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I wanna lose weight but I also like eating crap and lying down

sometimes i feel sad because i’ll never be as cool as my friends / the people i want to be friends with

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i’m so over being in philadelphia and being at school i want to bury my own grave and lay in it

the scariest thing i can be is a girl with nothing to lose.

it doesn't matter if i starve myself or if i binge/purge. if i smoke enough weed to make me forget my days.if i fail out of school. the 5 people who love me will mourn but move on.

one day i will be free.

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it’s honestly really comical how my 2 mental abusers are doing so well in the ~philly DIY~ community. I can’t even begin to explain how detrimentally painful my college experience has been. I looked forward to college my entire childhood lifetime and it has been such a disappointment. I have never felt so unsafe and unloved ever in my whole life.

i need to get out of here. this school. this city. this brain! my mental state is virtually non existent and i have my 2 hardest finals tomorrow. my brain is doing flip flops and i can't even produce intelligent thoughts. at this point, i think i'm turning into a potato.

all i can do is lay in bed and cry. i'm not sure if i'll even make it out of bed tomorrow to take my finals. i honestly wouldn't even care. in the long run, why does school matter? we're all going to die sooner or later. i wish sooner rather than later.