having someone that wants you tell them things you dont normally tell people is different. its so weird because they work you up to tell them everything and be comfortable enough to tell them these things. but then you get the feeling that they wont be there forever. and its such a conflicting feeling. thats the scary thing about have a close friends and being vulnerable. its scary when you start to see things happening or feel tiny changes. its even worse if youre observant because you just see it happen and you feel like theres nothing you can do to change it. but then every once in a while i get convinced. sometimes i fall for the idea that someone really will be there for me forever. but then i get scared. because by actually believing that theyll be there for me ive put down the last and final wall. when i stop worrying is when it really gets scary.










