A quest to rather somewhat amuse me

It is still a mad season

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

Sometimes it seems like my life is a series of WTF moments separated by snacks.

I'm not going to lie; this has been a tough year.

I recently spoke about the big, beautiful project (ha) I'm working on at a recycling annual meeting, giving a presentation, and had a roundtable discussion with state agencies, and a lot of important local law makers was at the discussion table. It went very well.

working on my asset management plan, my ICIP, which is my infrastructure capital improvement plan, projects going into congressional committees for funding, a lot a lot a lot. Good stuff.

Then I have on the flip side I have Employees subject to disciplinary action, employees not doing their job, and employees who think they are entitled.

Union negotiations

Equipment breaking down, expensive equipment breaking down.

Last week a took a couple days off to go to my nieces wedding in Colorado.

It was nice to hang out for a few minutes.

When am I going to retire. I don't know that yet, but I'm thinking about it more and more.

PS. what is the deal with these long jean shorts that go down to your knees. I'm saying no go on those. not no.... go! but no go.

Be picky with your clothes, friends, and time. It goes quickly.

and some days you have to listen to this

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

the aesthetic of my god.

the pain of the heart emerges from leftover bruises beguiling to bite hard upon the appraising eye the roses have bristles too sharp to caress as the beat of bitterness races towards the fleeting sky only to escape the route of reuniting and blood red stains my love to eternity in time

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Poems what would we do without them.

An oldie but a goodie, May 22, 2017.

"claw mark." the smell of decaying muck  in muse, in ecstasy  my undoubtedly contemplation  that each sky was muted  by my hands  impassioned, impatient  my own heartbeat incapable to feel  my own breath speak  immersed in a secret  my own self being imprisoned in the tone my own apology given implying my thoughts my own illusion rehearsed  what comes around  will come abound  my own relentless thirst

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

You know that saying when you do a million things right, but one thing wrong, everyone will always remember the wrong thing that you did for an eternity... and plus I did not know that my white noise machine was going to be an epic failure

I'm feeling quite down right now. I believe I've made significant contributions to this company since I returned in 2022. I've managed to turn around a lot of the issues caused by the previous manager. Our audits are now impeccable, I sought forgiveness for unpaid payroll taxes, and it was granted. I approached the legislature to request capital outlay funding for important projects, and I secured loans for heavy equipment at a rate of only 0.01%. Moreover, I invested a substantial amount of our funds into CDs and money market accounts, which now generate over $20,000 in interest every quarter.

I've also secured funding for the next phase of our projects, which will expand our facility, and I've purchased equipment that we can now pay for in cash instead of relying on loans. We've obtained new service trucks for our crew, increased revenue coming into the facility, and achieved compliance with state agencies.

However, I made the mistake of keeping one problematic employee around because I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. This decision has had serious negative consequences, and I feel like I'm still dealing with the fallout from that choice. (Aka, getting fucked up the ass).

I'm too nice, I'm too lenient... just forget that I worked with this individual since 2012... and although he left in 2020, I brought him back on board in 2022 when I came back, and I fucked up.

Anyways my board won't let me forget this.

my music for tonight

I can hear his voice for hours.

and this

PS. The white noise machine wasn't what it was cracked up to be. Haha.

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

If I can sum up the last month since I got back from my vacation... it would be: Consuming.

When an employee blames you for circumstances that he is experiencing, because of his actions... are you at fault? no, it's called taking responsibility, or accountability for your actions. Always blaming someone else for the circumstances that are happening to you, isn't that called narcissism? or maybe even a sociopath? Could be both. It blows my mind the extent that some people will go to in which they believe that they are not at fault. Literally blows my mind.

Be the person you want to work with

I was currently at an HR conference. As management, I support HR, and plus prior to my job now I was HR for the company for 24 years. It just so happens that the movie, "The Devil Wears Prada," is my all-time favorite movie, in fact, I watched it on the plane going to Florida. So yes, I'm excited for the sequel.

I took a personality test during the conference, and it turns out, I'm a panther, with owl tendencies. I thought I was going to be a total Owl. Which my strengths as a panther are decisive, goal oriented, independent, and risk taker. A natural born leader, but often too bossy, and my greatest value is productivity. An Owl's strength is high standards, independent, controlled and accurate, and intuitive. Owls pay attention to detail, and their greatest value is security.

eeeh, I am what I am.

I won't be able to breathe until after June. Maybe sometime in July. Just super busy. I'm knee deep in budget, union negotiations and projects. Ugh. Fencing projects, cell projects, equipment projects, round tables on a new project. And babysitting.

I've noticed that the nautical theme is so in. Everyone is going yachting.

A dirty energy drink? Yes please, Lime Slush Alani energy drink, with Toasted Coconut Vanilla Chobani creamer, is the drink.

music while you wait

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

conspiracy conspiracy conspiracy...

Have you heard the latest? JFK Jr is not dead after all. neither is Elvis, or Michael Jackson or Prince. Wow!! I wouldn't be shocked if they were walking around in our underground cities. haha. On a serious note, that would be a blessing if JFK Jr. is not dead.

It was me; I let the dogs out.

As I prepare for my trip, I'm still coughing a bit. It's a deep croupy cough, but nothing too dangerous. Just one cough and people will scatter away from me. and I get to be trapped in a plane for 4 hours.

Sunglasses like red lipstick change everything.

Oh my gosh, I'm super excited about some tickets I bought to see Sabastian Maniscalco... finally!!! In September.

and always have a little bit of gangster under ya crown.

music while you wait

[dizzygirlfriday]

Notes of a restless girl.

Life is short. Smile while you still have teeth. You're catching up!!! HB.

I'll be going out of town on April 1, through April 8, and I was checking the dates on DWTS tour.... Nope missed it by days, on both places. I'll be an hour away from Orlando, and I'll be in Denver but missed the dates by a couple of days.... AHHHHHHHHH!!! WTH.

I feel like an old soul who really doesn't care what's trending... but give me vintage treasures, old books, and conversations worth having, oh yes, and also fresh flowers.

The older I get the more minimalistic I want my clothing to be. Simple, and easy... that's all.

Soon you'll be old enough to pretend you can't hear... that's a plus.

It's weird being the same age as old people.

One minute you're young and fun. And the next, you're turning down the stereo in your car to see better.

Aging is a privilege.

And then you officially get to that age where old people think you are young, and young people think you are old.

and remember a joyful spirit is always young.

Music for today

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

Just a few things

I have been slacking on the "Love is blind" series... and recaps. I think I did not do the last recap on the one prior to this new one that has come out nor have I watched this new one. Ugh. Crazy times.

I did catch up on Bridgerton. Call me "always a dance girl." I am intrigued with the dance portions of the English back in the 1800's.

The "Love Story," about JFK jr. and Carolyn Bessett. It was Camelot. So powerful, and such a good documentary story line. (Although there's the accounts that state it's not true). I'm always intrigued with the Kennedy's.... who is not? So Sad though. I was 29 years old when JFK Jr. and his wife died, and it seems like yesterday that we were told about it. He had such great potential, charisma and the Kennedy name he could have done anything. Going back to a world with no cell phones. Yes please!!!

It's been two weeks since I first started to get sick... and I'm still hacking and coughing. One of the supervisors here got sick and he went to the doctor, and they told him that he had pneumonia. I was probably walking around with pneumonia, because I never went to the doctor. EEEK.

music while you wait

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

"And always the chickens come home to roost." It's funny how that works. (talking about my work)

You can find the origin of this phrase as far back as 1390, when Geoffrey Chaucer used it in "The Parsons Tale."

And ofte tyme swich cursynge wrongfully retorneth agayn to hym that curseth, as a bryd that retorneth agayn to his owene nest.

(it makes me want to say that with a lisp).

Brittany Spear's clone got a DUI.

I have been super sick for about a week now. I can't fight this croup cough and chest cold that I've had. I've been taking oil of oregano, grapefruit seed extract, manuka honey, buckley's cough syrup that tastes like vick's vapo rub, some other ginger and honey cough syrup. I cough all night and my husband has to sleep downstairs on the chair... Ugh. I'm living on cough drops, because one tickle in my throat sends me into a coughing spasm and people around you think you are carrying the plague. Covid ruined everything.

My absolute favorite pastime is browsing a bookstore with coffee in hand and no time constraints. And then I got to thinking about "Wuthering Heights," how they made another movie out of this book. I can't believe we read this book in the 8th grade. Who decided it was a romance??? Nobody in that book is mentally well. This is unresolved attachment trauma in the wind, and yet this keeps rebooting.

Paris Fashion week went wacko. Demons don't have to hide anymore. Aliens (the green kind) are all around us, dark symbolism. Plus, clothes that normal people can't even wear. What the hell.

What happened to Jim Carrey??? This world is wacko.

I'm glad punch the monkey is going to be okay. I admit, when he was going through all that bullying and being thrown around, I was upset for him. WE LOVE YOU PUNCH!!!

Music while you wait

All I can say is Bill Clinton is still the most worthless liar in the history of the world. I'm not sure why congress behind closed doors with the House Oversight Committee is even doing these interviews. For what? Only to show him pictures of him and Jeffrey Epstein, and he says, "I saw nothing and I did nothing wrong." With a girl sitting on his lap. (I said that in a Bill Clinton voice)

And Iran was supposedly going to be ready within weeks of developing another nuclear bomb. We had to bomb them.

and for some reason we still have Erica Kirk.... with sparkly pants walking on stage only to totally go against everything her husband stood for.

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

I've got 99 problems and 86 of them are made up scenarios in my head that I'm stressing about for absolutely no logical reason.

I sat in a grievance hearing yesterday afternoon for 4 hours. This was against me from one of my supervisors. It was literally just "Bro, do your job."

In other news I was able to get two of my projects small funding, not all the way funding which sucks, but a bill passed with additional appropriations, to go forward with a wind energy project round table discussion that should happen in March. This will likely bring jobs to the community, and revenue. Hola.

et peut-être que mon mari est dans les dossiers Epstein. Oui.

More to come about Aliens and Iran? Aliens are the new squirrel. Is Iran hiding Aliens?

Music while you wait

Stay prayed up

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

I am the tea that you are having...

Restless and haughty feelings reminded of life's serious issues but her sadness prevailed among her moods rigorous of all the conduct of morality affecting the disdain it seemed to embody of the dauntless resolution rule the kind she knew before and wrapped its veil of lassitude between her once thicket of words she could not help as the silence fell the exhaustion of impeccability

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl

I always imagined myself on a final stand with my hunting rifle like in the original red dawn...

Haha.

How is this not big news...the guy who cured pancreatic cancer in mice. Look it up before he goes missing forever. No one is talking about this... because the ceo of pfizer and the ceo of johnson and johnson are going to goodfella him.

I'm tellin ya... as far back as I can remember, I've always wanted to be a gangsta.

check out this little cutie patootie, her name is Bonnie

Here is another cutie patootie, Clyde

stay tuned because next time I'll talk about who is in the Epstein files, and it's really not what you think... my senate bill... bringing more jobs, and an idea that I had that went crazy viral. (not no social media viral but in real life viral) no one knows what that means anymore.

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

This is all a psyop. They don't want us to know that Subway is bringing back the $5.00 footlong. (Not confirmed)

January has been a busy month; we had 5 baby goats. They are the cutest thing. Princess Maria Henrietta Sanchez -Lopez had two baby goats, a black and brown whom we call Bonnie and Clyde because ones a boy and ones a girl. And Margarita Rosa Maria de la Cruz whom I thought she was pregnant last January didn't have her babies till this month. Three little ones, all boys that we are calling (for now) the three amigos. Adorable.

Plus, some other shit going on. But ya know, tomorrow is another day.

If I was to die suddenly and my husband has sparklers at my funeral, and says we're moving forward, all I'm saying is exhume my body and reopen the case. I've been wanting to say this for a really long time. This vibe is off. But what do I know, people grieve differently.

My last board meeting took a turn I was kind of expecting but still was flabbergasted. What the hell is wrong with people. All I had to say was, "bring it baby."

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He makes me laugh so much... at a time when we need laughter, or at least I do.

I know I've been MIA... I feel like a lot is going on or hitting all at once.

I don't crash out, that's not me.

Also makes me want to speak Spanish. Me gustan las fresas

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl.

Get yourself a conspiracy theorist friend, you're going to need one to understand what's about to happen. Bawhahaha

Wow and so the new year began like this. Bro if I told you, you would think I was reading you a drama novel. I'm not sure what the fuck is going on it's unreal.

I know I'm humble enough to know I'm replaceable, I'm confident enough to know replacing me is a downgrade. You won't find me twice.

What's a conspiracy theorist? Someone who is well educated, beyond the mainstream media and the public education system. Someone who pays attention to details and reads between the lines, someone who doesn't fall for bullshit and doesn't accept the narrative that the government is feeding you. Smells like bullshit, tastes like bullshit... it's probably bullshit. and a conspiracy theory.

and it's fucking snowing outside.

My personality is somewhere between Mother Teresa and Mother Fucker. Maybe tonight, maybe all the time.

Haha I love these posts.

Music while you wait

[dizzygirlfriday]

notes of a restless girl

Days off! (hahaha) who's fooling who.

Well, I was supposed to be off from December 19th to January 8th. So far, I haven't... I've been in the office, the 19th, the 22nd, the 23rd, and the 29th, and now today, the 2nd. It's crazy.

Here are a few things I'm dealing with without saying too much:

Employees coming back from being out for an extended time - integration period on new policies

Employees subject to disciplinary action

Union - a Prohibited Practice complaint - because of a disciplinary action on an employee.

Audit - finished. Whew.

I'm also doing good things, I don't want to overshadow that with bad.

Capital outlay requests- Expansion on Septage Lagoon, Shredder.

Getting a roundtable together to discuss need for wind blade project-

We received a brand new million-dollar landfill scraper,

and received a brand new Rolloff truck, this week. Yay!!!