2022 mo9 day 9
I'm kind of getting really tired of being alive again. Idk whats wrong with me. I'm 100 days clean of m3th in 25 minutes and I should be proud, and I am but I am so fucking alone bro. Yeah I have my pup but I dont have anybody after the sun goes down to tell me everythings gonna be okay. My support system is close to nonexistent. I guess its a good thing I'm hardheaded. But what happens when I make it to 200 days sober and I'm still so fucking alone. The people I thought cared the most about me don't even like my pics anymore yet alone message me back. Maybe I cursed myself when I was 16 by only learning one song on bass. 'This Loneliness Won't Be The Death of Me' By Being As An Ocean. I think the God's may find that, that is ironic or funny enough when this independence turns to loneliness and loneliness turns into edicius that maybe they'll let me join in the good side of eternity after humanity.
Can therapy really save me? Probably not but we'll find out on the next episode of whatthefuck
