I want to be underweight, I want to starve until I hurt myself, this is not about being only skinny anymore, I want to feel the pain until I canāt take it, I wanna disappear, I wanna be dead I really do, Im just so fucked up, I donāt wanna recover, I donāt wanna have to deal with this ed I donātā¦
This is exactly how I feel. http://fighting-with-my-body.blogspot.com/
Please look at my blog :) I want to recover but at the EXACT same time I want to drop weight so so badly.


















