[helpful-para-confessions]

Hello and welcome to a paraphilic disorder confessions blog.

This is for people with paraphilic disorders that feel like their experiences aren't valid, feel weird due to Radqueers watering the term down, wish to learn more about paraphilic disorders, want to talk about your own journey with a paraphilic disorder.

This blog is strictly anti contact and pro recovery. As well as being a safe place for people to feel not so alone.

The owner of this blog (me) also has a paraphilic disorder and I wish to create a space in which you don't feel demonized due to a disorder.

Any and all hate will be either deleted or if I find it funny enough posted with debunking facts!

If you are apart of, in or support these groups do not interact with this blog

- Endos

- Willos

- Non traumagenics

- Radqueers

- XenoSatanist

- Believe that Minors, Animals, Dead people or anything if the sort can consent, Believe all paraphilic disorders are evil

[disordered-para-confessions]

hi anon from last ask uhm this ok i sound. needy. but they didint answer if i was or not qwq so, you DO NOT AT ALL HAVE TOO but could i like. dm you what happened ? you dont need too if you arent comfortable i'll probably find someone somewhre but

Dms are open, I tried to give sources that could help but there's not really any that's if you were or not. Mostly signs and such

[disordered-para-confessions]

My cat is giving birth, I'm so excited!

[natsunatsup]

kittyuh

[disordered-para-confessions]

There's 4 kittens

[disordered-para-confessions]

do you have any resources that can help someone find out if they were groomed or not ? its okay if not i just really need to figure out what really happened .

Source: NSPCC Learning | Safeguarding and child protection

Source: Ann Craft Trust: Safeguarding Adults

Source: Child Rescue Coalition

[disordered-para-confessions]

semi-related confession..? I personally like Ghost's song " Covetous " despite never being sexually harassed. Granted i was groomed i think into ERP with someone at a young age but the song has a weird feeling as if im taking back control and i dont know why. i know the song is kind of problematic but it like, idk idk

Hey if it helps you then it's good

[cleanqueer]

Reminder not to tell anyone to kill themself, no matter how “disgusting” they are!!!!

[disordered-para-confessions]

My cat is giving birth, I'm so excited!

[disordered-para-confessions]

Bruh why the fuck are all the Radqueers fucking interacting with me

Get away

[anti-willo-george-washington]

Its the curse of owning one of the only pro para while being anti radqueer blogs💔

[disordered-para-confessions]

It's like they ignore my tags

I tag basically everything with anti rq

[disordered-para-confessions]

Bruh why the fuck are all the Radqueers fucking interacting with me

Get away

[disordered-para-confessions]

Yo, not someone with a paraphilia, however I do deal with hypersexuality with thoughts/fantasies that look… similar, I guess.

I just wanted to let you know that, even as someone who (likely) doesn’t have a paraphilic disorder, I’m glad this blog exists. It’s comforting to know there’s a safe place for people dealing with disorders like these to not be shamed for something that they can’t control, and something that distresses them. It’s comforting to know that I’m not a monster for dealing with trauma-influenced fantasies that make me feel gross.

I love you anti contact para community!!! I wish you all a successful and happy love life (if you wish to have one, of course)

Thank you, and of course. This blog was made for those reasons!

[disordered-para-confessions]

What are your thoughts on chemical castration for paras? I have paraphilic disorder along with hypersexuality and decided to get chemically castrated a few years ago. It is AMAZING, like I'm not tied down by my desires anymore. It doesn't cure the attraction, but it helps a ton with urges. I don't think chemical castration should be forced onto anyone, but it should be an option accessible to anyone who wants it.

I feel like as long as it's optional I'm fine with it. To each their own. If the person believes that it will help them, like you then go ahead.

But if it's gonna be forced? I don't think so, people need different ways to recover, and forcing in my opinion is unethical.

[disordered-para-confessions]

I committed actions against an animal when i was younger and in a bout of psychosis caused by extreme abuse from family members. I thought that a God was talking to me and that I had to do it. I don’t know why. I was a child who was Sa’ed continuously throughout my life and i just gave. The dog would always try to hump me and one day I just. Let him. Just like i had to let the men.

It sickens me because my brain still makes me think about it over and over again. I only escaped from my situation a few months ago.

I started having thoughts about it and I need therapy but I don’t think I can tell a therapist what I did. I know I’m never going to do it again. I’m in a safe environment now. But the reason i keep having sexual thoughts is because that was the only time i wasn’t used i think. The dog was nice to me and loved me. The men weren’t. They pretended.

I don’t know what to do because I know for a fact it will never happen again and I’ll go into therapy and talk about my problems but i dont think i can tell them about this. I don’t want it recorded down on paper. It scares me.

What i did was sickening and even if it has causes its an inexcusable act. And i dont know how to make up for it. And ever since then I can’t get it out of my head.

Do you have any advice on how to heal from paraphilic disorders and how to make sure i can never reoffend? I think part of it is that i was dehumanised and the dog was the only nice thing in my life and every time the dog humped me my family told me to stop complaining and that it’s just a dog. But I’m not excusing myself. I still did it. And i dont want to be attracted to it now.

You do not have to post this I am extremely scared of criticism and also i don’t want radqueers using it to jerk off. but I beg you please do you have any resources?

Okay a few things to unpack here

How to heal? That's really up to you. You can decide to not own a dog which is fine while attending therapy or you can try exposure therapy of being in a similar environment with a dog that will not replicate trauma

Advice for you? Unfortunately what happened, happened. We can't change that, even if we wish on everything. But what we can do is, learn what makes those thoughts happen, understand that it wasn't your fault. People allowed it and told you to do the same. How you get better is fully up to you, no one can force you to recover in a way. Find one that works for you.

As for resources? I don't have any as of this moment but if anyone sees this and has some please share

[disordered-para-confessions]

do u support profiction ?

I will not state what I am pro or anti other than what i said in my intro

[disordered-para-confessions]

Not para related

Sometimes I feel so euphoric when people call me buddy and sir, being a trans man sometimes I don't feel like I'm man enough

[disordered-para-confessions]

Im coming here to talk, mostly because I have been hiding behind a mask of "that's not something I would think". So context warning for mentions of incest

I have a paraphilic disorder, more specifically a incestous paraphilic disorder.

My earliest memories of when those thoughts started I was 6 years old having thoughts about marrying my cousin. I thought it was normal to have those thoughts, and that I would eventually just grow out of them. I never did, and it went from my cousin to foster siblings. They aren't blood related but legally speaking they were my siblings

I never acted on the thoughts but I would always think about how it would feel good to kiss them and such but I never acted on them, everytime I had those thoughts I hated it. I eventually learned about why those thoughts were bad so I kept telling myself if I stopped thinking about those things they'd stop

They didn't, it got to a point when I was 8-12 (I think) when I met a dude. I saw him as a father figure because he was older than me. I loved talking to him

I had opened up to him about these thoughts, I was 12 years old confused about why my mind thought these things. He said it was perfectly normal and I could indulge in Fauxcest, and he would help me

That's when I was groomed into believing it was okay as long as I didn't actually do it with family. It was still wrong though, I was 12, he was almost 18.

Then I finally left him, but then when I was around 16 I started to really get into it again. I started to have crushes on my foster siblings again, I hated it. So I started to self harm by taking showers so hot it would burn me and make me pass out

I would always think, i didn't deserve to live if I was having these thoughts. But I was scared of missing my attempt again like I did when I was 13 or so. So I never did anything other than spiral into a depression that I still can't get out of

Then I was around 18 I think when I found the Radqueer community, and my brain loved it because there was others like me. Boy was I wrong. I felt like, I was disgusted, like I didn't really belong because they thought it was okay to act on them, I didn't think it was okay

So I left

And now I'm finally able to talk comfortably at 19 about my own disorder that for my whole life has ruined, and still parts of my own system deal with those thoughts so fucking much and it is so horrible and awful

[xxpostsfromthevoidxx]

I’m glad you came to your senses. Too bad you weren’t able to seek therapy.

[disordered-para-confessions]

I am in therapy, don't assume please

[xxpostsfromthevoidxx]

I meant that you should have sought it earlier when you started hurting yourself.

[disordered-para-confessions]

I was 13 in foster care, if I had told someone I would have probably gotten put in a mental hospital, which I didn't want to do cuz the hospital they would have sent me to has a history of sexual abuse and assault

[disordered-para-confessions]

Im coming here to talk, mostly because I have been hiding behind a mask of "that's not something I would think". So context warning for mentions of incest

I have a paraphilic disorder, more specifically a incestous paraphilic disorder.

My earliest memories of when those thoughts started I was 6 years old having thoughts about marrying my cousin. I thought it was normal to have those thoughts, and that I would eventually just grow out of them. I never did, and it went from my cousin to foster siblings. They aren't blood related but legally speaking they were my siblings

I never acted on the thoughts but I would always think about how it would feel good to kiss them and such but I never acted on them, everytime I had those thoughts I hated it. I eventually learned about why those thoughts were bad so I kept telling myself if I stopped thinking about those things they'd stop

They didn't, it got to a point when I was 8-12 (I think) when I met a dude. I saw him as a father figure because he was older than me. I loved talking to him

I had opened up to him about these thoughts, I was 12 years old confused about why my mind thought these things. He said it was perfectly normal and I could indulge in Fauxcest, and he would help me

That's when I was groomed into believing it was okay as long as I didn't actually do it with family. It was still wrong though, I was 12, he was almost 18.

Then I finally left him, but then when I was around 16 I started to really get into it again. I started to have crushes on my foster siblings again, I hated it. So I started to self harm by taking showers so hot it would burn me and make me pass out

I would always think, i didn't deserve to live if I was having these thoughts. But I was scared of missing my attempt again like I did when I was 13 or so. So I never did anything other than spiral into a depression that I still can't get out of

Then I was around 18 I think when I found the Radqueer community, and my brain loved it because there was others like me. Boy was I wrong. I felt like, I was disgusted, like I didn't really belong because they thought it was okay to act on them, I didn't think it was okay

So I left

And now I'm finally able to talk comfortably at 19 about my own disorder that for my whole life has ruined, and still parts of my own system deal with those thoughts so fucking much and it is so horrible and awful

[xxpostsfromthevoidxx]

I’m glad you came to your senses. Too bad you weren’t able to seek therapy.

[disordered-para-confessions]

I am in therapy, don't assume please

[disordered-para-confessions]

There’s this YouTube channel called “Fun With Baby Alive” and I’m wondering if she’s secretly a pedophile and/or a diaper/pee/poop fetishist, because whenever she makes videos with her peeing/pooping dolls she’s like “time to check your diaper” and then shows the inside of the dirty diaper like “look guys, it’s so smushy”. She is the grandmother of a toddler and I really hope she isn’t being left alone with her because I’m imagining she gets way too excited about changing her diapers (idk if the granddaughter’s potty trained yet but it still feels sus). Anyway, someone should investigate this woman because I don’t think her channel is appropriate for kids if she’s that excited over dirty diapers. She literally confessed to saying that she likes changing her dolls’ diapers and there was a video where she pretended to air out her Bitty Baby’s crotch after a diaper change (Bitty Baby dolls don’t pee/poop like Baby Alives and aren’t anatomically correct, so the fact she would fantasize about this is a red flag). Long story short, she needs investigating and to stay away from her granddaughter.

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