hi

old account got banned/ not proana just for me/ supports recovery/ female/ u18

[blurrade]

[butterfliesareback]

No one:

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ed tumblr is my safe place🖤

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really angering me having no scale.

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when i start eating food i’m fine like i just think to myself it’s fine it’s only a few calories. but then i overthink, what if there’s more cals than i think? what if i can’t purge it? what if my dinner is full of calories and i go over my target? how will i burn it off?

it’s a constant cycle and it’s so tiring.

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tumblr be deleting my account like i’m not just gonna make a new one 😙😙

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wearing tights for school after self harming the night before = PAINFUL

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i swear it’s so invalidating when you genuinely cant cut deep, then your left with hundreds of baby cuts and run out of space on your wrist or thigh.

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when you have to plan when to cut around your social outings🥰🥰

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i’m not even focused on being super skinny anymore i want to gain control of my life. if i control what i eat maybe i can control other aspects of my life?

does that make sense??

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life could be so much easier if i wasn’t FORCED to eat dinner 😐

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getting followers on this account is so ego boosting then you realise what your account is😐😐

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when you come back on tumblr every 5 mins looking through tags expecting something new. but there isn’t 🙄🙄