity of his situation.

When he arrived in Palmetto no one questioned the obvious gaps in his teeth or the fact he had no scent at all, they all came from bad situations, more worse than others but bad nonetheless.

It wasn't until after he came back from the nest, reeking of fear and the undeniable scent of an unstable Omega.

He couldn't comfort himself, he had no scented things, he didn't know how to make a nest, didn't know how to soothe himself and stop reeking the sour vanilla and rotten strawberries.

He couldn't go get Andrew from Easthaven, Wymack wouldn't take the risk.

Andrew was the one that coaxed him out after, blank-faced and calm, took him out under a scent patch and bought him whatever caught his eye, soothed him until his scent faded into something sweeter, a strawberry truffle.

Andrew never brought up his fangs after he found out Mary had took them, just rested his palm on the back of Neil's neck and told him it didn't matter, that Andrew would protect him no matter what.

After Baltimore Neil had to isolate again, only being able to bear Andrew being near him, scent souring again under stress after it had only just reverted to what it was meant to be.

Neil couldn't help but wonder if he was enough for Andrew. Andrew deserved the world, not some fangless freak like him who couldn't even handle instincts and urges made by his Omega.

Andrew would tell him if he wasn't satisfied with him, right?

The gaps in his teeth ached.

[dismemberedlemon]

Andrew would never admit it but he likes the smell of Neils sweat after he comes back for a run, it reminds him that he's still here and still coming back to him, afraid that one day he'll wake up with the smell and the person it belonged to gone, and ending up never being real

[dismemberedlemon]

Pushing my stretched and uneven!eyed Neil agenda. When you have scars, especially burn scars the flesh tends to fuse and tighten while healing, I like to think parts of Neil's eyes are wider in some places because of it

(Its my first time drawing digitally and I'm on my phone sorry)

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil's eyes are uneven from the scars on his face and under his eyes pulling the skin and trying to heal so his eyes are squinted in some parts and wider in the others from the pulling

[northorsoutheastorwest]

I think we don’t talk enough about Neil’s understated sex appeal. I just know he lifts the hem of his shirt to wipe the sweat on his face on the treadmill, and on the one next to him Kevin trips and almost falls. I know his running shorts ride up at one point and there is a loud thump from the direction of Andrew’s leg curl machine. I know he pours a bottle of water on his face and chest while running outside one day and some poor freshman girl gets a stroke unrelated to the heat. And the best part is he’s completely unaware of it.

[dismemberedlemon]

Bee gives Andrew a pencil and paper, telling him to come back next week with some sketches or doodles on things that make him happy.

It's stupid. He wants nothing.

Nothing looks like icy eyes, mischievous grins and auburn hair.

Nothing smells like cigarette smoke and cheap shampoo.

Nothing looks good sketched out on paper.

[dismemberedlemon]

Neil tried to cut the number 4 off his face after seeing it in the mirror.

I don't think he would have minded if he had hit his throat instead.

Nathan Wesninski follows him everywhere. Maybe this time he wouldn't follow him over the edge.