#tw self destructive behavior

[unh0ly4ngel]

woah selling myself out god how much simpler this is than a job- and to think it still works since i feel expired already even though i ain’t legal yet

unironically the only thing i’m good for and in theory i don’t need need the money from it (does this count as ‘love of the game’ i shouldn’t even be complaining about it lmaoo)

[d03s1tg3tb3tt3r]

I need someone who wants me, who I can devote myself to.

[riverz-paws]

TW. VENT/SH MENTION.

i haven't done anything for so long and I am struggling to stay clean. I did open up to my boyfriend not too long ago, but I really don't think he understood how bad it was. It feels like I need to. I swear to God, I hate that I got myself addicted when I was younger. I really do. I won't even lie, I still have my blades, I still have everything I used to use (not including my pocket knife, which I've never used because a friend gave it to me) I reach 110 days tomorrow of being clean and it is so incredibly hard. I don't know what to do. I don't know whether to go to my boyfriend again or what, but I don't wanna worry him. I did reach out, I really tried, but he's been busy and like I said, I don't think he really got how bad it's been.

Not only that, but I've been struggling with my body image and body dysmorohia a lot recently. Been looking at th1nsp0 and more recently. I need help.

anybody have any advice or tips?

[noctraa97]

I'm sorry for this post...

After more than nine years I hurt myself again. The pain was so intense that I couldn't handle it anymore.

I thought that I never would be in this dark place again but suicidal thoughts are back and I'm really tired of fighting anymore

[ycgtwde]

i think it’d be a really fun concept if teddy bear liked to/did rip off hxr arms for fun/the sensation of it

like when people get isolated for too long they start losing it? like hurting themselves for a sense of reality/grounding. i know the failed s1 debuters technically didn’t get isolated, but also after bell got uhh killed? idk. and how she was TB’s best friend. I guess shx’d need another form of grounding and uhh anger management?

tw ig??? because teddy is ripping hxr arm off

please understand what i am putting down

[dumpsterpills]

[outlast2heretic]

Having strong morals about bodily autonomy and harm reduction is so upsetting sometimes because I hate blocking people over it but like. No I won't talk to someone who prioritizes feeling morally superior over making sure someone isn't cutting veins or smth 😭

[wintergreyskies]

Steel

How that love that isn't love burns