Hold on and Live strong

26. Gone to hell

[distance-is-mere]

I am made of bricks

The wind does not flow through my hair or cut my bones 

I cannot move 

My eyes do not see 

I am made of bricks

My lungs no longer expand 

You took the air from around me when you left

[distance-is-mere]

I'm actually disgusted. I can't shake this feeling of betrayal. The further I dig into their relationship the more I feel worthless. Who gets a girlfriend when they are engaged and have a child? Who doesn't tell their gf about his to be wife and child? what woman doesn't care about his secret family and still stays with the guy???? I hate her so much I am physically angry. So angry all the time. He stopped caring about me a long time ago... but I have not found the light in me to stop caring about him.

[understands]

[hairstylesbeauty]

[destroymylife]

[distance-is-mere]

I WAS SOPPOSED TO HAVE YOUR LAST NAME

I just want to scream today. It's not going well

[distance-is-mere]

Am I actually dumb or did I miss something? I'm so confused right now.

[distance-is-mere]

January 20th 2021

[distance-is-mere]

1 am

I can't call anyone because all my college friends are asleep. I can't call my gamer friends because of time zone. I can't call you because I'm blocked. I can't call my best friend because he works at six. I need someone. I feel... defeated

[distance-is-mere]

Little heads up wbn

Blocked again hey? Why this time.

[suspend]

[brutalgeneration]

[brutalgeneration]

[sseoulful]

[sseoulful]

[louisetakesphotos]

[distance-is-mere]

I just don't understand. I mean. Sure. You did what I suggested you do but... I guess I'm just curious on what happened during your conversation. She misses you and so do I. we Are confused and scared.

you won't read this and that's fine.